not regret

Chapter 32

In the afternoon, Shui Jiansheng came to take Xu Fenfang's place to accompany him at night after get off work. As soon as he entered the door, he saw Shui Yifan sitting next to his mother, his eyes suddenly became sharp, and his tone was harsh, "Why are you back?"

Shui Yifan looked up and saw that it was his father, "Dad, what happened to grandma, why don't you tell me." Then he took out a card from his pocket, "You take this card, grandma's matter will probably take more time." use money."

Shui Jiansheng didn't even look at the card, and walked to his grandmother's bed, "Why are you pretending to be a good person, if it weren't for you, she wouldn't be like this."

Shui Yifan looked up at Shui Jiansheng suspiciously, "What did you say?"

"Since you left, her blood pressure has risen, and she is in a bad mood every day. If the neighbor says something about you, she can argue with her for a long time. She is unhappy every day. Half of this disease is your responsibility." Shui Jiansheng said, "My Shui family doesn't have such an unfilial son like you, get out and don't come in again."

Shui Jiansheng became more and more excited as he talked, blushing, pointing at Shui Yifan and cursing.

Shui Yifan didn't say a word, he knew that his father couldn't accept the matter between him and Shen Juan for so many years, he sat and listened to his father's abuse, when the nurse came over, he thought something happened, I have been persuading.

Shui Jiansheng was not the kind of person who would quarrel and swear, he stopped talking after a few words of swearing, and silently took care of Grandma Shui, wiping his hands and face with a wet towel.

After his anger subsided, Shui Jiansheng was finally able to have a good conversation with Shui Yifan, "Let's go, you only have that kid surnamed Shen in your heart, and we don't matter at all in your heart. I've gotten used to it after so many years. I don't have your son."

"Dad, it's been ten years, and you still refuse to accept it?" Shui Yifan paused, his father's words were as harsh as they were painful, he felt like the last fallen leaf on an autumn tree, fluttering and falling, Not even a place to stay.

"How do you ask me to accept it? Ah? You..." Shui Jiansheng suddenly silenced, thinking that there were other people in the ward, he didn't want others to know his family ugliness.

Shui Yifan stared blankly at his father who cleaned up for grandma. He hadn't seen him for a few years. His father's white hair became more and more serious. He has always been under tremendous pressure for him, but now his father no longer bears it for him, he feels that his sky is falling.

"Dad, I can't change it for the rest of my life. Can you stop saying this in front of grandma? Let grandma go away with peace of mind." Shui Yifan said in a soft tone. He didn't want to quarrel with his father. Grandma is always guilty.

After cleaning up his mother, Shui Jiansheng sat on a stool beside him, "You said that you would be with him for life and death, and you couldn't stop him. Now? What do you have? What can he give you? Except the bank card Numbers, what do you have? Not even a child can be born to you."

Shui Yifan looked at the beating lines on the instrument and was suddenly a little confused. Why are people alive?I have lived for nearly 30 years. I have gone through bumps and bumps along the way, but now it is a little smoother. Shen Pan’s company has problems again. I don’t go home every day. Looking at the jumping lines, they first fluctuate up and down, and then tend to Yu Pingtan, suddenly Shui Yifan heard the sound of beeping, and the lines on the instrument turned into a straight line.

Shui Jiansheng hurriedly got up and ran to call the doctor. Shui Yifan sat on the stool beside him in a daze, motionless. Did grandma leave?

"Grandma?" Shui Yifan pushed grandma, but grandma would never respond to him again.

Many doctors and nurses came. Shui Yifan stepped aside and watched the doctor listen to grandma's heartbeat with a stethoscope, and then a nurse took blood pressure. After a lot of trouble, the doctor called Shui Jiansheng out, and Shui Yifan continued to stay where he was , Dissociated from reality, he saw his grandma waving at him and said, "Fanfan, grandma made pancakes for you, look at you, you've lost weight again."

He felt that grandma was still there, but grandma hadn't left. Why did those people cover grandma's face?No, I want to go up and stop them. Shui Yifan stepped forward and pulled off the quilt covering grandma's face. No one could go over and touch grandma again. Persevere, let him go.

When Shui Jiansheng came back, what he saw was his son holding his mother motionless, with a deadpan face and stiff movements, "Let go, grandma is gone."

Shui Yifan still didn't move, Shui Jiansheng stepped forward and broke Shui Yifan's hand, Shui Yifan sat on the stool, his eyes were empty.

Shui Yifan watched grandma being lifted, sent to the hearse, and pulled back to the small courtyard. Others rushed to change grandma's shroud, and then put it in the ice coffin. Suddenly, he said, "Let go, what are you doing? Grandma is still alive, what are you doing... let go." Walking quickly, Shui Yifan stopped everyone's movements, and when the tears flowed down, they were so cold that there was no warmth at all.

After a stalemate for a while, Xu Fenfang came in and pulled her son away so that her mother-in-law could settle down.

Shui Yifan didn't know whether his hands were frozen or he grasped too tightly when he was in a stalemate with the person. Now he can't do a good job of clenching his fists. It was difficult for him to take out the phone and dial Shen Pan's number, but he couldn't hold it steady.

"Xiao Shui?" The phone was picked up after waiting for a while, and Shui Yifan squatted down when he heard Shen Pan's voice.

"Brother Judgment, Grandma...Grandma is gone..." From the time of the accident to now, Shui Yifan's heart has completely collapsed. He stood in the ruins and looked around, completely confused.

"Baby..." Shen Juan's voice on the phone was not very right, but Shui Yifan didn't hear it at all at the moment, he was immersed in sadness and couldn't extricate himself, all he could think about was grandma.

Sobbing, Shui Yifan is a big man, he couldn't cry loudly, and he was still a little depressed from the beginning to the end, "Brother Judgment...Can you come back and stay with me?"

"I'm sorry, baby...I'm busy here, so I can't leave."

"It's okay, you are busy..." After hanging up the phone, Shui Yifan sat in front of the ice coffin, looked at grandma's face, tears dripped down on the skirt of his clothes, and sniffed. The miscellaneous voices seemed to be blocked, and had nothing to do with him. A small world appeared around him and grandma, which contained Shui Yifan's memories.

The way grandma stood at the door watching him go to school, the way grandma made pancakes for herself in the kitchen, the way grandma hugged herself and told stories, the way grandma knew that she liked men in despair.

Shui Yifan covered his face, tears flowed down his fingers, choked up and couldn't say a complete sentence, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

The guilt in his heart swept over Shui Yifan, strangled his neck, and was about to suffocate. Guilt waved his sharp claws and pinched his heart bit by bit, and blood flowed down the claws. All the tears flowed.