Wei Lan

更新时间：2013-04-2501:26:18字数：11009

"Is everyone high?"

The DJ waved his microphone and yelled at the frantically writhing people on the dance floor.

"High is dead!" The young man swung his extremely flexible mottled head, excitedly responding to the source of the voice.

"Why don't you go down and dance together." The bartender with bright eye paint looked at me with a smile.

"Not interested." I lowered my head and drank the last sip from my cup.

This is the boiling point of the city that is famous on the GAY station.The bar is surrounded by wine seats and in the middle is a dance floor.Although it is not purely gay, but because the atmosphere here is very good, there are many young people, and many gays come and go here, so it is also very famous on the website.I've wanted to do it for a long time, but I never had the courage.I always worry that after being seen by the same kind, it will be valued by those unscrupulous eyes like a "for sale" label.

But today I am here.I've mustered up the courage to hunt here for over 20 years, and I'm waiting for a satisfying mate to take him to my bed.

I have been sitting here for more than half an hour. There are many people who are willing to call themselves prey, and there are many people who have walked around me for more than three times, but there is no one that I can catch my eye for the time being.

"Continued Cup."

"Okay." The bar happily took my glass.

I think he is only in his early 20s, a very charming kind of boy, although he is beautiful, he is not the type I like.

"Aren't you satisfied?" His implication was very clear.

"Hehe." I know it's hard to hide my naivety in front of someone like him who is very sensitive to the same kind, but even so, I don't want to clearly and clearly admit that I am this kind of person, so I smiled ambiguously at him.

"Is brother alone?" A hoarse and deep voice came from beside my ear.

Someone delivered it to the door again, I thought happily.

Looking up, he saw the beautiful bartender tilt his mouth exaggeratedly.

What made him have such an expression?I turned my head and smiled towards the source of the voice.

"Wow!" I couldn't help but yelled in my heart.

Damn, how dare you look for me like this?Is acting in a ghost movie scary? ?

"I saw my brother sitting here alone for a long time, is he waiting for someone?"

drink!Daredevil has been eyeing me for a long time.But I'm sorry, I'm really not interested in you.

I looked again and again at his arm that was thicker than my calf, and his chin that was still green even after applying powder, and I frowned unconsciously.I've been approached by three of these types tonight, am I popular among these very, very manly people?No way……

"I was waiting for my friend, but he hasn't come yet." Even though I was disgusted in my heart, I still rejected him with a smile.

It is said that the more manly a man looks, the more fragile his heart is, and it will be ugly if he cries.

"Then can I sit here and chat with you before he comes?" Although he was asking for my opinion, the other party had already sat down firmly on the seat next to me.

hell!If I had known this earlier, I wouldn't have run away with the four-eyed frog next to me just now.

"Please go ahead." Don't say anything like "Can you?" after you've sat down.I looked helplessly at the bartender.

As the saying goes, "If you can't provoke, you can hide." I decided to ignore the muscular man next to me who looked like he weighed at least 170 pounds.

"My brother is here for the first time, I haven't seen him before." The hunk looked at me shyly.

"Yes." I purposely glanced presumptuously at the men I met, and signaled "I'm not interested in you", hoping that he would retreat in spite of difficulties.

"Then... can we make friends?" A cloud of red rose on the macho's cheeks.

Depend on!Is it because he has bad eyesight or deliberately pretending not to understand me.I'm not interested in you, can't you see that?

"Sorry, we don't know each other well." That should be clear enough.

"Talk more and you'll get acquainted. I think it's too noisy here. Why don't we find a quiet place to talk?" The macho looked at me embarrassedly with flickering eyes.

faint!I've already said that, why do you still have to push an inch?It is the most troublesome to meet a person who is a brown candy and does not know how many catties he weighs.Don't blame me for being too much, you forced me to use my trump card.

"Okay, what do you think of the hotel room?"

"It...it's very quiet there..." The macho twisted the corner of his tights happily and shyly.

Do you really think I've taken a fancy to you? !

"I like to play some music while chatting, do you think it's okay?"

"Yes, yes, I like it too."

"Hehe, you know that if the music is louder, others won't be able to hear us."

"Hehe, it's so annoying, I can't see that you are really enthusiastic."

"Can you come to the bathroom?"

"Ah... this, this is too... soon, no, don't you mean to chat in... the hotel's... room later?"

fall!Stop your sissy talk and gestures, I'm dying.

"I think it's better to explain some things to you first, what do you think?"

