The lightness of the world of mortals

This push was solid, and Ming Yu fell to the ground, lover, lover of 12 years, this phrase stuck into her heart, some worst conjecture was confirmed by the person concerned, tears and burning fire filled her heart Miraculously, her eyes were born at the same time, "12 years!" She almost growled, "I can't bear it for two years, how much do you love her?" She didn't know that her hand grabbed Chen Xilin's ankle, no Knowing that I had exhausted all my strength to tear her off the bed, "Tell me, how much you love her, tell me! Last time you said that you don't have her in your heart, 'heart' is gone, why do you emphasize these two words? Do you know how much effort I spent not to ask questions or to care about?? Is she on your body?? I must see it today!!"

Chen Xilin couldn't care less about puzzlement, only fear remained, the pull was too sudden, her body lost her balance, she almost screamed, the next second her jeans were ripped off, she couldn't bear it anymore, " Mingyu!!"

This sound was so angry that Ming Yu stopped his movements, his hands and anger were hanging in the air, a sense of depression gradually hit her, her shoulders collapsed, her arms collapsed, she looked at Chen Xilin dully, saw her left ear Beads of blood were oozing from the lobe of her ear, and the stud earring I gave her had fallen off from that ear to an unknown place.

She had never seen Chen Xilin get so angry.

Chen Xilin had already buttoned up the corset, grabbed the top and put it on indiscriminately, "I owe you a confession, right? Well, I will tell you everything today, and I hope it can cure your heart disease."

Ming Yu turned his eyes away.Chen Xilin stood up, sat on a chair beside him, and looked at Ming Yue who was leaning blankly at the foot of the bed.

"She was a married woman when I met her, and her son was nine years old. I don't think I need to recount to you the moral and emotional struggles of the beginning, you have all gone through it. The difference is The Qing and Bai families are related, and my grandmother's surname is Qing."

Ming Yue raised his face suddenly, his eyes were filled with astonishment.

Chen Xilin interpreted this astonishment as a reaction to her relationship with Qingqing, and continued her "confidant", "I told you that Qingqing and I met at a family reception. My grandmother's father and Qingqing's grandfather's father is a brother, that is to say, my grandmother and Qingqing's grandfather are cousins. My grandmother's father immigrated to Hong Kong from the mainland in 30, and my grandmother was born in Hong Kong in the [-]s. Although there are One level of kinship, but the Qingbai family has been different for many years and has not conspired with each other. In my time, the environment of all parties was much more relaxed, and the things that happened a few generations ago have nothing to do with us. That reception is the Qingbai family. It’s the first time we’ve met since then.”

Ming Yu couldn't wake up in surprise. Chen Xilin's grandmother and Qing Qing's grandfather were cousins, that is to say... Chen Xilin's grandmother and his own grandfather were cousins...

Her lips trembled, and the phrase "my surname is Qing" stuck in her throat.

"Before Qingqing met me, she never thought that she would like women, let alone a girl who is 20 years younger than herself. If you add family ties and her family... In short, she is under a lot of pressure. And I After all, I was young at the time, so I didn’t think too much. When I was in school, I vaguely felt that I liked women, but I couldn’t be sure until I met Qingqing...she was my first love.”

Ming Yue stuck his fingers in his hair, feeling very depressed, "I don't understand, why she didn't get a divorce, why you have been wronged for so many years, and you have suffered it willingly!" When she finished the last sentence, her anger , or rather, the flames of jealousy grew in my heart again.

"For her son. Originally she said that she would leave that family and divorce her husband when she had her son."

"..., that should only wait for nine years, why did it become 12 years?"

"Because..." Chen Xilin's face showed pain, and his voice became hoarse, "Because her son fell in love with me."

"What??" Ming Yu sat up straight in shock.

"I don't know why that happened... During the years when Qingqing and I were friends, I did have some contact with her family, but I didn't pay attention to that child... until the year when he was almost full, One day Qingqing was very flustered...she found out that her son liked me, please forgive me, I won't go into details."

Ming Yue didn't seem to have regained his senses, his face had lost all color.

Chen Xilin replayed Qingqing's panic that day that year in his mind. At first, he didn't believe what she said, until she said that she found some secretly photographed photos and letters to herself in Simon's room...

This was something no one expected. The two calmed down and discussed, asking Chen Xilin to avoid him for a while. Qingqing decided to send Simon to Europe for a semester, hoping that the boy's crush would disappear soon, and meet him in the new environment. new people...

However, they underestimated the young boy's feelings. Simon went to France for two months and missed him so much. He wanted to come back to see Chen Xilin, but he was afraid that his parents would not allow him, so he quietly bought a plane ticket to come back...

"Just as we were trying to find a way to arrange him into a new environment, one day he returned to Los Angeles and learned about my relationship with Qingqing..."

