goodbye midsummer

Not seeing each other for a few years, Chen Yuewei seems to have become more beautiful.

She is more mature and well-groomed than in high school, so that face looks more refined and charming.

The meeting place was a teahouse near the university. When Shen Yi and Xu Hao arrived, Ye Zi and Chen Yuewei had already been sitting there for several minutes.

Two men and two women sat down together, and Xu Hao kept using various words to praise Chen Yuewei's beauty, causing Ye Zi to roll his eyes at him frequently.Knowing that the two of them were flirting in a different way, Chen Yuewei also smiled reasonably, her eyes would occasionally fall on Shen Yi who was opposite.

Taking advantage of Ye Zi and Xu Hao's argument, she finally got the chance to ask Shen Yi.

"how are things?"

Shen Yi smiled: "It's pretty good. How about you?"

"I'm fine too." She smiled softly. "I didn't come back after graduation. When I came back this time, I saw many classmates I hadn't seen for a long time. I really miss the days when I went to school together."

"I should come back often in the future, how happy Xu Hao is." Shen Yi couldn't help teasing.

Unexpectedly, she looked at herself with bright eyes: "What about you? Are you happy?"

Shen Yi was startled for a moment, then laughed again: "Of course."

"You should be very popular in college, right? Have you got a girlfriend?" She asked seemingly casually.

Unexpectedly, Xu Hao interjected: "He, there is no time to make a girlfriend. It's too late to take care of my baby brother."

"Brother?" Chen Yuewei was a little surprised, "Shen Yi, do you have a younger brother?"

"It's not my brother," Xu Hao explained, "the son brought by my stepmother. But Shen Yi is on good terms with him. He always talks about him and cooks for him every day, just like my own brother."

Speaking of Qin Yang, Xu Hao remembered again: "Oh, by the way, Shen Yi, you come out to eat with us, what about Qin Yang? Do you want to call him out too?"

"He has an appointment with his classmates tonight."

Xu Hao suddenly realized, and laughed: "Oh, no wonder I asked you out just now, you answered so bluntly, so my brother didn't go back for dinner. Let me just say, when I usually ask you out for dinner, you always say you want to go back and have dinner with Qin Yang Yes, it turned out that I was so happy today because I was dumped, hahaha..."

Shen Yi couldn't help giving him a blank look: "I usually drink with you, okay?"

Chen Yuewei, who listened interestingly, said with a smile: "From what Xu Hao said, I really want to meet your brother."

Ye Zi interjected again: "Not to mention, Qin Yang is really handsome, but his personality is a bit cold and he doesn't like to talk much."

Shen Yi smiled wryly: "He just doesn't talk outside, but he's quite good at chattering at home."

On weekdays, if the clothes are not put away properly, if such trivial things as forgetting to bring the keys are repeated, Shen Yi will always be nagged by this younger brother.

Let him always feel that he is the younger brother who is taken care of.

"He also has a slight expression when he is with you." Xu Hao patted Shen Yi on the shoulder and said with a smile.

After being said in this way, Shen Yi realized that it seemed to be the case.

Although he didn't know exactly what Qin Yang was like at school, but from the few contact with parents in the parent meeting and sports meeting, as well as some conversations with Wen Yu, it was true that Qin Yang was serious at school. impression.

But at home, although he is not very talkative, his facial expressions and the emotions contained in his words are always very abundant.It doesn't make people feel that he is a very cold person.

However, it seems that only Shen Yi knows this side of him.

Thinking of this, Shen Yi couldn't help feeling warm in his heart.

That kind of performance may show that in Qin Yang's heart, he is already considered a family member.

"Qin Yang, you must be broken in love, right?"

In the busy city at the beginning of the lights, the crowds are bustling with each other.Wen Yu reluctantly followed Qin Yang through one market after another, from evening to night, but he didn't see any sign of relaxation in his expression.

The expressionless face was getting worse and worse no matter how I looked at it now.

She finally couldn't help it, and stopped in her tracks: "Hey Qin Yang, which family's daughter dumped you, I'll cut her!"

Qin Yang turned his head and glanced at her indifferently, then stared at the nearby shop for a while, and suddenly said: "Go in and have something to eat, I'm hungry."

After finishing speaking, without waiting for Wen Yu's response, he opened the door curtain and walked in alone.

Wen Yu had no choice but to follow in.

It was an old-fashioned noodle shop, with quaint wooden tables and chairs full of nostalgia, and the names of the dishes were neatly written with a brush, cut into strips and pasted on one wall.At this time, there were not many customers in the store, Qin Yang had already found a corner seat to sit down, and Wen Yu had to sit opposite him.

The waiter came over immediately, a girl in her early twenties with a neat ponytail.

