Gu Nianruochu

In late spring and March, the weather gradually changed from cloudy to cloudy and sunny, and the soft wind blowing on the face began to be stained with the clean and bright taste of sunshine. It feels warm and itchy.

Wei Siyuan took a day off from class, and waited in the dormitory for the interview call from the United States. The waiting process was a bit boring, so he opened a blank document on his laptop, and typed a few words that others might call. Answers to questions that will be asked.

But soon he was distracted with nothing to do, he was not too nervous, and he was not worried at all that he might not understand the other party's question or answer his own meaning.

When Wei Siyuan liked Yin Xu in high school half a world away, he would call Yin Xu in the dormitory every day, but he was a thief, and he didn't want other roommates to hear the content of his chat with Yin Xu, so he deliberately used Talking to Yin Xu in English is difficult for others to understand, and in the eyes of his classmates, he pretends to be so pretentious.

However, Yin Xu grew up outside, speaking any language is common to him, and his English accent and expressions are very authentic, so Wei Siyuan is influenced by him and speaks a lot, so naturally he can answer fluently .

In the afternoon, when the interviewer made a video call, he slowed down his speaking speed to accommodate Wei Siyuan at first, and expressed the question in a very simple way. Unexpectedly, Wei Siyuan answered at a normal and fast speaking speed, and his train of thought Clear, logical and coherent, so fluent that there are no grammatical errors.

So the interview ended earlier than expected, and it took a few days to find out. Wei Siyuan went downstairs to the cafeteria to eat alone, and went back to the dormitory alone after eating, and then he didn't know what he wanted to do.

When one is lonely, one is especially prone to whimsical ideas. He wonders if a person likes another person, is it like the moon revolving around the earth? A big, unencumbered, boring rock floating around in space.

His previous life was too simple, only Yin Xu and the violin, so after Yin Xu was gone, there was only the violin left, but the violin always had the shadow of Yin Xu, so he had nothing but the violin Own.

That's why he suddenly wanted to seize every opportunity to get out of here, get out of this predicament that made him lose his way, and want to find the meaning of his life elsewhere.

He doesn't have too many people to say goodbye to. If the day of departure is confirmed, he will go home and explain to his parents, and have a few words with Wei Kailin. As for the rest of his friends, there are not many who really care about each other. , are just people who send out group blessings during the Chinese New Year, and it won't affect them where he goes.

As for Yin Xu, he didn't want to tell Yin Xu, maybe in the future when he can feel relieved enough to feel that Yin Xu doesn't like him and has slept with others, it is no longer his unresolved knot, he and Yin Xu on the road Xu passed by, and could still say "Long time no see" with a smile.

But it’s not enough now, he doesn’t care about anything Yin Xu does now, but he minds that he sees the rampant self in the past through Yin Xu’s eyes, he doesn’t like Yin Xu anymore, and he doesn’t like the one who likes over himself.

March is the month of Wei Siyuan's birthday, and it is also the most likely opportunity for Yin Xu to save Wei Siyuan right now.

In fact, he wasn't very confident, and didn't dare to have too much expectations for Wei Siyuan's reaction, but he still wanted to try.

After all, Wei Siyuan spent all his birthdays with him after the age of 15. Although the total number of days for all birthdays is only five days, but these five days are included in the five years Wei Siyuan has liked him, which is long enough to form a habit.

Habits are very strange things, and they can easily catalyze an emotion called "reluctant".

Perhaps because he was reluctant to part with this habit, Wei Siyuan would be a little soft-hearted towards him. If he could still behave better in front of Wei Siyuan, confess to Wei Siyuan with an open heart, explain clearly all the misunderstandings including that he didn't sleep with others, and take responsibility for the crime. If he took the responsibility for his fault and handed over the delayed decision to Wei Siyuan, then Wei Siyuan might be willing to forgive him and give him a chance.

He started to prepare two or three days in advance. After rehearsal every day, he went to the shopping mall alone to buy things. He bought a lot of supporting daily necessities for two people to live together. At night, he carefully arranged them at home. He changed the bed sheets and curtains to warm colors, and even packed and threw away the clothes that he rarely wore in the closet, freeing up half of the closet for Wei Siyuan to store clothes in the future.

He wanted to give Wei Siyuan a surprise, and wanted him to understand how much he longed for him to return to his life and be with him when he opened the door and found that everything in the house had become a pair.

He also made a reservation at a restaurant that Wei Siyuan once said was good, and then went to Wei Siyuan's dormitory to make an appointment with him to celebrate his birthday with him.

It was night when Yin Xu arrived, and the moonlight was just beginning to rise, and the street lights dimly lit up slowly. This was the time for evening classes, and most of the students who had no classes at night stayed in the dormitory and did not come out. The trail leading to the dormitory area There are not many people walking on the street, but the sound of people laughing and laughing can be heard from time to time in the dormitory building.

He stood patiently downstairs for an hour, and called Wei Siyuan's cell phone, but Wei Siyuan's phone was turned off, and no one answered.

He thought that maybe Wei Siyuan might not be free or not in the dormitory right now, so he decided to go home first, and it's okay to come back to him tomorrow morning.

But in fact, Wei Siyuan had already removed his mobile phone card, he packed his luggage, and invited Shen Yan to his and Zheng Heng's dormitory, and the three of them had a simple dinner.

He didn't have much sadness about parting, and he smiled flatly when he listened to them talking, thanked him honestly when he was instructed, and accepted his friends' blessings and cares frankly.