"It is."

Seeing me standing up and going to the bathroom with the hunk man, some showed expressions of disbelief, some expressed regret, and some whistled loudly.The pretty bartender was so stunned that he forgot to wipe the glass in his hand.

……

After 5 minutes, I walked out of the bathroom with a smile and returned to my original position.

"So fast?" The bartender was surprised by my speed.

"Yeah, just talking."

"what……"

"Thinking wrong, right?"

"Haha, I don't think you have a crush on him either. Look, he came out. Yo, he doesn't look very good."

I don't need to look back and I know that the tough man's face must be ugly.

"What did you tell him?"

"I said I wanted to give you an enema and wax, baby." I took a sip of my beer lightly.

"You... really have you." The bartender looked at me with wide eyes full of admiration.

"Then what do you like? You don't like all the styles here?"

"Nothing special, as long as it matches your eyes." Anyway, it's for fun, as long as it makes me stop thinking about that long hair.

"Hehe, what do you think of me?" The beautiful bartender asked me in a relaxed tone, wiping the glass seriously.

"You are like this, I can't afford it." I answered him seriously.

"Hehe, forget it. By the way, there is a person in the corner on the right who has been watching you since you came in. He looks pretty handsome. You should like it."

"Really? Let me see." I turned slightly sideways, and searched the right corner with the corner of my eye.

There is someone looking here, he looks good, but the light is too dim, I can't see the other person's face.

"can not see clearly."

"If you don't see the past, you will see clearly."

Having said that, I hesitated.This is the first time I've hooked a man, and it would be a lie to say I'm not nervous.It's very different psychologically than sitting in your seat and waiting for someone to come to you.

"Excuse me?"

"is a bit."

"Come on, I'll give you a cup of delicious food, so be brave!"

"Thank you." Taking the cup full of amber liquid, I drank it with a nod of my head.

"It's really fragrant and spicy. What's the name of this wine?"

"Chivas Regal."

When I heard the name, I felt a surge of heat in my chest.This wine is so strong, I can't help but sigh in my heart.

"How is it? This is enough courage."

"Enough, enough, huh? You, your head... two, I... this wine... it's so fast."

No, the thing in front of me is shaking so badly, my tongue is knotted, and my eyelids are heavy. How could I be drunk after just one drink?

"You drank too fast, you've got your tongue out, you can't just be so drunk, right?" The beautiful bartender's voice fluctuated from near to far.

No, my body seems to be falling backwards, I'm about to fall!

The bartender's exclamation came from the ear...

It's over, there is no image now.

The expected fall did not come, as if someone held me up...

"Thank you." I struggled to open my eyes to see who was coming, but it was just a blurred shadow.

"What did you drink for him, that's all for one cup?" A man's stern accusation came from his ear.

"It's just Scotch whiskey. I didn't expect him...to drink badly."

This voice is that of the pretty bartender.Don't blame him, he kindly helped me to embolden me, and he didn't mean anything malicious.

"Hmph, if he has something, I can't spare you!"

"No, no...yes, he...kindly...helped...I want...to catch...a man..."

The increasingly heavy and vague darkness hit me, and no one's voice could be heard in my ears.It seems that tonight I won't be able to catch a man and I won't be able to go home...

***

His body was very hot, and the heat in his chest lingered like a fire, and his throat was dry and on the verge of burning.I dimly thought about drinking some ice water to quench my thirst first, and then taking a comfortable cold shower.

But the current situation is that my limbs are weak and my eyelids are as heavy as lead.Even opening one's eyes is an impossible task, let alone getting up to drink water and take a bath, it is simply a fantasy.

But I really want to cool down...

"Hmm..." There seemed to be something slightly cool approaching me, and I sighed comfortably.

This must be a dream, otherwise how could you think about it?

That thing feels so good to the touch, very elastic, and I can't put it down because of its delicate and cool touch.But why "it" doesn't seem to want me to hold it, is the force pulling it back wanting to break free?Hmph~ It's not that easy!I grabbed it even tighter and stuck it to myself.In the dream, my consciousness is always very strong, and everything will develop in the direction I hope.Well, now I hope you don't move around, just let me hug you obediently.But it is still struggling, it's really disobedient, it's rare that I like you so much.

"Move again! If you move again, I'll eat you." I yelled at the thing viciously.

