goodbye midsummer

When Qin Yang arrived at the small restaurant, he happened to see Ye Zi helping the half-drunk Xu Hao out.Although she looked rather thin and weak, she was quite strong. Xu Hao leaned half of her body on her shoulder, already a little unconscious.

Ye Zi threw him into the back seat of the taxi, clapped her hands, and looked at Qin Yang who was walking towards her.

"Shen Yi is still inside, but he's almost sober."

"Did you drink a lot today?" Qin Yang glanced at Xu Hao who was curled up and sleeping in the back seat of the car.

"Actually, there are not many, it's just that these two men drink too little." Ye Zi smiled, and got into the taxi by herself, "I'll send him back to the school dormitory. Shen Yi, please .”

"Hmm." He responded.The taxi sped away quickly and disappeared around the corner, and he turned and walked into the small restaurant.

There were not many people in the restaurant at this time, only a group of middle-aged men and women tirelessly persuading each other to drink around a few tables.He stepped into the gate, and soon saw a figure crouching on the table in the corner.

He walked straight over and patted the man on the back lightly.

Shen Yi looked up at him, still slightly drunk, and smiled at him.

"You are the only one left?" Qin Yang sat down beside him.

"Yeah." He raised his face and said slowly, "Chen Yuewei went back first, just now...Ye Zi left with Xu Hao..."

"I just ran into them outside." Qin Yang was not in a hurry, and sat across from him and looked at him patiently, "Who is Chen Yuewei?"

"Yuewei?" Shen Yi was stunned, and his reaction was slowed down by alcohol, "Oh, Chen Yuewei...is my high school classmate, Ye Zi and Xu Hao knew each other...a few years ago moved to another place I went and haven't been back for a long time..."

Seeing his flushed cheeks and the gleam in his eyes, Qin Yang couldn't help feeling a little moved, so he quietly turned his eyes away, "Why did you drink so much?"

He smiled: "I'm very happy to see my old friend. I was accidentally taken by Xu Hao to drink a lot. But now I've woken up and I'm fine."

"He's obviously still drunk. His mouth is stiff." Qin Yang couldn't help but said.

He laughed even wider: "It doesn't matter if you're drunk, isn't there still you."

But Qin Yang looked a little restless after seeing him like this: "Can I go now?"

"No problem." He stood up while leaning on the edge of the table a little shaky, shaking his hands by his side, "Look, it's no problem."

"Then let's go back." After a little hesitation, Qin Yang stepped forward and supported his waist.

Shen Yi's walking was still unsteady, so he leaned on Qin Yang a little bit.The small restaurant was built by the river, and as soon as they went out, the summer night breeze blew in their faces, carrying the cool breath of the river.

He stretched comfortably, and said to Qin Yang, "Let's take a walk and go home."

Qin Yang frowned: "Is that what you look like?"

"What are you afraid of? I'm not so drunk. It's a rare opportunity. Let's take a walk by the river."

While drunk, Shen Yi's words seemed to be coquettish, so Qin Yang couldn't refuse.

"Then let's go... If you can't walk anymore, just take the car." As he said this, the hand on Shen Yi's waist trembled.

So in the summer night, the two of them walked slowly by the river.The flowing water under the railing rushes away, and the neon lights of the shops on the other side of the river are constantly blooming and shining like colorful flowers, reflecting the radiant beauty in the river.

The cool wind caressed their faces gently, and there were few pedestrians along the river. Except for them, the occasional couples they met were all couples: holding hands, cuddling, and talking intimately.

After walking for a while, Shen Yi suddenly stopped: "I'm a little tired..."

There happened to be a wooden bench in front, Qin Yang said, "Then sit down and rest."

Shen Yi was probably really tired, so he nodded and jumped over, handing his body to the bench as if he was relieved.Qin Yang sat down next to him, with the mighty rushing river in front of them, and the neon light kept flashing in their eyes.

After being silent for a while, Shen Yi suddenly said, "I suddenly remembered the day I saw you for the first time."

Qin Yang was stunned.

"It was also by the river that day. I just had a stomachache. You came over and asked me if I was okay. Do you remember?"

Qin Yang nodded.

How could you not remember.

Maybe because he thought of something interesting, Shen Yi suddenly laughed: "You told me a lot at that time, if I don't want to laugh, don't laugh."

Qin Yang's face turned red all of a sudden, he was very embarrassed: "Stop talking."

Shen Yi deliberately poked his elbow: "You were so cool at that time, you were very mature, and you looked like an adult."