He felt that Shen Yan had been looking at him all night, hesitating to speak, but he didn't ask deliberately. He just ate and drank a few glasses of beer as usual, and then sent him downstairs when it was getting late.

"I'll take you to the station. I'm too full. Let's go for a walk."

"Okay." Shen Yan smiled at him, and walked out slowly side by side with him, "How long do you plan to go this time? Will you come back before graduation?"

"I haven't made up my mind yet. In fact, school hasn't started yet, but I plan to visit my grandparents and get used to the environment there. It would be even better if I can find a part-time job without bothering my family. People give me living expenses, and I can think about returning to China after school starts or when I have money to buy a plane ticket." Wei Siyuan turned to look at him with a gentle gaze, "If you have anything you want to tell me, just say it."

"I want to say," Shen Yan lowered his head and smiled a little embarrassedly, glanced at Wei Siyuan, and then turned away, "If you come back, you are still alone, with no one around you, and no one else in your heart, can you Consider me?"

Wei Siyuan listened silently, pondered for a few seconds, no emotion could be seen on his face, he didn't know whether he was thinking seriously or hesitating, it would be better to tactfully refuse, then he stopped, turned around and said to Shen Yan, " Then you give me a kiss, I'll try to see if I have any feeling of heartbeat, if there is a little bit, I promise you. "

This was the worst kiss Shen Yan had ever tasted. Before he even touched Wei Siyuan's lips, he felt as if he was defiled something that didn't belong to him, especially when Wei Siyuan suddenly started to cry. .

Wei Siyuan didn't want to make the scene so embarrassing, since he bid farewell to the past, he should treat the future more casually, but when he closed his eyes, all he saw was the hidden place downstairs in Yin Xu's house that year, Yin Xu said He was "poor at kissing" and then lowered his head and kissed his expression.

That night is vivid in his memory, the touch of Yin Xu's lips, the way he kissed, the way he looked at him, and the temperature in his embrace, all seemed to be engraved on his heart, as long as one A little bit of clues that the gun went off is enough to trigger the memory.

Maybe one day, when this past of unrequited love no longer haunts him, and he finally allows other people to walk into his heart, those who love him also want to leave some traces in his heart, but until the time comes... In the end, they could only helplessly find that Yin Xu's name had already been written all over there.

At such a moment, Wei Siyuan suddenly felt distressed, and tears welled up in his eyes, rolling down his cheeks, "...I'm sorry, I still can't do it, I think I may lose the ability to love others forever." He choked up a bit, His eyes suddenly became hollow, "I'm too tired."

Shen Yan took a step back and apologized to him, "I'm sorry, I was too presumptuous, don't take it to heart, I won't force you, just pretend I didn't mention it."

Wei Siyuan bowed deeply to him, apologizing for his rudeness, "I'm really sorry."

Shen Yan was a little confused, but he still wanted to say something comforting to Wei Siyuan, hoping that he would not blame himself too much. Before he could do this, he was suddenly grabbed by the collar from behind, and he turned his head in a hurry. , Yin Xu swung his fist, and growled at him furiously, "Wei Siyuan is mine, how dare you touch him?!"

Shen Yan was caught off guard by Yin Xu, and was pushed to the ground. Yin Xu looked like a wild and angry beast, panting heavily, staring at Shen Yan fiercely, and wanted to jump over to hit him. With killing intent.

Wei Siyuan was also frightened, but quickly reacted and stood in front of Shen Yan and pushed the furious Yin Xu away. His heart was beating wildly stimulated by the sudden loss of control in front of him. He turned around and said to Shen Yan regretfully, "I and He's okay, are you okay? I'm sorry I got you involved, so let's go."

Shen Yan rubbed the side of his face that was numb from the beating, and got up from the ground, "Is it okay for you to be alone?"

When Yin Xu heard Shen Yan's voice, he was furious and irritable, his eyes were about to burst into sparks, and he wanted to rush over to hit someone, but Wei Siyuan hugged him, preventing him from taking another step forward.

This action similar to a hug made Yin Xu's anger instantly weakened. He was stunned for a moment, and regained a little bit of reason, and then the anger in his eyes suddenly disappeared. He hugged Wei Siyuan back, and leaned his head on the On his shoulders, it seemed that he had been made up for, and his face was red and hot because of the warmth that was lost and regained for this moment.

The two hugged each other chest to chest like a pair of lovers in love. After hugging for an unknown how long, Wei Siyuan suddenly began to struggle, "Let go, let me go."

But Yin Xu let go of Wei Siyuan a little bit, held his face and lowered his head to kiss his lips, biting his lips eagerly, wanting to deepen the kiss, but Wei Siyuan pressed his lips tightly, resisting very much. Pushing him away with all her strength, she raised her hand in the next second and slapped him across the face. With a crisp "slap", she slapped his face away.

Wei Siyuan's lips were red and swollen from the kiss, and the tears on his face hadn't disappeared. His shoulders trembled slightly, as if he was enduring some unusually turbulent emotions.

Then those dark eyes stared at Yin Xu, and stabbed into his heart one by one the words he hated the most in his life.

"I never want to see you again."

Yin Xu knew that Wei Siyuan's words might be angry after he made such an irrational move, but what he didn't know was that on the same day, Wei Siyuan was exempted from the language test by the conservatory because of his excellent performance in the previous interview. After being admitted exceptionally, he began to have rivals in love all over the world.