door of eternal life

[The text of this chapter: The farewells before the journey started touched her, him, and his hearts, and worries and doubts arose in everyone's hearts. 】

Bin went to other places to film again, this time to Dali, Yunnan.I called Qing a few days ago and said that I have made a lot of good films, which must be Qing's favorite style, and I will show them to him after I come back these days.

Qing counts the days, Bin should be back.

Qing still likes to sit in her garden and slowly look at the photos taken by Bin, and see Bin talking about interesting things and knowledge around in high spirits. She is at ease, leisurely and comfortable, so she makes an appointment with Bin at home.Bin asked on the phone if he wanted to bring him some food for lunch, Qing smiled and said: "I really miss your cooking skills, so you can show your skills again, and you can eat together."

Sure enough, when Bin came, he brought a bunch of fresh produce and fruits. As soon as he entered the door, he plunged into the kitchen, rolled up his sleeves and started busy making lunch. Qing wanted to help wash the fruits, but Bin thought Qing was in the way, so he pushed Qing away. Watching TV, Qing didn't insist, just walked away with a smile.A table of well-matched, delicious dishes made Qing feel that he was really hungry and his appetite was whetted.Bin looked at Qingchi with a smile, but he didn't move his chopsticks much.What Qing didn't know was that in order to let Qing eat more delicate and delicious meals, Bin even signed up for a chef class. Let Qing promise to let him come to cook him a meal every now and then. Slowly, Qing's body should get better.

After lunch, they looked at photos in the garden.Bin looked at Qing and said, "Why are you thinner again? Your complexion is worse than when I saw you last time. If you can eat like this every day, you won't gain weight, and your complexion won't be so bad."

Qing also smiled and said: "You have an illusion, you have lost a lot of weight."

"You said that if I persisted a little longer, would I have been able to catch up with you?" Bin often said such words, but his tone was less sad and more indifferent and joking, but with deep affection buried in it.

"Stop dreaming. Look at how cute your son is, everything is worth it." Qing will not talk about persuading Bin to live in peace, such words are too empty and meaningless.

"In the future, if you write columns and publish novels, if you need pictures, I will provide them for you, absolutely free."

"Okay, I'll call you if I need you."

"When you gain weight and get better, you can be my model again."

"Well, okay, you will let me know in advance when the time comes."

"If you want to get fat yourself, when will you have to wait? Why don't I feed you myself and cook for you three times a week, how about it?"

Qing looked at him, thought for a while and said, "I'll think about it."

Bin felt that Qing was in a good mood today and agreed to everything quickly.When I talked about cooking for him before, he always said don't bother me, don't need it, etc. I was very polite to him, which made him very depressed.Looking at Qing, he thought that the weather is fine today, the sun is fine, and his mood...is really great!I really want to give Qing a hug, and put a loud kiss on Qing's cheek.

Autumn is high and crisp, the forests are all dyed, and the acacia maple leaves are so bright and colorful.

The blue time is getting darker and darker, like a star that is gradually slipping away from the solar system and gradually being swallowed by a mysterious and endless dark and cold black hole.Yu hasn't heard from him since the birthday event, and Qing knows he's not available, or in the mood?

Hate to wait.

When Qing was about to contact Kuo, Kuo contacted him first.They made an appointment again at the elegant seat of the restaurant in the center of the park. It was still quiet here, with low piano sounds floating around, as light as water and smoke.

As usual, first look at Qing's face, it is paler and thinner than before, and it feels like the skin is going to be transparent, but Qing's state seems to be very relaxed, the fog in the eyes has dissipated a lot, and it is clear Her black eyes were pure and soft, she felt relieved, and asked Qing: "Have you still suffered from insomnia recently?"

Qing put his arms on the table, put his hands on his cheeks, pouted childishly, and nodded: "Well, it's not too good." He never concealed his childishness in front of Kuo, always doing whatever he wanted.

"I think your insomnia is mainly due to your mood, and don't always stay up late to write manuscripts, you always live your life upside down." Kuo saw that his fingers were still empty and lonely.

Qing smiled and nodded.Yes, he always turns black and white upside down, takes black for white, and white for black, and the result is nothing, isn't it the same in his life?He himself is neither black nor white, and can't even see the light.

Kuo pushed the menu to Qing, and asked Qing to choose his favorite food first. Qing opened it and looked at it, but first ordered the top-quality double-flavored lion head and Pingqiao tofu that Kuo liked. Kuo's eyes lit up, and he said with a smile : "Master, I am treated very special today!"

