Wei Lan

更新时间：2013-04-2501:26:18字数：8904

"Brother Shao, I toast you." The new colleague happily pulled me to toast.

"Okay, congratulations on successfully entering our department."

"Thank you Brother Shao, how about solving it in one go?"

"Okay." I looked up and wiped out the Heineken in the glass in one breath, and raised the empty glass high to compare to him.

A newcomer came to the bureau last week——Tommy Le, he is a very sunny boy, he used to be an intern in our department.Since he majored in the same major as me in college, and I was only one year older than him, we had a lot of common language, so the section chief asked me to take him.

I remember that he said at the end of his internship that he would come to work in our bureau after graduation. I didn't expect that we would really become colleagues today two months later.He has an extroverted and lively personality, and soon he had a good relationship with everyone in the bureau. Everyone liked him very much, and based on his real name, he gave him a friendly English name—Tommy, who was younger than him. The slightly older person also added the word "small" in front.Today is the welcome party held for him by several colleagues in the bureau who have a good relationship with him and our department.It is said that it is an orientation meeting, but it is actually everyone drinking, singing, and talking about nothing nutritious.

He Ming has not been in touch for more than a month, of course he did not contact me.How could a person like me with low self-esteem and strong self-esteem take the initiative to contact him after being humiliated by him like that.The situation with Fang Qicong is the same, since that incident, we haven't contacted him again.Thinking about it, it's just a matter of meeting him a few times, so I can't talk about familiarity, not to mention that I hurt him again, I don't think he wants to meet me again.Although I often wanted to find a suitable reason to find him and apologize to him, I couldn't find a suitable excuse no matter what, and the time passed unknowingly in my hesitation for more than a month.

Every day after returning home from work, lying on the double bed where only one person sleeps, I can’t help but think of Ming and Fang Qicong. I don’t want my thoughts to be occupied by these two people, I try to find something to do, hoping to let Take a short break for your troubled mind.It just so happened that a newcomer came to our department at this time, so I happily agreed to help him hold a welcome party with everyone.

"Yo, I can't tell, Xiao Shao is pretty good at drinking." The section chief stood up and approached me.

"Where." I answered politely.

"Come on, have a drink with me."

"This... I'm about to die, I've already drank five bottles, section chief, please forgive me."

"Aren't you disrespecting me? Don't you think so?" The section chief asked a few people beside him to help.

"That's right, that's right, we all know you can drink, this little wine is nothing to you." A few colleagues next to him hurriedly helped to boo.

What is "We all know you can drink"?I never drank with you at all!This group of people is real, as if I am so hot.However, the section chief really had to give him face, so he had to drink it for the appointed one.

"This is the last glass." I lifted the glass that Tommy had filled for me and drank it down in one gulp.

There was booing from everyone nearby.

"Just say you can drink it, come on, come on, and have a drink with me this time."

Before the wine glass was put down, it was filled again.

"I'm really dying. If I can't get home in a while, I'll sleep at your house." I glared at the four-eyed frog who was persuading me to drink.He is the four-eyed boy in our department who usually keeps quiet and fears that the world will not be chaotic whenever something happens-Tian Liang.

"Okay, stay here, I'm lonely anyway."

In exchange for one sentence, everyone laughed. I had no choice but to drink another cup.

I can't remember what happened next, I just feel that my stomach has been swollen with nothing to eat.When I woke up, I was leaning on Tommy's shoulder in the taxi home.

"I'm sorry, I was so drunk, I didn't make a fool of myself, did I?" I sat up straight in embarrassment, and straightened my back.

"No, you just kept drinking hard. I didn't expect Brother Shao to be so good at drinking." Tommy looked at me with a smile.

"That's not enough to make a fool of yourself. I guess I won't be able to get up tomorrow." I curled my lips and cast my eyes out of the window.

It was very dark, neither the moon nor the stars could be seen, and there was no cloud in the dark sky. It would probably be cloudy or rainy tomorrow.

"Anyway, I'll be off tomorrow, so if I can't get up, I'll sleep more." Tommy's voice was relaxed and cheerful.

"Hehe, yes." Although I said so on my lips, the rest day is really not a happy day for me. How can I survive two consecutive days of doing nothing and thinking wildly?Can't help but envy him who is carefree next to him, it's nice to have no worries.

