Gu Nianruochu

On Thursday afternoon, Wei Siyuan left the house of his tutor students and passed the coffee shop near the station. He glanced at the people waiting in line to order, walked calmly to the end of the line, and then turned to the front The man said from the back of his head, "Shen Yan, why are you everywhere, are you following me?"

The person in front turned around in surprise when he heard the voice, looked at him, and said with a bright smile, "I don't have one, my family lives near here, and I come here every day, didn't we meet here before?" Face? But you, don’t you live in the school dormitory, you are the one who followed me, you said you always come here to pretend to meet me by chance, what do you want to do, are you a paparazzi?”

Wei Siyuan also laughed, and moved forward with the team, pretending to be serious and replied, "Please don't force this young [-]th-line singer, I'm just tutoring a student in the community inside."

"What kind of tutor do you do? Teach the violin?" While speaking, it was almost Shen Yan's turn to order, he turned his head and glanced at Wei Siyuan, "Let me invite you, do you want to drink espresso or hand-made items today?"

"Hmm... a single product." Wei Siyuan said, "I can teach anything. I was admitted to the school with a tie for first place in culture and art in the college entrance examination."

Shen Yan opened his eyes wide and looked at Wei Siyuan in horror. After being persecuted by Wei Siyuan's indifferent face on his IQ, he almost couldn't turn his head back. The clerk behind the counter politely reminded him, "Hi sir, may I ask you?" What would you like to have?"

Shen Yan immediately reacted, and handed over the score card in his hand, "A cup of caramel macchiato, a cup of Colombian hand-made items, you are not in a hurry to leave today, are you?" Wei Siyuan shook his head beside him, "Here drink, thank you."

While the two were waiting beside him, Wei Siyuan was used to getting candy. After taking four or five packs, he suddenly realized what he was doing and was stunned. He asked the person beside him nonchalantly, "Do you want to put some sugar ?”

Shen Yan said: "No, there is already caramel in my coffee."

So Wei Siyuan put all the sugar packets in his hands back to their original places. At this moment, his mobile phone vibrated in his trouser pocket, and the incoming call showed Yin Xu's number.

Wei Siyuan still didn't have the heart to block Yin Xu's number, he and Yin Xu have known each other for so many years, even though he is trying to hide from Yin Xu now, but everything will calm down one day and no longer disturb. They are both men, and it is impossible to stop talking to him so pretentiously just because he doesn't like him.

Wei Siyuan picked up the phone, and heard Yin Xu's relaxed and happy voice on the other end of the phone as if nothing had happened, "Siyuan."

"It's me, what's the matter?"

"I have a solo concert next month, come and see if you like, I've reserved a seat for you."

Wei Siyuan was silent for a few seconds, "I've been very busy recently, I probably won't be able to spare time, I have nothing else to do and I'll hang up."

"Wait, wait a minute." Yin Xu finally found a reason to talk to Wei Siyuan cheekily, he didn't want to end the conversation just like that, he paused nervously, his tone was so gentle that he seemed afraid that Wei Siyuan would scare him away, "Siyuan, I miss you."

Then Wei Siyuan hung up the phone with a "snap".

"What's the matter?" Shen Yanzai put the cup of black coffee in front of him, looking at Wei Siyuan's unattractive expression, he was curious but cautious, afraid of being offended by him, "Ex-girlfriend?"

Wei Siyuan shook his head, remembered something and smiled, then let out a little breath like a sigh.

"That's the ex-boyfriend?" Shen Yan continued to speculate full of sophistication.

"It's still not right." Wei Siyuan lowered his head and thought for a few seconds, trying to think of the most suitable description, "The former... the person I like the most in the world."

"Hahahaha, what you said is really interesting." Shen Yan laughed out loud at Wei Siyuan's words, "Then he is the person you dislike the most in the whole world now?"

"That's not true, it's just that the seat was vacated." Wei Siyuan lowered his head and took a sip of his coffee, and glanced out the window. The ground was wet again by the light rain, and the trail of raindrops could be vaguely seen in the air.

