I'll forgive you when you're crazy

When I have a headache, I want to exercise. I use sweating and muscle soreness to offset the headache, which is still somewhat effective.

So when Wu Tian came back, he happened to see me doing push-ups on the ground, and my back was wet.

I got up and wiped my sweat with the corner of my clothes, Wu Tian looked at me: "Are you having a headache again?"

I sighed: "I can't help but think about it." Then I remembered that Wu Tian was handing over the case with a head but no body, so I changed the subject and asked, "How about the case?"

Wu Tian threw a file folder on the table, and fell on his back on the seat: "Except for the finger found in the belly of the fish, some suspected human bones were salvaged in the surrounding waters, but they were not complete and gnawed. The food was so severe that DNA testing could not be done, and it was impossible to verify whether it was Zhu Can’s remains, but the finger proved to be Zhu Can’s, so the current inference is basically that except for the head, the rest of the bodies were thrown into the river.”

"Can that finger detect how long it has been dead?" I asked Wu Tian.

Wu Tian replied: "Still waiting for the result."

Me: "Don't you think it's weird?"

Wu Tian looked at me: "Strange?"

Me: "If other parts of the body have turned into bones, it must have been a long time, right? Why did the fingers still remain in the belly of the fish? What kind of fish is that? If it wasn't for piranhas, they would swallow people's fingers whole ?"

Wu Tian immediately sat up straight and looked at me: "You mean there is something wrong with this finger?"

I nodded: "What if someone deliberately put a human finger into the belly of a fish?"

Wu Tian also nodded thoughtfully: "That makes sense..."

Me: "And if someone didn't deliberately give the fish containing the dead man's finger to the fisherman who reported the crime, what is the probability that the fish will be caught in that water?"

Hearing what I said, Wu Tian immediately stood up, stretched out his hand and kept lighting: "You are right, if someone deliberately designed it to be discovered by the police... what is the purpose?"

Me: "My first feeling is still provocative, because you have listed this case as an unsolved case and have not found the murderer so far, so the murderer threw out another key piece of evidence, catching your police like fishing, extremely conceited, thinking that this finger alone You police can't solve the case, just mocking nakedly."

Wu Tian gritted his back molars, with an angry expression on his face, he reached out and thumped the table violently.

Me: "But looking at it from another angle, don't you think this murderer is very contradictory? He designed such a murder carefully, but in the end he threw key evidence to the police again and again, as if he hoped the police would find him."

Wu Tian couldn't help looking at me in surprise when he heard the words: "You mean this murderer has a split personality?"

I shook my head: "I can't confirm it now, but there is indeed such a tendency."

Wu Tian finally sighed: "It's a pity that the direction of the investigation is still very confused. Now we are looking for a needle in a haystack, and we are completely in a state of blind cat and mouse."

Me: "Don't you have fingers now? I think this is worthy of further investigation."

Wu Tian: "It is indeed being studied, but at present, apart from the physiological signs, there is no point to the murderer, and it is of no help to the investigation."

I still couldn't forget what An Ci said to me back then, so I asked Wu Tian: "Have you finished investigating the background of the deceased? Have you found anything?"

Wu Tian handed me the files on the table and said, "It's all here."

I opened the file and looked at the deceased. The name of the deceased was Zhu Can, male, 30 years old, without a proper occupation, without a fixed address, and his household registration was in a small county near Q City in this province. He had a junior high school diploma. His girlfriend was found a week ago. Reported missing persons, plastic surgery before death, eyes were sutured before death, stitches were removed after death, head was boiled, according to the skin cell section of the deceased, it was found that the deceased was frozen for a period of time after death, so the exact time of death is not good It is inferred that the fracture of the head is flat and should have been cut off while it was frozen.

In addition, according to the external investigations these days, it is found that this Zhu Can not only has a girlfriend, but has dated many women of all ages at the same time, ranging from rich women aged 50 to 18, down to young women who have just turned [-] The girl didn't even know that this person was actually the legendary Sea King, riding N boats.

I didn't see a detailed description of the "girlfriend" who reported the case at the end, so I asked Wu Tian strangely: "Where is the girl who reported the case? Why did she only have a statement to report the case? Didn't you ask her to investigate after that?"

Hearing this, Wu Tian took the case file in my hand and said, "I remember looking for it, but the girl seemed to have committed suicide the day before the body was found."

My head exploded, why is this so similar to the story An Ci told me back then?

"Suicide? How did your police determine that it was suicide?" I asked Wu Tian.

"There is a suicide note, and the method of death is drowning by cutting the wrist, which is a relatively common method of suicide." Wu Tian replied.

Me: "Does the suicide note say why she committed suicide?"

Wu Tian: "To put it simply, she felt that her boyfriend's sudden disappearance was because she was no longer wanted. She felt that her life was meaningless."

Me: "Then what is this girl like?"

Wu Tian: "A little fat, not tall, very white, already working, ordinary clerk, average salary."

Me: "Have you investigated the relationship between the deceased and this girl?"

