die by your hands

People who knew An Tianming later believed that he had changed a lot since he woke up from the accident in England.In fact it is true.Although it was a lot late, three full years late, An Tianming finally found out that he didn't want to be a profit-seeking businessman, and maybe he would also ruthlessly destroy a happy family for his own benefit. A person who is as cruel as the one you hate.In terms of business, An Tianming's methods have become much more gentle and gentle. Besides, the charitable activities that were once carried out purely for tax avoidance or corporate reputation have now gained his real concern.The distance between him and Bai Wei is already too far, but if he can become a kind and beautiful person like Bai Wei, maybe that is the only moment that can make An Tianming feel that he can still be in the same world with him.

When deciding to carry out more charity activities and choose some new projects, An Tianming thought of the orphanage he had stayed in.An Tianming lost his parents at the age of 12 and was sent to an orphanage. Because he was too old, he was not adopted in the end. Afterwards, he left the orphanage and changed his name to start planning for revenge.To be honest, his twelfth birthday was extremely lonely, and he didn't have any deep contact with anyone in the orphanage.Even so, however, he was not ungrateful for the care and attention he received in the orphanage.When he thinks about giving back - which has never occurred to him before - the orphanage where he was educated and raised is the first thing that comes to mind.

The orphanage in An Tianming's memory was not a particularly poor organization, but anyway, if he wanted to do charity for an orphanage, the only thing An Tianming, as a businessman, could think of was donation.For this event, An Tianming, who has donated to many charities, rarely went to the organizations he funded in person.Under the reception of the dean, An Tianming, who had no need to conceal his background, thanked the other party for taking care of him when he was young. After completing some necessary procedures, he did not rush to leave, but chose to visit the orphanage.

At that time, An Tianming, who was full of hatred and only wanted to get revenge one day, didn't really get many good memories from the orphanage.In those scenes that he can remember sporadically, he is always watching other children playing in the corner, and sometimes a teacher or aunt will pull him to join in, but he has never enjoyed those times. Unlike a worried child, what he wants isn't happiness...at least not then.At that time, he gained power from hatred, and he thought that what he needed was power.With power, you can become a strong person, and become a person who will never be hurt by others.He vowed that he would never let himself get hurt, because he didn't know at that time that the most tragic thing in this world is not getting hurt, but hurting the person he loves the most.He didn't know then.He found out later that it was too late.

What if he could start over from this orphanage?After he finally understood something more important?Walking in this familiar yet unfamiliar place, An Tianming's thoughts wandered wildly.He knew how foolish he was to expect hope that didn't exist.Now that Bai Wei is with Li Lang, for An Tianming, there is no hope in his life anymore.So what is he expecting?

Suddenly, An Tianming stopped in his tracks.He actually saw Bai Wei.

Bai Wei on the lawn under the sun.Bai Wei, who was sitting cross-legged on the ground, was surrounded by a group of children who were listening intently. The former stretched out his hands and gestured for something, and lowered his head to concentrate on studying for a long time, while talking non-stop.There was a streamer flying in his eyes, and the sun eclipsed him.

It took An Tianming a while to convince himself that this was not a mirage, even though the picture was too beautiful to be real at all.He lifted his foot, instinctively wanting to walk in that direction.However, someone stopped him before that.

"Mr. An, the dean said you might be here. If you're interested, I'm here to show you around the orphanage."

An Tianming turned his head and saw Wang Ning, the bar owner friend he had met at Bai Wei's house.But as far as the other party is concerned, they should have never met each other. An Tianming just pretended that the two did not know each other: "Thank you, I can just go shopping by myself."

"No." Wang Ning's originally polite face flashed a cold and tough attitude.

This sudden strong stop made An Tianming frown vigilantly and turned his head to look at the other party.

"I think we can be more honest," Wang Ning said bluntly, "Please don't bother Bai Wei in the past."

