The lightness of the world of mortals

Ming Yu paused, "So, is the foundation yours or hers?"

"I created it alone."

"Use...her name..."

"Sorry……"

"No." Ming Yue smiled hastily, his eyes dimmed.

"I want to make this matter clear to you. In fact, at the restaurant... I didn't quite understand why you were so angry... I'm sorry, I kept thinking about it, I think, from what you saw in your vision and what I saw here The 'Qing Fund' was created four years ago, and the foundation was indeed born for her... But in the next four years, I have been learning to let go... Now the meaning of this foundation is only to help the war A homeless person. She's... not in my life anymore. So, when you associate her name with the Foundation, there's a lot of other conjectures, but in fact, all of them have nothing to do with the Foundation, with the Things related to the white whale have nothing to do with her, and I will not use you to do things related to her. I think that's how the explanation is, if I don't explain it clearly...you can start over. "

Mingyu lowered her head, the hair on the side of her face drooped, she sighed, lifted her hair up, and leaned back again, "I really couldn't figure out the relationship and situation between you and her before, just following what I saw and heard There is more and more information, it is hard for me to figure it out on my own. In Dongso, I tried to ask you on the phone. Tonight I directly said that I saw her photo in the foundation warehouse, but I still couldn’t hear it. When I got a direct answer, I...maybe I crossed the line and didn't put my mind right, maybe I'm not qualified to question these..."

"You have."

Ming Yu looked at her with his eyes.

"You are qualified to question because of two reasons: first, these days, I have approached and...followed you, you can't act stupid; second, your going to Dongso is not just a work task, there is a big Part of your personal relationship with me, I can't play dumb."

A smile crossed Ming Yue's face. Subconsciously, she turned her head to adjust the brightness of the bedside light. The light was too bright for fear of revealing the distress and tenderness in her heart at the moment. The distress could bypass the entire media circle. Chen Xilin chose to use this straightforward way to ask for his forgiveness; and the affection may come from the belated feedback to the confession on the coast.

But he didn't hold back, and laughed, "Anyway, I can't pretend to be stupid."

"Wrong, I said it wrong again, I can't pretend to be stupid after you."

Ming Yu was dialing the dimming button of the bedside lamp, but because he was backhanding, he didn't make much effort, and the light didn't respond.

Chen Xilin leaned over, touched her finger, and pushed it up, "Is that so?"

The graceful face gradually darkened above Mingyue, but the soft and beautiful outline became clearer and clearer. His eyes were like a famous painting hiding the scenery of lakes and mountains. The background light dimmed, and the scenery on the painting lit up...

Ming Yue closed his eyes, "But you still have her picture hanging in your house, how can you say that she is no longer in your life?"

Chen Xilin's fingers froze, and the light turned on again, she turned around to hide the bitterness of the past.

Ming Yu slowly waded over his arm, and gently held her hand, "If you don't let go, don't think about it, and I won't have any doubts. You can forget about the past two months." , Stomach twisted, sourness reached throat.

"No..." Chen Xilin's voice was soft but firm, "It's not because the photo was not put down..." She paused for a long time, "I haven't been to that house for a long time."

Only then did Ming Yue's heart sink, and he let go of his hands, "Well... have you been together for a long time?"

Chen Xilin closed his eyes in the dim light.

"I'm sorry, if you don't want to say it, you don't have to say it."

"I met her at the family's reception."

The room quieted down, but Chen Xilin's world gradually entered into a careless jazz piece. There were staggered cups of wine, fragrant clothes, and a tall figure, like a silver mermaid transformed into a human form. Standing in front of him, the woman gracefully profiled Turning around, seeing himself, he smiled, "Hello."

Those two words started 12 years of long love, and after that there were several years of bitter waiting and searching.

"Is she... much older than you?"

"When I was, she was 38."

Ming Yue's heart twitched lightly, how much burden should such a love carry?

But Chen Xilin knew that age was only the smallest obstacle in this love.What is there to say, even to someone you trust again?Throat slipped lightly, maybe only age.

"No wonder, judging from the photo in the cheongsam, I always thought she was your elder..."

"She prefers the scenery of the Republic of China. When that photo was taken... she was 45 years old, and she said she was old..."

"Not old, looks less than forty, and very beautiful." Ming Yue said so, and then remembered why the house was full of the style of the Republic of China, and the novel she mentioned.

Chen Xilin turned his head and looked at Mingyu in the dim light. The latter was lying quietly on the bed with his eyes closed.

Didn't she realize that she looked like the person in the photo?Maybe it's just my own illusion.But they all have that look, even the way they raise their eyebrows is exactly the same.

Chen Xilin closed his eyes again, some words may never be able to be said, for example, I just thought you were like her back then.

Even the scene of meeting you is so similar.

"So you have been together for many, many years, she must have treated you very well."

Chen Xilin raised the corners of his lips bitterly, "She is my lover, sister, mother, and daughter."

As soon as the words came out of her mouth, she felt that she still said something she shouldn't have said, but after so many years, who could she tell it to?

For the love on the shore, the mermaid endured the severe pain at her feet, and the pain deepened with each step she took. She walked for 12 years and suffered from pain for 12 years.In the end she chose to leave, and turned into an unbearably light foam, never to be found again.

Ming Yue's stomach twisted again, this sounded like an irreplaceable position.

"But it's all in the past." Chen Xilin pretended to be relaxed.

"My lover, my sister, and even my mother are easy to understand. Why is it a daughter?"

The air thickened again and settled down, "She will also have her fragility and cuteness."

A moment of silence.

"Lynn...wouldn't saying this make you unhappy?"

"No," Chen Xilin actually smiled softly, "It's all old things," the voice sank, "What about you? Can you listen, why do you despise yourself like that?"

Is it contemptible?Ming Yu stretched out his hand, "Can I turn off the light?"

"Ah."

The room went completely dark.

"I was the mistress of a man who got me to where I am today."

The darkness froze, like falling into a black hole.

"I'm sorry, Yue, needless to say..." Chen Xilin's voice was broken and light, and turned into nothingness.

"Did it disgust you at the beginning?"

"No, I don't want to embarrass you. I don't mind that."

"I want to say, after you finish talking, you can decide whether you like me or not."

"Liking you has nothing to do with your past. Asking about your past just hopes to take you out of the shadow of loathing yourself."

"When I was with him, it wasn't for money or status."

"I believe it. I also believe that it is not entirely because of him that you are where you are today, but because of your own efforts."

Ming Yue smiled and expressed his appreciation, "In short, like the tragedy of thousands of mistresses in this world, he returned to his family. Then I met the first woman in my life, her name is Hong."

"flood?"

"flood."

This character was written as "Hong", which is her screen name.

"That was when I was in the second year of my master's degree. I met her online. She was in Rongcheng, China."

"Online? You are in the United States, she is in China? You are..."

"Online dating, foreign. In the beginning, she was just a netizen. Lynn, let me ask you a question. When you can't attract someone with your appearance, temperament, voice, or even gender, what should you do?"