Qin Yang stared at the names of the dishes on the wall for a while, then ordered a signature soup noodle, and Wen Yu also ordered a casual noodle.When the waiter left, he looked at him with a trace of resentment.

"I walked with you righteously for two hours, Your Majesty, can't you reveal the reason why Longyan is unhappy today?"

Qin Yang sat with his hands folded, turned his head to look at the scenery outside the window: "Ai Qing, am I not the same as usual?"

"You think I'm blind." Wen Yu snorted, "You're really broken in love, right?"

He withdrew his gaze, glanced at her, and said calmly, "Yes."

Wen Yu, who was about to drink water, was stunned: "Really?"

He nodded, "Yeah."

Wen Yu quickly put down the water: "Who is it? Why don't I know? You actually secretly got a girlfriend without telling me?! It's so dishonest!"

Qin Yang sighed silently: "I haven't dated before. It's my crush."

"Wow." Her tone softened instantly, "Our grade? Our class? Do I know you?"

"Don't ask." He rested his chin and looked out of the window sullenly.

Wen Yu saw that he was indeed unhappy, so he consciously suppressed his inner gossip: "Did you muster up the courage to confess, but was rejected by the other party?"

Qin Yang's voice was a little low: "That's not the case."

"Then what's going on? Isn't that what it's like to be broken in love?" Wen Yu was still puzzled, and pointed his fingers and said, "Although I have no experience, don't I always act like this on TV? First I have a crush, and then I confess, If you are rejected, you are broken in love. Isn't it?"

"Don't ask, I don't want to talk." He still closed his heart tightly.

Just at this time, all the noodles they ordered were served.The fragrant hot air rushed towards the face, Wen Yu picked up the chopsticks to mix the noodles, and explained to the other side while mixing: "Don't be too sad, there is no fragrant grass in the end of the world, isn't it, why bother to fall in love with a single flower, right?"

"What would you think if I said that I don't like girls?"

Wen Yu's face was almost sprayed out from his mouth.

She gulped down a large glass of water at the risk of almost choking to death, and then thumped her chest violently, only to come back to life smoothly.

"What did you say?"

Seeing her reaction so intensely, Qin Yang lowered his head and stirred the noodle soup in his bowl, and said flatly, "It's just a joke."

"Huh?" Wen Yu was stunned again, a little confused, "Which one of your sentences is true and which one is false?"

"Which sentence do you think is true and which sentence is false?" Qin Yang seemed to be asking, but it didn't look like he was asking.

Wen Yu frowned tightly: "I'm confused by you."

"Forget it, it's just a joke." He lowered his head and began to eat noodles, the warm steam rushed up, his face was wet.

Wen Yu swallowed a small glass of water again, stared at Qin Yang for a long time, and then slowly said: "It doesn't matter whether you were joking just now. Anyway, I have to express my attitude."

She put down the cup solemnly, looked straight at Qin Yang and said, "It doesn't matter whether you like a boy or a girl, to me, you are Qin Yang, my Wen Yu's good buddy. That's it."

Qin Yang continued to eat noodles, but did not answer.

"Hey, did you hear what I said?" Wen Yu pushed his elbow.

Then he raised his head and looked at her gently: "I heard it."

Wen Yu smiled: "Just hear it. Okay, let's continue eating noodles."

In the steaming heat, Qin Yang lowered his head silently, but Shen Yi's face could not help appearing in his mind.

People who are too far away, dreams that are too ethereal.

Like too good poetry,

It's all a pity.

i want to draw the morning

draw dew

the smile that can be seen

draw all the youngest

love without pain

draw in imagination

my sweetheart

she has never seen a cloud

her eyes are the color of the sky

she always looks at me

forever, watch

never turn around suddenly

When I got home slowly, it was almost eleven o'clock.

He took out the key and turned the door, only to find it was dark inside.Qin Yang was stunned by the door - Shen Yi hasn't come back yet.

He turned on the light and walked into the house silently. The living room, which was not considered spacious at first, seemed wider and more spacious than usual.

He sat down on the sofa, sinking into the back of the back a little tiredly.On the headlights, the electric lamps were emitting heat continuously.Qin Yang even felt that he could hear the sound of the heat from its electrified body colliding with the air.

This room is really too quiet.

It's just that there is one less person, and it becomes so strange.

Shen Yi was also drunk.It was Xu Hao's fault.

He was originally too strong to drink, and he poured three glasses.Xu Hao kept adding wine to his glass and toasted him with various reasons.Shen Yi couldn't stop it, after a few drinks, he passed out.

Chen Yuewei on the opposite side saw that his face was extremely red, and quickly stopped Xu Hao's further actions.

"Okay, okay, if you drink it again, you will carry Shen Yi back."

