not regret

Shen Pan had just been discharged from the hospital when he received Shui Yifan's call. He had been in the hospital for the past two days, and his face looked a little better, but it was not much better. When he returned home, Shui Yifan looked at Shen Pan in front of him in shock. I haven't seen you for a few days. How did this person become like this?

"Is the company's matter serious?" Shui Yifan took Shen Pan's clothes, hung them on the hook, and helped Shen Pan take out his slippers.

"It doesn't matter, everything is fine." Shen Pan walked to the front of the sofa wearing slippers, and nestled inside.

Shui Yifan followed behind, went to pour a glass of water, and said as he walked, "Brother Judgment, you have lost a lot of weight recently, didn't I tell you not to work so hard? I am so easy to support, you don't have to work so hard. If you do this, I will My heart hurts." Shui Yifan sat next to Shen Pan, and stretched out his arms to wrap around Shen Pan's waist, which used to be a little fleshy, but now it's lean.

"It's okay, everything is settled, but I lost a lot of money." Shen Juan patted Shui Yifan's hand.

"Brother Judgment, it's not a big deal that money can solve. Don't worry about money all the time." Shui Yifan said.

"Then what is a big deal?" Judge Shen asked.

"Such as life and death, such as...you leave me." Shui Yifan buried his head in Shen Pan's chest, his voice muffled.

Shen Juan couldn't hold back suddenly. When he was doing bone surgery in the hospital these days, he thought for a moment that he should die. Shui Yifan became the pillar of his life. He hadn't paved the way for Shui Yifan yet. Lu, how could he die, he couldn't bear it.

"Baby..." Shen Pan suddenly hugged Shui Yifan very tightly, the kind that wanted to be rubbed into the bones, the kind that wanted to blend into one.

When he received his mother's call, Shui Yifan had just woken up, and vaguely heard the phone ringing. He saw that it was his mother who hadn't contacted him for a long time, and stared at the phone for a while. Will call myself, "Mom?"

"Fanfan, you should come back, your grandma...maybe she can't do it anymore." Xu Fenfang's voice on the phone was not high, and Shui Yifan could even hear the beeping sound from that kind of instrument.

After Shui Yifan left with Shen Juan, he didn't go home a few times. People in the small town always looked at him with tinted glasses. His health has not been very good for several years. His grandma quarreled countless times with the gossiping old lady of the neighbor because of him. Shui Yifan dared not go home. Nothing to live with him, stick to the small town.Grandma Shui had already noticed that her heart was uncomfortable when he left home. After walking two steps, her heart ached and she couldn't breathe. Grandma Shui, who could not die from starvation and saved her whole life, endured it without saying a word. Recently, she really couldn't bear it until she let Shui Jiansheng know, but it was too late, she was old, her blood vessels were fragile, and she wanted to do a stent Will not work.

"What's wrong with grandma?" Shui Yifan woke up instantly.

He grew up with his grandma, who hid all the delicious food and waited for Shui Yifan to get home to feed him. The first thing Shui Yifan did when he came home from school was to find his grandma. Grandma was in his heart. The position is so important that no one can shake it. He remembered that when he was in school, his grandma stood at the door of the room and watched him go.

"Come back, it's just a day or two." Xu Fenfang said.

Shui Yifan didn't dare to delay, so he quickly put on his clothes, took the key, sent a message to Shen Juan, and hurried out.

On the way home, the icy wind blew on Shui Yifan's face along the car window. He forgot to turn on the air conditioner, and he forgot to pull up the car window. The only thought in his mind was that grandma must be fine and must wait. go back by yourself.

The two-hour drive felt extremely long to Shui Yifan, so why not make it?Why is it so slow, I can't wait to increase the speed to [-].

When he arrived at the hospital, seeing his grandma on oxygen, Shui Yifan was so uncomfortable that he couldn't speak, his eyes were blurred with tears, and grandma was lying on the bed with some kind of clip on her finger.

Walking to grandma's bed, Shui Yifan touched grandma's rough hand.

"Grandma, I want to eat pancakes and fried shredded potatoes."

"Okay, grandma will bake it for you."

The pancakes made by grandma are the best in the world. Every time Shui Yifan can eat a lot, his mouth is full of oil, and his eyes are narrowed when he eats. Grandma is watching from the side, "eat slowly, no People will rob you." She smiled kindly.

"Speak to grandma, she hasn't known anyone these two days." Xu Fenfang went to fetch water with a water bottle.

Shui Yifan held grandma's hand, couldn't suppress the sobs in his voice, sniffed, "Grandma, who am I?"

Grandma Shui moved her eyes tremblingly, and she could see that such an eye-opening movement was also very laborious. She looked at Shui Yifan, and said something softly in a breathy voice. Shui Yifan couldn't hear it, so she could only Putting my ear to grandma's lips, when I heard what grandma said, tears flowed down my face disobediently, grandma said, "My family is Fanfan."

Grandma didn't know anyone these two days, but she still remembered him. Shui Yifan's face was covered with tears and snot from crying, and he picked up the toilet paper beside the table and blew his nose. When he saw the old grandma, he couldn't stop crying.

Walking out of the ward and standing against the wall, looking at the house outside the window, there was an old man standing beside him smoking a cigarette, "Uncle, can you give me one?"

The uncle generously gave Shui Yifan a cigarette, "Young man, don't be sad, birth, old age, sickness and death are human nature, you have to learn to look away."

It's easy to say, how can you see it?Shui Yifan took a puff of the cigarette, and the nicotine circulated in his lungs, and then went to his brain, telling him to look away. "Fuck", Shui Yifan kicked the wall, he couldn't see it, grandma was lying on the bed like that, he regretted, regretted not spending more time with grandma all these years, regretted why he didn't find out that something was wrong with grandma earlier, regretted He gave up a lot for Shen Judgment.

When Xu Fenfang came out to ask Shui Yifan to eat, Shui Yifan stood motionless in front of the corridor window.Xu Fenfang looked at her son, he had grown up, he was no longer the person who wore a school uniform and rode to school every day, walked to the window, "Your grandma kept talking about you, saying that you will be thirty soon, and you don't have any children. I will give you a retirement pension."

"It's said that two men don't even have a guarantee when they are together. If one day Shen Juan is no longer with you, what will you do? The two of you don't even have a child to connect with. Fanfan, go home, go home and find Daughter-in-law, can't we live in peace and stability?"

Xu Fenfang covered her mouth with her hands, and didn't dare to cry too loudly, sobbing.

"Mom, that's all I've done in my life, don't talk about it anymore." Shui Yifan handed her a tissue.

Xu Fenfang couldn't stop crying, she felt that her son's life was ruined.