The No.15 Years of Loving the Actor

It was already dawn, and Zhao Yiran was sleeping alone in the ward, surrounded by silence.He tilted his head to see the drops dripping into his body, slowly and continuously.

I don't know how long after a little nurse came in to help him remove the needle, Zhao Yiran asked her hoarsely, "Who sent me here?"

The little nurse thought for a while and said excitedly: "It's a super handsome man, he seems to be a star who just debuted, his name is Qin or something."

Zhao Yiran's heart beat violently, and he knew it was Qin Yin.

After the nurse pulled out the needle for him, she came over with a steaming porridge and said to him, "You have a stomach problem, and you already had a high fever when you were brought here yesterday." There was some embarrassment in her tone, After all, Zhao Yiran is not in good health and mentally. He is not very thin. At first glance, he is a person who has suffered a lot. With a delicate face the size of a palm, it can arouse people's desire to protect.

Zhao Yiran drank the porridge slowly, and asked hesitantly, "Where is the person who brought me here?"

The little nurse said: "He, he left soon after sending you here, oh yes, he told me to give you this thing after I wake up." She took out something from her pocket and handed it to him.

Zhao Yiran took it and saw that it was an envelope, which was a bit thick.He didn't look at it, he just tucked it under the pillow.

The little nurse was also savvy, looked at him and smiled and said, "That gentleman has paid all your medical expenses, and you can take care of your health here with peace of mind." After she finished speaking, she left.

Zhao Yiran took out the envelope after seeing her go out, his heart was beating fast, and his hands trembled slightly.

He opened the envelope and took a look, his expectant eyes instantly dimmed.Inside the envelope was a thick stack of money, Zhao Yiran pulled out the money a little unwillingly, and brought out a note.

His eyes lit up, he picked up the note and looked at it, and he was stunned.There was only one line written on the note, in Qin Yin's bold and sharp handwriting.

"Don't come near me again, go back."

Zhao Yiran felt his nose sore, but he still raised his head to suppress the urge to cry, and said to himself nonchalantly: "At least he gave me so much money, which means he couldn't let me go completely."

He stuffed the money into the envelope, "And Qin Yin is not that kind of person, he likes to talk hard." He seemed to say these words easily, but found that the money couldn't be stuffed into the envelope, maybe because his hands Shaking uncontrollably.

Zhao Yiran stuffed it desperately without saying a word, the envelope began to crack due to his support, he stopped his movements, stared at the envelope blankly, and suddenly slammed the money together with the envelope against the wall.

He looked at the money scattered on the ground with red eye circles, without shedding a single tear.Even the desperation pooled in his chest, leaving him breathless.

How could Qin Yin be so indifferent?Can he really forget the days when they were so in love?

Zhao Yiran panted heavily and stared blankly at the banknotes on the ground. After a while, he got out of bed and squatted on the ground, picking them up one by one.

He tidied up the banknotes he had picked up in silence, stuffed them gently into the envelope, took a deep look at the note, and stuffed it in too.

These are all things Qin Yin gave him, no matter they are good or bad, he will keep them well.

Qin Yin can be ruthless and ruthless, but he cannot.

Qin Yin prepared a high-grade ward for him, and provided him with food and drink every day. He felt that being sick was better than not being sick, and he would not be able to live such a good life without being sick.

Zhao Yiran was in the hospital, full of hope every morning, thinking that Qin Yin would come to see him.He waited slowly from morning to night with hope, but he couldn't wait.But the next day he would have renewed hope.

It's just that the sky was slightly cold, and Qin Yin didn't show up from the beginning to the end.

On the day Zhao Yiran was discharged from the hospital, he didn't go back to his rented room, but drove for several hours back to the city. He didn't go to any place he was familiar with, but bought a bouquet of flowers and went straight to a cemetery.

He found Fang Zhen's cemetery, and put the flowers on it gently.

This is the second time he has come to see her, and the first time to see her alone.The first time I came here with Qin Yin, at that time both he and Qin Yin were in a poor state of mind, and Qin Yin's eyes also began to show madness and paranoia.

It has only been four short months since they fell in love deeply and became strangers, but they still feel a little bit like an old dream.

It was very cold, and there was silence in the cemetery. The early winter afternoon sun was bleak and thin. Zhao Yiran could only hear the rustling of the branches being blown by the wind.

He knelt down in front of Aunt Fang's tombstone, and said softly, "Aunt Fang, I'm here to see you."

His voice is thin and weak, like a stranded whale, like a fragile ice surface that is overwhelmed in winter.No one answered him, and he smiled miserably at the quiet and gentle woman in the photo.

"Auntie Fang is definitely unwilling to forgive me. She treats me so well and tries her best to raise me, but in the end she raises a white-eyed wolf. Not only does she not know how to be grateful, she also seduces your own son, and finally hurts you There was a car accident."