The things in his arms fell silent.It seems that it can understand me, it should be a pet or something.But what is this?I wanted to see clearly what was in my arms, but my eyes seemed to be stuck with super glue, and I couldn't open them no matter what.Sigh~~ This dream is really weird enough, at least there should be a hazy shadow.You don't let me see anything. Could it be that you are holding a ghost, afraid that I will be scared to death?That's fine, it's fine anyway, as long as I let me sleep in my arms until dawn, whatever it is?

"Hmm... baby, you feel... so comfortable." I seemed to hear my own voice on the edge of my consciousness.

"Let me... give you a good hug... you." I felt like I was stroking its whole body gently and cautiously as if I were treating a valuable object, um... It's strange, why does this shape become more and more like a—— people.

God, thank you so much! !Thank you for giving me this sweet dream.Although I can't see it, this must be a handsome guy, ah, I haven't had this kind of dream for a long time, it's so touching, I almost shed tears of excitement.

This smooth and delicate skin, this strong and tight muscle, and the touch of this elastic buttocks, can't be wrong, he must be a first-class man!I was so touched, I thought I would never have such a beautiful dream after contacting Ming!

In a hurry, I turned over suddenly and pressed the man underneath.

"Ah!" A man's surprised voice came from below him.

"Don't be afraid, baby! I will love you well." So you just obey obediently, anyway, you will still be eaten by me in the end.

"You drunk, let go!"

Huh, resist?Add entertainment? !I like!Moreover, his voice is also very nice, earned it!

The person under me was still muttering something, I couldn't hear it clearly anyway, in order not to waste this wonderful time, I quickly blocked the source of his voice with my mouth.Hmm... really good, with a light mint scent...

The more I kissed, the more involved I was, and I used my hands and feet to remove the clothes on his body that were in the way.

Fortunately, he didn't wear much, and I touched his bare skin after a while.very nice……

The men below gradually lost their resistance.

Look, let's say that the dream is developing in the direction I want, it's not wrong at all!

The next step is to create fire with water and fire with dry wood.

"Oh...you're so...passionate..." Just as I was thinking this, my baby's hands wrapped around my neck.

"I... like you..." Affectionate whispers are the perfect seasoning for a wonderful atmosphere, let us be at the highest point of high in this illusory dreamland.

"I... didn't expect, ah... I like it too..." The moment before I entered him, after hearing his cute words, I immediately charged forward happily with my gun in hand.

***

I heard the usual chirping of birds in the morning, it was morning... Then it was time to get up and go to work!

I sat up suddenly, "Ah!" My head hurts, what the hell is going on?I hurriedly supported my splitting head with my hands.

With the efforts of repeatedly massaging the left and right temples, the headache gradually subsided.I supported my iron-heavy body and got out of bed, drink a glass of water to wake up first.

Huh?Where are the slippers?ah! !Why am I naked?The originally blurred eyes immediately opened wide.

Take a closer look, this is not my home, so where is this?

Wait, the house looks familiar... Fang Qicong!How could I be at his house?Am I dreaming?It's not like that! !Quickly think about what is going on, think about it!

Yesterday I went to work, got off work, went to Zhang Ming's house, went to a bar, and...then what happened...Damn it!No impression!

By the way, it will be clear if you ask him, where is he?

Turn around - no way! !

How did he sleep in the same bed as me?And, and why is he... is he naked too?

When I was in shock and confusion, a picture suddenly flashed in my mind.

No, no way!That dream...could it be, is it true...

oh!God!Don't make fun of me like that.

Now I'm completely stunned!

Looking at the man sleeping on the bed, my heart was in a state of confusion.

Sigh~ Should I explain it to him after he wakes up, or should I sneak away before he wakes up?What is the perfect and proper reason for the explanation?Is it possible to sneak away? ... Countless questions appeared one after another in my head not long after waking up. I was really depressed and uncomfortable!Encountered this kind of thing early in the morning, and raped a man!Wait, can I use the word "rape"?I wonder if he did it voluntarily? ……Wow! !The more I think about the messy things, the more it really annoys me!

I kept pacing back and forth, keeping my voice to a minimum for fear of accidentally waking up Fang Qicong who was soundly asleep.

God, please don't let him wake up before I can figure it out.

In Fang Qicong's not-so-big room, I walked back and forth dozens of times, my head was filled with countless miscellaneous ideas that kept popping up, but I couldn't find a single one that worked for me.No, the thoughts are too chaotic and the mood is too irritable. If this continues, I can’t think of any solution. I should sit down and adjust my breathing, and make plans when I calm down. As the saying goes, "impatient can’t eat hot Tofu", everything should be dealt with calmly.

