[Comprehensive British and American] Jason Wayne's Road to Struggle

Many things are actually my own choices, so no matter what I need to pay or bear for this choice in the future, I deserve it, but sometimes, I also feel unwilling and sad, but until the end of my life For a moment, I still didn't regret my choice.

Although sometimes I worry that if one day my family and I take a different path, will it mean that I will stay away from them from now on, but I cannot ignore the pain of the victims because of these fears.

——JT

Because of the sudden case of Brudhaven, Nightwing needed to go back to protect his city. He didn't even have a word with Jason, so he hurried on the Batfighter, and finally only had time to send Jason a text message.

[Dickiebird: Jay, I am just a friendship with Barbara now. We are friends who grew up together. Director Gordon asked me to visit Barbara. The shot by the clown made her lose the ability to walk, and she can only sit down in the future. Wheelchair, she needs help...]

Jason closes his phone, kind of bored, he's banned from night watch, so he has nothing to do at night other than studying and reading, and he and Bruce have nothing else to say, and Alfred is off to do logistics for Batman.

In the end, he could only go back to the room alone.

A spacious room, with a fire always burning in the fireplace if he wanted to, and the crackling of the logs as they burned.

Jason didn't like wearing shoes indoors. He took off his shoes and stepped on the plush Persian carpet with bare feet. He didn't turn on the lights. Apart from the fireplace, there was only one lit berry scented candle in the room.

He loves the water, loves to wash himself clean, and can spend hours alone in the bathroom contemplating life.

What an expensive room. He never dreamed that he could live in such a room. Everything in this room, including the fireplace, his favorite bookshelf, the rare edition books on it, the tires hanging, everything It was all given to him by Bruce.

For a long time, what Jason longed for the most was to gain Bruce's trust and approval, but as time went by, Jason became more and more aware that he and Bruce would eventually go on different paths, which made him painful, but the pain was extreme, and he Start to relax.

He is the luckiest beggar in Gotham, from a penniless crime lane gangster to a teenage superhero, and if he continues to wear the mantle of "Robin", such days will probably continue, but he can no longer ignore those The pain and anger conveyed to his ears.

No one stipulates that children must walk the same path as their fathers, right?What worries him the most now is whether Bruce is still willing to accept him as his son when he takes another path.

Jason is really reluctant to part with this family, his father, his grandfather, and... a lot, even though he doesn't know whether these feelings can continue.

Wearing a bath towel, Jason walked to the mirror and looked at himself from top to bottom.

In fact, looking at it this way, he looks no different from a normal man. At most, his waist-to-hip ratio is closer to that of a woman, and he is slimmer than other boys of the same age. However, it is still impossible for him to ignore his specialness.

Jason is a person who often looks at himself in the mirror. He is used to constantly analyzing himself, opening his heart in front of the mirror, and then criticizing and evaluating himself, because he always feels that he is not good enough, and he needs to use this way to change yourself.

So he also knows that he has always hidden a deep inferiority complex in his heart, because of his background and because of...he has too many things that are not good enough.

Jason's biological father spurned and loathed him. The fists, kicks and scolding he suffered in childhood became a lingering shadow in Jason's heart. It wasn't until Bruce appeared that Jason realized what his father was.

And his origin brought him more vigilance and distrust, just like Jason said, once there is theft or other bad things, he is always the number one suspect.

But Dick would actually say that he trusts him, and once said that he is a qualified Robin, which is too important to Jason, Jason thought, he is really grateful for everything Dick gave him, but if he goes The other way, would Dick feel like he had betrayed his trust again, and look at him with disappointment?Jason was a little dreading that day.

Everything that has happened lately has left Jason feeling depressed and alone, but ironically, the more pain he has built up inside, the more successful he is in figure skating.

Figure skating free skating program scores are divided into T points (technical points) and P points (performance points). When Jason was skating "Notre Dame de Paris" on the figure skating arena, the referees gave him almost the same P points. Between 80 and 85, plus the technical score of breaking [-], he became the first figure skater with a total score of more than [-] in the free skating, breaking the world record.

However, when he participated in the Four Continents Championship, he not only completed the world's first hook quadruple jump (4lz) in the program, but also achieved a P score of over 90.

The media praised him as a "genius beyond the current era", and ice fans said his performance "can touch the deepest pain in the heart".

After the game, Jason went to Bludhaven again.

It was February and the weather was still very cold. Jason crouched in front of the police station with his knees wrapped around him. When Dick came out, he stood up and smiled at him.

Dick was startled, and also showed a look of surprise.

