door of eternal life

【Abstract: The lives of three people are overlapping, and the three emotions are intertwined. Who understands, who is ignorant, and who is flustered.What exactly is that kiss? 】

The winter vacation of the third year of high school has begun, and the students have all stopped playing wildly. Everyone is busy with various extra-curricular cram schools, and they are even more nervous than before the holiday. Everyone is exhausted. How can there be any mood? Play.

Before the holiday, Kuo encouraged Qing to take an English class with him again and again, and kept saying: "Qing, you can go to the English class with me. It is more motivated to study together. I am in that class by myself. , and no one I know, it's too boring."

Qing said: "With your personality, you will know each other after two days of class."

Kuo said again: "That's different. You can come with me. It's a foreign teacher. You can practice listening and speaking. Besides, don't you plan to study in Europe in the future? You should prepare for studying abroad in the future. I also go to study abroad at that time, let's be a companion."

Qing was tortured by him, and thinking that he could practice listening and speaking, and that he really planned to study in Europe in the future, he reluctantly agreed to enroll in an English enhancement class with him, taking classes on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays every week , they deliberately chose the afternoon shift because Qing wanted to sleep late.

As soon as the winter vacation was over, Yu packed his suitcase, bought a train ticket, and went directly to City D from school.When the doorbell rang, Qing was sleeping late.After opening the door, although he heard his mother tell him "don't go out in the morning, Yu will come" while sleeping in a daze in the morning, he was still dizzy at the moment, and subconsciously backed away, letting Yu come in the door.Yu looked at him, smiled, put down his luggage, took out slippers from the shoe cabinet and changed them on, looked into the living room, and asked, "Are you alone at home?"

Qing nodded, looking at him sleepily.

Yu said "Long time no see", and pulled Qing into his arms, holding her tightly for a while.

Qing hadn't woken up yet, when she was hugged by Yu, she felt quite comfortable, and almost fell asleep again, but within a few seconds, her heart skipped a beat and she woke up.Yu looked at his cat-like lazy expression, patted his back, and said softly, "Go to sleep."

"Hmm." Qing replied and walked back to the room.

When Yu called his aunt before, she asked him to come and stay in Zilan's room, and Zilan went on a trip with friends during the winter vacation.Yu watched Qing walk away without any response, and the excited mood on the way here became a little dull, so she went straight into Zilan's room, took a shower, changed her pajamas, went to the living room and turned on the TV, and the sound came out. Sleep low, afraid of waking up Qing.

Qing went back to the room, tried to sleep but couldn't.As soon as Yu entered the door, he hugged him in his arms, which surprised him, and he immediately told himself that it was nothing, since he hadn't seen him for a long time, it was normal to give a hug, but his own reaction was a little cold, just now Yu seemed a little bit The feeling of being left out...how could it be possible to fall asleep again...he found out why he liked the feeling of being held in Yu's arms so much, the strange yet familiar warmth.

After lingering in the room for two hours, Qing couldn't lie down anymore. He pretended to just wake up and left the room. In order not to make Yu feel left out, he deliberately found a topic and chatted with Yu.Then I knew that Yu came to D city during the winter vacation not only to visit them, but also to use the winter vacation to do a professional-related market development prospect research in D city with his classmates. City D is located in the center of the large economic circle newly drawn by the country, and it is a megacity with a strong momentum of development.

During the winter vacation, Yu went out every three days to do research, and only had a day off for five or six days. The two people's work and rest schedules were inconsistent. Most of the time when Qing saw Yu was at night or when Yu was resting.Every time it came time to go to English class, Kuo would come to pick him up, ride a bicycle, and drive him there.Kuo said that it was too cold, Qing sat behind him, he could shield Qing from the wind, and it was warmer than Qing riding a bicycle by himself, Qing's stomach ailment, in case of cold, it is no joke.Yu's rest days are always staggered on weekends. Qing doesn't understand why Yu wants to stagger weekends. If the rest time is arranged on weekends, then parents will also rest, and Ziyi's family will also come, so everyone can have a small gathering.Later, I thought that Yu was doing research with his classmates, so he couldn't just consider his own time, he had to consider other students' time arrangements as well.

This afternoon, when Qing was about to go out to go to class, the snow began to flutter outside, and within a few minutes, the world was already densely covered with snow-white chaos.Kuo was waiting at the door, and when he saw the snow, he shouted excitedly: "Qing, come out quickly! It's snowing!"

Qing quickly walked out of the house, looked up at the sky full of snow, jumped excitedly and sat on the back seat of the bicycle, and said, "Go! Go! Use your fastest speed!"

