[Comprehensive] Life Mentor

"I'm so hard."

This is Osamu Dazai's [-]th exclamation today.

He was standing at a bustling station, holding a few radishes in one hand and two tomatoes in the other, looking as limp as a Chinese cabbage that had lost its moisture.

"Shut up, it's already difficult for me to let you out, okay?" The person in his mind said to him, "Don't sigh on the street, let alone talk to strangers casually, in case the teacher sees the consequences. It's going to be bad."

Osamu Dazai couldn't understand his thoughts: "Hey, aren't you me too? Do you want to live like this?"

The man said gloomily, "I'm not you, and don't call me Dazai Osamu. As I said just now, the only name I admit to myself is Shuji Tsushima."

"Okay, okay Tsushima-kun, I'll remember." Osamu Dazai said helplessly, "By the way, let's discuss something with you, can we go back to that ghost place later? It's hard for me Only then can I come out to take a breath of fresh air, you can't just let me go back to face a dead hand lover and avocado essence so cruelly."

Shuji Tsushima: "...that's my junior brother and master, thank you."

However, he didn't say anything more in the end, and followed Dazai Osamu's wishes.

——even if the initiative to control this body has always been in his hands.

Therefore, in the next period of time, the residents living nearby will be able to see a young man holding radishes and tomatoes wandering aimlessly on the river bank... wandering... wandering... wandering.

Looking at the sparkling river surface under the setting sun, Osamu Dazai fell into deep thinking about life and society.

He asked Tsushima: "When you look at the river, what are you thinking?"

The person in his mind was silent for a moment.

"It's beautiful," he said first, and then immediately changed his style of painting, "It should feel good to enter the water here."

Osamu Dazai nodded approvingly: "As expected of me."

But Tsushima immediately added: "Also, if you don't go back, Shigaraki will definitely let the black mist come to me."

Osamu Dazai immediately showed a disgusted expression.

"Ah, it's really annoying." He dragged out his voice, "Why don't you find a chance to get rid of them? Don't say anything else, just looking at them is very eye-catching."

"What are you thinking about? My personality is eliminated. It is basically the same as no personality. How could I escape AFO?" Tsushima replied.

"What does it matter? Isn't there a personality similar to yours on the hero's side...I remember it was Eraser Head, right?"

"And believe it or not, even without any personality, I have a hundred ways to deal with this situation?"

"That's you, not me." Tsushima said, "I'm not good at dealing with people. As long as it's about these things, even simple things will be messed up."

Osamu Dazai raised his eyebrows: "Is there? But why do I think that you are very good at talking and laughing in front of your junior brother?"

Tsushima was silent for a moment.

"Until just now, I thought you might be the only person in the world who understood me." His voice was a little hoarse, "but I have to doubt this now. Don't you understand? That superficial smile We welcome each other, but the feeling of walking on thin ice with all our strength is riveted inside."

"Although I am a member of the human race, I have always been afraid of humans... Isn't it ridiculous? But that's how it is."

Osamu Dazai stood on the bank of the river in the dusk in a daze.

The old men and old ladies who came out for a walk after dinner walked together, and the lovers sat on the embankment and talked about love, and a young man with a green algae head shouted "one two, one two", full of energy ran past him.

But such a beautiful scene made the young man tremble all over.

"I always thought that the person who understands me the most is Oda Saku." He said slowly, "but today, I finally understand..."

He didn't say what he said next, but Tsushima knew what he meant.

Osamu Dazai looked up at the gradually sinking sunset on the distant horizon, and said to him with a smile:

"Hello, I am Osamu Dazai. From the current point of view, he is considered a half-time traveler.

"Nice to meet you, Shuzhi-kun."

Tsushima replied:

"Hello, I'm Shuji Tsushima. To the outside world, I can barely be regarded as the heir of AFO. But I have no interest in being a hero or an enemy. My dream is to become a writer."

Osamu Dazai asked him: "A writer? Well, it's a bit like Oda Saku. Why do you want to be a writer?"

"It is impossible for people to communicate completely with language alone, but I hope my words can." When the young man mentioned this, he even raised his voice slightly by an octave, "I secretly I wrote a book, and now basically only the ending is left..."

Osamu Dazai thought for a while: "Oh, it's the one you put in the gap between the bar counter?"

"……how do you know?!"

"I found it by accident," Osamu Dazai said casually, "Speaking of which, I came in before I even had time to open the black mist. If I hadn't reacted quickly and stuffed it back for you, your book would have been discovered long ago." gone."

Tsushima said nothing.

He is an orphan like Shikuraki, and he is a few years older than Shikuraki, but after so many years, in the words of AFO, he is a "recalcitrant stone that was originally thought to be a rough jade".

He can almost be regarded as the opposite of Sigang Muhang.

Because he would rather hurt himself than hurt others.