Xu Hao laughed loudly, and she was a little bit drunk: "This kid is too bad, how many drinks is this?"

Ye Zi glared at him, frowned and said, "You drink less too, I don't want to take you two drunkards on the street."

"I'm not drunk!" Xu Hao stood up and walked outside, "Oh no, I have to go to the bathroom."

Shen Yi's face was drunk, and he felt dizzy, so he just said "I'll take a break" and fell asleep on the table.

Seeing him like this, Chen Yuewei could only laugh helplessly.

Ye Zi poked him hard, but he didn't respond at all: "Oh my god, I really fell asleep. It's only been a few seconds."

"How often do you eat together like this?" she asked.

"Occasionally." Ye Zi replied, "But he and Xu Hao are often together, and my class is different from theirs, so the three of us rarely meet."

"That's great." Chen Yuewei said enviously, "He and Xu Hao have always had such a good relationship since high school, it's really enviable."

Ye Zi blinked, and deliberately bumped into her: "There's nothing to envy. If you want, you can continue your relationship with him."

She smiled: "What are you talking about? It's been such a long time."

"No matter how long it's been, it's a fact that you two have dated."

"It's not a serious relationship." Chen Yuewei's eyes darkened, "Back then, when I said we were going to break up, he just nodded without saying a word."

"Oh, he has that kind of personality, he is so stupid." Ye Zi stretched out his hand and poked her on the head unceremoniously. nothing."

She didn't hide, but the smile on her face gradually receded: "At that time, I was just joking, and I didn't really mean to break up. But he really didn't ask why, and he readily agreed. It made me feel that ... very hurt."

After a pause, she looked at Shen Yi who was lying motionless on the opposite side, and said softly: "He should never have liked me."

Ye Zi propped up half of his face, and looked at her steadily: "Are you regretting it? You still like him now?"

She smiled noncommittally: "It's useless to regret, it's been so long."

"What are you afraid of? Just chase him back! He has no partner now, and you are alone. What's wrong?"

Her smile was a bit bitter: "We're not in the same city, so what if we get back together? Besides, it's not like you didn't see his attitude towards me just now, there was no ambiguity at all. Let's forget it .”

After hearing this, Ye Zi sighed with regret: "According to what you said, I have never seen him interested in any girl."

"He hasn't been in love for so many years?"

Ye Zi shook her head: "If he's in love, Xu Hao would know about it. But I've never heard Xu Hao say that. So, definitely not."

Chen Yuewei also felt strange: "There are no girls chasing him?"

"Yes, as far as I know, there are quite a few. But he doesn't seem to be very interested." Ye Zi poked the rice in the bowl with his chopsticks in boredom, "Xu Hao said that he was too busy to be in love. .I don't think so."

"busy?"

"Well. I'm just busy taking care of the younger brother we mentioned just now. His stepmother brought it here, who is four years younger than him, and seems to be in the second year of high school. Some time ago, both parents went overseas to work, and there were only two of them left at home. Shen Yi goes back to cook for him every day after class, and occasionally accompany him to school sports meeting, parents' meeting and so on, he is more dedicated than his own brother."

Chen Yuewei laughed: "It's like his personality, he is serious about things."

Ye Zi didn't take it seriously: "If he cared about girls as much as his younger brother, he would have already left the single."

"You said that I want to see this brother even more."

It was also a coincidence that Shen Yi's cell phone on the table rang as soon as he finished speaking, and the name displayed on the screen was Qin Yang.

Ye Zi's eyes widened, and he quickly pushed Shen Yi who was opposite him: "Shen Yi, wake up, your brother is calling."

But the drunk Shen Yi didn't respond at all.In desperation, Ye Zi had no choice but to pick up his mobile phone without authorization and connected it.

Before he had time to explain the situation to Qin Yang, the other party had already said, "Aren't you coming back?"

The voice was faint, no reproach could be heard, but it seemed to be a little worried.Surprisingly, very gentle.

Ye Zi was shocked, and quickly replied: "Ah, I am Ye Zi. That...Shen Yi is eating with us, but he is a little drunk now and can't answer the phone."

The other party paused for a moment: "Very drunk?"

The feeling of the voice seemed to change instantly.

From tender concern, to cold and slightly distant.

Ye Zi subtly sensed the difference in tone, glanced at Shen Yi who was still unresponsive, and said, "It's not particularly powerful, right? He'll wake up after a short rest. At that time, I will meet with Xu Hao." Send him back, don't worry."

"Let me pick him up. Where are you now?"

Ye Zi reported the address, Qin Yang thanked her politely, and hung up the phone.

Ye Zi put the phone back on the table and frowned slightly.

I always feel that I felt something subtle during the conversation just now.

"What's wrong?" Chen Yuewei's voice brought her back to reality.

