Gu Nianruochu

At nine o'clock in the morning, Yin Xu, who was sitting in the living room at home from night to day, heard a knock on the door. His eyes moved away from the warm and ironic layout in the room, and looked in the direction of the door. When I got up, my legs were still a little numb, and I walked slowly to the entrance like a slow-moving old man and opened the door.

Standing outside, Zheng Heng seemed a little frightened by Yin Xu's gloomy and gloomy face. His lips were pale, his eyes were out of focus, and his hair was messy, but he didn't look like he had just woken up. The thick dark circles under his eyes made him Looking very haggard.

Zheng Heng sized him up for a while, but couldn't say a word for a long time with his lips half-opened. Yin Xu also stared at him for a moment, and asked in a calm voice, "What's the matter?"

When Zheng Heng was questioned, he immediately remembered what he was here for, and lifted the piano case in his hand, "Wei Siyuan asked me to return it to you. He said you gave it to me, but he doesn't need it anymore." .”

Yin Xu's cold and frozen expression seemed to burst instantly, his eyes suddenly burned, and he asked again as if not sure what he heard, "What did you say?"

Zheng Heng swallowed subconsciously, and raised his voice a little nervously, "I mean, Wei Siyuan is going abroad today, and he told me to return the violin you gave him, because he doesn't need it anymore." He stopped After a few seconds, he added with a bit of regret, "As you wish, Wei Siyuan will not pester you anymore."

He wasn't sure if his eyes were wrong, Yin Xu's shoulders seemed to tremble slightly suddenly, his eyes gradually began to show pain from being tired and out of focus, staring in disbelief at the violin he brought back from Vienna, he didn't know Are you asking yourself or the person in front of you, "Is he going to throw away everything related to me?"

No one answered him, the corridor was silent, it seemed that Yin Xu's breathing was a bit difficult and heavy.

Seeing that he didn't take the violin, Zheng Heng put the violin case at his feet, and heard him ask, "Where is Wei Siyuan going abroad?"

"I don't know." Zheng Heng replied a little awkwardly, avoiding Yin Xu's oppressive eyes, "Don't stare at me like that, I didn't lie to you, I really don't know, Wei Siyuan never told me Where did he go, he just said that he was going to transfer to a foreign country, and then he bought the plane ticket and started to pack his luggage in a blink of an eye, everything was ready by himself and left."

Yin Xu's expression was a little dazed, "Why I don't know at all, has he been preparing for a long time?"

"It wasn't long, it was a temporary decision, not long after he told me that he didn't like you anymore." Zheng Heng said, "Actually, it's not surprising, he has been receiving a full scholarship in our school, I have also participated in many activities and competitions, and it is normal to be favored by foreign schools with higher qualifications.”

Yin Xu was silent for a long while, and then took a breath with difficulty enduring the soreness in his heart, "Then did he say when he will come back?"

Although Zheng Heng was a little stunned by the expression on Yin Xu's face, he didn't have much sympathy, and continued to reveal the more cruel facts in front of him, "No, he doesn't necessarily stay with us when he returns to China, anyway, his home People don't love him, and there are so many bad memories here because of you, why do you have to stay here to torture yourself, isn't it a person who no one cares about wherever you go?"

"I..." Yin Xu was a little bit heartbroken, and anxiously opened his mouth to explain.

Zheng Heng interrupted him, "Don't tell me that you care about him very much, you don't want to settle down with him at all, I know that you refused him a few times when he confessed to you." The corner of his mouth curled up sarcastically, "Just treating him like this to you, it's rare for him to persist for several years until now."

Yin Xu turned his face away, stared at an inconspicuous tile in the corridor, his eyes were shivered by the cold wind in the corridor, and asked in a low voice, "He also thinks that I treat him very badly, doesn't he?"

"That's not true. He thinks you are very good, everything is good, but he doesn't like him."

It was obviously a thankful remark, but for some reason, Yin Xu seemed to be feeling more uncomfortable, and his brows were furrowed.

"I like him."

"You like him, but you don't want to be with him. Isn't it contradictory? You give him hope, but you make him never get it, and let him watch you and flirt with others, You call that liking him? Maybe everyone's definition of liking is different, but in my opinion you are abusing him."