The last sentence made Qin Yang's brows tighten again.

Very grown-up?What's the meaning?Have I always been a brat in your eyes?

Shen also didn't notice the subtle fluctuations in his mood, and smiled very gently: "To be honest, I am very grateful for your words at that time. It's great that you are the one who became my younger brother."

In an instant, emotions of emotion and sadness spread in Qin Yang's heart.

It's so nice of you to be my brother.

No, I don't feel bad at all.

He clenched his fists: "I think, at all..."

not good at all.

But looking at Shen Yi's starry eyes, he didn't have the courage to say the second half of the sentence.

If he confesses: his feelings, his wishes, his dreams...the love that he only dares to hide in the corner of his heart, if he tells everything, what kind of expression and reaction will Shen Yi have.

He dared not think about it.

All he knew was that there was bound to be something, and that was it.

Even this unrelated brotherhood will end here.

However, it is too painful to be by Shen Yi's side with an unfulfilled love.

Every look and every movement of the other party will arouse his fantasies and make him have unnecessary hopes.

It hurts to be in love with someone who has no hope of responding.

At this moment, Shen Yi, who didn't know anything, looked at him with gentle eyes, and the night wind was even more unbearable.

"If there is something unhappy, don't hold it in your heart alone." He said so.

Qin Yang had no choice but to look away, pretending to be calmly watching the eastward river: "I'm not unhappy. Haven't I always been like this?"

Shen Yi could only smile wryly: "You."

Since Qin Yang didn't speak, Shen Yi had no choice but to take over the task.Fortunately, he did have some feelings tonight: "Tonight, I saw a female classmate in high school, and she said that I have changed, and I am different from high school."

"How did it change?"

Shen Yi laughed: "She said that I have become gentle."

"Really?" To Qin Yang, Shen Yi has always been a gentle person.He never knew what this person looked like in high school, so he was somewhat curious, "Did you not be gentle in high school?"

"It's more solitary, very similar to you now." Shen Yi looked at him with a blurred light in his eyes.

Qin Yang was a little surprised, it was hard for him to imagine that the former Shen Yi would have a cold and alienated side.

"It's a bit unbelievable." He said honestly, "So the character becomes gentler because he grows up?"

In the cool breeze, Shen Yi smiled drunkenly: "There are also reasons for growth. But the most important thing is that I met you."

With the power of wine, he said such words.

Facing the evening wind, Shen Yi continued: "Without you, I might have become a negative person. So I am very grateful to you, Qin Yang. You make me feel alive, but it's not all a bad thing."

Qin Yang knew in his heart: Shen Yi was drunk, that's why he said such words.

But it was precisely because he was drunk that what he said was all the more mind-boggling.This at least means that what he said is the truth.

So I am an important person in your heart, Shen Yi?

Qin Yang looked at him, and his heart beat suddenly.

"So I also hope that I can help you share the troubles in your heart." Shen Yi said, leaning on the railing and tilting his head to look at him, "You seem to be very unhappy recently."

My heart was pounding, faster and faster.

Qin Yang licked his lips subconsciously, words came to his lips.He felt that his sanity was going out of control.

——It would be nice if the memory could be lost easily.Qin Yang can't help thinking like this all the time, especially tonight.

"The person I like never knew I liked him." Qin Yang lowered his head and clenched his hands secretly.

——Wrong things you say, things you do wrong, people you shouldn’t like, all of them can be freely forgotten.

His voice trembled faintly, and he couldn't hold back: "I want to tell him, but I'm scared."

——Those scary moments, those moments that made me fall in love with you, those beautiful moments we spent together, forget them all too.

He didn't dare to look up, only at this moment, the pain in his heart gave him inexplicable courage, he could only grasp it, once he missed this moment, it would be impossible to have it again.

"Every time I'm with him, I feel both happy and painful."

——Only when you lose your memory, will this feeling of liking disappear, right?

"I just realized that liking someone is such a tormenting thing."

——Those tossing and turning nights, the pain of inner struggle, the inexplicable emotion that makes me cry when I hear a song, and shed tears for no reason when I read a poem, let them all disappear.

——If I am destined not to have you.

——Let them all disappear.

"It's been so long, do you really not know at all?"

His voice trembled so much, but Qin Yang mustered up the courage to raise his head, and looked at Shen Yi with painful and even desperate eyes.

And the other party still didn't seem to realize it.

The sound of the river, the evening wind blowing, the cold moonlight.

Qin Yang looked at him and said slowly:

"I like you."

I like you, Shen Yi.

All the time, I like it very much.