Who allowed me to live like a dream

Perhaps Shen didn't think there was anything wrong with such an arrangement.When she was pregnant, someone watched her every move, and doctors and nurses stood by her side anytime and anywhere.They are very professional people and will not disturb the work and rest of pregnant women.

She thinks the children nowadays are very hypocritical, who didn't come here like that?They are all children of rich and noble families, and they have been with others since they were young. It is simply a luxury to be alone.You stayed well at Tao's house, why couldn't you stay at Ren's house?You are still surrounded by those people, and you still do those things every day, why do you feel unhappy?

The sleeping Shen probably couldn't figure out why Tao Yuyue committed suicide?This stupid, self-defeating behavior...

Ren Xiaoxu is a man no matter what, he doesn't care much about family affairs.Regarding this sister-in-law, he only occasionally listened to Deacon An's regular reports.When he knew that his mother had ordered his sister-in-law to be monitored 24 hours a day, he asked in his heart, is the matter so serious?My sister-in-law doesn't look like the kind of person who would do anything to a child...

It was later that he found out that Tao Yuyue had suffered from severe insomnia for some time.At first I thought it was pure pregnancy depression, and I found a psychiatrist to treat it, but later I found out that it was not, it was more serious than that.So the doctor used hypnotherapy, but the effect was not obvious.Tao Yuyue couldn't take sleeping pills, and it was impossible to rely entirely on psychological treatment, so that she could only sleep two to three hours a day.If things go on like this, the harm to the body, especially the fetus, cannot be ignored.

But the treatment has not improved for a long time.Later, Mrs. Shen said impatiently, it would be fine to procrastinate like this, do some routine psychological comfort, and take some medicines that are less harmful to the fetus.Anyway, the pregnancy is only ten months old, and there is still half a year left, so I won't die if I sleep less.As for the child, after the birth, he will be treated according to the situation.

Tao Yuyue originally hoped that Mrs. Shen could give her some private space, so that she might feel better.But Shen directly adopted the policy of "delaying time", which almost made her collapse.No matter whether she begged or demanded forcefully, Shen didn't respond.Shen's philosophy is that people are forced out, if she has to give birth to this child, then she will use all means, and all psychological obstacles in front of the goal are nonsense.She doesn't believe in such things as psychological shadows at all.However, she still reminded the people around her to control the tools in Tao Yuyue's living area, and not let her come into contact with sharp or poisonous objects.

This kind of simple and crude theory makes people lose their minds, and they either follow in a daze or reject it fiercely.But Tao Yuyue chose to work hard to overcome.She kept giving herself psychological hints, and it really worked. For a while, she was able to sleep well for six hours and woke up without feeling anxious or dizzy.The doctor also seemed to see hope, so he suggested to Shen that Tao Yuyue could be allowed to engage in something he liked. For example, if she likes painting, let her paint.

I don't know when, that kind of anxiety surged up from Tao Yuyue's heart unknowingly.She found that she was not asleep, she was just pretending to be asleep, and every minute and every second she was lying on the bed was abnormally awake.She can hear her own breathing, which is as clear and loud as if it was amplified by a speaker in the dark; she can hear the movement outside the door, and she can even judge who has entered her room by the sound of footsteps, and she knows exactly who People will come to see her several times a night, and at what time they come in.There were video cameras in her room, but she managed to hide from those electronic eyes, and even the doctors thought she was steadily improving.

The oil painting knife is not a sharp thing, it has a flat shape, and what she got is a very short knife, even if it is stabbed into the neck, it will not kill anyone.

Tao Yuyue didn't even feel that she wanted to commit suicide, but there was a desire in her heart, as if someone was urging her to do such a thing.Her life after marriage is like a pool of stagnant water, and she hopes to stir up waves in this pool of stagnant water, even if she throws out scraps of copper, even if she pours leftovers into it, even if she pours blood into it...

She knows how to sharpen a paint knife.She used her hobbies to collect things that didn't seem to cause harm to people.Slowly accumulating, slowly working, and then, she got a knife that was sharp enough to hurt people.She looked at the shining blade, as if it was a god who saved her; she used it to cut her own skin, cut blood vessels and tendons, her expression was as pious as a pilgrimage, she seemed to feel no pain during the process, and she broke A blood vessel is as simple as breaking a piece of wool.

When he came back to his senses, his wrist was already bloody.She didn't think she was going to commit suicide because she didn't bleed too much, she just needed such a stimulation that could make her feel alive.Her heart was still beating, her body was still aching, and her wounds were still bleeding.

Ren Xiaoxu couldn't seem to be calm either. He talked to Deacon An in the corridor and heard Deacon An talk about his sister-in-law's recent situation.Gu Jiachen was standing at the door of the ward, not far from Ren Xiaoxu.He heard Deacon An telling all about the woman in the room in a calm but worried tone.He was very curious about the reason for a person to be tortured from vigorous to haggard in just a few months.