I quickly glanced at Fang Qicong's room, but there was no chair.Apart from the comfortable double bed that he was sleeping on, there was only a bedside table with a lamp and a wardrobe that took up half of the wall, but I had no choice but to sit back on the bed.

I tried to calm my mind, but it was easier said than done.In this quiet room, Fang Qicong's regular breathing sounds constantly coming from my ears, and I can clearly feel his constant exhalation of heat on my back. This kind of great stimulation, how easy is it to calm down?

I don't have much contact with Fang Qicong, and I haven't seen him carefully until now. I somehow did something with him yesterday, which made me suddenly want to take a good look at him.Now that there is such an opportunity in front of me again, I can't help but feel ready to move.

In the end, desire finally defeated reason, I couldn't help turning around, and boldly looked at Fang Qicong.

His sharp-edged face and thin, voluptuous lips under his high nose make him look masculine even in his sleep.It is said that the size and length of a man's bottom is directly proportional to his nose, and I couldn't help but want to see his things to prove the truth of this sentence.Seeing that he is soundly asleep, a slight movement should not wake him up, I thought boldly while reaching out to the quilt that was half covering him.Slightly and slowly opened a corner, palms were already sweating from tension.I lowered my head and got closer to his lower body...Suddenly I heard him snort softly, I was so nervous that I even held my breath, my neck seemed to be stuck in something suddenly and I couldn't move, my forehead was sweating non-stop.

I panicked and thought that I should not act rashly, the risk factor was too high.If he wakes up and sees me looking down at his words, wouldn't it be embarrassing?

After a long time, feeling that there was no other movement from him, I calmly lifted my petrified neck stiffly.

It was Fang Qicong's bright eyes that faced him...

***

Plop, plop... The strong and powerful beating of the heart in the chest cavity can be heard clearly in the ear, it is so full of vitality, as if it is about to break through the package of the skin and jump out.The blood in the veins under the skin is so hot that I ache, and I can feel them flowing faster and faster all over the body.The exposed skin of my face, ears, and neck must have turned red from the boiling blood.Isn't that ugly?It's like clearly doing something wrong.However, I did do something wrong.Peeping at other people's lower body while they were sleeping, not only was caught straight, but now I had to force myself to face two strong gazes from the other party.For me who encountered this kind of bad luck for the first time, in addition to embarrassment and embarrassment, there was also deep regret and panic.He must think I'm a crazy sex maniac.Also, what's there to be curious about?Isn't it just a matter of size, shape and color?How much difference can you make with yourself?Are men not all roughly the same?It's really self-inflicted, it's extremely bad!

"You...woke up so early." After looking at each other for a long time, Fang Qicong first moved his eyes away.

Ah...he, he was talking to me, really talking to me.How should I answer, how should I answer, how should I answer...

The heart is beating faster, and I dare say the frequency is no less than that of an athlete who has just finished a marathon.hell!What should I say? How can I think of something?But what should I say?

I opened my mouth with difficulty, but couldn't utter a single word.I know that my voice hasn't disappeared, and my vocal cords are staying where it should be, but I don't know which link is wrong. The voice just gets stuck in my throat and can't come out.As soon as he was nervous, sweat ran down his forehead rapidly.I think I must be looking stupid now.My heart is silently mourning, it's really embarrassing...

"What's wrong with you? You're sweating a lot." Fang Qicong looked at me with doubts in his eyes.

I want to yell "I'm fine! I'mok!" But the more I want to say it, the more I can't say it. This stronger tension can only lead to my sweating more and more, and my throat completely loses its original function.

The figure on the bed swayed for a while, I nervously raised my eyes and stared at him, not knowing what he would say or do, I was so nervous, so nervous...

Fang Qicong frowned and seemed a little struggling to half prop up his body and lean on the head of the bed. The thin blanket slid down, and a big bony hand lifted it to his chest just before it was about to slide down his belly button.I was shocked, as if I saw something I shouldn't see, and I didn't know where to put my eyes.Being a thief with a guilty conscience should be the state of mind I have now...

"I...seem...can't move..." Fang Qicong managed to squeeze out these words from his mouth.

"What's wrong? Is there any discomfort?" I hurried to his side, subconsciously reached out and touched his forehead, and then touched my own.

"It's not hot, it shouldn't be burned." I watched him blurt out naturally.