"It's been raining a lot lately, have you taken an umbrella to go out?"

Wei Siyuan stared at the gray street scene outside the window for a while, remembering that time after he gave Yin Xu the umbrella, Yin Xu went to protect Xu Ziyu from the rain, and then the umbrella disappeared forever, he felt somewhat regretful in his heart. He was a fool before, but fortunately he still learned to stop the loss in time after all, "It's gone."

"It took you so long to realize that you disappeared, do you want me to take you back later?" Shen Yan looked at Wei Siyuan who was staring out of the window in a daze for a while, but the person sitting opposite did not answer.

At this moment, Yin Xu is also looking out the window, the weather has been gloomy, and the mood of the egg roll has become less lively than before.

Recently, sometimes it always sits on the floor opposite the shoe cabinet as a cat, and then sits motionless for an hour or two looking in the direction of the door, but Wei Siyuan never appears in that place, maybe in his Before coaxing Wei Siyuan back, there will be no more Wei Siyuan there.

With this understanding, Yin Xu began to feel restless. He felt more and more frequently that there was no smell of Wei Siyuan in the air, and there was no temperature of Wei Siyuan in the bed. When he suddenly woke up in the middle of the night, he stretched out his hand to grab When staying somewhere, the place next to him was also empty, and there was no sound of Wei Siyuan's breathing anymore.

He seemed to realize suddenly that loneliness is like this, and Wei Siyuan, who was left here by him when he was with others in other places before, was lonely like this.

He slowly touched the pain that Wei Siyuan had endured for a long time, and the hateful thing is that he, who is only now apologizing, has already missed the opportunity to embrace Wei Siyuan from the past.

After he sent Xu Ziyu away with a bad attitude that day, the other party probably became more and more angry when he got home. He wanted to call him but found that his number was blocked, so he asked him several times on WeChat. Meaning, and who do you think you are and why do you speak to me with that attitude, and do you think I like you very much because I let you kiss me.

The two blamed and abused each other in such a disrespectful way. They were about to break up later, but the other party first threw a word "slut" over and blocked him, not even giving him a chance to scold back. up.

Yin Xu forgot about this person in a blink of an eye, and then began to think about Wei Siyuan unconsciously, but Wei Siyuan no longer took the initiative to talk to him.

This afternoon, Yin Xu's father called him and told him that the time and place for his violin recital had been finalized, and that if he had any friends to invite, he would confirm the list as soon as possible, and when the time came, they would print invitations together letter.

The first thing that Yin Xu thought of was Wei Siyuan. He couldn't wait to tell him the most gratifying good news in recent days, but Wei Siyuan's reaction was as indifferent as a pot of cold water poured on his face. It was mercilessly extinguished, leaving only regret like ashes.

But he really missed Wei Siyuan, wanted to appear in front of him now and see him again, even if Wei Siyuan didn't even look at him at all, he wanted to see him, so he hurriedly put on the coat he threw on the sofa, changed his shoes and ran out .

When the intermittent rain outside began to fall again, Yin Xu stood under the big tree outside Wei Siyuan's dormitory building to hide from the rain, and suddenly heard Wei Siyuan talking to someone else.

Yin Xu turned his head when he heard the sound, and saw Wei Siyuan looking into the other person's eyes when he was chatting with others in the rain curtain, and saw his slightly pursed lips when he was listening to others talking and thinking, and the smile spreading around the corners of his lips. The undiluted sourness floated in my heart.

This feeling was too unbearable, but Wei Siyuan stopped staring at him when he was in front of him, and the shadows of others began to appear in those eyes that once only contained him.

Wei Siyuan had no idea that Yin Xu would brave the rain to come to the dormitory to look for him, and after saying goodbye to Shen Yan who was holding an umbrella to see him back, he walked past him, until when he was walking towards the door of the dormitory, his arm was suddenly grabbed by someone.

