not regret

Chapter 33

Grandma Shui's funeral was seven days later. According to the custom, the coffin was left for seven days before being buried. Shui Yifan had been in a state of being out of reality for the past seven days.The whole person lost weight, and his face was pale and pale. He is the eldest grandson, and he should be the one to walk in the front of the funeral procession with his grandma's photo, but because of his situation, Shui Jiansheng didn't let him carry his grandma's photo. The photo is another child of the family.

Shui Yifan had been in grandma's mourning hall all along, and had never been out. When he followed the funeral procession, he heard some voices in a daze.

"Yo, isn't this the gay son of the Shui family?"

"Isn't it? He dares to come back? Don't you feel ashamed?"

"Why do you like men? How does it feel to be oppressed by men?"

"Hey, what do you know, it's probably more comfortable than pressing a woman."

The words that floated into the ears were like a sledgehammer, hitting the water hard. Yifan's legs were weak, and it was extremely difficult to take a step. There was something pulling him. The road seemed to have no end, and his feet felt unclothed. The shoes are the same, no... Shui Yifan feels as if he has no clothes on, his whole body is exposed to the air and people's eyes, and at the end of the road stands Shen Pan, waving to himself, saying "baby …do not be afraid".

How he staggered to the cemetery, how he watched grandma's burial, and how he walked back. Shui Yifan was like a patient with amnesia. When the weather is fine, grandma hugs his quilt and goes out to dry it. When he sleeps at night, he smells of sunshine all over his body, which is warm. But at this moment, the quilt is not warm at all. In order to build a mourning hall in the yard, grandma planted A walnut tree in my house was also cut down, and the yard in winter was not as vibrant as in summer, reflecting the desolation in Shui Yifan's heart, and it looked like a fiasco.

When returning home, Shui Jiansheng said awkwardly, "Be careful on the road and live a good life" even though he was angry with his son.

Xu Fenfang gave Shui Yifan a lot of the beef sauce she made. Her son loved it, and she made a lot of it every year, but Shui Jiansheng insisted on not letting her send it to her son. Then it was dumped again, and the cycle continued for many years.

It may be that the death of his mother gave Shui Jiansheng a thought why he should hold on to something while he was alive. He was not as sharp about Shui Yifan and Shen Pan as before, but it was not a short while before he could let go. That's fine.

When I got home, Shui Yifan was lying on the bed exhausted and didn’t want to move. There was a feeling of desertedness in the house. The mango was still half-lived, and Shui Yifan didn’t bother to take care of it. A week without eating For python, it doesn't matter at all.

When he came back, he had already told Shen Juan that if it was normal, Shen Juan would definitely be waiting for him at home when he had been away for so long, but the atmosphere at home told him that Shen Juan hadn't come home for a week, nor had he called anyone. Come clean up.

"Beep...beep..." The phone was connected, and then I remembered that very official voice.

Shui Yifan frowned. He didn't want to call again. He didn't know where he saw it. He said that if a person had you in his heart, he didn't receive the call at the time and saw the call record. He would definitely call you as soon as possible. Call back, if a person doesn't have you in his heart, he will turn a blind eye no matter how many calls you make.

Shui Yifan didn't want to be alone in this empty home. He used to be able to stay at home because he knew that Shen Pan would come back every day, but now he was not sure. Ever since his grandma passed away, he had a feeling of worrying about gains and losses, and he didn't know why.

"Xiaocan, eat with me."

When he received the call, Cui Can was standing in front of the mirror admiring the couple tattoos of himself and Xu Zhiqiao. It was a pair of wing-shaped patterns with the initials of each other's names, which was very beautiful.Wings are the wings of a swan. A swan has only one partner in its life. He wants Xu Zhiqiao to always remember that he is the only one, and Wen’s position is one on the left shoulder and the other on the right shoulder. A pair of wings, if you lose either one, you can’t take off again. Cui Zhiqiao Can wants to tell Xu Zhiqiao that there is a couple for life.

"Okay, what to eat? It's been a long time since I ate fish, so why not eat fish?" Cui Can said cheerfully, he was very happy because he really liked this tattoo.

"Um"

Shui Yifan arrived earlier than Cui Can. When he saw Xu Zhiqiao and Cui Can appearing together, he felt a pain. How long has it been since he had dinner with Shen Pan?How long has it been since Shen Ping didn't cook for him, maybe almost ten days?This has never happened before.

At the dinner table, Xu Zhiqiao patiently picked fish bones for Cui Can, and then put them on Cui Can's plate. I don't know what method Cui Can used to make the cheating Xu Zhiqiao so docile.

"Brother Pan hasn't come home recently. Is the matter with his company still unresolved?" Shui Yifan asked.

Xu Zhiqiao continued to pick the fishbone, but didn't look up, "It should be all right, I haven't heard of it."

"When will you two go back to your hometown and confess to your lord?" Shui Yifan said.

Cui Can's movement of eating fish slowed down significantly, "It should be soon, I'm not ready yet."

Shui Yifan turned his head and turned to Xu Zhiqiao, "He has no idea, you should help him, if you love him, you shouldn't let him worry about this all the time. Two people want a status together It's normal, what's the matter with him following you so vaguely?"

Xu Zhiqiao finally stopped picking fish bones, "I always thought that two big men are together, why are you so hypocritical? There's no need to talk about I love you every day, and Cancan didn't keep mentioning it, I think it's so normal It's good to be together steadily, since you want to get a title for him so much, it's not impossible, but his mother's matter can't be resolved in a short while." Xu Zhiqiao turned to look at Cui Can, his eyes were incomparable Gentle "Whenever you want to go back, I will go back with you, and I will take care of everything with you."

"Yeah..." Cui Can lowered his head and ate the fish, Xu Zhiqiao didn't see Cui Can's reddish eyes and trembling hands because of being moved.