He trotted up to Jason, a little at a loss: "Are you here? How long have you been here? I thought you were going to say goodbye to me, and you never want to see me again."

Dick took Jason's hands and wrapped them in his own.

He whispered: "Your Hands Are Cold (your hands are cold)."

Jason froze for a moment, his eyes softened, and he answered irrelevantly: "Did you know? This sentence appeared in "Pride and Prejudice". Mr. Darcy walked in the early morning, in the mist of dawn, to Elizabeth, and then they came together and it was super romantic."

Dick lowered his head and put his forehead against Jason's, and said seriously: "The way you stand waiting for me under the streetlight is a hundred times more romantic than Mr. Darcy, little wing, you stand here, and the winter will become warmer gone."

Jason responded by shaking his head and chuckling.

"I'm not the sun, Dickie, don't exaggerate."

Dick's colleagues walked by and smiled at them: "Dick, is your brother coming to see you?"

Jason greeted the gentleman obediently and politely, and Dick nodded: "Yeah, my brother is cute, right?"

And then they left together, and sometimes Jason thought that even if Dick didn't really understand his pain and struggle, just knowing that Dick still trusted him gave him strength.

Staring at Dick's handsome face, Jason begged, "Take me to the amusement park, Dick, I haven't been there yet."

Dick resolutely agreed, and he bowed: "My good brother Dick is willing to serve you, my dear little brother."

That night, the last snow of winter fell in New Jersey, Dick took Jason over the wall into the amusement park, took him on the Ferris wheel and carousel, accompanied by lights and music, they were very happy, the weather was cold , but as long as he is by the other party's side, it seems to melt the ice and snow.

When he got home, Dick was in a hurry to put in hot water and prepare to change his clothes. He wanted Jason to quickly change his snow-covered clothes and wash off the cold with hot water. Jason grabbed his hand and refused to let it go. Open, stand still and hang your head.

He said softly, "Thank you, Dick, would you give me a hug?"

Dick was puzzled, but still leaned over and hugged him tenderly.

Jason leaned on Dick's shoulder, suddenly unable to hold back his sadness, and sobbed.

Dick was flustered by him. He rubbed Jason's face lovingly with his fingers, and asked very gently, "What's wrong? Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

Jason kept shaking his head, leaned on Dick's shoulder, and whispered, "I don't want to leave you, maintumsepyarkartahoon (Indian language)."

Dick laughed, and replied in the same Indian language, "I won't leave you, shh, little wing, no one will leave you."

Not only did Jason learn the Romani language for Dick, but Dick also learned the Indian language for Jason. Jason looked surprised and smiled again.

He knew that he would really be grateful to Dick for this in his life. Before he met Batman and Alfred and Dick, it had been too long since no one had spoken his mother tongue with him.

Later, Jason was still coaxed to take a hot shower. Dick hurriedly made him cereal with hot milk. Jason didn't bring a change of clothes, so he had to use Dick's clothes to make do, and sat on the sofa with him. Dick watched the movie Jason wanted to see the most. At the end, Dick joked that he would let Jason keep the T-shirt, and he would wrap Jason's clothes with his own coat, and Jason agreed.

They talked a lot.

Dick talked about the past when he was a "Flying Grayson" with his parents when he was a child and performed with the circus everywhere. He said that he was a Roma, they had no fixed home, wandered around, and loved freedom.

"We were living in a caravan, me, my dad, my mom, sometimes they would cuddle with me, sometimes they wouldn't, but it was a really good memory, so I still can't let go of them to this day death."

Jason leaned in Dick's arms and lowered his eyes: "It's great, you have parents you can't let go of. When my parents left me, although I was sad, I also felt relaxed and relieved. Am I very happy?" bad."

"No, you are fine, from head to toe, from the inside out, everything is fine."

Dick softly recited the song his mother sang for him, and patted Jason on the back.

Jason closed his eyes in relief.

"But now, if something happens to you, Bruce, and Alfred, I won't be able to let it go, so you all have to be well. I don't believe in God, but every time I go to church to watch mass, I will pray to God. Hope you are safe."

Dick laughed lightly, his chest shaking, and the clear laughter tickled Jason's ears, and the arms around him tightened again.

Later, Dick fell on Jason's lap like a baby. Jason ran his fingers along Dick's black hair and hummed.

Later, Dick told Jason: "I will go on a long-term mission to an alien planet with the Teen Titans. When I come back, I will give you a gift."

Jason didn't know what that gift was, because for him, everything he had already made him very satisfied.