"By the way, is Brother Shao free tomorrow?"

"Yes, why?"

"Then let's go shopping together. I haven't bought new clothes for quite a while and I just released a CD, how about going together?" Tommy happily proposed to me, and unconsciously grabbed my arm.

"Okay, I'm fine anyway, so let's go together."

I calmly and gently pulled away the hand that was pulling my arm, I was not used to being pulled like this.I have never experienced that kind of acting like a baby, and I couldn't help but panic.

"Really? That would be great! Where do we meet tomorrow?"

His hands unconsciously wrapped around him again, and I sighed helplessly in my heart.

"Anything. Where is it convenient for you to look?"

"Then I'll pick you up at your house at 10 o'clock in the morning."

"Ok."

While speaking, the taxi had already stopped at the alley of my house.

"Just get here." I said to the driver.Just as I was about to pay him the fare, Tommy stopped my outstretched hand, and I turned my head to look at him puzzled.

"It's fine if I come, anyway, this car will take me back."

"What's the point of that? You just got to work, so I'm also your senior."

"Why don't you buy me tea tomorrow?" Tommy blinked and looked at me.

"Well then, thank you. Good night."

"Good night."

Watching the taxi disappear around the corner, I walked slowly towards home.

Under the dim streetlights, there was a vague black figure turning around in front of my house.Seeing him stop and go, he seems to be hesitant.

I was wondering who it was so late, the figure turned around and met me face to face.

"Zhang Ming..." I whispered his name in surprise.

He seemed startled when he saw me standing behind him, and quickly turned his back on me.

I wonder what happened to him coming to me so late?I wanted to ask him, but seeing his back to me, I just stood there without saying a word.

After a long silence, I heard him call my name hesitantly.

"It's so late, what's the matter?" I didn't know what was going on, but when I heard his voice, I became agitated, walked past him, and took out the key to open the door.

"..." The people behind me didn't answer my words.

I looked at the dark door and smiled helplessly.

"If it's okay, then I'll go in, good night." Opening the door, I was about to go in when I heard Ming behind me urgently calling me.I turned and looked at him.

Seeing me turn around, he didn't speak again.

"What's the matter with you?" Mo Ming's irritability rushed up from his chest.

I can't understand my mood at the moment.After that incident, I thought about all kinds of situations where I would meet Ming, but none of them was like this.

This feeling of irritability, depression, and poor breathing made me feel that the air around me was heavy.

"Okay, long time no see." Ming lowered his head and said softly.

"Fortunately, it will be more than a month." I replied pretending to be relaxed.

"how have you been?"

"Very good." I thought to myself that you probably came to chat with me, so I raised my hand to look at my watch, it was past eleven o'clock.

"Are you okay?" Ming hurriedly raised his head and looked at me.

"No." Probably saw me looking at my watch and misunderstood. "What do you want from me?" I asked him impatiently, somehow, and my tone was not very good.

"It's okay...you...why haven't you come to me recently?"

"Looking for you?" I couldn't help asking back when I heard it.

There is a feeling in my heart that I want to laugh out loud. Are you here to make fun of me?I have been called a "pervert" by you, how can I have the nerve to find you?Sorry I don't have that thick skin yet.I felt myself being stabbed deeply again.

"Did you come to me just to talk about this? Sorry, I don't think I have the qualifications to go to you. I'm sleepy now, and I have an appointment tomorrow, so if you just want to talk to me, can you talk later?" ?” I suppressed the urge to laugh and cry or smash something, and said to him in a bad tone.

Frightened by my cold tone, Ming opened his eyes and looked at me in surprise.

"Good night then." I ignored his hurt expression and turned to enter the door, leaving a stunned Ming standing under the dim streetlight.

Lying on the bed after taking a shower, my mind is much clearer.Repeatedly thinking about the meeting with Ming just now, I feel that I have spoken too much.

Damn it!What's wrong with my mouth, he didn't mean to make fun of me, why would I think that way?What the hell!Things were all screwed up by his own persecutory paranoia.Now he will never come to me again.I buried my head in the pillow hard, really wanting to just smother myself to death.

***

"Xiaohui, Xiaohui." My mother's soft voice came from my ear.

"Huh?" I replied as I hugged the quilt tightly.

"Did you make an appointment to go out with someone? They have been waiting for you for a long time."

