not regret

Chapter 5

Shen Pan stroked the young man's smooth back again and again, Shui Yifan cat was in Shen Pan's arms, like a lazy cat, squinting comfortably.

"Brother Qiao's love has grown courageous." Shui Yifan said inexplicably.

Shen Juan didn't seem to hear clearly, "What? What happened to Xu Zhiqiao?"

"His love has grown courageous, and he went to Xiaocan to demonstrate a few days ago." Shui Yifan turned over and lay side by side with Shen Pan, put his hand on Shen Pan's waist, and rested his head on Shen Pan. on the shoulders of the judge.

"Oh, I know. Xu Zhiqiao came to tell me about it."

"Why didn't I hear you tell me, you're so bold now, you dare to hide things from me." Shui Yifan pinched Shen Pan's waist in a gentle manner.

Shen Pan grabbed Shui Yifan's hand and kissed it lightly, "Isn't it because you're worried? The matter is over, and Xu Zhiqiao won't have anything to do with that person again, it was handled quite cleanly."

"Today Xiaocan said that I am very happy, and I won't experience his heart-piercing feeling. Do you know what I said?" Shui Yifan pulled his hand out of Shen Pan's hand, squeezed Shen Pan's chin, and forced him to look at yourself.

"I don't know, what did you say? It's nothing more than something like Brother Judgment will never let me experience it in my life. What else could it be?"

Shui Yifan shook his head, pretending to be mysterious, and wanted Shen Pan to guess, but Shen Pan didn't guess, nor could he guess.

"I told him, if you dare to cheat, I'll chop up Shen Daniao and cook a dish for you and your lover, and watch you two eat it." Staring at Shen Juan.

"Hey, it's really cruel, but I like it..." Shen Juan turned over and pressed Shui Yifan under him.

In the middle of the night, Shen Pan hugged the sleeping person in his arms tightly. "Xiao Shui, baby, my time is running out, I really haven't had enough time with you."

Tears wet the pillowcase, Shen Juan tried his best not to cry, suppressed his choked sobs, his voice trembling, "I'm gone, in the future you must find someone who loves you more than me and tolerates you. Xiao Shui... Baby..." Shen Juan sobbed uncontrollably, and held Shui Yifan tightly in his arms.Shen Pan paused for a long time, and finally couldn't hold back his trembling cry, "Xiao Shui, I can't bear you."

Shui Yifan was awakened by Shen Pan's actions, and the man beside him cried like a child, "What's wrong? Why are you still crying?"

"It's okay, I dreamed about my dad." Shui Yifan pulled the paper aside, wiped away Shen Pan's tears, circled Shen Pan, and patted him on the back. Shen Pan's father was something they couldn't talk about. In the forbidden zone, when Shen Juan eloped with Shui Yifan, Shen's father had a car accident while chasing him. He didn't sleep for several days and nights, driving tired, and was finally crushed by the pressure of a fuel tanker.

When Shen was sentenced, Shen's father couldn't even pick out a good piece of meat. He always felt that his father's death was caused by himself, and he felt so guilty. After that, Shui Yifan didn't dare to say in front of him that Shen's father was Shen Judge the pain that cannot be mentioned in the heart.

"Go to sleep." Shui Yifan didn't know how to comfort Shen Pan, and Shui Yifan didn't dare to touch things that he hadn't dared to mention all these years.

Shen Pan fell asleep in Shui Yifan's arms, woke up with pain in the early morning, and couldn't sleep anymore. For several months, he always woke up with pain and then went back to sleep, and was awakened by pain when he fell asleep. It was far away from Shui Yifan, and it was hidden so deeply that Shui Yifan hadn't noticed anything unusual about Shen Pan until now.

It was the secretary's suggestion to go to the hospital for an examination. Shen Juan always felt that he was in good health and didn't need any examinations, but he was afraid that something would be found in the real examination. I just felt that the sky was falling, my heart was torn a big hole, and my whole body was icy cold due to the northwest wind.

The result of the examination was a bunch of technical terms that I didn’t understand. The uncle doctor was an old friend of my father, and he watched me grow up. When he went to the doctor with the test report, he couldn’t remember what the doctor said. , I only remember the five words "malignant lymphoma".

The floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room have a lazy sofa and a fluffy carpet, which is very comfortable to step on with bare feet.Shui Yifan bought it, he likes these cute things.

There are a lot of cigarette butts in the ashtray next to the carpet, and the living room is filled with a strong smell of smoke. This is the first time that Shen Juan has smoked so hard. When I first met Shui Yifan, Shui Yifan said "Stop smoking, it's bad for your health." Shen Juan threw away the cigarette case and lighter on his body at that time, and said to Shui Yifan, "Stop smoking." Since then, Shen Pan really hasn't smoked a single cigarette.

Through the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking at the gradually whitening sky outside, Shen Pan's pale face was stained with tears.It was probably the day I cried the most since my father died.

In Shen Pan's eyes as calm as a deep pool, there was no ripple at all, only a little ashes.

"Xiao Shui..." Shui Yifan's name was murmured in his mouth.Shen Juan didn't know if Shui Yifan could accept the fact that he was going to die soon, and he didn't dare to say it.

The author has something to say:

I have never been in contact with this "malignant lymphoma". I just used such a disease to write terminally ill memes. If there is anything wrong, please point it out.