At the end of March, when Jason stood on the podium of the World Championships, wearing a gold medal, holding a bouquet of flowers, and watching the national flag go up, Jason became the first person in history to collect all Olympic gold medals at the age of 3. He is the figure skating men's singles athlete who won all the gold medals in A-level competitions in the adult group, and holds three world records in the short program, free skating, and total points at the same time, and the age at which he won the world championship is also an unprecedented record.

At the post-match press conference, reporters kept flocking to Jason to ask him questions.

A female reporter asked him: "How did you pull off such a miraculous performance? What did the tears you shed at the end of the free skate mean? What made you so sad?"

Jason had a quiet smile on his face, he looked a little quiet, and he looked like a night sea that could set off a stormy sea in the next second.

The boy replied gently and calmly: "I'm just too immersed in the story behind this show, "Notre Dame de Paris" is one of my favorite literary works, I did a lot of homework before deciding to skate this show. "

He thought for a while and continued: "When Quasimodo was extremely hungry and thirsty, Esmeralda gave him clear water. He fell in love with this kind and beautiful gypsy beauty, but he is a monster, so even if He tried his best to show love, and no one would ever think he was compatible with Esmeralda."

"Even if I can be with Esmeralda in the bell tower for a while, it is just a short-term gift of fate. No matter how much I give, the loss will come sooner or later. Maybe only when they turn into dust can they be together forever, but , Quasimodo is reluctant to let Esmeralda suffer any harm, he must hope that Esmeralda can live well and be happy."

"In the end, even if this love is not compatible, Quasimodo's love for Esmeralda will not change. Even if they are separated, he will always love Esmeralda."

There was a layer of water in the boy's beautiful blue eyes, but he didn't cry, he just smiled at the reporter.

"This is what I think when skating. I poured such feelings into the ice, and then made a performance. It is my greatest honor that everyone likes my performance, which is more precious than a gold medal."

[HOT~ crowned crown! 】

{anonymous}

As the title, Candelabra won the gold medal in the World Championships with the most beautiful "Notre Dame de Paris" ever!He is amazing!

{anonymous}

This show is really against the sky, oh shit, four quadruple jumps, including hook quadruple jumps (4lz), back-inside quadruple jumps (4F), back-outside ring quadruple jumps (4S) and back-outside quadruple jumps ( 4T), with unprecedented technical difficulty and extraordinary artistic expression, it simply beats all opponents!

{anonymous}

Not only that, but his jumps are also very difficult, especially in the jump of Axel three weeks plus three inner rings (3A+3lo), the second jump actually uses the difficult posture of raising hands, GOE It's about to explode.

{anonymous}

He really deserves to be a genius beyond the times. Candlestick's expressive power this year is really too strong. It's contagious. I cried watching his show.

{anonymous}

Yes, yes, the bitterness is so bitter that it makes people's eyes blurred, but it is not completely bitter. There is confusion and hope in despair.

{anonymous}

It feels like watching a bitter love from the sidelines hahaha, and some people suspect that the small candlestick is broken in love.

{anonymous}

No way?Candlestick is in such good condition and looks so good-looking, and he is also the world figure skating champion and IMO champion, who can dump him?Wouldn't it be nice if he didn't dump others?

{anonymous}

It's not impossible. When you watched him pose at the end of the program at the World Championships, didn't you shed tears?Although he himself said that he was skating so emotionally, it must be because he was broken in love that he skating so sincerely.

{anonymous}

Ahhh! The tears at the end of "Notre Dame de Paris" are super beautiful, okay?I want to save that scene as a computer desktop forever!

{anonymous}

His tears are really beautiful. If I say that I like to watch the candlestick cry, isn't it a bit weird?

{anonymous}

Claws with upstairs, I also like him crying, those turquoise eyes are covered with tears, it is even more heart-warming, isn't he, he is so beautiful!

{anonymous}

Because the eyes of the small candlestick are beautiful.

{anonymous}

Reasonably speaking, Candelabra's score this time is 2 points higher than No.60, which is against the sky. I think that in the next few years, until the Vancouver Winter Olympics, he should dominate figure skating, right?

{anonymous}

For sure, he is the most technically difficult, and his performance is also good. It is safe to book the Vancouver Winter Olympics champion three years in advance.

{anonymous}

In fact, my favorite is "Requiem for Heaven and Earth". I still remember that when he took this program to participate in a charity commercial performance, he said without hesitation that he hoped that one day everyone would put aside their prejudices, regardless of skin color or whether they were They are mutants, and they all treat each other as equals. Among public figures, no more than 5 people dare to speak out for mutants. If it weren't for the Wayne family, something would happen. He is too brave.