"Ah...?" The brain started to work slowly as if it was turned on.

correct!Today I made an appointment with Tommy Le to go shopping.

I quickly lifted the quilt and got up from the bed.

"Don't worry, he's drinking tea in the living room. He's been waiting for you for a long time, and he asked me not to wake you up and let you sleep more. What a good boy."

"How long has he been here?" I changed into a white T-shirt and looked at the quartz clock on the wall. It was past 10:30.

This is over, I have become a man without credit.

"It's been more than half an hour, don't worry, put on your pants."

I quickly took care of everything in 10 minutes and ran downstairs in a hurry.

Tommy is sitting on the sofa in the living room, drinking tea leisurely.

"Wake up, did you sleep well?" He looked at me happily and said, showing his healthy white teeth.

"I'm really sorry, I overslept." I scratched my head in embarrassment.

"It's okay, I heard from auntie that you slept very late yesterday, do you still have the energy to go out later?"

"Of course, I'm in good spirits now."

"Xiaohui, it's almost eleven o'clock, why don't you ask your friend to stay and have lunch together before going out."

"Yeah, Tommy, why don't you go out after lunch."

"Okay, then I'm not going to be polite. Thank you, Auntie."

The Chinese meal was spent happily amid bursts of laughter. Tommy made jokes one after another, and his big smile coaxed my mother to be happy.The family has seldom been this happy since Dad passed away.I was very moved.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang.What a scene, I got up unhappily and went to open the door.If you want to be an annoying salesman, you have to show him some face.

I forcefully opened the door and glared at the other party in displeasure—it was Ming, and I couldn't help being stunned.

"Why are you here?" I froze for a few seconds before opening my mouth coldly.

I didn't understand Minglai's intentions, seeing his dull eyes, wrinkled gray coat and the strong smell of alcohol, I frowned in displeasure.Even though I knew I had to apologize to him for what happened yesterday, but when I thought that his decadent appearance might have something to do with that woman, I couldn't get angry at all, and my tone subconsciously rushed.

"I...I...want to talk to you...." Ming said to me with erratic eyes.

"Come in first." Feeling the curious eyes behind me, I made way for Ming to come in.

"It's Xiao Ming, have you eaten yet? Do you want to eat together?"

When Mom saw that it was Zhang Ming, she greeted him enthusiastically and happily.

"Good afternoon, Auntie. I'm not hungry."

Ming saw that the person sitting next to my mother seemed taken aback, and hurriedly greeted him politely. Tommy graciously replied "Hello" and greeted me to finish the rest of the meal.

I let Ming sit on the sofa and brought him a can of juice.When I walked past him, I smelled the smell of alcohol on his body again. I thought that if my mother smelled it, I would have to talk a lot, so I dragged Ming into the bathroom.

"Wash it well, it smells like alcohol." I handed him my towel, and then helped him adjust the water temperature, Ming stood behind me without saying a word.

I saw in the mirror that Ming was still bowing his head, and I thought why he kept bowing his head all the time.

"Okay, I'm going out, you wash slowly."

Just as I was about to step out of the door, my arm was suddenly grabbed by Ming. A strong force made me take a few steps back involuntarily, and I almost fell down.

"What are you doing!" I stood up and looked at him angrily.

"I……"

Seeing Ming move his mouth and only spit out the word "I", he became angry all of a sudden.

"What are you? It's inexplicable. If you have something to say, just say it!"

Being stopped by me, Ming lowered his head like a primary school student, and his hand holding the towel tightened again and again.

I pulled the towel out of his hand and glared at him.

"If you think it's not clean, there's nothing you can do. There's no spare at home. Otherwise, you can use my mother's."

"That was not what I meant."

"Then what do you mean?!"

"I...you let me think about it calmly, can you talk about it?"

"Whatever you want!" I turned around and slammed the door hard.

"Shao Hui!" The door opened within two seconds of closing behind him.

"What are you doing again?"

"Lend me your clothes, will you?"

"You... wait, I'll get it for you." Ming's words made me startled.

He raised his head and looked straight at me.

Those eyes looking at me without any impurities made my anger disappear without a trace.