She didn't want to tell Ming Yue too specific, for fear of irritating her again, but that summer afternoon was forever frozen into a shame that she couldn't bear to recall in her life.That day she went to see her in the apartment near Qingqing's laboratory. Qingqing and her husband had long existed in name only, and she lived alone in the apartment near the laboratory most of the time. Simon had the key to the apartment. That day he opened the door and walked through the living room , walked through the living room, and walked into Qingqing's concealed door...

Chen Xilin never regretted falling in love with Qingqing, never regretted being her lover, never regretted everything in her life, only this time, she thought countless times, if she didn't change her itinerary to the morning that day, if she didn't take a ride If that flight was late, if Qingqing hadn't called Qingqing to go home from the laboratory on the spur of the moment... It seemed that every node was an accident, as if every accident could be avoided, but these countless accidents constituted this inevitable result .

Yes, this is a dangerous relationship, it's only a matter of time before something goes wrong.

She will always remember the expression on Qingqing's face at that moment, it was a kind of destructive remorse, the remorse of a mother, wife, lover, a remorse that blamed herself for destroying the world with her own hands...

"After that, her son contracted a serious mental illness, autistic, self-abuse... His studies were put on hold temporarily, and Qingqing didn't care about divorcing her husband, or even how to deal with my relationship. After that day, her life The meaning of it seems to be redemption, to heal Simon."

Chen Xilin stood up, the blood on the earlobe was solidified, she didn't know the wound there yet.She walked to the window and turned her back to Ming Yue. The chaos just now tore a gap in the shoulder of the sleeveless white vest.

"It dragged on for another two years. The child seemed to be more stable, but his life was chaotic. Both men and women were dating. Qingqing couldn't control him... Later he contracted AIDS, and we didn't know it. He didn't tell anyone. At the end of that summer, I took Qingqing to Haicheng to relax, and she hadn't left that house for a long time... I remember that it was raining heavily in Haicheng that day..."

"It's like the rain in February this year." Ming Yue's voice was empty.

"Yeah, just like the rain in February this year, I didn't even know that Haicheng could have such a heavy rain in February."

Ming Yu pulled the corner of his lips, "You said the same thing that day."

"That day she suddenly received a call saying that Simon had committed suicide. I was outside at the time and didn't know what happened. When I went home, she was not at home because she hadn't packed up her luggage. I thought she had something to do when she went out. In the evening, she didn't come back, and the phone couldn't be connected... Anyway, I will find out after I find out, she has already finished handling Simon's funeral and disappeared."

"disappeared……"

"Yeah, almost six years."

Ming Yue couldn't digest all this, and after a while, "How much does the Qing family know?"

Chen Xilin turned around, his eyes were red, and he sat on the chair just now, "She has a very good relationship with Qingmei, and Qingmei knows all about it, as for the others, they should be more or less muttering, For example, Qingqing and I are very close, but they probably don't know about these specific things," Chen Xilin looked at Mingyu, she was freed from the panic just now, and she was as calm as the Titanic before it hit the ice. Hai, "About Qingqing's disappearance, what else do you want to ask?"

Ming Yue slightly parted his lips, then paused, "Why use her name to build a foundation in Damai?"

Chen Xilin sighed silently, "Qingqing is an expert in brain neurology, a doctor, and is also very enthusiastic about public welfare and charity. A few years ago, the United Nations convened a medical team to go to Africa for free clinics, and she signed up for it. She has been to Dong Suo many times, and the last whereabouts of her I know is Dong Suo, after that, there is no news of her anymore."

The sky outside the window was completely dark, the halo of the footlights was weak, and the doorbell rang suddenly, both of them were startled.

"Hello, hotel housekeeper, do you need to turn down the bed?"

Ming Yu wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, "No, thank you."

"Sorry to bother you, good night."

Chen Xilin stood up, "Right now, I probably have one thing left to explain, which is why I have to wait until August."

Ming Yu also tried to get up from the ground, but her whole leg was numb, and she realized that, leaning on the edge of the bed, she frowned slightly, "Stop talking," she stood up, and straightened her messy hair, " Stop talking, I... don't want to hear it anymore."

Chen Xilin smiled, "Listen to it, Ming Yu, I don't believe your 'needless to say' anymore, just treat it as what I owe you, and you won't have any worries when you think about it in the future." After a pause, She added, "I decided to tell you everything when I was in Haicheng, and it has nothing to do with your attitude today."

She went to the door and turned on the light, the bright light made no one hide, she went to the window and closed the curtains.

"By the way, ever since Simon found out about my relationship with Qingqing, our relationship has actually reached a trough. We can no longer even make out. Simon's face is between us, and Qingqing often sighed in those two years. , Said that she had entered menopause, said that I should not be tied down by an old woman," Chen Xilin smiled "hehe" when he said this, "Later, I would think that her leaving may also include this part of the reason. Isn't it silly to disappear before completely aging?"

She opened the suitcase, "I'll tell you now, why I said wait until August."