Seeing his face turn red quickly in the next second, I was shocked to realize that I had said something terrible.It's because of what happened last night.When I thought of this reason, my face quickly turned red.Really, to ask such words so stupidly and naturally, and to touch him so boldly.sky!I, this, this is subconscious...

"No, I'm sorry, what's wrong with you? I'll get you some water to drink, you wait." Playing stupid-this is the word that popped out of my head after reflecting what he meant, I haven't yet Prepare yourself mentally for all the consequences of this fact.I can only pretend to be stupid first.While speaking, I was already standing at the door of the bedroom about 2 meters away from Fang Qicong.Without waiting for his answer, I closed the door behind me as if fleeing.

After searching in the kitchen for a while, I couldn't find a cup. I thought about using a bowl to hold water and thought it was too ugly.While hesitating like this, out of the corner of his eye, he caught sight of the water dispenser in the living room, on which was a paper cup for guests.Can only make do with this first.

"Here, I didn't find the cup." I handed the paper cup full of water to Fang Qicong, looking around and daring not to look at him.

"Isn't this the one? I use this to drink water." Fang Qicong took the paper cup.

"what!"

"Hold, I'm sorry, didn't you get burned? I, what a hell!!"

Since the guest cups are very small, the hands of the two big men inevitably touched each other during the transfer process.It was originally a trivial matter, but because I was too nervous, the water rushed out when I shook my hand, and it just fell on Fang Qicong's bare chest.I frantically used my sleeve to help him wipe off the large puddle of water on it, while constantly apologizing, scolding myself for doing such a stupid thing in my heart.

"Shao Hui, it hurts a bit, don't rub it."

"If you don't rub it, what should you do if it becomes red and swollen? It will be healed soon, Ren Ren."

"No, you... rubbed it so painfully, it was too hard."

Hearing Fang Qicong's unbearable answer!I immediately stopped and took a look, and the place I wiped was really red.What a disservice!

"I'm sorry, I didn't notice. This is the first time this happened to me, and I don't know how to deal with it."

"Hehe, you should bring an ice towel and apply it for me." Fang Qicong looked at me with a smile.

"...Okay, wait, I'll bring it soon."

The second time I closed the door, my heart was still beating wildly, but it was different from before.It's not the kind of worry, nervousness and bewilderment waiting to be judged, but the beating now is only because of his inadvertent and considerate smile.

***

"Is it better?" I took a towel wrapped in ice cubes and gently pressed Fang Qicong's chest, which was red from hot water, with gentle and careful movements.

"Hmm...it doesn't hurt that much anymore." It took a long time for Fang Qicong to relax his frown.

"It should be fine after a while. I'm really sorry, I'm too clumsy."

"It's okay, don't worry too much about it."

Listening to his thoughtful words of comfort, I felt even more ashamed.If it wasn't for his excessive consciousness, how could he be injured?Now let him comfort me instead, I am so ashamed that I want to find a hole to burrow down.Not knowing how to respond, I could only keep silent, constantly changing the angle of the towel, hoping that the red and swollen skin would recover quickly.

Silence lay among us, and after a long time, I felt an inexplicable embarrassment surrounding me.

"Cough... um... Let me say, don't you have to go to work today?" After a long time, Fang Qicong broke the unnatural silence.

"Ah! I almost forgot. It's all because of this ineffective brain. I'll call the bureau first."

After getting Fang Qicong's approval, I quickly ran to the living room.Dial the familiar phone number, look up, the hands of the clock have already pointed to the grid of five minutes to nine.

It was already so late, even if I called back to the bureau to say that something was delayed and I would arrive later, but the time difference was so far, it seemed that it would not work.You have to figure out a way.

"Hello?" Xiao Li's familiar voice came from the receiver.

"It's me, Shao Hui."

"Oh, it's you, why haven't you come to work yet?"

"I can't go today, please help me take a leave of absence. I have a fever of 39.7, and I feel weak all over. I want to sleep more." False excuses came out of the mouth without going through the brain. blink.I secretly admired my profound skills and at the same time cursed my hypocrisy.

"Are you okay? Then you can rest more. I will ask for leave for you. Don't worry."

Xiao Li's tense and concerned tone showed that he had completely believed the lie I uttered.Alas, sorry, Li.I feel guilty for deceiving an honest man like you.

"It's good to sleep for a while, then I'll trouble you, I'll hang up."

"Okay. Remember to rest and drink more water."

"Well, bye."

"bye."