I went back to the room and took a new white casual thin sweater, new white underwear and linen casual pants that I haven't worn a few times to send to Ming.I know I still have him in my heart, otherwise I wouldn't worry about which one suits him and which one fits his style when choosing clothes.It is not easy to forget someone you have loved for a long time.

Walking to the door of the bathroom, there was the sound of "squeaking" water.

"Zhang Ming, I left the clothes at the door, you take them yourself."

"it is good."

Hearing his energetic answer, I felt relieved.

"What's the matter with Xiaoming? It doesn't look very good." My mother asked me concerned as soon as I sat down.

"Nothing, let's eat."

Tommy looked at me, turned around and started joking with my mother again, successfully pulling the topic away from Ming.I think this is a kind of thoughtfulness of his, and I smiled at him gratefully.He generously showed his healthy white teeth, and gave me a look of "a small matter".

Ten minutes later, Ming came out in good spirits wearing the clothes I prepared with him.

"It looks pretty good. You must be a little hungry after taking a bath. Come and eat together." I opened the seat next to me and signaled Ming to sit down, and then went to the kitchen to add an extra set of bowls and chopsticks for him.

I know very well that for a person like Ming who lives an irregular life, it is impossible for him to have three normal meals a day.From the smell of alcohol he smelled when he first entered the door, it can be concluded that he just drank heavily and must not have eaten.

Ming hesitated for a moment, then sat next to me, and after a few words with my mother, he started to eat. He said that he was not hungry before, which is really bragging.The corners of my mouth raised up unconsciously.

"Brother Shao, are you going out later?" Tommy looked at me uncertainly.

It must have been because of Ming's visit, so I smiled and said to him, "Of course I'm going out." Then I asked Ming if he was free in the afternoon, if not, why not go shopping together.

Ming looked at Tommy and me uncertainly, and said "I'm sorry" after a long time.Seeing his embarrassment, I think Ming probably misunderstood.No wonder he thinks so, I haven't officially introduced each other to them yet.

"Sorry, I forgot to introduce you. This is Tommy Le, a new colleague from our department. Xiao Le, he is Zhang Ming, my old classmate." I am embarrassed to call Tommy in front of Ming Le "Tommy", afraid that his misunderstanding will be deeper, after all, that name is too kind and intimate.

Under my introduction, the two smiled and nodded to each other.

"Zhang Ming, Xiao Le and I made an appointment to go shopping together in the afternoon. You're fine anyway, so let's go together."

"Okay." Ming then nodded in embarrassment and agreed.

The shopping time in the afternoon was quite pleasant, and everyone bought something they were satisfied with.Ming and I seem to have returned to the time in middle school. When we try on clothes, we always hurt each other. When we see celebrity posters on the street, we always put gold on our faces saying that only we are the most handsome guy. Laughed a lot. Tommy’s extroverted and enthusiastic personality quickly made him acquainted with Ming, and everyone was very happy talking and laughing, but he always pulled my arm unconsciously like a child, and I could only pretend to be ignorant and smile. .

"Brother Shao, the dress you bought is really nice."

"Then why don't you buy it?"

After shopping in the afternoon, Zhang Ming and I were too tired to move, but Tommy was still full of energy, so he dragged us into a bar for a drink.

"Did you buy me a couple outfit again? No wonder they didn't make fun of them at work." Tommy sighed exaggeratedly as he looked at the busy figure in the bar.

"Oh, that's what I said."

"By the way, brother Shao, you are so handsome and kind, do you have a girlfriend yet?" Tommy asked me curiously.

Ming adjusted his sitting posture beside him, drinking his beer quietly.

"Yes."

In order to avoid trouble, when someone asks this question, I always answer yes, at least I don't have to listen to them saying that they want to help introduce girlfriends, which are kind but very annoying to me.

"Really! I never heard you mention it." Tommy's voice immediately raised a few decibels.

"Keep down, what's the fuss, do you think I'm so good? Besides, it's not something worth showing off. Why should I talk about it." Noticing the sideways eyes of the people around me, I quickly stared glanced at Tommy.

Ming whispered a question from the side: "When did it happen?"

"This... I haven't told you, anyway, it's been a while." Seeing that he was so tired that he didn't bother to speak just now, he thought he must have not noticed our conversation, but he didn't expect him to hear it so clearly.

"Male and female?" Ming looked at me in surprise and asked again in a low voice.

