I hate the world

The days are so painless, sometimes I think that I might as well die, but when I see my young appearance in the mirror, I can't bear it.There are always people who live and people who die, so what does it matter to me.Maybe one day, I can go to the outside world.

The weather is getting colder, and my face is getting rougher. The facilities here are very simple, and it is rare to even take a shower.Sometimes I just have to wash my body in cold water as exercise.

Since Meng Dong and Zhao Qingqing left, no one else came to the dormitory.The six of us still lived the same way, the strange thing is that no one came to be the boss.Meng Dong used to be, but not now.For a period of time, there were people making appointments on the playground every day, but there was no one who was ruthless enough to deal with it.Teachers often turn a blind eye and close their eyes, and this matter will be overturned within a few days.Fortunately, it was much quieter afterwards, and the forces of all parties checked and balanced each other.

I used to hang around behind Shan Feng, he used to be Meng Dong's leader, he was good at punching, but he wasn't ruthless enough to do some damage.

"Go and deliver a meal to Bai Qianli." On the table in the cafeteria, Shan Feng brought me a lunch box.

I frowned, "Didn't that dude give it to me earlier?" Zhuo Zixiao who was on the side kicked my foot, "Ah Shen, who are you calling dutiful son?" But there was a trace of anger, and the corners of his eyes were soft .

"Whoever should do it." I took a chicken leg from his plate, smashed it with my mouth on purpose, and ate it with relish.

He glared at me again, but said nothing.

"Yeah, I'll give it away once." After eating, I threw my chopsticks and left. I ran fast with my lunch box, ignoring anyone on the way, and rushed straight to the dormitory.

Hey, why is the door open?I thought to myself, I remember it was closed in the morning.

There was a small moan coming from the door, which seemed to be in pain.I poked my head in and got angry. "Damn you, I've moved on to our heads." It turned out to be a gangster next door, a bald man in his twenties, with a fat head, big ears and not lacking in fat, with a lot of eyes and a lot of lust .

"Wang Hao, don't you look at who is covering Qianli, and you dare to touch Brother Feng's head?" I threw the lunch box on the table, and raised my fist to hit him.

"You can do it, just wait and see." Wang Hao swallowed his saliva, and ran out of the door with hesitation.Wang Hao is subordinate to another group of powerful brothers.But it's not something to look at, it's not as righteous as Shan Feng, who put all of us in the dormitory under the flag.

I climbed to the upper bunk, and Bai Qianli stared at me blankly with that unmanly face.This has to be admitted, the looks really make people commit crimes, but the more I look at it, the more I feel that it loses its taste, like, how should I say it.Yes, no soul, no light in the eyes, like a living dead.

When I thought about it, I was annoyed, "Can you fucking act like a man?" I thought he would be silent as usual.Who knew that he glanced at me lightly, "I'm not you?"

Mingming's face still had a trace of abnormal rosiness, he gritted his teeth tightly to hold on to something, and even his body was trembling slightly, but damn, "How do you talk? If it wasn't for me, you could still, Can you be intact?"

"I don't want you to save me, get out of here." Bai Qianli's yell made me jump.I didn't expect that you would look so plain on weekdays, but when you were in a hurry, you would act as if you were a different person.

"Okay, I won't leave, what can you do to me." I bullied him and put my hands on his face.Satisfied, he watched the people beneath him tremble even more.

Bai Qianli's ears were already red.He kept staring at my eyes, and after a while, he moved my hands under the quilt.

This time it was my turn to be shocked, the hot skin under my hands slowly moved down with my hands with violent beating.After arriving at the position, I held it lightly, "Get rid of the medicinal properties of that bastard, and bear with it first."

He nodded slightly, and those eyes lit up bit by bit where I couldn't see them.

When Bai Qianli was released in my hands, I breathed a sigh of relief, "It's cheap for you, kid, this is my first time."

"..." Bai Qianli muttered something.I asked again, but he couldn't cover the quilt.I wiped him with a napkin, got out of bed after thinking about it, and passed him all over again with a hot towel.

"Then you will remember to eat later, I'll go down to do my work first." After gently closing the door, I quickly ran downstairs to the work place to meet Shanfeng and the others.

Bai Qianli's leg is injured, and he can't do the work, so we have to help in our dormitory to do the double work.say live

Most of the time it is the goods in the factory, and sometimes it is moving goods, or doing some gray area things.At that time, I didn't know what it was, but I also felt a little bad.You won't know until you get out, or someone will never know.

"Let's do Li Qiang and the others today, how about it?" I leaned closer to Shanfeng, lowered my voice and whispered in his ear.

Shan Feng frowned his thick eyebrows, pursed his lips, "Wait a minute."

"What are you waiting for, this kid Qianli was bullied by Er Guaizi again." Shan Feng looked back at me, "Why are you so angry, or you go up?"