"Oh, Shen Yi's younger brother said he would come pick him up later."

"Can't we just send him back? It's quite troublesome to come here specially."

Ye Zi shrugged: "I think so too, but he seems worried."

Chen Yuewei smiled: "Why do I feel that this younger brother is more like an older brother, who loves to take care of others. It seems that he is not as cold as you said just now."

"He really cares about Shen Yi." Ye Zi held his chin, said lightly, and then frowned tightly, "That guy Xu Hao, he said to go to the bathroom, why hasn't he come back yet? No, I'll go over and have a look, don't get dizzy on the road."

After that, he left the dining table.Chen Yuewei looked over the long wooden table and landed on Shen Yi's somewhat messy hair.He was still lying on the table at this moment, his whole face buried deeply in his arms.

"Are you listening?" she asked tentatively.

There was no response, as if he had fallen asleep.

She sighed deeply and sank deeply into the back of the chair: "You don't have to hide from me."

Shen Yi's head suddenly moved, and slowly raised his face that was flushed due to drunkenness, and smiled embarrassedly: "I didn't hide from you, I'm really drunk."

"I was really drunk at the beginning, but I woke up afterwards, didn't I?" Chen Yuewei said in her heart, "Heard me chatting with Ye Zi, and felt embarrassed again, so I kept pretending to be asleep, right?"

He smiled awkwardly.

Chen Yuewei didn't seem angry either. Seeing his embarrassed look, she laughed instead: "So, you heard what I said to Ye Zi, what do you think? Are you chasing me?"

Shen Yi was startled: "Huh?"

"It scares you, I'm joking." She picked up the teacup and took a sip, "I didn't mean that either."

"Have you had a good time there?" he asked.

"It's going well." She smiled, looking at him with bright eyes, "I got along well with the girls in the same dormitory in college, even I was surprised."

In this way, Shen Yi recalled Chen Yuewei in high school.

When Chen Yuewei was in high school, she really didn't have many same-sex friends.Ever since those rumors related to her, whether true or false, spread in the school, no matter in the class or in the whole school, no group of girls would take the initiative to accept her.And because she didn't take the initiative to integrate into any group, she has always been alone.

She and Ye Zi will have a deeper friendship because they have been at the same table since the second year of high school.

In other words, throughout high school, she had almost no close friends.

Therefore, Shen Yi felt very relieved to hear that Chen Yuewei was able to have normal contacts with friends of the same sex: "You are a very good person, but you are too lonely."

"It's the same with you." She glanced at Shen Yi, "You used to be a loner. It's not so much that you are isolated, it's better to say that you don't want to be anyone's friend, so you treat others excluded."

Shen Yi was a little surprised: "Really?"

She nodded seriously: "At least in my eyes, that's how it is. That's why I confessed to you at that time——I think we are very similar in some ways. "

"picture?"

"Yeah. They're all the same person." A smile curled up at the corner of her mouth.

Shen Yi understood. In fact, what Chen Yuewei meant was: At that time, they all shared an emotion called "loneliness".

At that time, he really didn't have any idea of ​​deep friendship with others - the divorce of his parents made him feel confused and at a loss. He knew that everything he had worked so hard for over the years was an illusion. The so-called family and affection were all fragile.

So, maybe what Chen Yuewei said was right, at that time, he was completely alone.

Therefore, when Chen Yuewei confessed to him, he did not refuse - he instinctively felt that the other party was also a lonely and helpless person.

She was living in unfounded rumors and isolated by the girl group.And those groundless rumors all originated from a girl in the same class - this girl even got very close to Chen Yuewei in the first year of high school.

During their short one-month relationship, Chen Yuewei once said to Shen Yi as if talking to herself: "I don't understand why she would be hostile to me. We used to be very good friends. But suddenly ..."

Suddenly, it becomes the enemy.

I do not understand.

At that time, she kept shaking her head, with a funny and helpless expression on her face.Just repeating over and over again: "Why the hell..."

But there will never be an answer to this matter.

Four years ago, they were like cubs licking each other's wounds, catching each other in the torrent of loneliness—in order not to lose their way, in order to at least find some solace in life.

Four years later, they sat facing each other in a small restaurant, and both of them had grown into gentle and kind adults.

Chen Yuewei gently turned the teacup on the table, looked at Shen Yi: "You seem to have changed. It feels different from when you were in high school."

"A good change?"

"Of course." She smiled, "I feel gentler, and there is love in my eyes. That's why I asked you if you have a girlfriend when I first met you."

Shen Yi also laughed: "It probably has nothing to do with having a girlfriend or not, it's just growing up."

"Maybe." She picked up the glass and clinked it lightly with him, "I hope you will find someone you like soon."

"I hope you do the same." Shen Yi smiled and drank the tea in his cup.