I'll forgive you when you're crazy

The transformation of a person is not that you think you have changed, but that others think you have changed.

I don't know if a person can change after being dead once, but after going crazy once, it will definitely make people see the world from a different perspective.

Because of my medical history, no one can easily believe that I am "normal" now.

My thoughts and habits now are also very different from before.

For example, I used to be physically weak. Although my height was 186, my body was like a bamboo pole, and I felt like it would collapse when the wind blows.

But since I went crazy, I have become fond of fitness and sports, even doing some anaerobic exercises at home.

Gradually, my figure also quietly changed, and the abdominal muscles that I once envied others gradually appeared on my body.

Once a fitness habit is formed, the body will develop a kind of dependence, that is, it will feel uncomfortable if you don't practice for a day.

I kind of understand why Wu Tian has to run for half an hour every day to feel comfortable.

Originally, Wu Tian also wanted to take me for a morning run, but now I have a bit of social phobia. When I see strangers, I worry that it is my hallucination, so I don’t go out unless I can.

Wu Tian asked for a few days off to accompany me, but he couldn’t stay with me at home forever. He was also worried that I would suddenly get sick and sneak out when I was alone at home. After weighing the pros and cons, he decided to take me to “work” with him.

Although there are 1 resistances in my heart, I also know that the more closed I am, the easier it is to "relapse". I must maintain a comfortable mood, don't get into the horns, and don't care about other people's evaluations and opinions.

It's easy to say, when Wu Tian and I appeared in the office together, everyone's eyes were still very surprised.

Yoyo, who used to be laughing and joking, was astonished when she saw me, as if she thought it was unthinkable for me to appear here.

If I were like the old me, I would probably squeeze out a forced smile to break the embarrassment at this time, and greet everyone friendly.

But now I don't do that, I don't want to force myself to do anything, even socially.

It doesn't matter what other people think of me.

I was sitting in Wu Tian's office, Wu Tian specially bought a very comfortable leather sofa for me, it was very comfortable to lie on.

I lived the life I dreamed of. I went to work and slept, ate and waited to die. I didn’t have to worry about anything for a day, so I could live as comfortably as I could.

This kind of life is actually very unreal, but the strange thing is, whether it is real or not, it doesn't matter to me.

Sometimes I just lie on the sofa with a book and read it, and I fall asleep while reading it. The book cover just blocks the light on my face.

In fact, I didn't really fall asleep, I just covered my face with the book, which is equivalent to shielding the contact with the outside world in disguise.

But it's not to cut off contact with the outside world, because when Yoyo and the others reported the case to Wu Tian, ​​I couldn't help but listen more.

"Boss, I just called from the XX sub-bureau to say that a resident in their jurisdiction caught a fish while fishing by the river. There was a human finger in the belly of the fish. After reporting the case, it was found that it was our previous one with a head but no body. In a short while, they will send over the materials and human tissues.”

As soon as I heard it, my scalp exploded, and I sat up immediately with a rub, and the book fell on my lap.

Yoyo was taken aback by my actions, she kept stroking her chest before recovering, and complained: "Brother Tao, you want to scare me to death."

I ignored Yoyo, but looked at Wu Tian, ​​Wu Tian was also taken aback, I don't know if he was stunned by my reaction or was surprised by what Yoyo just reported.

Wu Tian turned to Yoyo and said, "Then did they salvage it on the spot? Did they fish out other corpses?"

Youyou shook her head and said, "I haven't had time to ask this, they said they will report in detail after meeting you."

Wu Tian nodded, and slapped Yoyo: "Okay, you go out first, and call me when someone arrives."

Yoyo nodded, looked at me again, and walked out reluctantly.

In my memory, the case was not solved, but then I was suddenly attacked, and later appeared in the white hell of the mental hospital. For a while, I thought that what I experienced before was my hallucination, but now gradually Turns out, that wasn't the case, at least what happened before I was attacked was true.

