[Comprehensive] Life Mentor

"I want to find All Might."

Shuji Tsushima sat on a bench by the street with his head down, talking to himself.

"Go if you miss." Osamu Dazai replied very simply.

"Why?!" Tsushima clenched his fists, "They asked me to go to Xiongying. Now All Might is working as a teacher in Xiongying. It would be normal for me to approach him as a student, right?"

"Yes, it's normal, it's nothing more than normal. But Xiuzhi-kun, don't forget that although you are a weakling, your identity is very famous in the dark world." Osamu Dazai said mercilessly "I don't know what kind of person All Might is, but even if he believes your words, what about the heroes who are with him? No matter how much you talk about it, AFO only needs to release a little bit about If you don't know your identity, then you are finished."

"hateful!"

Tsushima murmured: "Why is it so difficult to live? I've had enough of escaping, so I might as well just die... For a person like me, death is probably the only way to be happy. Bar."

"I refuse." Osamu Dazai said coldly, "Although I don't mind dying, it's too embarrassing for you to feel like a deserter."

"Even if the ending is all self-destruction, it should be a matter of my own choice, not a river forced to jump by others when I have no choice!"

After saying these words, he gave the final sentence to the young man:

"Mr. Xiuzhi, this is murder, not suicide."

The young man sitting on the bench trembled all over.

His unusual appearance caused passers-by to stare sideways.

I'm afraid this person has some kind of disease, right?Someone thought so.

But there are also some people who are sympathetic. This young man must have encountered something, so pitiful.

However, no matter what they think in their hearts, no one will stop their steps because of the emotional breakdown of a stranger on the side of the road.

The reality is that when people are happy, they usually don't notice the suffering of others.What's more, everyone has their own troubles and tasks to solve, and being alone and not disturbing others is the most basic thing they can do.

The world in Shuji Tsushima's eyes was blurred.

Osamu Dazai said that they are essentially one person, but he himself understands that they are different.

He has been like this since he was a child, cowardly, sensitive, and likes to play a buffoon on purpose to make others happy.Other people's smiles and affirmations are sweet poisons for Tsushima. On the one hand, he is intoxicated and unable to extricate himself from it, and on the other hand, his heart gradually collapses, and he can no longer clean up.

When he was laughing with those who were amused by him, Tsushima always felt that there was someone inside him who was looking at the world coldly through his eyes.

Why laugh?It's obviously not funny at all, the man said to himself in his heart.

He was merciless, cruel and cold, like a knife stuck in his heart, making him look unscathed on the outside, but the inside was already dripping with blood.

It's really pathetic for you to try your best to please others.

——This is also the first sentence Dazai Osamu said to him when he came to this world.

And the last person who saw through his inner thoughts was AFO.

He adopted himself, and then opened a dark door to himself.When I think of this Tsushima, I can't help but want to laugh. It turns out that even such a powerful teacher may be mistaken one day.

He knew that he was a piece of mud that couldn't support the wall.

It's not for noble persistence like kindness and justice. In the final analysis, it's just two words of fear.Fear of being bad, fear of being good, fear of even being human.Tsushima sometimes feels that he is a ghost wandering in the world, resisting everything from the outside world and living in his own world.

No one will come to save themselves.

If he could avoid the violent ecstasy, naturally there would be no grief, he thought so.

Because of this, Tsushima's feelings for AFO, the adopter, are much shallower than those of the completely distorted Sigang Muhang.

However, there will be times when he longs for redemption.

If, if that person is himself, can he expect a little bit?

Just...a little bit.

Tears welled up in his eyes, and the black-haired young man sat alone on the bench, choked up in pain and said:

"Please Dazai... help me! I really already..."

A silence.

Just when Tsushima was about to despair, a soft sigh came from his ear:

"it is good."

The light unfolded in front of Osamu Dazai, while Shuji Tsushima slowly sank into the deepest part of his consciousness.

The expression on the young man's face gradually calmed down. He wiped away the remaining tears from the corners of his eyes with his hands. His iris-colored eyes, which still had a little water in them, were covered by long black bangs, and he couldn't distinguish between emotions and anger.

