die by your hands

Except for leaving the 5 RMB for donation, Bai Wei bought all the remaining funds in the stock "recommended" by An Tianming.

To be honest, Bai Wei not only waited, but even looked forward to the stock's continuous limit drop.Because if that's the case, it means that An Tianming just wants him to be penniless again.Regardless of whether this is because An Tianming is worried about Bai Wei's commercial revenge, or just hopes that he will not do it, as long as he disperses his family wealth as An Tianming wishes, first of all, An Tianming will let Bai Wei down because of his low ability. Be wary, and secondly, An Tianming who is satisfied may not want to take revenge anymore.Such a situation is beneficial and not harmful to Bai Wei.

——However, contrary to Bai Wei's wishes, that stock, as An Tianming said, has been continuously increasing since that Monday.

Along with this stock, Bai Wei's worries and fears continued to rise.To a certain extent, Bai Wei knew that this was his own flaw.If he was a little braver and willing to believe in the beauty of human nature, then he would accept the possibility that what An Tianming did now was only out of compensation and good intentions - but he couldn't.He could never let go of his defense against An Tianming, as if every animal would guard against its own natural enemies.The fear that An Tianming gave him had penetrated deep into his bone marrow, and he could no longer find the ability to try to understand the other party's behavior.

On this day, Bai Wei rejected Li Lang's invitation to watch a movie together as a formal "date", and instead invited him to meet and talk in a cafe.

Li Lang felt a certain omen about Bai Wei's behavior of inviting them to the coffee shop, especially, Bai Wei, who usually showed up at a pinch point and might be late today, unexpectedly arrived early today.After entering the cafe and sitting opposite Bai Wei, Li Lang observed Bai Wei thoughtfully, and said straight to the point: "So, Xiao Bai, prepare me mentally, are we going to talk about something serious today?"

Bai Wei tried to use as light a tone as possible, "You can say yes. I don't have much experience in talking about breaking up, so I don't know if I should tell a joke or something to brighten the atmosphere?" Well, this joke is actually not funny at all. .But fortunately, it succeeded in spoiling the serious matter.

Li Lang didn't have much surprise—nor did he flatter the joke—he looked into Bai Wei's eyes with a solemn expression. "Xiaobai, before you ask that, can you tell me what happened first?"

Bai Wei couldn't help but sighed inwardly, hesitated to open his opening words: "Alang, I don't know how to explain you can understand..."

"You know, I've always understood you, right?" Li Lang said patiently and slowly.

His calmness gave Bai Wei a little more confidence in his next absurd remarks. "The cause of this incident is the pen fairy game we played before. I don't know what you think..." Now that I think about it, it's absurd that I really believe in such a game.

Li Lang quickly interfaced: "I'm an atheist, and I never believed in such things. But that pen wrote my name. This is something I have always believed in, so it has nothing to do with psychics. I just choose to keep believing in what I believe in."

"But, this is totally different from what we imagined." Bai Wei couldn't help but shudder when he thought of the truth, he couldn't imagine the situation where An Tianming was so close to him and he didn't even notice, "— - That pen fairy is actually the creature of An Tianming who is in a coma."

Li Lang observed Bai Wei worriedly, and tried to express himself gently and quietly: "Xiao Bai, have you been under too much pressure recently?"

"I know you've always thought that maybe I should see a psychiatrist. I know that sometimes I lose control of my emotions. But this time it's not my illusion. In fact, An Tianming himself admitted-again, it can't be his A scam, because he knows things that only a pen fairy knows."

"It's not that I want to exaggerate or dramatize things." Li Lang carefully considered his words, "There is no impenetrable wall in this world. To give the simplest example, if your room is secretly tapped on the monitoring equipment , then, nothing is a secret."

Bai Wei really believed that An Tianming had such ability, and even suspected that the other party could do such a thing, but this time things were different.He had seen the other party with his own eyes, and in that mirror, it was so real that it was creepy.At that time, he believed that this could never be just his hallucination.

"It may be difficult for us to convince each other about this issue, but fortunately this is not the most important thing." Bai Wei simply skipped the progress, he didn't need so much evidence, sometimes a clue can deduce the final conclusion, although his conclusion A little extreme, "Actually, what worries me the most is that An Tianming himself said later, not only through the mouth of the pen fairy, but later he himself said that he would bless the two of us."

Li Lang, who was trying to keep calm, frowned unconsciously and asked in an incredible tone: "So? Why did this make you decide to break up with me?"