He turned around in a little stunned only to see Yin Xu standing behind him, his hair was wet from the fine rain, his eyes were looking at him closely in pain, and he asked him with half resentment and half annoyance, "Wei Siyuan, that person who is it?"

Wei Siyuan's tone was very light, "A friend."

Yin Xu's grip on his arm intensified unconsciously, and his mood suddenly became impetuous, "Why do you talk to him and smile at him while ignoring me? Who the hell is that man!"

Wei Siyuan was still so calm and composed, lowered his eyes and broke away from Yin Xu's hand holding his arm, and made no secret of his resistance to him, "It doesn't matter who you are."

Yin Xu took a small breath with difficulty, and his tone weakened again with grievance, "Siyuan, I apologize to you, I was wrong before, I shouldn't like you but half-heartedly want to be nice to others, please forgive me, OK."

Wei Siyuan turned his eyes away, staring at the accumulated rain that converged on the side of the road, feeling that his heart seemed to be soaked in the cold rain, losing temperature bit by bit, and finally he could no longer feel the touch like now.

"At this moment, don't you still understand? Even if you don't get along well with others, you won't be with me. Whether you don't like me has nothing to do with whether there are other people." He slowly raised his eyes, his face The face was still expressionless, "If you really thought it was wrong, you wouldn't have done it in the first place. What's the use of apologizing afterwards. Don't come here to look for me in the future. There's no need to say these things to me, it's useless Yes. I've been disappointed enough, you let me go, okay?"

Yin Xu was stunned, until Wei Siyuan strayed away from him and walked into the dormitory building, he still stood at the bottom of the building for a long time in a daze.

Unknowingly, he returned home in the rain. At night, he started to catch a cold and have a fever. His throat was burning like smoke, and his nose was red from sneezing.

He fell into a coma on the bed for two days, and occasionally when he woke up from sleep due to physical discomfort, he couldn't help thinking about Wei Siyuan, remembering that he had been taken care of by Wei Siyuan in the past few years, and he rarely even got sick, but now he was so weak Even a single rain made him vulnerable.

Seeing that he was so ill, Egg Roll came over to lick his face considerately, telling him to cheer up and go out to shovel shit for himself, but Yin Xu didn't even have the strength to stand up and get out of bed. I looked through the messages of condolences sent by friends one after another, but none of them came from Wei Siyuan.

He rolled up the quilt covering his body tightly and still felt that he was chilling, and his whole back was sweating coldly. Although his consciousness was drowsy, he knew very clearly at this moment that he needed Wei Siyuan.

He has always been so arrogant and conceited, and has never humbled himself to anyone, but he really wants to beg Wei Siyuan to come and see him, even if he still doesn't forgive him, it's okay to feel sorry for him a little bit.

Then he made the call in a daze, relying on his weakness of illness, Wei Siyuan still answered his call, and heard his thick and hoarse nasal voice pleading to himself, "Siyuan, I have a fever, I feel so uncomfortable... "

"There are fever-reducing medicines in the cabinet next to your kitchen."

"I don't have the strength to get up, Siyuan, I'm dying of pain, come and see me, please..."

Wei Siyuan felt a dull pain in his heart, and was at a loss for a moment. He felt sorry for this person and cared for this person almost became an instinct. Facing his fragility within reach, it seemed that the water that had already reached freezing point could not be burned by compassion. heat up.

But he still took a deep breath and suppressed this emotion forcibly, "Call someone else, I'm busy and don't have time."

Wei Siyuan hung up the phone, feeling uneasy for a while, and finally couldn't help calling Yin Xu and a mutual friend of his, and asked the other party to go to his house to have a look, fearing that something might happen if he burned too badly.

The friend didn't know about their affairs, so he went there at his request. He knocked on the door for a long time, but no one responded. He hurriedly called the police and called an ambulance, and then Yin, who was in a high fever in the room, passed out. Xu was sent to the hospital.