not regret

Chapter 6

I remember when we were at the construction site, the two had a quarrel because of something. I can’t remember the specific reason, but it was definitely not a big deal. In fierce quarrels, Shen Juan is not a person who can quarrel, his way of handling things is "do not push if you can." But Shen Juan is definitely not able to do it with Shui Yifan.After being out of breath, he said the words he regretted the most, "Break up, I don't want you anymore."

Shen Juan regretted this sentence when he said it, but the words are like splashed water, and it is difficult to take them back. Shui Yifan cried at that time, and tears dripped down his fair face as if he didn't want money.Shen Pan's figure slowly blurred in his eyes, Shui Yifan squatted on the ground biting his lip, buried his head in his knees, and shrunk himself into a small ball.

Shen Juan received a call from a worker that night and hurried to the hospital. He saw the young man on the hospital bed. His pale face was bloodless, his eyes were tightly closed, and the gauze on his hand was stinging fiercely. Calm eyes.

Shui Yifan committed suicide. If he hadn’t been discovered in time, he would not be lying on a hospital bed, but in a mortuary. When a worker found him, Shui Yifan was soaking in the bathtub, and the warm water soaked his body. The clear water turned turbid due to the addition of blood, slowly wrapped around Shui Yifan with Shui Yifan's unwillingness and disappointment.

Shen Pan didn't dare to touch the pale boy, as if he would disappear if he touched the boy, "Why are you so stupid?" Shen Pan frowned, and gently touched Shui Yifan's uninjured right hand.

When Shui Yifan opened his eyes, Shen Pan was lying on his stomach in front of the bed, holding Shui Yifan's hand in his hand, and when Shui Yifan moved, Shen Pan woke up.

His voice was like being pulled by a knife, and his voice was like an old broken bellows, "Let me go."

Shen Pan's grip became tighter, and he refused to let go of "No".

The weak Shui Yifan didn't have the strength to tear Shen Juan apart, so he could only let him hold his hand, "Didn't you want me? Why did you come back?"

"Fool" rubbed the back of Shui Yifan's hand, and Shen Juan said with a choked voice, "You take your angry words seriously, aren't you very smart? How could you do such a stupid thing? What should I do if you are gone? Boss The Shen family has no more descendants, do you still want me to die too?"

The tears from the corners of Shui Yifan's eyes flowed down his temples and into his scalp, itching, he turned his head and the tears flowed onto the pillow, wetting a large area.

"You don't want me anymore, what are you doing alive?" Shui Yifan sucked his nose, his throat was so sore that he could tremble after swallowing.

Shen Pan stood up, and gently hugged Shui Yifan in his arms, "Xiao Shui, I promise you, I will never say such stupid things again, and if you get angry, you can hit me and scold me, just don't Treating myself like this, my heart feels like it's being torn, it hurts like hell."

Shui Yifan's tears flowed even harder and couldn't stop, his eyes gradually became red and swollen, and he said hoarsely, "It's good to know you're wrong."

Lifting his uninjured right hand, he hugged Shen Pan tightly.

After that time, Shen Juan was really scared, and never dared to say a serious word to Shui Yifan again, and he relied on him for everything. No matter what difficulties they had, the two respected each other as guests, and they have been loving each other for thirteen years.

At the beginning, a friend said, "I didn't expect that same-sex love can be like this. Brother Juan, if you and Brother Fan are separated, then I don't believe in love anymore."

At dawn, Shen Pan opened the window to dissipate the smell of smoke, took the ashtray to clean, went into the kitchen and was busy making breakfast for Shui Yifan, making one meal less, Shen Pan wanted to do his best to treat Shui Yifan good.

How to tell Shui Yifan about his physical condition is the biggest problem for Shen Juan at present. He is afraid that Shui Yifan will not be able to take it. After 12 years of being together, Shen Pan is the person who knows Shui Yifan best. Those who won’t give up, have learned from the past, and Shen Juan said something tentatively last night. Shui Yifan’s answer made Shen Juan even more afraid to say it. Shui Yifan’s words are still in his mind, “If you If you die, I will follow you."

With such a stubborn Shui Yifan, how dare Shen Juan say, "Xiao Shui, I'm terminally ill, I can't grow old with you, I'm sorry." Shen Juan didn't even dare to think about Shui Yifan's reaction.He just wanted to let Shui Yifan live his life peacefully and happily, instead of pulling him with him when his soul returned to the loess.

The head hurts again, Shen Pan accidentally cut his finger while cutting the orange, Shen Pan was fascinated when his finger was rinsed under the water pipe.

Shen Pan has never doubted Shui Yifan's love for him, just like he loves Shui Yifan to the bone, it melts into the blood, circulates all over the body and finally flows into the heart, if he wants to leave, he will definitely feel heart-rending and painful.

Shen Juan didn't want to think about how difficult it was for the two of them to get to this point. After overcoming all difficulties, they were finally together, and he was about to quit. Xiao Shui, would you blame me?