I quickly put a smile on my face, "No, no matter how you say it, brother Feng is the most qualified to be the boss. Then Li Qiang bullies us every time, so why don't you show some color."

"Go away, your mouth is the most annoying." I quickly covered my mouth and stepped back.He kept holding the goods in his hands, but his face was very calm.

When it was almost time to get off work, a small incident suddenly happened in the abandoned factory.

The second kidnapper was cut off, and the dead body was lying on the grass outside.

When I went to see it, I was taken aback. The appearance was really bloody and disgusting.The thing was still in Er Guaizi's hand, and seemed to be still moving.It is estimated that it has been dead for some time.It is said that someone saw it when he went to pee outside, and was so scared that he peed his pants.

The teacher came, and we all dispersed.Walking back with the crowd, I felt that someone was staring at me from behind. I shrugged and watched as much as I wanted, can I control it?

When we got to the dormitory, when we talked about it naturally, Bai Qianli was still hiding under the blanket, and he seemed to be able to show off his flowers. "The wicked have their own mill." I concluded, laughing gloatingly.

Before nine o'clock, the lights were turned off.My eyes couldn't get used to it all at once, so I could only stare at the ceiling in a daze.

"Today is the Lantern Festival, right?" Fu Jing, who was not very talkative, suddenly said.

The nagging Zhao Jiafeng hurriedly followed, "Yeah, I've been here for a year. Although I thought it was not good at first, I got used to it after staying here, man."

Before he finished expressing his feelings, I couldn't help sighing, "Habits are one thing, I still have to go out." Family is always different, my parents only have me as a child, if something happens to me, I won't regret it die.Although they sent me here, I should have done it. What's wrong with them?The society is right, the world is right, and we are right.Nothing is wrong.I should think about how to go in the future.

Someone echoed a few words.For a moment no one spoke.

After my eyes gradually got used to it, in the faint moonlight, I seemed to see Bai Qianli get up, as if he had sensed something, he glanced in my direction.I quickly closed my eyes and held my breath, too scared to move.Bai Qianli lay down again, as if nothing had happened just now.I secretly scolded myself, suspiciously, thinking that my life is too long?

It was daytime again, when I was in class, I looked over to Bai Qianli from time to time.After the teacher finished speaking and asked us to read by ourselves and walked out the door, I habitually looked to the right again. A pair of dark eyes were staring at me, neither happy nor angry, and I couldn't see anything unusual.My heart stopped suddenly, what kind of pain it was, it took me a long time to get over it.

"I'm just, just to see how good you are. No, can't you?" I managed to utter this sentence, and I believe my face has turned red.

He turned his head indifferently and ignored me.

It seemed to be cheap, I picked up the book and sat beside him.

"Hey, Bai Qianli, you feel weird." He continued to stare at the book, as if he could see a hole.I had no choice but to read along with him, 'The sky is getting dark, and Ah Shen still hasn't come back, where will he go?If I knew that life would be like this, maybe I wouldn't have closed the book before I finished reading this line.

Well, when the bell rang for the end of get out of class, he brushed past me with a cane, and brought a sentence, "Go to the innermost toilet on the west side and wait at night."

I nodded foolishly, not knowing what other expressions I could make.

Thinking wildly, I finally stayed through the night. After everyone in the dormitory fell asleep, I frowned as I looked at the arched quilt cover on the fourth bed.

When I entered the toilet, it was so dark that I didn’t dare to speak loudly, so I had to call his name softly, “Qianli Qianli. Are you there?” During this period of time, my voice was changing, which made my voice a lot shriller. , which is particularly harsh in an empty room.

Something leaned over from behind, and the wet tongue slid over my earlobe, "Ah Shen, I miss you so much."

No one spoke, and immediately put two arms around my waist, "Ah Shen, wait a little longer."

I made a little effort, turned around and hooped him into my arms, subconsciously ignoring his legs.It was only through the moonlight that he realized that his face was abnormally pale, and he hugged him even tighter.

The moment the lips tried to touch, it was like two fish landing on the shore, thirsty to death.Instantly, I put my hands around the back of his head, leaning most of his weight on me.His tongue can't wrap well, so I can't speak slowly.He was eager to seek something, and finally he relaxed under my light peck.

"What's the matter, Qianli?" I asked anxiously.

"You took revenge on those who bullied me, wiped my body, took care of me, and never disliked my broken body. I don't know how to repay you." Qianli's eyes were shining brightly, like the brightest in the night of one star.It made my heart feel warm.

"Then do it well..." Do things for me.

I gently stroked his hair back, obviously I am four years younger than him, and he is nineteen years old this year.But it seems to be lost, I am the elder brother, and he is the younger brother.

The sky is still so dark, so dark that people can't see hope.But the road ahead can be seen to the end at a glance, and if you go on, you will still have infinite vitality.

"You are not in good health, go back quickly."