Gu Nianruochu

Yin Xu has been lethargic since he came out of the emergency room, but luckily he usually exercises regularly, and his physical condition is not too bad. The disease came and went quickly, and his symptoms began to be significantly relieved after taking the medicine.

He woke up the next morning when the fever showed signs of subsidence. After waking up, he sat up and looked at his friend next to him with a confused expression for a while, and then the first thing he said was to ask "Where is Wei Siyuan?" After hearing my friend's reply that "Wei Siyuan hasn't been here", I lay down disappointed again.

The friend looked puzzled, "What's the matter with you and Wei Siyuan? They fell out and haven't reconciled? Last time you asked us to go to the bar for a drink and you didn't let him pick you up. This time he didn't come to take care of you when you were sick. What? What's the matter?"

Yin Xu felt uncomfortable when he thought of the reason why Wei Siyuan didn't come to see him, but he didn't want others to know the truth, and he didn't want others to notice the strange and ambiguous relationship between him and Wei Siyuan, so he could only mention it in a very subtle way. He said, "I did some things that made him angry, and he refused to forgive me. I was a little bit wronged and wanted to get angry with him, but now he completely ignores me."

"That must be what you deserve. He treats you so well, and you can still make him angry."

"Then do you have any way to coax him back for me? He won't talk to me, I'm almost dying of pain." Yin Xu was depressed under the quilt for a while, smelling the smell of disinfectant under the quilt in the hospital, completely Without the faint smell of Wei Siyuan hidden in the quilt of their house, I felt a burst of physical discomfort, "Is there anyone of you who is going to have a birthday recently, I will treat you to a meal, and call Siyuan out by the way, he probably won't refused."

The friend got up from the chair and was about to leave. "Then I'll go back and ask for you. Let's go first. Send us a WeChat message if you're okay."

"Okay, remember to ask. A friend of a friend is also fine. The one within two days is the best."

"...Damn, why are people like you so difficult to serve, I see, just lie down."

Not long after his friend left, Yin Xu’s parents also came to the hospital to see him. After a serious illness, it was inevitable that he would be a little bit exhausted, so his mother made soup for him and made very nutritious meals to nourish his body. It has been a long time since he has eaten Yin Xu, who cooks home-cooked food like a hungry wolf, gorged on the pork chop rice in a very unrefined manner, and felt a little bit sorry for him.

His father looked at his pitiful appearance, and asked casually, "Why isn't Siyuan here?"

Yin Xu paused and coughed violently, spraying rice grains all over the quilt. While sweeping his back, his mother scolded his father, "What are you talking to him for? Let him eat well. But it's been a long time since I said it." I saw Siyuan, why didn't you bring him over this year, I haven't given him the red envelope for the Chinese New Year, and he even called me to pay New Year's greetings, saying that he wants to eat my bitter gourd stewed crab."

"It turns out that he likes to eat stewed crab with bitter melon." Yin Xu felt that his eyes were inexplicably hot, his throat was still itchy, and he covered his mouth and coughed a few times, then lowered his head guiltily and muttered vaguely, "Siyuan... recently Very busy."

He just prevaricated like this, and his parents didn't ask him any more. They went through the discharge procedures for him after he had eaten, sent him home, gave him a few instructions, and left.

Wei Siyuan asked a friend to visit Yin Xu and did not inquire about Yin Xu's situation, but that friend took the initiative to tell him, and he replied with "um", without giving the other party any room to develop further.

The next morning, Zheng Heng went to the student union to hold an event. There might be many beautiful girls at the event. Before he went out, he dressed up very flirtatiously for half an hour, making the dormitory smell of men's perfume, and Wei Siyuan choked. Woke up, frowned, got out of bed, opened the bedroom window to ventilate the smell, and then climbed back to bed.

Wei Siyuan opened the lock screen of the phone on the bed, opened the mailbox to check the email, and saw that the music academy in the United States that sent him the email before had answered his consulting question, he closed the email and dialed the phone to Shen Yan.

Shen Yan's name on Wei Siyuan's phone number was "Little Crying Bag". Seeing that it was his call, he immediately picked up the call, "Good morning, Wei Siyuan."

"Morning, what are you doing now, I didn't bother you, did I?"

"It's okay, I don't have class today, what's wrong?"

Wei Siyuan thought for a few seconds, and asked him, "I want to ask if you know any friends who have their own recording studios. I think there should be many people in your vocal music department who make their own music. I want to borrow them. record something in the studio."

"Yes, but a small recording studio like ours doesn't know if people who play classical music like you. The level of equipment and equipment is not particularly good." Shen Yan's tone was a bit embarrassed, and he said Said, "Yin Xu has worked with so many symphony orchestras, should he know some people with more formal recording studios?"

Wei Siyuan was silent for a few seconds before he replied calmly, "I don't want to trouble him."

"You don't want to be troublesome..." Shen Yan paused on the phone, for some reason, he could comprehend other meanings from those few boring seconds, "The person I liked the most in the world before?"