As Bai Wei's friend, Wang Ning knew An Tianming, and it was normal to know what An Tianming had done.To be honest, An Tianming could find enough reasons for him to forgive Wang Ning's vaguely hostile attitude towards him and prevent him from seeing Bai Wei.However, sometimes there are many reasons are useless.An Tianming just didn't want to accept Wang Ning's words.

You know, in the past six months, in order not to disturb Bai Wei's life and prevent himself from seeing each other, he has put in a lot of effort, and he is almost exhausted for this.He deserved a little reward, after all the painful struggles he'd endured.He just wanted to see each other, to say a few words...or to say a word...or not to speak.He just took a closer look at the other party, he deserved a little reward like this, no one must have worked harder than him in the past six months.

"Why do you prevent me from seeing Bai Wei?" An Tianming couldn't help frowning and questioning.

Wang Ning replied without hesitation: "It's not easy for the children in the orphanage to see their favorite Bai Wei. I don't want Bai Wei to dare to come here again because of your appearance."

An Tianming didn't understand what Wang Ning was saying. "Why didn't Bai Wei dare to come here?"

Wang Ning blurted out the answer——

"because of you."

An Tianming's face was livid and extremely annoyed, and he accused the other party of being irresponsible, but when he opened his mouth to fight back, all the words were stuck in his throat.He couldn't find a strong enough argument to refute. Even though there was no logic in it, even he himself felt that Wang Ning was right.

Facing An Tianming who was speechless for a moment, Wang Ning's expression softened a little. "Xu Hao, I know why you hate Bai Wei." He said suddenly.

An Tianming was slightly taken aback because his former name was revealed.

People in the orphanage already knew that he was Xu Hao who had grown up here, but no one called him that anymore.He didn't like the name, and his parents left him easily because of business failure, which made him not so fond of the name given to him by the other party.Now his name is An Tianming, which is the name he gave himself, and the expectation he gave himself.He wanted a home in his heart, a home with the brightest sky.So he is An Tianming, not Xu Hao.

The name that was once the most familiar and now the most unfamiliar made An Tianming look at Wang Ning in a daze, and then he realized what the other party said.

"Xu Hao, I know why you hate Bai Wei."

He didn't hate Bai Wei at all.However, bystanders take it for granted.

—everyone saw what he did.Except himself.

His chest was squeezed by unspeakable emotions, which made him almost out of breath.

Wang Ning continued: "Although we have never played together, I remember you at that time. All the children who came to the orphanage had their own misfortunes, but most of them quickly recovered their nature. Only you , you are always so withdrawn, I can imagine how much pain a child has to go through before he can't recover from the pain."

An Tianming was able to find some facts from the other party's words.For example, it turns out that Wang Ning was also a child in an orphanage.Thinking about it this way, he remembered that there was a child in the orphanage who was more popular with everyone, and the little girls called him Brother Ning-but what's the use of these facts?The children in the orphanage each have their own misfortunes, only he deprives himself of the ability to strive for new happiness.

Wang Ning looked at An Tianming carefully. After An Tianming didn't respond for a long time, he started another topic: "In the second year after you came to the orphanage, the orphanage received a donation of 50 yuan. We are an inconspicuous small institution here. , there is rarely such a high amount of funding. The dean doesn't know why, but only knows that the donation was made in the name of Bai Wei. Bai Wei was only ten years old at that time, and of course he didn't donate it himself. In fact, this It was donated by Bai Wei's father, Bai Qianyuan, who took it as a birthday present for Bai Wei."

An Tianming was stunned, he didn't know what this unexpected fact meant, but anyway, this was a situation he never expected to face. "What are you talking about? What are you trying to say?"