Yin Xu felt his throat tighten, and the place where Wei Siyuan slapped him last night seemed to be hot and painful again.

"If there is any reason for him to leave, then he just wants to stay away from you, go to a place where he can't see you or even meet you by chance." Zheng Heng looked at him, "The weather is hot and cold. People are prone to get sick, not to mention hot and cold, who can stand it."

Zheng Heng saw that Yin Xu had nothing to say, so he continued, "You have known Wei Siyuan longer than me, so you should know better, he is a person who is easy to bully, he is slow and afraid of people, maybe he has a little low self-esteem Relationships are so used to submissiveness, but in fact he is very stubborn, without this kind of stubbornness in his bones, or arrogance, it is difficult to preserve himself in so many gossips, his sharpness is hidden inside, when it really hurts people, There is no room for maneuver.”

Yin Xu remained silent for a long time, and when Zheng Heng was about to lift his legs to leave, he said hoarsely: "But I want to change, I want to make up for all the mistakes I made in the past for him."

"Then it's useless for you to tell me. He doesn't want to give you a chance. It's useless for anyone to persuade you. Not everyone who realizes what he wants after losing it has a chance to get it back. When he liked you back then You should understand that he gave you his sincerity in exchange for your sincerity, not for you to find someone to mess with and laugh at him."

Perhaps it was because the expression on Yin Xu's face was too pitiful, and Zheng Heng didn't want to stab him with any more hurtful words, so he sighed helplessly, "Only when you have experienced someone's pain personally can you talk about making up for someone." The hurt, the apology from above are all hypocritical and innocuous."

When Zheng Heng left Yin Xu's house, Wei Siyuan was already on the plane to the transit point, and deliberately chose the day of his birthday to leave the country alone with his bags on his back and embark on a journey.

This is a very symbolic day, especially for him at an age between maturity and childishness, doing anything requires a full sense of ritual to show its profound meaning, and he knows that he will completely discard it on this day The past self, and then a new life.

The plane landed at Narita Airport in Japan, and it was three hours before the next boarding. He sat on a chair with his backpack in his arms, staring at the aisle with people in a daze. The duty-free shop was crowded with shoppers.

He took out his phone from the dark compartment of his backpack and turned it on, connected to the Wi-Fi at the airport, saw a few missed message notifications, Yin Xu sent him a lot of messages, piled on top of all the conversations.

But he didn't click on Yin Xu's dialog box, instead he went to Shen Yan, typed a few words and sent it, [I'm in Japan, now I'm waiting for a turnaround, how is your face, have you been beaten by Yin Xu? Become a pig's head? 】Shen Yan replied quite quickly, 【It's not that exaggerated. When people ask me why my face is swollen, I always say that I have wisdom teeth, but when I look in the mirror, I feel weird. I feel that the left and right sides of my face are asymmetrical. ] Wei Siyuan apologized to him, 【Sorry. 】

[Don't apologize, it wasn't you who called me. 】Shen Yan said, 【I should apologize to you, I think I can go to Zhihu and open a post, "What kind of experience is it to make someone cry?"] Wei Siyuan couldn't help laughing, 【Doubt yourself Look bad and have bad breath? 】

[Excuse me?Can you spare me some dignity, brother. 】Shen Yan sent a crying emoji, and then said, 【Little crying bag, take care of yourself, you will be fine, I think your future is bright. 】【Thank you. 】After Wei Siyuan thanked you, he said, 【I may not use WeChat anymore in the future, I will send you an email after I settle down there, don't worry about me. 】【Okay, I wish you all the best, if you need help, you can contact me at any time, I will help you find a way, but what I hope most is that you will give me a lot of good news when you come to me again. ] Wei Siyuan agreed, there was nothing extra to say, and after saying goodbye, he quit WeChat, uninstalled the software, and turned off the phone again.

It was getting dark outside the boarding building, and it was about to merge into the night. He got up from his seat and walked into a small shop for snacks and groceries. He bought a small piece of sponge cake, and returned to his original position to sit, tearing open the packaging bag.

As long as the long night is passed, the dawn will appear at the end of the darkness. If you can't get the light from the person you love, then go and become a light yourself.

"Happy birthday, Wei Siyuan."