The two rushed forward in the snow, braked suddenly, veered, and slipped dangerously. Hahaha laughter fell all the way, attracting the attention of passers-by.

When class was over, Qing saw through the glass window that a thick layer of snow had accumulated on the ground, and as far as she could see was a snow-white world, and the sky reflected the snow, which was brighter than usual.As soon as he and Kuo walked out of the classroom door, they immediately saw Yu standing in the corridor with his back leaning against the wall, causing some girls to keep looking back, and Yu was looking at him.Qing shouted in surprise: "Yu! Why are you here?" Yu's arrival immediately added a layer of joy to his heart.

Yu smiled and said, "My aunt called home and said that tonight she and uncle have something to go home for dinner, so let us solve it by ourselves. It's snowing, how about we go eat hot pot?"

"Okay!" Qing Ying said, looking back at Kuo, "You can go together, there should be more people eating hot pot, it's so lively!"

"OK! Let's also experience the feeling of having a conversation around the fireplace on a snowy night!" Kuo immediately agreed.

The hotel is brightly lit, and the steam condenses on the huge floor-to-ceiling glass into drops of water, which slide down one by one, like a rain curtain isolating the cold world outside the window.The three of them sat around the table and ate a big meal. They were sweating all over their bodies and enjoyed it.After eating the hot pot and saying goodbye to Kuo, Qing and Yu unanimously suggested walking home.They walked up the path beside the road, and the neatly trimmed street trees separated them from the road. The two of them walked side by side, leaving two lines of clear footprints on the thick snow.Neither of them spoke. Qing put aside all thoughts for the time being, and concentrated on enjoying the white and pure world in front of her. Hearing the slight creaking footsteps on the snow, she took a deep breath. The cool and fresh air seemed to be With each breath, his internal organs were purified, and his whole body became lighter.In this situation, walking side by side with one person is peaceful and comfortable.As he was walking, Yu suddenly grabbed his hand and held it in his own palm, and put them together in the pocket of the down jacket, but he didn't look at him or speak.After Qing's heart beat wildly, he told himself again that this was normal and there was no need to make a fuss, and he didn't try to take his hand out of Yu Nuannuan's hand, but tried to make himself appear calm and indifferent.The two walked quietly, and when they were almost home, Yu took his hand out of his pocket and let go of Qing's hand.After entering the house, Qing went straight into the room, took a shower and did not come out again, with the book spread out in front of her, forcing herself to calm down and read.Yu didn't sit in his room as usual.Qing looked at the book and her thoughts flew away, recalling everything on the road just now.

Every time it's time to rest, Yu won't go out.Sometimes I shut myself up in my room, sorting out information and statistics, filling out forms on the computer, listing various formulas and calculations on paper, writing and drawing.Qing didn't bother him.On the contrary, sometimes Yu would take a break. If Qing was watching TV, he would sit aside and watch TV, and discuss with Qing about the content of the TV. If Qing was reading or writing, he would either sit by the bed or lean against the table. Standing on the side, also grabbing the book, spreading it in his hand, sometimes not holding the book, just not talking, looking at Qing, suddenly reaching out to touch Qing's cheek, making her face blue, and pretending to be in a panic. Tsukuru continued to read and write as if nothing had happened, but Yu still didn't say anything, and looked at him for a while, then got up and walked away, and went back to his room to continue sorting out his research materials.Qing was beating drums in his heart all the time, not knowing what Yu was thinking, why he was touching his face... because he thought he was pretty?Just look at it and want to touch it?Just like when he looked at his two little nephews, they were so cute that people always wanted to touch their chubby faces.That's about it.But he still felt a little different in his heart. The various behaviors that Yu had shown to him recently made him unable to continue convincing himself that "it's nothing, it's normal".

Yu didn't go out for two days in a row, Qing was surprised, but he didn't ask, and went back to his room to read.When he is alone with Yu now, he always feels a little nervous and at a loss.At noon, he felt hungry, got up late in the morning, didn't eat breakfast, opened the refrigerator to see that there were no leftovers to eat, he didn't have much cooking skills, and it was hard for Yu to cook, so he wanted to call to order takeaway, but Not knowing what Yu wanted to eat, he came to the door of Yu's room, knocked lightly on the door, and pushed the door open to enter.Yu was not sorting out the materials, but lying on the bed with his hands behind his head and his eyes closed, wondering if he was sleeping.Qing stood at the door, hesitating whether to wake him up, but finally walked over lightly, bent down, approached Yu and called softly: "Yu?"