{anonymous}

Yes, the one who spoke out for the mutants last time was... Sigh, the little candlestick is also very brave, and when he skated "Requiem for Heaven and Earth", he was really a boy embracing the stars, so beautiful, he really Very kind, and that scene was so beautiful, it made me feel how terrible the existence of prejudice is, and the idea of ​​​​wanting to treat mutants as equals from now on changed me.

{anonymous}

In fact, he coughed straight, not only for the mutants, but he also scolded the scum in Gotham who wanted to harm girls because he was the son of a diplomat, "beep—" my brother Said that his rough look is super hot hahaha.

{anonymous}

The small candlestick is very energetic and cool when talking, and it looks like it is not tall, but its temper is quite explosive hahahaha.

……

Jason later went to Gotham Cemetery, found the tombstone engraved with "Andrea Martha Sionis", sat in front of his sister, and said a lot.

"I got a lot of things I didn't think about before, but those are too good, I probably can't always have those... I still don't know what path I will take in the future, I just accepted myself and Bruce , Dick are different, and happy with the good memories they had."

"I was destined to let them down, so I wanted to create as many good memories as I could before parting ways."

"A while ago I was like a beast in a cage. I knew I couldn't be what they expected, and I would leave them one day. They didn't believe me, and they didn't know me well. My genes are bad. I dare not I have children, because I am afraid that children will be like me, and it is really difficult to live with a different body, but when I think of the future destined to be separated, I am extremely afraid and anxious, I am afraid of losing them, and I am afraid of being alone."

"But...Maybe my life is destined to be alone, and always, and always."

(But... Maybe my life is destined to be lonely, forever, forever.)

"I'm going to see my biological mother Sheila Heywood now. She is a doctor. I want to see if she is doing well. I should have a few words with her. This may make me feel better. After seeing her , I will muster up the courage to face the future, Martha, bless me."

The teenager wiped away tears, stood up, and smiled at his older sister.

He still doesn't know that his biological mother is not his dawn, but the evening sun, who will lead him to death.

Dick didn't know what was going on on Earth, he just regretted that he couldn't go to Turin to watch Jason's first World Championships.

After completing the task with the young Titans, he took out the star map supported by Green Lantern, borrowed the spaceship of Starfire to a planet, and entered an old shop.

The owner is a wobbly green-skinned alien old man, a native of Zehouberg, and an accomplished jeweler.

He put a delicate ring on Dick's hand.

"Zhenjin is a ring, inlaid with Zehouberg red diamonds. If it is to be given to someone, it is really the best gift. Since Zehouberg was half destroyed by that purple monster, the professional Zehouberg There are fewer and fewer red diamond polishers.”

Dick laughed: "Thank you, this ring is so beautiful, I will come to you to make a new ring in the future."

Although this ring alone has already emptied his savings.

The Zechberg red diamond represented trust and protection, and luck, and Dick wished he could put that ring on someone's finger, and hoped that the other person would like it.

Roma has been a nomad all his life, but now Dick confirms he has somewhere he wants to stay.

He used to be a prodigal son who couldn't find a place to stay, but now he has a family, a father and a grandfather, and friends from Titans. Robin's code name is inherited by the best little wing in the world. Fortunately, Dick wants to share this luck with Little Wing.

This good mood lasted until the moment I returned to Earth.

Ah Fu texted him.

[Grandpa: Master Jason passed away last month. 】

The author has something to say:

A relationship that started lightly could have ended well, and Jason knew at this point that he was going to be on a different path, and thought he and Dick would be separated because of it, and he was saddened by it, but also sure of himself The love for Dick will not die because of this, and Dick has matured for Jason and is ready to take responsibility, so why can't these two people go on well?

If it weren't for the clown, even if Jason parted ways with his family, he is also the world figure skating champion and IMO champion, so he can live a good life no matter what, and then he will gradually understand his own path, which is consistent with the ideas of the master and Dick. The war will also develop more moderately.

Jason is still a boy who lacks love, self-confidence, and security at the moment, but he has a firm and unswerving trait in his heart. This trait allows him to maintain the miracle of zero blackness in the parallel universe, and it also makes him tear up. Break the power of despair and darkness.

Summary: It's all the clown's fault, otherwise Jaybird would have punched out he by struggling.

The next chapter is about Jason's trip to Ethiopia, and the warning is over.

Foreshadowing: Gamora is from Zehuberi.