At least part of it is true. For example, in this headless case, I thought the murderer was An Ci, but if An Ci was imagined by me, then who is the murderer?

And no matter how I think about it, I can't believe that An Ci was imagined by me, but why did Wu Tian and the others say that?

I am still confused about which ones I imagined and which ones happened in real life.

But what is certain is that I did kill someone, and I was sent to a mental hospital because of the murder, but I can't remember how I suddenly killed someone?Why is time reversed in my memory?

Let's ignore it for the time being. New clues suddenly appear in this case, which means that the case is about to be restarted. Who is the murderer?

Wu Tian looked at me: "Do you want to follow this case?"

I know that my current status is very embarrassing, and if I appear on the scene, it will easily cause criticism. I am not a well-known figure, so it is not impossible to have room for maneuver.

I nodded.

"Why?" Wu Tian tilted his head and asked.

Me: "I want to know who the murderer is."

Wu Tian: "You can wait for the result."

I shook my head: "I don't want to wait."

Wu Tian sighed: "I'm afraid I won't be able to see you when I show up."

Me: "You can install a GSP positioning on me, and if I really suddenly get sick and get lost, you can find me."

Wu Tian thought for a while, then took out something like an ankle ring from the drawer and said: "This is the GSP positioning tracking ring I bought. It was originally prepared for you. I didn't dare to say it because you didn't want it. It’s just right if you bring it up, it’s waterproof and fireproof, it’s hard to be damaged by external force, the accuracy is about 1 meter, satellite positioning, you can find it even in places with no signal, come, I’ll bring it for you.”

Wu Tian came over, and I stretched out my legs and exposed my ankles and stepped on the sofa. Wu Tian knelt down and put them on for me.

"Are you relieved this time?" I asked Wu Tian.

Wu Tian hugged me suddenly, I was so surprised that I didn't know where to put my hands.

"I hope this thing never needs to be used."

I reached out and touched the back of Wu Tian's head to comfort me, "I'll try my best."

Wu Tian suddenly dragged me into the room covered by the blinds, stretched out his hand to hook my neck and kissed me.

"It's torture for you to sleep with me."

"Why is it still torture?"

"What do you think?" Wu Tian glared at me.

I smiled lightly, stretched out my hand to grab his PG, and teased: "He's in heat in broad daylight, and you're so greedy for my body?"

Wu Tian's cheeks flushed. These days, he tried his best to restrain himself. He didn't even have any unreasonable thoughts, as if he was afraid of irritating me. He felt that he had been abstinent for a long time.

Being teased by me, I couldn't bear it any longer, and stretched out my hand to hook my neck and kissed me. This time the kiss was so deep that I wished I could stick my tongue into my throat. Of course he is in a state of abstinence, and I am in a state of abstinence. Can't stand it.

So I quickly stopped, pulled him away from me, wiped the corners of my mouth, and said with a faint smile, "I'll feed you once at night."

Seeing this, Wu Tian also wiped the corners of his mouth, his cheeks were still flushed, and he glanced to the side: "I really saw a ghost, why do you feel that you have suddenly become so much more handsome?"

Have it?I raised my eyebrows, Xi Shi is in the eye of the beholder, I still doubt Wu Tian's words.

At this time there was a knock on the door, Wu Tian called out "Come in", Liu Xin opened the door and came in, saw us standing together ambiguously, and coughed dryly.

In the past, I must have been guilty, but at this moment, I can look at Liu Xin calmly, without any intention of hiding anything.

Wu Tian asked, "What's the matter?"

Liu Xin said: "Today's meeting said that each team must release a small promotional video to help our bureau's official account increase followers. The form is not limited, but it must be popular and innovative. If there are more than [-] views, there will be rewards. If it becomes popular There will be rewards."

Wu Tian frowned: "Small video? When is the deadline?"

Liu Xin: "This Friday at the latest, which is the day after tomorrow."

Wu Tian: "Tell Yoyo to get one and hand it in."

