aftershock

"Jiang Yuan! Wake up!"

Xu Xuan stared red-eyed, yelling in panic, the clothes on his head were finally shaken off by his efforts, Jiang Yuan was lying on the table with his back to him, the blood flowed from him all, a small puddle Xiao Tan gathered on the ground from his feet, and was quickly sucked by the bottomless pit-like concrete floor, making Xu Xuan tremble with fright.His wrists, arms and legs were cut by Jiang Yuan countless times, every cut was bleeding, but none of them were vital. He was covered, and Jiang Yuan felt that he would hurt, and that the passing of blood and temperature would drive him crazy. He was suffering, but Jiang Yuan didn't know, these were far from panicking Xu Xuan to the point of collapse.

No matter how noisy Xu Xuan was, Jiang Yuan didn't turn his head. After a long time, he sighed quietly, and Xu Xuan immediately calmed down as if distinguishing his breath.

"Gangwon? Gangwon are you awake? Don't die.. You die.. Please let me go.. Let me help you.. I can help you... I can.. I won't hurt you again , Really not, really." Xu Xuan was choked up as he spoke, and soon began to sob, and began to beg, "Please...don't die...please, you are bleeding!!"

His noisy voice was like a hundred kookaburras singing, and Jiang Yuan was sleepy and cold. When he thought of this bird, he thought of Liang Ji, and Liang Ji would be as noisy as this bird when he got angry at him occasionally, but thinking of this bird also made him cry. Thinking of the world he would never return to, the smile on his lips froze immediately.

He regretfully asked, "Xu Xuan... how long will it take for you to die?"

"..." Xu Xuan struggled a few times, and the wheelchair rolled forward, "I...I'm afraid you will die, where are you...broken..."

Jiang Yuan ignored him, and Xu Xuan started to hit the table again. Maybe Xu Sheng had a little conscience or couldn't bear it. The wider the arc of his breakaway, the wider the gap between the rope and his injured hand. Xu Xuan gritted his teeth and tried hard, Talking distracted Jiang Yuan's attention, "You can't die before me, can you?"

"yes.."

"Aren't you afraid? Jiang Yuan"

No matter how warm Jiang Yuan's down jacket was, Jiang Yuan still felt cold. He arched his arms and found that he could chat with Xu Xuan very peacefully.

"I'm afraid... I don't know what kind of substance it will become after death." But what kind of substance it turns into probably has nothing to do with Gu Lv in the slightest.

"I shouldn't..I shouldn't have treated you that way. I owe you. I know it's you. You always went to our school to peek at me..You peeked at us playing..You...you deliberately waited for me to finish class Follow me, you still...you always carry a lot of money...I thought..."

"stupid"

Xu Xuan's eyes were blurred and very stubborn, it was only a short time, and it was quickly mixed with resentment and unwillingness, and then turned back to Jiang Yuan, which turned into pain and struggle, "I just... I just can't accept it... I thought You're teasing me...sorry it's me...I'm sick"

When Xu Xuan's dark gray eyes also darkened, his eyes and nose were red, he shook his head vigorously, and began to apologize again, "I'm sorry, you don't have to forgive me, I don't know what liking is, I just didn't want you to be with my brother Together, I don't know whether to hate you for being with him and teasing me, or hate him for having everything, even you..."

"I'm sorry, Jiang Yuan... I'm sorry, but I only have one relative, I only have one brother, I can only hate you, I hate you for everything, and you want to occupy my brother."

Xu Xuan tried his best not to cry out. The arrogant and rascal young man finally put all the cowardice and embarrassment that had been covered up on his face. His unbearable and sloppy side was just like standing in front of Jiang Yuan and Gu Lv back then. Just by looking at them from a distance, they knew that they couldn't be on the same road.

The elder brother who was out of reach back then was not real at all, and Jiang Yuan, who was out of reach now, is actually so far away.

Jiang originally didn't want to recall the past with him. He had no feelings for Xu Xuan, nor did he. In his whole life, if Liang Ji is not counted, he has almost no feelings for anyone other than Gu Lv. He doesn't remember himself. There are friends, classmates, or other people who have talked and laughed. They grew up together. Gu Lv has no one else, and he doesn't want it. It's not for other reasons, but he is afraid that Gu Lv will be lonely. He doesn't want Gu Lv to be alone.

But after listening to Xu Xuan's words, I found it really funny, "...he gave you even his heart, he traded himself for your survival, and he doesn't owe you anything."

Xu Xuan's bruised hand was about to be pulled out from the rope, and the blood that had congealed at the cut part quickly split open again. Xu Xuan was so addicted to the pain that he took a deep breath and pulled it out forcefully. , Tears and sweat rolled down together, he was silent for a while, his eyes stopped on Jiang Yuan's hair, he remembered the last time he touched Jiang Yuan, Jiang Yuan was so crazy and dirty, he didn't dare to touch his hair .

Xu Xuan held the wound with his other bound hand, he looked at the high windows and closed doors in the abandoned prison, and finally asked Jiang Yuan softly "No one owes me...I didn't owe anyone before. .But I originally had an older brother, you want Gu Lv, right? But I...I also want an older brother...Who will give me back my Gu Haiyin?"