Full of resistance to the world but not evil, Tsujima Shuji, is such a guy who was ridiculed by the later Shikuragi as "cowardly and dare not even be a hero"-now he is the heir in name, but in fact he is just a The target AFO placed in front of him to motivate Sigang Muhang was nothing more than a thorn in his side.

The saddest thing is that he lived in the dark since he was a child, so Tsushima knows these things better than anyone else.But so what?He still couldn't break free from this quagmire.

So in the end, he can only let himself down.

"What's the name of your book?" Osamu Dazai asked.

Tsushima was silent for a while.Just when Osamu Dazai thought he would not answer, he suddenly said softly:

""No Longer in the World", I plan to call it "No Longer in the World"."

Osamu Dazai paused, but quickly returned to normal.

He smiled: "That's indeed a good name, I really want to read it."

in the bar.

"Hey, Heiwu," Sigang Muhang tapped the cup impatiently with his nails, "Didn't that guy go out to buy groceries? Why did he spend so much time shopping? What are we going to eat tonight?"

"I've already ordered pizza." Hei Wu told him while wiping his wine glass.

Shikuragi snorted dissatisfied.He thought for a while, and speculated maliciously: "Could it be that my dear senior brother ran away? How about killing him?"

Hei Wu still wiped his glass indifferently: "I don't think Mr. AFO will agree."

"Come on, it's boring."

Sikuanmu pulled his face down.No

But he also knew that the teacher would not kill Tsushima for this reason. The teacher had said long ago that he was the only one who could kill him...

He thought confidently, the one who can become the teacher's successor in the future must be himself!

"Ding-dong-"

The door of the bar was pushed open.A black-haired young man with a smile on his face walked in and apologized repeatedly: "I'm really sorry, I accidentally passed a stop on the road, and when I got off the bus, I got lost and took a long way..."

Shikuraki didn't want to hear his reason, he just kicked the chair in front of him.

The chair fell in front of him with a loud bang, which made the young man tremble uncontrollably.

"Brother Tsushima, you are very good." Shigaraki squinted at him, and deliberately bit the word "brother".

"I'm very sorry, I really didn't mean to..."

Osamu Dazai sighed, "It's me instead."

But Tsushima was extremely stubborn at this time: "No! If you do this, you will be discovered by Shigaraki!"

However, the quarrel between the two of them in their minds was manifested to the outside world as the young man's eyes were empty and his expression was dull-his supercilious appearance made Sigang Mudiao squint his eyes.

"Very good," he said hoarsely, "As expected of a senior brother, he is very capable, now you don't even bother to listen to me, do you?"

"If that's the case, I won't stop the teacher." He smiled slowly, "Are you happy? After so many years, the teacher will finally give you a task again. Hurry up and go to Xiongying, the plan I prepared There was no place for you, a piece of trash."

He stared at the frightened young man in front of him, and said word by word: "You have to behave well, Jin, Dao, Shi, brother."

Tsushima looked at his eyes full of viscous malice, and the fear spreading in his heart almost drowned him in the air.

He retreated step by step until there was no way to retreat.Seeing his cowardly and cowardly appearance, Sigang Mudiao who was sitting in front of the bar did not hide the contemptuous smile on his face.

"Promise him." Osamu Dazai said to him suddenly.

"You still have me. With me, they can't touch you."

Tsushima murmured, "Is it possible?"

"How is it impossible!" Osamu Dazai's voice became severe, "What are you still doubting? You are my other side. Since our thoughts are the same, if I can do it, you can do it too!"

In the eyes of Sigang Muhang, the young man who had already stuck himself on the door slowly raised his head. Although his expression was still a little fearful, he finally had the courage to look directly into his eyes.

"I... I will go."

That's what he said to Shizuoki.

"But not because of you, nor because of the teacher, this is my own wish!"

After speaking, he turned around and opened the door of the bar and ran out as if he had exhausted all his strength.

Sigang Mudiao looked at the door of the bar which was slammed shut, his expression was unpredictable for a while.

"Black Mist," he said suddenly, "Go and find out where he has been and who he has met today."

"I'm really curious, what happened to my senior brother today, that he dared to say such a thing to me for the first time..."

He sneered: "It's a lot of courage. It's a pity, human nature will not change."

The author has something to say: I thought I had asked for three days off, but who would have thought it would be two days... (covering face) But can a day be considered a goo?right!

Some sentences in this article are excerpted from "Disqualification in the World", Dazai Osamu is Tsushima Shuji's pen name (just like the relationship between Zhou Shuren and Lu Xun).However, the image of Tsushima here is more like a collection of the protagonist and the author of the book "No Man in the World" in reality, a coward who would rather hurt himself than others, fears human beings, and even fears happiness.

How should I put it, probably Osamu Dazai here is an idealized version of himself in Tsushima's mind.

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