I decided to give up on you

Lin Jian took the key from Xia Zheng's hand, got in the car called by Qiao Ke and left. There was a long distance from the airport to his home, an hour and a half journey, which made Lin Jian feel that it was longer than anything else. It's as if you want to reach a certain place, but the car keeps spinning in one place. No matter how much you twist the steering wheel, the car just doesn't leave the place at all.

This process was suffocating and irritating. Looking at the night outside the car window, Lin Jian remembered the few years when he and Gu Moshen first came to Beijing. At that time, they worked hard in the big city of Beijing, crowded The subway is very busy every day, and now things have changed.

He didn't know whether it was because people's hearts had changed, or because people had been changed by reality. Gu Moshen was no longer Gu Moshen, and he was no longer him. Knowing where he disappeared, the self who wanted to love Gu Moshen no matter what, but now he doesn't know how to love.

Maybe it was because she was hurt too deeply, Lin Jian found that just thinking about that person made it painful to breathe.

After an hour and a half away, Lin Jian finally arrived home. He took out the key and held it in his hand, and said to Qiao Ke, "Go back, I want to be alone for a while."

There was no unnecessary expression on Lin Jian's face, and he didn't even know what he was thinking now. Qiao Ke never pushed others to make things difficult. Lin Jian wanted to be alone, so let's be alone. Qiao Ke didn't say much, just He instructed, "Call me if you feel unwell, and don't support yourself alone, do you understand?"

Lin Jian nodded and got on the elevator. Qiao Ke didn't leave in peace until he saw the lights upstairs.

Lin Jian looked at the room he was very familiar with, and the unchanging furnishings. They were all exactly the same as when he left. If there was any change, it was the accumulated dust, and the photos of the two people on the TV cabinet were also hung. It's full of dust, but it's just that the photo has passed for too long, and the smiling faces of the two people have disappeared.

Lin Jian held the photo and sat on the sofa and fell asleep at some point. When he woke up, it was when Xia Zheng called him. Lin Jian went downstairs and took Xia Zheng's car to the nursing home. Xia Zheng in the car jokingly said, "He has changed now, don't be surprised when you see it."

Xia Zheng smiled, but Lin Jian could see the sadness in his smile. After passing several traffic lights and driving for two hours, he finally arrived at the nursing home. When he got off the car, Lin Jian felt extremely uncomfortable. How can such a strong man endure the current living conditions, but at the age of 30, how can he live so hard.

Xia Zheng brought Lin Jian to the ward where Gu Moshen lived. The sun was just right, and the slanting warm sun shone on the snow-white hospital bed. Gu Moshen was wearing a hospital gown, sitting on the small bed facing the window. On the wooden chair, the sideburns are all white, it looks several years old, and the back that was once tall is also a little bent.

Xia Zheng walked over, leaned over and pointed at Lin Jian who was at the door and said to him, "Look who is here."

Gu Moshen turned his head slowly and looked towards the door. His eyes, which were originally dull, suddenly became a little wet. Maybe it was too long since he had said a complete sentence, so Gu Moshen said hoarsely, "Little...Jane .”