Yu didn't move, her eyelashes trembled imperceptibly, Qing leaned over and waited for a while, and when she was about to shout again, Yu opened her eyes slightly, Qing opened her mouth and was about to say that she was going to order takeaway at noon, do you want to eat What, he was pulled over by Yu before he could prevent it, and fell on Yu's body.As soon as Yu turned around and hugged Qing, Qing didn't understand what happened, his mouth was pressed tightly by Yu's warm lips, he only felt dizzy for a while, couldn't catch his breath, and subconsciously clenched his teeth .Yu paused, and felt that Qing didn't resist, so he used his tongue to pry open Qing's jaw, inserted into his mouth, caught up with his tongue, sucked his lips fiercely, and then entangled him again. tongue.Qing felt Yu's eagerness, this was the first time he kissed someone, and it was Yu, and it was so sudden, he was so dizzy that he didn't know what to do, except for Yu's lips and tongue, he couldn't even feel his own limbs, hands and feet.Until Yu's lips left him, he didn't dare to move, he only took a deep breath quietly, but Yu didn't look at him, but put his arms around the back of his neck, and pressed him tightly in his arms for a long, long time. Only then let go.

Only then did Qing lower his head, stood up and said, "I'm going to order takeaway at noon, what do you want to eat?" His voice was very soft, and he tried his best to restrain his nervousness, not wanting Yu to hear that his voice was trembling, so he stood up Finally, he lowered his hands, didn't look at Yu, didn't move, he didn't know where he was looking, and he didn't know where to look.

Yu also stood up, gave Qing a short but firm hug, and said calmly, "Whatever, just watch."

Qing let out a "hmm" and hurried out, suddenly the words of Yuzhof Attila popped up in his mind: My heart is pounding and pounding.

During the meal, Yu seemed like nothing had happened, and Qing also tried to look like he didn't care, but they ate their meal very quietly.Qing's heart was in turmoil. If hugging is normal, holding hands is normal, and touching faces is normal, then even kindergarten children know that kissing is not an ordinary thing. Especially two men, and Yu and him, this is not right at all.But Yu behaved very normally, as if it was a very normal thing for him to kiss Qing, this made Qing very confused, is it really nothing?Qing usually reads books and watches movies, so he naturally knows about homosexuality, and he doesn't feel that there is anything unacceptable, "It's just that the person he fell in love with happens to be of the same sex", but he and Yu are not only of the same sex, but also cousins ...

As soon as I finished eating, I put down my chopsticks, and Kuo came.

Kuo greeted Yu very familiarly, and shook a video disc in his hand in front of Qing's eyes, with a smug expression on his face, "How is it, young master, is this what you have been thinking about all the time?...Huh? Why does your mouth seem a little swollen and so red?" Kuo looked at the fast food box that hadn't been packed yet, and then asked, "Spicy?"

Qing was asked by Kuo so much that her heart felt like a rabbit was jumping wildly, so she said "hmm" noncommittally. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Yu Bei turned around and packed up the fast food box and took it to the kitchen. I couldn't stop coughing.

"Can your stomach eat spicy food? I'm not afraid of stomach problems recurring." Kuo was very serious, and he always cared about Qing's stomach problems.

"Just once in a while, not every day. Let's go to the movies." Qing wanted to quickly change the subject, took the disc and walked to the audio-visual room.The audio-visual room of Qing’s house used to be Ziyi’s room. Since Ziyi got married, this room has been converted into a special audio-visual room at Qing’s request. In her free time, Qing would lock it up and watch movies, and write film reviews after watching. , writing experience, and sometimes submitting articles to newspapers and magazines, and most of them will be adopted, so Qing saved the manuscript fee, and later replaced the home theater with a Sony 60-inch large-screen LCD TV.

"Anyway, you should pay more attention to yourself." Kuo followed Qing to the audio-visual room, saw Yu coming out of the kitchen, and asked, "Yu, do you want to watch?"

"What movie?" Yu asked.

"'Hoover,' starring Leonardo DiCaprio," Coe said.

"Oh, I've seen it before, you can watch it." Yu said and went into the room.

After watching the movie, Qing felt weird, and the chaotic emotions stirred up by Yu's kiss just now matched some plots in the movie.

Kuo said with emotion: "Such a person who has dominated American politics for 50 years is actually a homosexual! I really didn't expect it. However, it is really rare that he can withstand the pressure. The status is truly invaluable!"

"Yes." Qing agreed absently.Yu said that he had seen it, but he didn't know how he felt when he saw it.Why are you kissing him today?Sleepy?Probably not.Adolescence spur of the moment?Seems to make sense.Qing let himself believe so.Although he didn't really believe it, he always felt that there was another reason.

At night Zilan came back suddenly, she was stunned when she saw Yu when she entered the door, and her normal face returned to normal in a blink of an eye.