"I'm just telling a story." Wang Ning replied naturally.He didn't pay attention to An Tianming's sharp eyes, and continued his narration, "In fact, a ten-year-old child must prefer toys, rather than donations in his own name. But every year, Bai Qianyuan gave Bai Wei a birthday gift every year. A certificate of donating 50 yuan to the orphanage—maybe Bai Qianyuan himself was not a particularly great person, and his donation was just to appease his guilt, but in any case, he has been working hard to let his children learn to be better No one knows when Bai Wei began to like this birthday gift, but this gift must have been important to him later, because..."

Wang Ning's words immersed in memories stopped unconsciously, and An Tianming asked subconsciously, "Why?"

"Because," Wang Ning came back to his senses, looking at Bai Wei who was still talking happily on the lawn in the distance, "because on the day of Bai Wei's 24th birthday, the Bai family had declared bankruptcy and everything was auctioned off. Now, he still donated 50 to the orphanage."

An Tianming tried hard to control his breathing to avoid revealing too much emotion, but he knew where the 50 came from, which made him even lose the courage to face himself.

Wang Ning didn't notice An Tianming's reaction, and he quickly advanced the plot: "The dean was very worried about Bai Wei after receiving the donation, so I went to see Bai Wei, who was already helping in the orphanage. At that time, Bai Wei said to me, On his 25th birthday, he can still donate 50 yuan, but he probably won't be able to do it after that... He laughed at himself and said that he would definitely not be able to make money by himself. I have seen people who give up on themselves. He despises himself even more than those people, but , He also has more fear and fear than those people. In ghost movies, those who underestimate the enemy will suffer failure, but Bai Wei is the kind of character who looks the most timid, but can scream in horror and fight his way out. "

In fact, An Tianming knew that Bai Wei was not afraid because of timidity, but Bai Wei just took too good a view of people and things, he cared more than everyone else, so he was more afraid than everyone else.

"At that time, the dean convinced Bai Wei that what the children in the orphanage lacked was not funds, but concern. That year, the dean only accepted a donation of [-] yuan from Bai Wei, and then asked Bai Wei to be a volunteer in the orphanage. Today, Bai Wei will donate [-] yuan to the orphanage every year on his birthday. At the same time, he will come to the orphanage one day a week—until he meets you again."

An Tianming flinched subconsciously.He knew that once he joined this story that sounded so good, it would take a turn for the worse.

Wang Jing said quietly, "Bai Wei was afraid of getting involved in the orphanage, and he didn't want you to know that he had a strong enough bond with anyone to make those people the target of your revenge, so he closed himself again and narrowed his social circle. To the youngest, even seeing a friend is sneaky and trembling—do you know how scared he is? Today is the first time he returns to the orphanage after reuniting with you. You haven’t shown up for half a year, but he has no choice but to He didn’t dare to come here without mustering up a lot of courage, and he was persecuted delusionally worried that someone would follow him along the way.”

"I didn't follow him." An Tianming didn't know why he wanted to clarify this matter, as if he was afraid of being misunderstood by Bai Wei's friends.You know, even if he is not misunderstood, his image is already the worst in anyone's eyes.

Wang Ning nodded: "I know. Just now I specifically confirmed with the dean that your donation was pre-booked. It is impossible for you to know that Bai Wei will come to the orphanage today."

After hesitating, An Tianming whispered, "I don't hate him."

There was really no point in clarifying the matter, but it was the only thing he could say.After all, if he said "I love him," even he thought it was the funniest joke in the world.

Wang Ning looked into An Tianming's eyes solemnly: "The reason why I tell you these things is just to hope that you understand that Bai Wei should not be hurt by anyone. He is worthy of this world. He is the only one in this not so good world. Rarely a good thing happens - don't expose him to those horrific injustices."

The story on the lawn will finally end.With a bright smile, Bai Wei lifted a child who couldn't walk and sat on his shoulders, and then a group of chattering children surrounded Bai Wei and walked towards the side door where they were.

Watching the person he wanted to meet in his dreams walking towards him, An Tianming subconsciously hid to the side.

he was so scared...

—Yes, now it was his turn to be afraid.