die by your hands

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"You have never had a girlfriend. In fact, you are indeed gay, right?"

An Tianming was caught off guard by Bai Weifei's quick question.

Bai Wei, who didn't get an answer, didn't care and continued to analyze, "It's hard for a non-professional actor to be so devoted when going to bed, so I believe you must like to have sex with men." His expression was natural, as if Discussing irrelevant topics like the weather.

An Tianming, who didn't understand why for a while, tried hard to find out the reason for this sudden topic.

Speaking of which, from just now, An Tianming noticed the eager eyes of the other party.It was very similar to that night, when Bai Wei was drunk, and for the first time showed his desire to An Tianming without fear and guard - but this was unreasonable, Bai Wei couldn't possibly want him - in order not to let He was too disappointed. An Tianming prevented himself from believing in this possibility from the very beginning. He gave his clearest conclusion and wanted to use a more rational way to protect himself from being hurt by loss.However, humans are always greedy and tend to expect miracles.An Tianming thought again, maybe Bai Wei is really willing to give himself a chance.That night, An Tianming tried his best to restrain himself in order not to act despicably by taking advantage of the situation.He thought maybe he could have a good talk with Bai Wei the next day.They have to talk.Under the circumstance that things would not get worse anyway, An Tianming had to grasp the possible turning point, even if it was slight.

He could hardly wait for the dawn, for Bai Wei to wake up from his drunkenness.Little did he know then that the next day he would encounter a situation that could actually make things worse.

In fact, the setbacks in the market never hurt An Tianming. No one can win forever. Everyone's strength comes from difficulties, and the biggest capital to win is the ability to afford to lose.This time, however, the setback was different.An Tianming, who had to give up the current most important acquisition plan for the company, realized the crucial fact - Bai Wei therefore no longer needs to accept protection.

Of course he can't lie to Bai Wei, but if he tells Bai Wei the truth, maybe Bai Wei will leave immediately and never see him again.An Tianming, who has always been quite cautious in the face of risks, has no way to take this risk, which can be called a fatal danger to him.Therefore, he could only weakly and blindly evade, avoiding Bai Wei on the pretext that he was busy with business, so as to avoid telling the other party the truth in exchange for the other party's heartbreaking choice.

He didn't expect to receive a text message from Bai Wei.

Bai Wei asked him when he would go back, as if expecting him to come home.

Of course, the opposite could also be the case...

All the way home, An Tianming was thinking that maybe Bai Wei already knew about the failure of the acquisition and wanted to leave, so he sent him a message.Bai Wei wanted to say goodbye to him.For this reason, he almost didn't want to go home - but what if Bai Wei only needed him for other things?This thought made An Tianming, who was hesitant in his heart, return to his residence without delay.

Then, again unexpectedly, he was asked such a question by Bai Wei. "You have never had a girlfriend. In fact, you are indeed gay, right?"

To be honest, An Tianming didn't have a clear sexual orientation, he could sleep with people of both genders at the same time without any hindrance, but he never really liked one of them - except for the one and only exception.For him, only this one and only exception has ever existed for him.Can't say if it's good or bad or something else, but at least, it's different.Totally different and unique.

And the only exception to this was standing in front of him at the moment and discussing his sexuality without thinking.

He never cared whether the other party was a man or a woman, only whether that person was Bai Wei.

"You know, stupid self-esteem will make me unwilling to try again after being rejected." Bai Wei standing in front of the room looked up into An Tianming's eyes and said slowly, "I don't know Why do I have to make an exception, but I want to try again—this is my last invitation, and even if you change your mind after that, I can only refuse. So, "The person with a dazed expression all the time After a slight pause, he suddenly became much calmer. He looked so determined, as if revealing the final ending to bring the story to an end, "Do you want to have sex with me?" He asked word by word.

Of course An Tianming wanted to.But what he wanted was more.What he wants is a true soul-to-heart fit, not just a purely physical combination that puts each other at straws.Most importantly, the other party is still a patient.

Bai Wei didn't know what he wanted at all, he just wanted to know what An Tianming could give him.

An Tianming, who noticed that the other party was barefoot, walked into the room to help the other party fetch the slippers, and squatted down to put on the other party's shoes. "Xiao Wei, can we sit down and have a good talk?"

Bai Wei obviously didn't agree with An Tianming's suggestion, but he silently looked at An Tianming for a while and then chose to compromise: "What do you want to talk to me about?"

