aftershock

Is he afraid, when he is fighting for his life, when he is stabbed with a knife, is he afraid?Did he feel sad when those people threatened him with photos? How painful would it be?

A matter that had been hanging on my heart for a long time finally came to an end, and the ensuing weight was heavy enough to make a person unable to straighten his neck.This year, every time Gu Lu saw the scars on his body, he couldn't help but think about Jiang Yuan's appearance covered in blood and wounds. Every time he saw him, the concealed past was like a whip. Guo Jiangyuan was indifferent until he insisted on using Jiang Yuan's eyes facing the camera to explain everything to himself, as if he had fulfilled his wish.

He is just a lively little boy who loves to laugh. He will be admitted to the same university as himself, learn the major he wants to study, and in the future he will be free to study the butterflies he likes without being bound by anything. That is what he should go road.

Who can let him go, who can save him, Jiang Yuan ten years ago, now ten years later, who can save Jiang Yuan, who can save himself.

Gu Lv leaned on the pillar at the end of the bed, surrounded by various photos, he sat there covering his eyes, motionless, those photos seemed to be a pile of loess, forcibly engulfing him in this room My heart and body are half buried.

"Gangwon.."

"Jiang.. Yuan.. are you there?"

"Are you asleep"

Xu Xuan couldn't take it anymore. He always felt that his trousers were warm and itchy because of the blood stains spreading all over his legs. Knowing how much blood I bleed, the pain nerves in my whole body are paralyzed, I only know that the night must be getting darker and darker, because the whole house is getting quieter and colder.

At first when he heard Jiang Yuan coughing, he was concerned and tried to talk to him, but in return Jiang Yuan cut his leg twice.

He didn't know how long this period had passed. He hadn't heard Jiang Yuan's voice for a long time, and there was no movement. If it wasn't for the door closing sound he heard before, he even felt that Jiang Yuan wasn't here.

Jiang Yuan didn't make a sound, but Xu Xuan became anxious. He ignored the useless hand and struggled on the chair. Whoever drank the leftover beer bottle at the corner of the table fell to the ground. "Jiangyuan? Are you there, Jiangyuan?"

He struggled to knock the wheelchair around and knocked the table loudly. The sound became more and more intense. Jiang Yuan was awakened by the movement. He opened his eyes and looked at Xu Xuan silently. It was hard to believe that a man whose wrist had been cut A person who still has this strength, he moved, and turned his face lying on his arm to the other side, "Xu Xuan, you are really not afraid of death."

"I'm not afraid!"

"Oh."

Xu Xuan was so flustered by his vigorous struggle that the ropes that bound him were shifted, and they couldn't be loosened for a while, but they still anchored him on the wheelchair at a slant, and he twisted towards the direction of the sound. "Jiang Yuan, this is an abandoned house in the wilderness. If I disappear, no one will take care of you and no one will find you. You can let me die here."

"I know"

"Then why don't you go"

Jiang Yuan's cell phone buzzed again and again, and now he finally heard it, the caller ID was one after another, and the different numbers alternated alternately, he grinned and repeated in a low voice, "Yeah, why don't I go "

"Jiangyuan...you..."

Xu Xuanmeng's jacket on his head suddenly fell apart and covered his head like a piece of cloth. He could see the ground clearly. Not from myself.

Soon, Xu Xuan frantically shook his head and slammed "Jiang Yuan!"

"Doctor Lin! There is no one in the bathroom, we have searched all over..."

"Doctor Lin, the patient has gone out, why don't you ask his family, maybe he's back home"

"Doctor Lin..."

Lin Wang was cold all over, and he could only hear the sound of heavy, uncontrollable breathing on the other side of the phone. Gu Lu didn't say a word except for asking him if Jiang Yuan was still there. There was silence, and in the end, I didn't even know who hung up the phone at what time.

"Can you do... satellite positioning..."

Peng Yang gasped wearily. He hadn't gone far when Gu Lu's phone came after him. He rubbed the sun and said depressedly, "Looking for someone? Commercial satellites are just a bunch of procedures for approval, and it's not a TV series." If you want to locate, just... hello? hello?? Fuck you"

Gu Lu was interrupted by the incoming call. He was standing in front of Xu Xuan's residence. It was the first time that the word Xu Xuan had a real image in Gu Lu's mind this day. Gu Lv didn't know what to do in this weird absurdity, as if he just woke up at this second. He should be extremely angry and angry, but these emotions came too late. From the bedroom, the sharp blades that have been waiting for him for ten years are aimed at his heart. They have made sufficient preparations and premeditated to return the hoarded hatred and hatred to him, so that he can die completely in this house inside.

The phone stopped, and Gu Lu squeezed it tighter and tighter.

The screen is also black, Gu Lv won't understand at this moment that no matter how strong he is, he can't crush this small phone, and he doesn't have the clear consciousness to get angry and angry. The lie in real clothes is gone, and he is the only one left. Still staying in place with this truth that has been stripped of its clothes, skinned and bones, numb and stiff, I can't believe it, watching it lying in front of me, bloody and painful, there is nothing I can do.Unable to lift his hands and feet out of control, Gu Lv didn't know where he should float.

At a certain moment, he could feel that Jiang Yuan was leaving, and Jiang Yuan seemed to be running away again. At this time, Gu Lu was powerless but hastily twitched his expression for a moment, as if he was struggling to mobilize the expression of the whole face, just because the His sneaky look flashed by and the corners of his mouth curled up for a moment. This expression really looked like a smile, but this tiny arc was just the frozen nerve endings getting lost or passing by. They should have gone to the sea-like eyes.

Gu Lv has been walking, along the side of the road, but occasionally stops in place. It is still this beautiful face, standing alone in the winter phoenix, gloomy like the indifferent sea in heavy oil paint, and lonely like a The statue that had been stripped of its godhead, only withered bones and posture remained, looking downcast and confused.

He stretched out his hand, but he didn't understand why he stretched out his hand. Then he remembered that he wanted to take a taxi.

To find someone, to find Liang Ji, to find Cao Xiaowang, to find Jiang Yuan.

But how pathetic, how ridiculous.

Seeing Cao Xiaowang's panic, panic and instability, Jiang Yuan's forbearance is obvious. The letters Cao Xiaowang sends home every day are forcing Jiang Yuan to make a choice. It is something Jiang Yuan is so afraid of being seen by him, and what kind of choice can he make? ?

It hurts.

Jiang Yuan didn't want him to go, didn't want him to see, he knew everything, but he took this matter as a shame and a secret, only used it to torture and imprison himself, he would rather be coerced by others than to keep it from him, and he didn't waver at all. The possibility of being accepted by Gu Law.

He never believed that Gu Lv could accept it, never thought that Gu Lv could empathize with him, never even thought that Gu Lv was human and had feelings.

How cruel.

He regarded it as the end that Gu Lvhui would know everything on a certain day. He endured the sneering words like a heavy burden, unilaterally arranged everything in advance, and fulfilled his last feelings like a bucket list. It is only his own wishful thinking that Lu regards him as a lover, other than that, Gu Lu is free to do whatever he wants.

He is really bad.

In his eyes, his love is his love, and Gu Lv's love is Gu Lv's love, but he never thinks this is love, even if they eat on the same table, sleep on the same bed, and live intimately in the same house.

He's terribly selfish.

Terrible, Gangwon.