"Who returned my Gu Haiyin to me?"

"...Gu Haiyin...Gu Haiyin is gone..., Xu Jingxing used his heart to save Gu Xu...that's why you can live..."

"No!" Xu Xuan shook his head, "No...it's not like this...it's not...Gu Haiyin is alive..."

"That's Gu Lv!!"

Listening to Jiang Yuan's anger, Xu Xuan swallowed all the words back into his stomach.

He didn't have much strength to untie the other hand, all the strength made him turn the wheelchair in front of Jiang Yuan, Jiang Yuan stared at him, his body undulating obviously.Xu Xuan pursed his lips, lowered his eyes and apologized, "I'm sorry, when you returned to China... I was very happy to see you, although... although you were always very angry... I didn't have time to apologize to you, but I'm sorry, if I have a chance, I can Speaking of death, if there is no chance..." Xu Xuan smiled weakly, he lost a lot of blood, and he looked relatively good because he was able to get close

"If there is no chance...I will promise to say this to you before I die..."

"I didn't want to run...wouldn't run..."

"roll.."

"Jiang Yuan..." Xu Xuan stretched out his hand to him, but Jiang Yuan tried to avoid it very slowly, but he couldn't dodge, he lost too much blood, and he was too cold.

Xu Xuan paused, Yu Wen's hand was still holding Jiang Yuan's arm, "Jiang Yuan, I don't want Gu Haiyin anymore...my brother will give it to you...as long as you live, you can live...I'll be fine if I die...what Everything will be fine..”

There was only one wound on Jiang Yuan's arm.

The cut was extremely deep, not on the wrist or on the forearm in the sleeve, the blood flow soaked his clothes heavily, and the redness on the ground fell from the sleeve fabric little by little.

Xu Xuan pressed his wound with all his strength while weeping, his eyes turned to the window and the door, and his voice to Jiang Yuan became softer and softer, "Please, everything will be fine... Please..."

"I beg you..."

Xu Xuan has no human image at all, his face is pale, his lips are pale, and his fingers are trembling.

But all the wounds on his arms and legs were gradually solidifying. "...you don't want me to die, do you?..."

Jiang Yuan was laughed stupidly by him, and stretched out his hand to brush him away. Xu Xuan saw that the wounds all over his body were not bleeding much, and cried even harder, which was very noisy and uncomfortable.

What Xu Xuan said was right, Jiang Yuan thought about hundreds of ways to die, but he never really died, he always missed his Gu Xiaohai.

He was afraid that Gu Lu, Gu Haiyin, and Gu Xiaohai, who only lived in his world alone, would be too lonely.

He was afraid that if Xu Xuan died, there would be no one left for Gu Haiyin.

He is not Xu Xuan, he not only loves Gu Haiyin deeply, he also loves Gu Lv and Xiao Hai deeply.

He is a scumbag and a passionate person. He is familiar with every expression of Gu Lu from childhood to adulthood. He loves this face. This person, he can live through ten years just by remembering and missing.

He used to not want Gu Haiyin to know how bad his own younger brother was, how stupid he was, and what he had done. It was so embarrassing, depressing, and uncomfortable.

But Xu Xuan is not dead, he will collapse every time he thinks about it, he can't get over it, he can't stand it, no matter how deep these unbearable emotions are, they will be aroused every moment he is with Gu Lv, when he is happy, sweet When I was hugged by him, when I was kissed by him.

No one can bear it, they can't be suppressed anymore, and they can't get the estrangement and suspicion between lovers. Jiang Yuan can torture himself and the other party to death just by using his own brain.

It is a kind of deep disintegration pain, no one can understand, they are as dense as the tide, melted into every muscle of the body, every piece of memory, appearing at any time with or without time, MLM Organizations instigate every cell to fight in groups, they control their own bodies and minds, secrete pain to make memories immortal, Jiang Yuan can't hold back, and his soul is overwhelmed.

Since the confrontation, none of the needles poking into his body is painful, and no fish that died in his hands has made him experience real suffocation and death. Needles can’t make him feel pain, fish can’t Make him feel alive.

He just wanted to die, he didn't know if Xu Xuan would be better if he died, and thinking about it now, he probably wouldn't.

But he also won once. The 17-year-old simple Jiang Yuan who followed Gu Lv and jumped up and down just came here once. Every cell in his body wanted Xu Xuan to die so much. One knife was much lighter, he thought, Jiang Yuan was still afraid that Xu Xuan would die, and Xiao Hai would be left alone.

He felt cold, very cold, and felt very guilty in a daze, because he thought of Liang Ji.

Liang Ji will definitely be very angry this time.

He began to think about what happened after his death, whether he would be buried in the place where Gu Xu and his little uncle were.Will the little uncle allow himself to disturb the world of the two of them? Will Gu Lu really come after a long, long, long time.

It doesn't matter if you don't come.

He closed his eyes and laughed, and heard Xu Xuan still crying.

Jiang Yuan was really annoyed to death by Xu Xuan, he really could cry.