An Tianming was stunned by this question.He has so much to say, but he doesn't know what to say?

Perhaps, he should face reality first.

This answer flashed in An Tianming's mind, and he unconsciously took a deep breath. "Xiao Wei, I think, you have the right to know about this - to be precise, I don't have the right to delay telling you about this..."

"What situation are you talking about?"

An Tianming subconsciously paused, and Bai Wei finally became curious and puzzled by the slightly concentrated attention.The latter asked after not waiting for a clear answer.

"There is no threat anymore, about the people I said before who want to deal with me." An Tianming replied, "If you want to leave, I have no way to use the reason that someone might be against you to keep you."

Bai Wei lost his mind for a long time because of this answer. When he spoke again, his expression was still in a trance, and a trace of uncertain joy flashed through his eyes. He couldn't help asking to check: "You mean, you will let me go?" ?”

Inevitably, An Tianming noticed that Bai Wei used the word "let go". Regardless of the reality, in Bai Wei's heart, An Tianming was a kidnapper who imprisoned him, and he never felt a sliver of freedom.there has never been.

"Xiao Wei, what do you want me to do?" An Tianming blurted out subconsciously.He wanted to know the answer to this question too much, but he didn't believe there was a correct answer at all, which made his tone full of despair.

Bai Wei immediately took a half step back vigilantly. He observed An Tianming's actions without any trace, and carefully replied in an inquiring tone: "I don't need you to do anything, maybe I'm just a little homesick and want to go back?"

An Tianming smiled bitterly: "So, you will never want to stay, will you?"

Bai Wei glanced at An Tianming strangely for a moment, as if he was confused by An Tianming: "Do you want me to stay? But, what exactly do you want?"

An Tianming only felt his body getting colder and colder, so cold that he didn't have the strength to open his mouth.How could he answer Bai Wei's question?When Bai Wei stared at him with eyes that would never believe a word he said, how could he express his truest feelings to the other party?

"I'm sorry, Xiaowei." I made you like this. "It made you live so hard."

"Don't say that, at least I live a much more fulfilling life now than before." Bai Wei replied casually.

"...I like the songs you wrote." An Tianming was at a loss for words, but he wanted to find something to say, otherwise after this conversation, he might never have the chance to meet Bai Wei face to face again. Chance.

This sudden topic made Bai Wei raise his eyebrows in surprise. "Thanks."

"...Maybe you could try singing those songs yourself?"

Bai Wei shrugged and laughed at himself, "You must say that because you have never heard me sing."

Of course An Tianming had heard of it.He still remembers that while driving the car, he sincerely asked the other party, a music student, why he couldn't sing a word in tune-but Bai Wei obviously didn't remember their past.I don't remember the good past that happened between them.

"So, you haven't answered my question yet." Bai Wei started another line when An Tianming was immersed in memories.

An Tianming was stunned for a moment: "Your question?"

"To be precise, it's my invitation." Bai Wei asked, looking directly into An Tianming's eyes.In his tone, in his expression, he was so calm as if it meant nothing.

So An Tianming took a while to figure out what the so-called invitation was.

"Only when you really want to." He replied, staring into the other's eyes that could no longer see through.

Bai Wei approached slowly tentatively. He gently pressed his left hand against An Tianming's chest, and then slid it down to the latter's belt buckle little by little.He has been focusing on his hands, watching them unzip An Tianming's pants.

An Tianming wanted to refuse, he was afraid that the other party didn't really want it, he was afraid of hurting the other party.But this is something he has no way of controlling, even though the scene in front of him seems so absurd - the most important thing is that that person is Bai Wei.

During the four years they were together, Bai Wei never did that.Bai Wei's obsession with cleanliness is not obvious, but there are always things that he can't adapt to.He wasn't even used to An Tianming using his mouth to release him, let alone mouth* for An Tianming.And now, he is kneeling in front of An Tianming...

An Tianming could no longer face the current scene with a clear mind.Even Bai Wei's jerky, unskilled level couldn't stop him from reacting almost to shame.

He didn't know when he pushed Bai Wei down on the bed and kissed him hard, it was all his own taste, but he knew who he was trying to rob.

He wants this.Just don't dare to do that.Because he was afraid of losing each other completely, but he wanted this.At least, this can make him have the illusion that he owns the other party in some moments - the illusion that even he himself has been deceived.

"……Xiao Wei……"

What responded to him was Bai Wei's abnormally cold lips that were silently close.