"Yeah." Wei Siyuan laughed suddenly, "Please help me, it's okay if the equipment isn't that good, as long as the sound quality isn't distorted."

"Haha, okay, I'll ask for you later, they haven't had any activities recently, so they should be able to borrow it today." Shen Yan half-joked casually, "If I help you, I will accidentally become a full-time student. Favorite person in the world?"

Wei Siyuan also talked to him nonchalantly, "The threshold for the most favorite person in the world is very high. The person who has just left office entered the Royal Concert Hall at the age of 16. If you can go to the SuperBowl for a solo concert before the age of 22, you can Barely up to par."

"Oh, you hurt me so badly."

An hour later, Wei Siyuan showed up in a small recording studio built by Shen Yan's friend with his violin and video recorder. The place was indeed small, but although the sparrow was small and well-equipped, the equipment and equipment were of a high standard.

Shen Yan's friend adjusted the equipment for Wei Siyuan. After he stood in the right radio position, he walked outside the recording room, gestured to him, and pressed the record button. Then Wei Siyuan began to play his violin, melodious The delicate melody flows out like gurgling water, tracing back from between the fingertips and the strings.

The two people sitting outside were dumbfounded. Shen Yan's friend played pop music and rock, and had never had a flirt with people who played traditional classical music, but he still couldn't help saying to Shen Yan, "You My friend is pretty handsome."

Shen Yan began to suspect that the big boy who was crying and calling on the phone in the bar before was just an illusion of his, and couldn't help but feel a little emotional, "Yeah, he's really handsome, completely overturning my first impression."

At this time, Wei Siyuan's mobile phone outside the recording room rang suddenly on the table, and the word "Yin Xu" was written on the screen. Incoming calls from other numbers, but Shen Yan didn't dare to mess with other people's mobile phones, so he let it ring, and ignored it until Wei Siyuan finished recording his sonata.

Shen Yan helped Wei Siyuan convert the audio track and sent it to his mailbox. When the time comes, remove the distorted radio from the video recorder and replace it with this audio track to basically restore the scene effect.

When he was operating on the computer, he pointed to Wei Siyuan's mobile phone on the table, glanced at him, and said, "Your mobile phone has been ringing for a long time, there may be something urgent, do you want to call back?"

Wei Siyuan checked the missed calls. Except for the first call was from Yin Xu, the rest were from his mutual friend with Yin Xu. He was wondering if Yin Xu had encountered some emergency in the hospital, such as medicine. Allergies or something, so just went out and called back.

Wei Siyuan grew up in an environment where few people cared for him. Although he had a good temper, he was a little withdrawn. Later, when he grew up, he managed to get better, but it was still obviously difficult to communicate, because it was difficult to trust other people's consciousness. It is too rooted in the heart, and it doesn't know how to distinguish whether other people are suitable or not.

So before, apart from Zheng Heng, who was relatively close to each other day and night, he had almost no friends he had made. The few people who could be called friends were introduced to him by Yin Xu, and they left contact information for each other, but they had never been in the same room. Yin Xu came and went alone without his presence.

Wei Siyuan called the phone, and the other party picked it up immediately, with a rather anxious tone, "Ah, hi, Wei Siyuan, didn't you hear the call just now?"

"Yeah, I was busy with other things and didn't check the phone. What's the matter?"

The other party was a little hesitant, and his tone was not very natural, "Uh, it's like this, you've seen my roommate before, we had supper together before, he, um, his girlfriend's birthday is today, and I want to find more people to have fun If you want to have a meal to celebrate, he will think of you and ask if you can come over."

Wei Siyuan hesitated for a while, and felt that the reason his friend asked him to come out was really lame. Without thinking, he knew that these people wanted to persuade Yin Xu to make peace, but he was afraid that Yin Xu would be rejected if he used Yin Xu as an excuse, so he approached him. He hired someone who had nothing to do with him to cover it up.

The person on the other end of the phone didn't wait for Wei Siyuan's reply, so he impatiently persuaded him a few more words, rambling on a few far-fetched reasons why Wei Siyuan had to come, Wei Siyuan sighed inwardly, and replied, "Okay, Then I'll come over, you tell me the location and time, and I'll come back to the dormitory to put some things."

The friend's tone changed from cloudy to sunny in an instant, and he carefully explained the place and time of Wei Siyuan's dinner, and asked Wei Siyuan to repeat it to him, and hung up the phone only when he was right.

Wei Siyuan returned to the recording studio, took his violin and video recorder, thanked Shen Yan and said goodbye. On the way back to the dormitory, he went to the mall to pick up a women's silk scarf worth hundreds of dollars, and then returned to the dormitory to put the things away. After putting everything away, I went out to the designated restaurant.

It was not night yet, and the weather in the evening was unexpectedly clear. The large water-blue sky was coated with a layer of pink-orange warm light by the setting sun, and it hung down at the end of the horizon.

Wei Siyuan went into the restaurant and went to the private room. Everyone inside had already arrived, and he was the only one left. There was still a little chatter inside, but when Wei Siyuan walked to the door, everyone fell into a panic in seconds. There was silence.