Liu Xin: "Yuyou asked me to tell you that she can deal with it, but if the higher-ups suddenly take this matter seriously, then don't blame her for being criticized."

Upon hearing this, Wu Tian frowned even tighter, and scolded: "Call her in!"

Youyou outside the room naturally heard this voice, came in and looked at Wu Tian and said, "It's hard for a clever woman to cook without rice, what do you want me to do? Just me? Can you cooperate with me in the scene?"

Wu Tian thought for a while: "Do you have to appear on camera?"

Youyou pursed her lips and said, "I see that you usually don't pay attention to this, but now you think it's so easy to popularize positive science and be liked by others. If there is no selling point, who will read it!"

Wu Tian: "Then what do you want to sell?"

Youyou pursed her lips for a moment of joy, then saw Wu Tian's black expression and put it back: "Now there are only a few, either selling misery, or selling lust, or selling rottenness, or selling laughter, it is definitely inappropriate for us to be miserable, Selling lust...Which of you is willing to dedicate yourself? Who of us has the talent to write jokes? What else can we do besides selling corruption? Besides, we are seeking truth from facts, and we are not deliberately selling corruption."

Wu Tian asked with a dark face: "Who do you want to sell?"

Youyou glanced at Wu Tian and then at me, swallowed forcefully, and said, "Of course it can't be too real, then it's not selling corruption, it's news, actually I have an idea, none of us need to show our faces , anyway, positive energy is easy to make up, and being able to attract attention is the key."

Liu Xin looked at Yoyo: "Just tell me what the hell you're up to, it's such a big detour."

Youyou chuckled: "Actually, I just... want to borrow Tao brother to use it."

Hearing this, everyone present was extremely surprised.

I looked at Yoyo in astonishment: "Me?!"

Youyou nodded: "Yes, after much deliberation, Brother Tao is the most suitable!"

Me: "What am I suitable for?"

Yoyo chuckled: "The contrast is cute!"

I frowned: "What contrast?"

Youyou said: "The difference between not dressed up and dressed up! How easy it is for cross-dressing videos to become popular now! You don't have to do anything! Changing into a police uniform is enough!"

I frowned and looked at Wu Tian: "I'm not a policeman now, am I? Can I still wear a police uniform?"

Youyou hurriedly replied: "Just treat you as a prop!!"

Me: "Why should I use it as a prop? What does this video have to do with me? If you want to reward me at that time, you won't be able to reward me."

After hearing this, Yoyo quickly looked at Wu Tian and Liu Xin, expecting them to say something nice for her.

In fact, Wu Tian was also very entangled in his heart. On the one hand, he also wanted to watch it, mainly out of curiosity, but when he thought that the girl Yoyo was too unreliable, he felt uncertain.

Liu Xin just laughed, looking like a rain girl who is harmless to humans and animals, waiting to see the good show.

I saw that Wu Tian was still struggling, so he said harshly: "If you dare to promise, then don't regret it."

Hearing this, Wu Tian's expression turned cold, he coughed dryly and said to Yoyo: "Think about something else, this bad idea PASS!"

Yoyo pouted and left, and Liu Xin covered her mouth and smiled and left right behind.

Then people from other sub-bureaus came here to hand over the case, Wu Tian went out, and I lay on the sofa and continued to read.

When I was alone, I couldn't help but start to recall, what happened when I killed someone, why did I remember that it was someone who had nothing to do with me, but it was that person who died in the end?

I didn't even know how to find him before, but now I suddenly killed him?What happened in the middle?why do i have no memory at all

Also, if I sent me to a mental hospital after I killed someone, how did I get out of the hospital?How could it be inexplicably lost again?

The more I think about it, the more my head hurts. It hurts deeply. Every time I want to think deeply, I have to stop it. It seems that there is a program setting. Once I think deeply, it will blue screen of death.

The author has something to say:

The finale before this was a bit hasty, after thinking about it, I will improve it again and give everyone a real ending