The woman in the photo is still smiling peacefully, Zhao Yiran gently put his head on the cold tombstone and continued: "So everything I suffer now is retribution?"

He traced the lines on the tombstone with his fingers, "Qin Yin no longer loves me, this is really cruel. I love him so much, he has become a part of my life, and he is destined to be unable to let go."

He laughed at himself, "But I'm really tired, I'm really tired like this." He looked at Fang Zhen tenderly, "Aunt Fang, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Zhao Yiran kept talking, his eyes were red and his voice was choked up, but he didn't shed a single tear. He kept talking, as if he was under a spell.At the end, he touched his dry lips, and said firmly to Fang Zhen: "I have ten thousand ways of atonement, but I can't leave your son alone."

"If you leave him, I will die. So when the day comes, I will personally come to you to atone for your sins under six feet of loess."

It was late at night when Zhao Yiran returned to the rental room, his roommate was lying on the dirty and narrow sofa watching the football game, and there were some fast food on the coffee table.After he finished eating, he left it carelessly.The room was small, the doors and windows were closed and airtight, and the air was filled with an unpleasant smell. Zhao Yiran had no expression on his face, and walked into the room without saying a word.

His roommate suddenly called to him, "Hey Zhao Yiran, don't leave yet, I need to find you something." His voice was as greasy as his hair.

Zhao Yiran stopped and turned to look at him, "What's the matter?"

The roommate leaned on the sofa, picking his teeth with his hands, and said vaguely: "Brother is a little tight now, I will lend you 500 yuan, and I will pay you back at the end of the month."

Zhao Yiran frowned slightly and said directly: "I'm sorry, I don't have that much money." Then he went into the room.He knew that the money could not be borrowed. His roommate worked in an ordinary factory, and his monthly salary was not much. He also liked to gamble that the borrowed money would never come back.

Angry cursing came from outside the door very quickly, Zhao Yiran's room door was not soundproof at all, so the unpleasant words could be heard clearly.

He locked the door and didn't care anymore, he lay on the bed tiredly.Feeling very hungry, I wanted to go to the kitchen to pack instant noodles, but thinking that his roommate was still going crazy outside, he couldn't go out again, and he didn't come back for a week, the kitchen must be dirty, because his roommate never cleaned it.

Zhao Yiran let out a foul breath and curled up his body.

Go find another rental house tomorrow, he can no longer live with strangers, he will really go crazy.

Zhao Yi then found another house and rented it. The place is small and the rent is much more expensive than before.But at least two points are good, one is that he lives alone, and the other is that he is close to Qin Yin's apartment.To be honest, he deliberately found a house close to Qin Yin, he thought it would be easier to run into him that way.He was still working in that bar, and he was looking forward to seeing Qin Yin one day.

After Qin Yin's TV series aired, he became more and more popular.Sometimes you have to admit that some people can do well no matter what they do, Qin Yin is like this.Everyone was only attracted to his face, but who would have thought that his acting skills could be considered remarkable, more and more opportunities beckoned to him, and more and more people recognized him.

When Zhao Yiran was working in a bar, he could often hear people discussing him, and he just stood aside and listened, feeling proud and melancholy in his heart.

The distance between him and Qin Yin is really getting farther and farther at a speed visible to the naked eye.

After working the night shift all night, Zhao Yiran dragged his exhausted body back to the rental room at [-]:[-] in the morning. The lights in the corridor were broken, and there was garbage everywhere. He took his mobile phone to light his feet carefully.

He opened the door, walked in, and hastily locked the door.The law and order here is very poor, he lives alone and doesn't want to suffer any unwarranted disasters.He turned on the light and sat on the sofa to rest for a while. There was ice-cold tea on the tea table. He picked it up and drank it. It was very cold.When he opened the refrigerator, there was nothing in it. He patted his head annoyed. He was so busy these days that he forgot to go shopping.

He sighed depressingly, accidentally saw a pack of instant noodles left on the coffee table, and couldn't help cheering softly.Possibly out of joy, he walked into the bathroom after cooking the instant noodles, only to find that the water heater was broken.He had no choice but to use an electric kettle to boil hot water.

The room was too quiet, so quiet that it was a little lonely.Zhao Yiran turned on the TV and began to watch the costume drama made by Qin Yin.He is only the third male lead in this play, and he doesn't have many roles but is very brilliant.

Zhao Yiran concentrated on watching an episode and found that there was no Qin Yin in it at all. He was a little frustrated, threw the remaining instant noodle bucket into the trash can, got up and walked to the bathroom with the electric kettle that had already been boiled.

He mixed the water with a small basin, and used a towel to splash the water on himself. Suddenly, he thought of his days in the orphanage. At that time, he always took a bath like this until he came to Qin's house.It was that day when he first met Qin Yin, and he still remembers their conversation at that time.