Bai Wei didn't want to look like a conspiracy theorist with the worst thoughts in his head, however, he couldn't help himself from thinking about the possibility: "Maybe this is His plan. He's trying to set us up because it's the first step in his plan, his layout, and he's going to use the situation to implement something. He's probably going to take on you—I don't know why he would do that Do, but he always does things that I don't know why, so he is likely to deal with you. And I can't let things develop like this. I can't let you be involved." Bai Wei felt a little sad and regretful He greeted Li Lang intently and looked at him intently.He really thought about dedicating himself to this relationship. There has never been a clear standard for things in this world. It is said that two people must love each other to a certain extent before they can be together. Therefore, maybe he and Li Lang can become a particularly suitable pair .But, now they have no chance. "Alang, I will never allow any bad things to happen to you because of myself. This kind of thing must never happen again."

Li Lang quietly listened to Bai Wei's speech.He tried to refute several times, but when Ren Baiwei finished speaking, indistinct emotions flashed in his eyes. After a moment of silence, he said softly and calmly: "Xiaobai, if I say that I have the ability to protect What about us? No matter what An Tianming will do or not, I'm not someone who can't fight back, I believe I can protect myself and you, especially I want to protect you. "

Bai Wei wanted to believe the other party.In fact, Li Lang is indeed the person Bai Wei trusts the most in this world, no matter in terms of ability or character.However, this doesn't work.Negative emotions are always powerful enough to easily overwhelm positive emotions.Bai Wei's fear of An Tianming made him dare not imagine what would happen if he confronted An Tianming.Even if he chooses to stick to Li Lang today, he will be in constant panic all day long afterwards.It's a never-ending fear that will never end.And the punishment without end is the most terrible punishment.

"If," Bai Wei said, he was so sorry and guilty when he said these sincere words, "Alang, if I have the kind of emotion for you that can be reckless, maybe I will stick to it regardless of the consequences... But We haven't reached that level. In this world, there are couples who will be committed to life and death, and at the same time, there are also those who fly separately when disasters are imminent. For me, I can share troubles with you, but I don't know that I will be hurt because of you. It made me feel guilty all my life and wanted to be with you. I’m sorry, but I still chose myself.”

Li Lang was silent again for a long time.He seemed to have thought over Bai Wei's words over and over again.In the end, he unconsciously revealed a self-deprecating wry smile. "Actually, I understand. The bottom line is that you don't love me that much, not to the point where you don't want to let go."

"I'm sorry, Aaron." Bai Wei understood that he had failed the other party.From the very beginning, he shouldn't have agreed to the relationship. At that time, he was dazzled by what he thought was God's will, and irresponsibly felt that maybe he should obey the arrangement of fate rather than obeying his own heart.

Or maybe he longs too much for the feeling of being loved by someone.The paternal love he received from his father was always lukewarm, and the closer Uncle Fu had his own children after all, but when he thought that finally someone would love him wholeheartedly, he was completely wrong.Later, he kept thinking that it must be because he has never been loved by others and has no experience, so he can't tell the truth from the fake.He doesn't know what it's like to be loved by someone.And he wanted to know too much.He really wanted to know that when he was loved by someone, would he not be so lonely, would he not want others to listen to him so much, would he want others to smile at him so much?He hopes to get an answer from Li Lang, if Li Lang is the one he is destined to meet.

But it turned out that this was not an arrangement of fate.This is An Tianming's arrangement.Bai Wei cannot implicate Li Lang.He can lose 30 yuan, maybe be deprived of his place of safety, and be homeless, but he can't let himself bear more guilt.He had already sent his father to prison because of his unintentional sentence, and he couldn't implicate others because of any wrong decision.Otherwise, he really can't carry it.It was only with great difficulty that he mustered up the courage to live hard knowing that he was a sinner. This was his limit, and he couldn't bear more.

"You're right, Alang." Bai Wei stood up, "If you were An Tianming back then," he didn't know why he used An Tianming as an example, why he didn't think twice when he wanted to list true love Saying An Tianming's name was so ridiculous, it made him feel as if a needle had been pricked somewhere in his body, which made him extremely painful, and he could continue speaking only after his unconscious shortness of breath calmed down a bit, " Maybe I won't make this decision now." After speaking, he turned around and quickly left the table where they were.

Walking all the way out, Bai Wei could feel Li Lang's gaze still following his back, but he didn't look back.He couldn't look back at what he rejected, or the closest chance to happiness in his life...even, that might be the only chance left?

Maybe, Bai Wei thought in reverse, this is An Tianming's real purpose.An Tianming deliberately and falsely matched them up, the purpose was to intimidate him and induce him to choose to leave.Of course An Tianming had a reason to do that.An Tianming's parents chose to jump off the building and died because of Bai Wei's father's commercial blows, which led to An Tianming's unfortunate childhood.So, how could he hope to see Bai Wei have a happy future?

Therefore, this only choice may indeed be the right choice - if doing that can make An Tianming feel better, calm down the hatred in An Tianming's heart, and let him feel a little peace, then Bai Wei is willing to be alone forever Lonely, not happy.