Deacon An talked for a long time, and Ren Xiaoxu listened for a long time.Gu Jiachen felt that he had been thrown into a middle ground, and he needed to let himself relax.

When the woman just came back, he thought it would be a farce.Rich son, wife, lover, this is a triangular relationship that is so vulgar.Even if this woman wants to commit suicide, she must cry, make trouble, and hang herself. She just wants to win or restore her husband's love. She might try every means to hit Ji Zetong and destroy them at all costs.Gu Jiachen thought the plot would develop like this.

It was later discovered that he really thought too much about the world.This world will not be as bloody as in the TV series. In a sense, the bloody TV series will explode after life.Because what composes life is living human blood.Human blood is definitely higher than dog blood.

Tao Yuyue did not threaten people with so-called death.No one wants to die.It's death itself, waiting there, waiting where you don't know.I don't know when, it suddenly ran out and messed up your life.

Birth, old age, sickness, and death.Mankind can never escape the shackles.

The night was as cool as water, and the air in the corridor was cold, Gu Jiachen's skin had goose bumps.Ren Xiaoxu finally stopped talking to Deacon An, and he told Deacon An to go away.The smoky gray coat made Ren Xiaoxu's temperament even more gloomy. He stood in the corridor for a while, then walked a few steps forward into the smoking area, and lit a cigarette for himself.

Gu Jiachen couldn't help following his footsteps.The night was already deep, there were few people in the corridor, only Ren Xiaoxu was sitting alone in the smoking area.Gu Jiachen walked up quickly and sat beside him.Ren Xiaoxu's body exuded heat, and his vision was obscured by the rising smoke.Gu Jiachen's hands and feet gradually lost temperature and became cold. He couldn't help but hold Ren Xiaoxu's hand on his knee.

The cold fingertips touched the back of Ren Xiaoxu's scorching hand. Ren Xiaoxu was not stimulated by the coldness of Gu Jiachen's hand, but held him instead, and slowly exhaled a puff of smoke between his lips and teeth. Ren Xiaoxu was so gentle Ask him: "What, cold?"

Gu Jiachen nodded, and put his whole body into his arms.Unbuttoning his smoky coat with both hands, sliding both hands against his shirt, closing behind his back.The inside of the jacket is very warm, and the warmth penetrates into every trace of Gu's blood, and flows along the blood vessels to the whole body.Cold and heat entangled in the body, and the limbs began to heat up. However, the hotter the blood that bleeds out, the colder the original blood became. In the entanglement of cold and heat, Gu Jiachen felt bursts of tingling pain from his fingertips.

Ren Xiaoxu's chest rose and fell slowly, and Gu Jiachen put his ear on his heart, listening carefully to his every heartbeat, every puff of his cigarette, the sound of air entering the lung cavity... Ren Xiaoxu Xu's body is like a symphony orchestra, alternating life-sustaining activities to create a beautiful music.

For the first time, Gu Jiachen felt that he was so close to life, and also... so close to death.The living person in front of him, the person who gave him such a hot and suffocating love, how does his body metabolize, how does his body relate to the surrounding environment, how does he and the surroundings be the same as him or Different individuals have relationships...

The reality looks so pale, as white as the newly painted walls of the hospital, as white as Tao Yuyue's fingers with only bones left, as white as the dim moonlight outside the window, as white as the silently lit streetlights on the winding mountain road.

He once wished that he could be a woman, he once hoped that he could be born with a golden spoon in his mouth, and be in the same family as Ren Xiaoxu.He once imagined the story of the prince and princess in fairy tales, and he knew that at the end of every fairy tale, the prince and princess lived happily in the castle... He knew that those things would never be possible, but at least he could imagine.And the reality is so cruel that his poor fantasies are also smashed one by one.

So what if they are rightly matched, Ji Zetong and Ren Xiaohuai can't be together?So what if it's a girl?Tao Yuyue was so sad that she committed suicide... no illusions, no ifs, no hesitation, no pity.The world is not benevolent, and treats everything as a straw dog.Humans live in this world just like other animals.When they were alive, they couldn't escape the sins of living, and when they died, they couldn't escape the shadow of death, so powerless... Powerless, there is no way!

Gu Jiachen was lying in Ren Xiaoxu's arms, without lust, ambiguity, or provocation, just lying on his stomach like that, heart and heart squeezed together, feeling the traces of each other's life through the flesh and blood, and warming each other.

Are you used to not having my embrace as a heater?No matter how big the world is, two true hearts can keep each other warm.I will give you my heart, clean, naked, and sincere.If not for a long time, at least, let the touch of blood when I cut my heart and lungs warm your desolate life temporarily.