die without a problem

Between ears and temples, reason was not completely disconnected as imagined, Chen Chen knew that he had come to the door of desire, but he did not open that door for a long time.

I don't know what Yu Cong is thinking at this time, but he feels that they are more like playing, just like when they were young, even though there is a palpitating light in each other's eyes that seems to be called possession.This happiness is a bit retro, it is pure playful elation.The touch and temperature are wonderfully tender.

The shirt has been taken off and thrown to the ground.From the corner of Chen Chen's eyes, he caught a glimpse of heat on the ground.Yu Cong's hand came behind him, he couldn't help but flinch, and subconsciously grabbed that hand.

Yu Cong didn't say anything and changed the route.

Chen Chen stopped again.

"you are not willing?"

"No."

"Then let go." After finishing speaking, Yu Cong let go of his hand instead, looking like he wanted to chat for a while.

Chen Chen became embarrassed.It is difficult to describe the complicated emotions that are coming at this time, so I can only talk about the matter of principle, "There is no way."

"that's it?"

"Of course." It's nothing at all if it happens with someone who's been in love with you for a long time. This is Chen Chen's consistent view, but that layer of barrier is the ultimate safety, privacy and decency.For anyone, at least for now.

Yu Cong accepted this statement, but made another surprise attack with his hand, which was a prank, and Chen Chen blocked it arrogantly again.

When the kiss came to the side of the ear, Chen Chen couldn't bear the itch.He turned his head to one side, and the beautiful lines of his sternocleidomastoid muscles stretched out, which was charming.

"Did you never do it?"

Chen Chen nodded sincerely.

Yu Cong was a little surprised. "Do not be afraid."

"I'm not afraid." Much like a drunk who says he's not drunk, but he's not afraid. "My first boyfriend was a high school classmate, how pure it was back then, just kiss."

"Okay, I never had a relationship in high school."

"Really?" Chen Chen did not hide his doubts.

"Why are you lying to me?" Yu Cong stopped his movements and sat upright. Chen Chen also sat up and stared at him. "The first boyfriend was a classmate in the university club, and we got together because we liked each other. Maybe when I first went to college, I couldn't think clearly about anything, and it was inexplicable to be together or to be apart."

"Well, everyone needs time to figure it out."

"the second……"

Chen Chen's heart tightened.

"Very complicated."

Chen Chen wanted to know eagerly, but he knew that he would definitely get hurt if he knew.Reaching out to grab the jacket on the ground - he still doesn't have the strong mentality to listen to the other party's previous love history naked.Clothes rubbing against the skin with moisture and coldness is a kind of torture.Yu Cong is very frank - whether the wind has passed or the love of his life is confusing.

"The second one is a high school classmate. He has a boyfriend. It can be regarded as a clear love. I like him and he knows that he has maintained a friend relationship in high school. It was a very painful time. Self-doubt, unable to talk, and forced to smile and be friends , the whole world is dark. My mother thought I was driven crazy by the college entrance examination, and often cried behind my back. Once I couldn’t help crying and begged me not to collapse, she thought I was going to die.”

This description is too commonplace, who didn't live a dark life when they were young.But Chen Chen's heart was like a loose clod, riddled with holes from the torrential rain that Yu Cong recalled.I can only pretend to be calm, "And then?"

"Later, I went to the same university with different majors, and his boyfriend went to a university in another province."

Chen Chen joked, "Then you're poaching?" He felt pain in his heart, and he knew he wouldn't be able to say such a duplicity.

Yu Cong shook his head, "They lived in different places for a while, and I had my first boyfriend."

"Then they broke up?"

"His boyfriend cheated, and they separated and reunited for a whole year. After I broke up, I started chasing him. After chasing for a year, he finally agreed."

"Isn't that just living happily together?"

"The graduate student is about to graduate, and his ex-boyfriend came back to look for him, so he broke up with me."

Rather than sympathizing, Chen Chen wanted to know when they broke up. "when?"

"A month ago."

Then it hit my hand, Chen Chen felt bitter in his heart, even his mouth was filled with a non-existent bitter taste.In the final analysis, Yu Cong and him are here and now, and it is nothing more than an act of seeking comfort.He even hoped that Yu Cong would argue that this was not the case, so that he could justifiably give him a big slap in the face.

Chen Chen couldn't point it out, he thought they were tacit understanding, but it wasn't, there was nothing between him and Yu Cong.He himself can coolly think that it doesn't matter if he is nothing.He likes him and has nothing to do with him.But this point is emphasized by the other party, which is completely different. It just shows that the previous psychological construction is completely bullshit.

Chen Chen thought that he was the one who saw through, but it turned out that he was the one who was ignorant.He feels sorry for them.

"Are you going to try harder?"

"do not know."

What an irresponsible answer.Chen Chen asked, "Why did you find me?".What I want to ask is do you like me?

Yu Cong wanted to show sincerity, and in fact he really did, "When I saw you, I thought you were special. I wanted to ask you out, but I was a little timid..."

It's a boring cliché, Chen Chen is really whimsical, delusional that he can name a flower.At this point, I reluctantly built a defense in my heart.

Yu Cong paused, and changed to a question that pointed to the core, "Do you like me?"

"do not like!"

Yu Cong didn't feel disappointed at all, instead he seemed amused, "Why?"

"Because I hate pushy people the most!" I hoped that the decisive tone could show momentum, but in fact it was just childish.

"Don't like me."

"Of course!"

Chen Chen pressed the pause button, and the chattering little yellow man finally calmed down.He put away the computer, jumped onto the opposite bed, and wrapped the quilt tightly.

Yu Cong picked up his coat and folded it neatly.Still with his arms open, he sat on the bed and looked across the aisle, "Chen Chen, come here."

"what!"

"come here."

Chen Chen thought in his heart, idiot.

"Come here..." Yu Cong kept yelling.

Chen Chen thought, if you dare to do anything again, I will beat you to death.So he passed.

Didn't do anything more.It's kissing, stop, say a few words, and then kiss again, the so-called rubbing hands together.

The rain stopped.They dawdled to get dressed and planned to go out to eat.The umbrella was thrown behind the door when it came in, and now it has collected a small puddle of water.

After going outside, Chen Chen felt that his heart that had been crushed by a stone could finally breathe normally.

When I passed the convenience store when I came back, it seemed that everything had returned to zero, and Yu Cong became the 'stranger' who had seen it for a long time.He made him go through such an emotional upheaval, and it would not be a disadvantage for him to sleep.Chen Chen hesitated for a moment and then said, "Let's go buy a set."

Yu Cong looked back at him, "No need."

Chen Chen didn't speak.

"Really." Yu Cong took his hand.

Chen Chen didn't insist.Back in the dormitory, they slept in separate beds.In the dark, Yu Cong said, "You are too kind, you should treat yourself better."

Chen Chen really wanted to jump up and hit him.Because at that moment, he had a feeling of being completely seen through, which made him angry from embarrassment.It seems that in Yu Cong's heart, Chen Chen has split into two, and this one is being harsh on the real one.He couldn't express the true feelings in his heart into words, and he couldn't pretend, so he could only remain silent.

Neither of them spoke anymore, and sleep finally overcame all emotions.