Osamu Dazai looked down at the water marks on his fingertips, and suddenly smiled.

"So... this is what it feels like to cry."

He stood up.

"Take a good rest for a while." He said to Tsushima in his heart, "I will help you solve the next thing."

After a pause, he added:

"I have to give a compliment, you did a good job just now. After all, it takes a lot of courage to be able to ask a friend for help."

bar.

Sidangmuhang is reporting his recent learning situation with AFO through video, and it can be seen from the black mist beside him that Sidangmu is acting like a child who is eager to ask his parents for credit and candy.

He secretly shook his head.

Unfortunately, AFO is not a kind and kind elder.

"Jingle--"

The door was opened.

A black-haired young man in a black coat walked in with a blank expression.He walked all the way to the bar with the wind, bent down and pulled out the book written by Tsushima through the gap, and politely said to Heiwu: "Please let me go."

Hei Wu actually moved aside in a daze to make it easier for him to leave.

Even after noticing the sight of AFO and Niigaragi looking over at the same time, he just said "you chat" lightly, then turned around and left on his own, and closed the door of the bar casually.

Acting like no one else was around, extremely arrogant.

It was a long time after he left that Sigang Muhang realized it.

He slowly opened his eyes wide: that person just now was actually his good senior brother? !

"he……"

Shizuoki didn't even know what to say for a moment.

Seeing this scene, the AFO laughed with great interest.

"Hang," he asked the same question as the previous Sigang Muhang, "has anything good happened to Tsushima recently?"

"Ghost knows." Niigaragi was very impatient, he didn't want the teacher to give that guy even the slightest attention.

The AFO certainly understood what he was thinking.Normally, he would casually say a few words of encouragement such as "Only you can take on the great responsibility" and "Only you are my best student", but today Tsushima's abnormal behavior made him involuntarily think of something else. thought.

Rather, this was his initial thought.

AFO is actually a very conceited person. Until now, he firmly believes that it was not that he had misjudged him at the beginning, but that Tsushima was too good at disguising.

He is obviously a monster, so why does he still have the fantasy of wanting to live like a normal person?

It's ridiculous.

What he hopes is that these two students of his can compete with each other—even if one of them dies, it doesn't matter, because the one who survives in the end must be the finished product that can fulfill his wish and completely defeat All Might!

He looks at the end of the video

Sigang Muhang, who was even angrier because of his performance, slowly deepened his smile.

Let him wait and see, the birth of Gu King.

But what he didn't know was that Osamu Dazai never planned to follow his script from the very beginning.

And Shuji Tsushima is by no means a marionette that his subordinates can play with at will.

He was sitting by the riverbank at dusk, gently flipping through the book that Natsushima wrote stroke by stroke.

他 说:

"Compared to the deceived person, the liar suffers more than ten times, because he will fall into hell."

"I desire happiness more than anyone else, but this urgent desire pulls me into the abyss. I can feel tenderness more than anyone else, but this sensitive nerve makes me worry about gains and losses. I don't hate this world, but I am too guilty. Ashamed of evil, guilty of kindness, guilty of grandeur, guilty of insignificance, guilty of the difference between you and me."

However, he also said:

"It is absolutely impossible for a person to obey others. Even if he is a slave, he will still humiliate backlash in a slave way."

The black-haired young man stared down at the last sentence, and couldn't help but smile:

"Isn't that very courageous, Xiuzhi-kun."

The author has something to say: There are many excerpts in this chapter, mainly from the book of Mr. Osamu Dazai.

That long sentence "I desire happiness more than anyone else..." is the reason why I wrote about Tsushima in the world of little heroes. Sometimes when I read Mr. Dazai's book, my whole body will tremble unconsciously.He wrote about himself, and all of us here.Because people with a pleasing personality live a really tiring life, and each of us has done these things to please others more or less.In any case, I just hope that everyone can muster up the courage in the days to come and live a good life for themselves.

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