Wei Siyuan stopped there, and saw that all the seats around the big round dining table had been filled, leaving only the seat on Yin Xu's right hand side empty.

Yin Xu and Wei Siyuan, who was standing at the door, met their gazes, and their eyes immediately lit up. His face, which had just recovered from a serious illness, was not very good-looking, and his lips were also pale, but he still tried his best to smile, and opened his mouth a little awkwardly. , "Siyuan, you are here, come and sit here."

Wei Siyuan showed no expression, his eyes wandered around the table, everyone was watching him, like extras waiting for him to sit on Yin Xu's right hand side and start to cooperate with the performance, but Wei Siyuan didn't want to meet their expectations at all.

"I don't want to sit down, I have something to go first." He recognized his friend's roommate, then walked to the girlfriend who seemed to be his friend's roommate, and handed over the silk scarf he bought, "We met for the first time, happy birthday, This is your birthday present."

After the words fell, he turned around and walked out from the box.

Seeing this, Yin Xu immediately got up from his seat and chased him out. He chased all the way to the outside of the hotel before stopping in the direction of Wei Siyuan, panting.

"Siyuan, don't go, listen to me." Yin Xu's eyes were a little red, and there was a lot of sadness and retention in his eyes looking at Wei Siyuan, "I won't go to Xu Ziyu again, and I won't go to him Others, I just want to go back to the way it was before with you, please forgive me, okay?"

"Back to the way it was before." Wei Siyuan paused every word, repeated his words softly, then raised his voice a little, his voice was a little hoarse, "Do you think I was fine in the way I was before? You should understand , from the moment you learn to use others to humiliate my sincerity to you, we can't go back."

Yin Xu felt that his heart was being pulled, and anxiously argued, "I didn't have sex with her, I was drunk that day."

Wei Siyuan retorted without thinking, "When I had sex with you, you were also drunk."

Yin Xu was speechless, and could only stand there helplessly, his eyes were still fixed on Wei Siyuan, but he couldn't recognize any warm and familiar emotion in his pupils.

"You and I quarreled and let someone else sleep in your bed, isn't that enough? Do you want me to ask you if you slept with someone else after you gave birth?" Wei Siyuan continued to suppress the anger in his heart It seemed that he had finally found an outlet to vent, and when he said these hurtful words, his chest began to ache like burning.

Yin Xu looked at him very persistently, and was so hurt by his words that he couldn't care less, "If I say no, I won't. I don't care. No matter what other people do, I just want to start over with you. You don't like it." I can change everything, no matter how good others are, I won’t look at it.”

Wei Siyuan was silent for a while, then calmly turned his face away, "I'm sorry, your memory is wrong, we have never started, we can't talk about starting over. You have been on the Internet before, it doesn't matter if you watch it or not, whatever you want Well, just keep doing what you want to do, and I will never come to hinder you again."

Yin Xu was stunned, shaking his body uncontrollably. He looked at Wei Siyuan's back after he had finished speaking, and hugged him from behind where the neon lights on the road were reflected, and whispered behind him. Said: "I just want to be with you, Siyuan, can you date me, okay?"

Wei Siyuan was silent again, he raised his head, and saw a few sparse stars appearing in the sky where the afterglow had disappeared, far away, dimly, exuding a faint light that was almost drowned by the city's light-polluted sky.

"Yin Xu, a formal relationship is a promise, not a condition of equivalent exchange." His voice was a little faint, as if it had traveled tens of thousands of light years from distant stars to reach the listener's heart, and even he himself was a little in a trance "Now you want to associate with me because you can't bear to leave my care, because you need me, not because you like me. Since you don't like me, there will always be a day when you don't need me anymore. At that time , you will still leave me for the person you really like, and the ending will not be any different."

Yin Xu turned a deaf ear to his words, and just tightened his arms around Wei Siyuan. He knew what love was, but he never thought that one day he would be so urgent about love.

"Wei Siyuan, I like you."

Wei Siyuan trembled slightly in his arms, all the words he was about to say were blown away by the evening wind in his heart that had a hole in it.

Is liking a compromise?

No, liking is a desire from the heart, it is the phrase "you are nothing like my rose, you are nothing" that the little prince blurted out when he walked into the rose garden The obsession that overshadows everything else in the world.

"Like is not like that." Wei Siyuan put his hand on Yin Xu's arm, and gently pulled it away, "It's like I forced you to make a decision whether you want to see others, if you really like me that much, what else? People in your heart will naturally be compared to me, and you don’t need anyone to remind you or force you, because liking someone is very pure, and you can’t tolerate other people’s redundant feelings as impurities.”

Too tired, he loved someone with all his heart and soul for five years, and in the end he got a compromise, a memory after the wallflower withered, but it wasn't love.

Feelings that are not love are given away if you get them. If this is the case, then don’t want them.

"I don't like you anymore." Wei Siyuan said, "Don't pity me."