What a sentence that broke my glasses, luckily I don't wear glasses.

"Do you need to ask? Of course it's a woman." Tommy stepped in and said to Ming with a natural look. It seems that his ears are also very good.

I could only nod and smile awkwardly.It's not that there is a hole in the head, you can't say that you like a man.

Ming looked at me even more surprised, and turned his head when my embarrassed eyes wandered around, and then drank beside me without saying a word.

In the next few hours, Tommy and I chatted in different directions, men and women, and Ming still drank the wine in his glass in silence.

It was already late at night after seeing the drunk Tommy home.Originally, he planned to send Ming back, but he said that he hadn't discussed the matter of looking for me today, and insisted that I go to his house or him to mine.Considering that tomorrow is Sunday and I expect to talk about sexual orientation, it is not convenient in my house, so I finally decided to go to Ming's house, after all, he lives alone.

"I thought... Tommy Le, you were my boyfriend."

Coming to a familiar environment that I haven't stepped into for more than a month, I heard Ming's explosive speech as soon as I sat down.

"Why do you know that?" I moved closer to the inside of the sofa, trying to make myself sit more comfortably.

"It feels like a family when you sit and eat together." Ming handed me a can of black tea he often drank.

"Xiao Le has a good personality and can get along with anyone."

"Also, he always likes to hook your arm." Ming sat down beside me.

"His habitual action, like a child. By the way, what do you want to talk to me about?"

I didn't expect Ming to see all these little tricks, and I didn't want to dwell on it, so I changed the subject in a hurry.

"Actually, it's nothing, just... I want to... apologize to you."

"what?"

"That day... I spoke too seriously and didn't consider your feelings. I'm really sorry." Ming's attitude was natural, but it made me unnatural.

"Actually, there are quite a lot of comrades now, and I don't think there is anything wrong. It just happened that the person next to me was you again, so... my brain didn't get nervous, and I said those exaggerated things. I know you mind it very much, you... I haven't come to see me for so long, I think if I don't apologize to you well, you may ignore me for the rest of your life." After Ming finished speaking, he took a deep breath, and then looked straight at me.

"I... don't care, it's normal for you to think that..." It felt like the tongue was tied.

"No, I really went too far. Shao Hui, can you forgive me?" Ming's voice became anxious.

"This... I really didn't take it to heart. You're thinking too much. It's because I've been busy recently, so... I haven't been in touch with you." Mingming was very concerned, and now he said this again.Ming's apology completely broke down my defenses.I smiled wryly that my persistence at the beginning was as thin as a layer of paper.

"Then you really forgive me?" Ming confirmed to me again and again.

"I said I didn't take it to heart. If you would rather ask me to forgive, then I will forgive you. After all, the prime minister can hold a boat in his belly."

"Hehe, don't put gold on your face."

"No way, I'm just discussing the matter."

"Smug! Then you said that you have a girlfriend, is it true?"

"This... is fake." I thought that since Ming apologized to me, I should tell him the truth.

"Fake! Is that... a boyfriend?... I haven't heard you say that." Ming's voice became obviously unstable.

"Do you think I'll have a girlfriend?"

Ming, don't forget that I told you just over a month ago that I like men.Although you can't accept me, I don't force it, but the man I like is an indisputable fact.

"I'm sorry." Ming bowed his head in embarrassment.

"It's okay. Don't worry, I only treat you as a good friend now, nothing else." These are my sincere words, and I am trying to transform my feelings for you into a pure friendship.

"Then you... really have a boyfriend?"

"...Well, he's a nice guy." In order to reassure Ming that I have nothing else to say about him, I lied unconsciously. Anyway, Ming and that nothingness he would not have any intersection with.

"When...have a meal together?"

"Ah? This..." No way, I just said it casually, but he actually took it seriously.

"Not available?"

"This...he...is very shy." I smiled ambiguously, hoping to get over it.

"Your friend is also my friend. I want to see what the other person is like and whether he is worthy of you." Ming insisted.

"Oh, it doesn't matter, the key is that I like it."

"Then you won't let me see him?" Ming stared at me displeased.

"That's not what I meant. Well, I'll tell him, if he doesn't agree, there's nothing I can do." I've already made up my mind that "he" won't agree.

"Alright then." Then Ming withdrew his staring eyes, and smiled happily at me.