Wu Tian: "No, because the girl is already dead, so the suspicion of committing the crime was immediately ruled out, and it was suicide. The possibility of the murder by the same murderer was ruled out, and there was no joint investigation."

I remembered what Anci had described to me before. If Anci's so-called "alarm" was done in this way, I couldn't help but shudder.

But An Ci was obviously imagined by me, so why did I have such a deep impression on what he said to me?And at that time, the case had not been investigated so deeply, how could I make up a story and predict it so accurately? !

At first I really suspected that the murderer was An Ci, but if An Ci was imagined by me, then who is the murderer?

No, I remember that Wu Tian even got jealous that day because I had dinner with An Ci, could this also be imagined?

Thinking of this, I decided to have a good talk with Wu Tian at night.

But my memory has been getting worse and worse recently. Sometimes what I think of when I am awake in the morning is like a dream in the daytime at night. I can’t recall it no matter how I recall it. But no matter how I recall it, I just can't remember it.

So now I record all the important things I think of in a notebook, so that even if I forget, I can recall them slowly according to the prompts.

In this way, I feel as if I have amnesia, but the fact is that I have to take a lot of medicine every day to prevent me from going "crazy" again.

Although I feel more useless now than before, my heart is no longer as anxious as before. Anyway, it is already such a waste, what can I do?

I recorded all the things I analyzed and thought about with Wu Tian just now, and Wu Tian watched from the sidelines, even glancing at me from time to time.

I turned to look at him: "What are you looking at me for?"

Wu Tian: "Actually, what I told you at the time was not accurate. That person was not imagined by you, but you said that he coerced you into killing someone was indeed imagined."

I suddenly scratched my scalp numbly: "I understand what you mean, you said before that I was forced to be sent to a mental hospital because of schizophrenia diagnosed as delusional disorder after murder, so what I saw in the mental hospital Those are all fake."

Wu Tian nodded.

Me: "But how did I find that person's address? I wanted to investigate, but before the investigation, the headless case happened. Now I have very vague memories of the killing process..."

Wu Tian sighed helplessly: "Fortunately, you didn't have self-awareness when you killed someone, otherwise you would not have been sent to a mental hospital, but to a prison."

Of course I am very clear about this, but too many questions linger in my mind. From when I went crazy to now, I feel like time has passed, which is very unreal.

Seeing that I started to struggle with my forehead again, Wu Tian took my hand off with distress: "Don't think about it, don't get sick again."

I looked at Wu Tian in front of me, and felt a little ashamed in my heart: "Why do you still treat me so well after I'm like this?"

Wu Tian stared and said angrily: "What are you talking about? Why, seeing you like this, I should abandon you with cynicism? In your heart, I am such an image?"

I curled my lips and smiled: "Of course I didn't mean that..."

Wu Tian hugged me suddenly: "Although you and I are not a husband and wife relationship protected by law, to me, you are my wife, my husband, isn't it my duty to share weal and woe?"

My heart warmed up, and I hugged Wu Tian slowly: "How many couples protected by the law may not have such awareness as you. Meeting you in this life is my catastrophe and my luck."

I don't know why, Wu Tian's gentleness always seems to me to have a dreamlike unreal feeling, which makes me wonder if I have committed paranoia again.

So after separating from Wu Tian, ​​he took Wu Tian's hand and walked to the reception hall. There were many strange faces here, all of whom were ordinary people who came here to do business.

I called a random person and asked him, "Can you see this person?"

The man looked at me and then at Wu Tian with a dazed expression, thinking what the hell was going on, but he answered me impatiently: "I can see it! What do you mean by asking that?"

Hearing this answer, I held my chest and let out a long sigh of relief.

Wu Tian couldn't help turning red when he saw my eyes like this, he lowered his head and pulled me out of the gate.

He looked back at me: "You just felt like you were hallucinating again?"

I was a little afraid to look at him, I lowered my head and looked away.

Wu Tian bit his lower lip and said, "How on earth do you think I'm real?"

I didn't have an answer in my heart, and I didn't know how to answer, so I had to remain silent.

"say!!"

After Wu Tian scolded, he immediately covered his head in regret, adjusted his emotions and said softly: "I... can you stop doing this and say whatever you want! I am very panicked when you are like this!"

I looked up at Wu Tian, ​​and felt a little sad: "I don't know why, sometimes I always have a feeling that I have never met you again, and all this is my imagination... It's like I was in the hospital What I heard back then..."

Wu Tian squeezed out a smile when he heard the words: "I know...you have suffered all these years, I should never have said such heartless words to you back then, what the hell...if I could travel back, I would definitely have lost my original self. Shave it hard, and then I will find you to get back together..."

I also felt distressed seeing Wu Tian like this, his tears rolled in his eyes, and finally he raised his head and refused to let the tears flow down.

"I don't want you to feel guilty..."

"I know, but I can't help but feel guilty when I see you like this..." Wu Tian sniffed.

"I want to go home."

"Okay, let's go home!" Wu Tian wiped the corners of his eyes, smiled and took my hand towards his car.

When I got in the car, I fell asleep again. Now I was sitting in the car like a child, falling asleep uncontrollably like a cradle.