No matter how much Xu Xuan cried and begged, Jiang Yuan's mind was not on it, he didn't care anymore.

The smell of blood in the car was strong, Peng Yang drove too fast and confirmed that it was an abandoned small prison, but along the way Lin Ze was still worried that after Xu Sheng gave Xu Xuan to Jiang Yuan, Jiang Yuan took him away.

Gu Lv didn't speak all the way, and no one in the car spoke anymore.

Handless Cao Xiaowang really lost his hands, the kind where his limbs leave his body.

Lin Ze has never seen Gu Lu blame others, let alone torture him.He wanted to ask Jiang Yuan's whereabouts. Cao Xiaowang had already been interrogated, and all the teeth in his mouth were gone.

As soon as he went, he asked Cao Xiaowang if he didn't answer, his left hand fell off, and the second sentence Cao Xiaowang collapsed in pain, and he hesitated for a while, his right hand disappeared.

Rao even Peng Yang was standing there, frowning too.

Before Cao Xiaowang fainted, Liang Ji had already found Jiang Yuan and sent him the location. His thoughtfulness to Jiang Yuan was not half as good as that of Gu Lv.

Liang Ji didn't say a single word on the phone, but following the transmission of this location, everyone knew that Liang Ji must be on his way back.

Gu Lu's silence was like the silence before the tsunami. He wanted to take Cao Xiaowang with him, but Lin Ze could only ask someone to carry the unconscious person into the car.

He was still bowing his head and continuing to talk on the phone. In the rearview mirror, Lin Ze saw Gu Lu biting his nails.

Jiang Yuan's phone was also buzzing, Xu Xuan was so close, he suddenly woke up and picked up his pocket, he forgot that he was tied to the wheelchair, this time he hit the corner of the table hard, he didn't have time to feel the pain , found the phone and immediately picked it up.

"Hey... help... help..."

"...Xu Xuan."

Xu Xuan's heart suddenly became quiet and suffocated, but he still felt hope. He swallowed his saliva, and before he could panic, he grabbed the phone and yelled, "Brother!"

"..."

"Brother, where are you?"

The feeling of not having time to breathe made the already scarce air in the car even more difficult. Gu Lv clenched the phone tightly and could not make a sound.

"elder brother??"

"Brother!! Are you listening? Where are you? You..he is dying bro. He cut his hand..bleed a lot."

"...Let him... answer the phone..."

"elder brother..."

"I told him to answer the phone!!"

With his roar, not only Cao Xiaowang was awakened, but also Jiang Yuan.

Jiang Yuan raised his hand, but Xu Xuan tremblingly put the phone on his ear. Jiang Yuan was both sleepy and cold, and his whole body's senses were sluggishly going to pause.

"Hey.."

Gu Lv raised his head to let his lower lip roll around the tip of his teeth, raised his head and took a quick breath for a while, he controlled himself, and squeezed the phone tightly, "Jiang Yuan...what are you...doing?"

Jiang Yuan took a deep breath, his eyes slowly blurred, "I'm waiting for you..."

"Then you wait for me, I'll be soon...are you injured, are you Xu..."

"Yes...Xu Xuan stabbed me, wait until you see him...don't...don't let him go..."

"it is good."

Xu Xuan trembled a little. He looked at Jiang Yuan's shortness of breath and became nervous. The lack of blood would slowly suffocate people. He tried to help Jiang Yuan up, but Jiang Yuan still had the strength to push him away. He didn't dare, Jiang Yuan He took the phone in his hand and put it next to his ear, gasped and called Gu Lu softly, "Xiao Hai..."

"Um."

"Did you...know all..."

"..."

"Got it... I know it... I've been, I've been too tired... I've been too tired to pretend... I've been hiding... I'm tired too... I'm not happy at all ..”

"I know, it doesn't matter."

"I always dream..I'm afraid..Afraid of the night. When it comes.. I hope. The sky won't shine again.. There won't be tomorrow.. But...I..I still hope for today...again..again a little longer.."

Gu Lv covered his nose and eyes, leaned his head against the back of the seat, and trembled in a low voice, "Don't talk. I'll be there soon, Lin Wang is behind... and will... soon ..”

"Xiaohai..we...have no fate..."

"Nonsense..some"

"Really..No.."

"Stop talking..you..you..stop talking.."

"Little sea.."

"Um"

"Milk tea..It's so delicious..I really want to eat...watermelon..." Jiang Yuan squinted his sleepy eyes, and the oxygen became more and more difficult to inhale.

Gu Lv couldn't hold back the water vapor choked up with a strong nasal voice, and the veins in his hand holding the back of the chair were all showing. He closed his eyes and coaxed softly, "Don't sleep, I'll be there in 5 minutes."

Jiang Yuan responded in a low voice after a long, long time, "Well..."

"I have something to tell you. I'm going to tell you now. You have to listen."

"..........good.."

"Jiang Yuan, I found your father. If you wait for me, I will take you to see your father."

“…”

"Jiang Yuan...did you hear that? You don't want...and don't want to see him."

"..."

"Jiangyuan..."

"..."

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