"Ha ha……"

Putting down the phone, just as I let out a sigh of relief, Fang Qicong's chuckle came from my ear.

"Why are you up?" I was shocked, and hurried to him to check his condition.

"Don't be nervous, I was just burned, my foot was not broken." He said and shook his leg carelessly at me.

"Ah..." Suddenly he staggered, and his body fell forward involuntarily. Seeing that his tall nose was about to make intimate contact with the floor, I hurriedly stepped forward to catch his body.

"Um……"

Seeing his frown in pain, I hurriedly asked him if there was any twist or discomfort.He looked at me in embarrassment, raised his finger and pointed to the sofa.I knowingly helped him to the sofa and sat down slowly. Just as I was about to speak, I saw him stand up with a "chuckle" and his expression was more painful than before.

"It hurts me to death." He bit his lips tightly, his face pale.

"Where does it hurt?" I quickly stood up and supported him, for fear that he might accidentally perform the unfinished "kissing scene" just now.

"Is there even a need to ask? You...do you really don't know or pretend you don't know?"

I raised my head to look at Fang Qicong, who was nearly a head taller than me, and the manly cheeks under the short straight hair were blushing unnaturally at the moment.Knowing that I was looking at him, he embarrassedly turned his head to an angle that I couldn't see.

I went from doubt to surprise followed by embarrassment after comprehension.

What should be faced will be faced sooner or later, it seems that there is no escape.But I'm not ready yet.The idea of ​​selfish egoism quickly invaded the whole mind, and I decided to protect myself first.

"You... there... is it okay?" I mustered up the courage to look at him.

"Nonsense, nonsense, I can't sit still." His face was as red as an overripe apple.

"I'm sorry, I... didn't mean it." I really didn't know what to say other than to apologize.

"……I know……"

"Yesterday, I drank too much to do... that kind of excessive thing. You can punish me however you want."

Hearing this, Fang Qicong quickly understood, turned his head and stared into my eyes.For me who didn't know what he would do next, seeing his bright eyes that seemed to want to see through my soul, my back was tense and straight.

"You... regret it?" Although he was asking me, the affirmative element in that tone accounted for most of it.

"I'm sorry, that's what I did when I was unconscious. I know that doing so will hurt you a lot. But, but..."

"Enough, stop talking, I understand...it's all my fault for being too self-righteous." Fang Qicong interrupted the unfinished sentence loudly.

I understand why I said those words subconsciously. In the final analysis, it is because of my long-term awkward personality and the self-deception that I think that as long as I don’t admit it, I will be regarded as a normal self-deception.I can understand his anger. After all, no matter who this happened to, he would smile and politely say to you, "It's just a trivial matter. Please don't take it to heart. Please ask for my permission before doing it in the future." What I don't understand is what does this have to do with what he calls "self-righteous"?

"Why don't you understand?" He smiled generously at me, but there was deep pain in his eyes.Although I feel so guilty, I can only pretend to ignore him and nod clearly to him.

"Hehe...Tell you, when I saw you at Boiling Point last night, I thought I had the wrong person. You sat there looking like you were fishing for men. But you didn't go with anyone who accosted you, so I think maybe I guessed wrong, after all, you were with my sister before. Then you were drunk, and I kindly carried you back, but I didn’t expect you..." Fang Qicong took a few deep breaths excitedly, his lips trembling slightly Foreshadowed to me how embarrassing he was going to say next, "I didn't expect you to stop me, me... I can't go on, I think you know what's going on. I thought at that time that you and I'm the same person, I'm so excited. I don't know how to describe that feeling. I did that impulsively when I knew there was no relationship between us. I can say that I don't regret it. Because I think as long as , As long as you are willing to accept men, then I have some hope. But what about the fact? The fact is... everything is self-righteous..."

Fang Qicong explained the ins and outs of the whole incident to me excitedly, and when he finished his last sentence, he drooped his head weakly and sat down on the sofa.Closed eyes refused to take me into view.

I looked at his slightly trembling shoulders, and I felt an urge to reach out and hug his head tightly, to say some truthful words that I had never told anyone, but in the end I didn’t stretch out my hand, and the words that were stuck in my mouth were finally lost. Did not say it.

Because I know that once I hug and talk, there is no turning back.

"Let's go, I'm emotionally unstable now, and I feel uncomfortable just looking at you." After Fang Qicong calmed down a little, he stood up with difficulty, and walked to the bedroom without looking at me.

I stood there for a while, and after making sure that he would not come out again, I walked out of his house gently.