Qing glanced at him and said with a smile, "Well, I'll give you special treatment." Kuo is in his heart, after all, he is different from others.

"Do you still suffer from stomach problems now?" When eating, Kuo Wangqing didn't eat much.

Qing shook her head, paused and said, "I'm taking medicine."

Hearing that Qing said that he was taking medicine, Kuo felt relieved. He felt that this stomach disease was simply Qing's shadow. He followed him from childhood to adulthood, and never disappeared, which caused Qing to suffer too much.

After dinner, Qing wanted to pay the bill, but Kuo disagreed, and Qing didn't argue with him. He walked out of the restaurant first and stood at the door waiting for Kuo.The night wind is cool, looking up at the twinkling stars in the dark and deep sky, mysterious, distant, quiet and beautiful.Kuo walked out, looked at Qing's back, felt a dull pain in his chest, walked over and couldn't help but put his arms around Qing's waist and said, "Let's go for a walk?" Qing didn't avoid it, Kuo's arms were like his temporary safe haven, he I want to take a break in there for a while.Walking to the stone bench by the lake, they sat down and looked at the lake in the shadow of the lamp, swaying.

Qing sat upright, he really wanted to ask Kuo to lean on your shoulder, and then leaned his head on Kuo's shoulder.But he never said or did it.I can no longer do this now, and I smiled bitterly in my heart.

Kuo turned his face to look at Qing, and felt that Qing was a little different tonight, because of his emotional abnormality, and he didn't know what Qing was thinking.He really wanted to hold Qing in his arms, let Qing lean on his shoulders, and rest for a while, but he couldn't, and sighed deeply with infinite regret in his heart, but he still thought, no matter what the result is, no matter what form it takes , he will stay by Qing's side all his life and never leave.

Before parting, Qing said to Kuo: "Recently, I am planning to go on a trip."

Kuo looked at him, stunned for a few seconds before asking: "Where are you going?" The worry flashed in his eyes.

Qing said: "I don't have a clear destination, so let's watch as we go."

Kuo asked again: "How to get there? Airplane or high-speed train?"

Qing said, "Travel by car."

"when are we leaving?"

"Not sure, maybe I can leave tomorrow if I want to, maybe it will take a few more days."

Kuo hurriedly said: "Don't leave tomorrow, it feels very hasty. You can leave in a few days, make good preparations, tell me what you need, and I will handle it."

"There is nothing to prepare, nothing more than daily toiletries and a change of clothes."

Kuo looked at Qing silently for a while and said, "Then tell me the day before you leave."

Qing nodded.

The next day, Qing received a call from Kuo, who insisted that Qing send the car to the 4S shop for a comprehensive inspection and maintenance, saying that he recently met a master in the shop through a friend's introduction, and he absolutely guaranteed that there would be no mud. Shuidi did a real maintenance of Qing's car, and he volunteered, instead of Qing himself, he was responsible for sending Qing's car to the 4S shop, and after the maintenance was completed, he would send the car back. It must be returned to Zhao. Give Qing a car without any safety hazards.Qing thought about it, if it would be a big trouble for him to be unable to move because of a vehicle failure during the journey, he agreed to Kuo's suggestion, and Kuo came to the door the next day and drove Qing's car away, and left his BMW 7 series with him. Green spare.

A few days before leaving, Qing went home. During dinner, she told her parents that she wanted to go on a trip for a while. Her parents repeatedly told her to be safe while driving. a call.Also, you must bring enough stomach medicine, and take medicine as soon as you feel unwell.Qing said, don't worry, what can happen to me as an adult man, and I am not a woman, I will call you when I get to the hotel.

In the evening, Zilan called again and asked, Qing, I heard from my mother that you are going on a trip?Who are you going with? ...what is yourself? ...still driving? ... No, no, you have never driven a long distance by yourself, you will be very tired, and it is not safe!Listen to my sister, you can travel, sign up for a tour group, and go by train or plane.

Qing said that traveling with a tour group, taking a train or flying is too restrictive, and he is not free, and he really does not want to squeeze the train because there are too many people and it is inconvenient, and the procedures for flying are also very troublesome and wasteful In time, I am still comfortable driving by myself, stop when I want, walk when I want, and rest when I am tired.

Zilan didn't entangle with him any more about these unimportant issues in her opinion. After a pause, she said in a low voice: "Qing... are you okay?" Qing's appearance that day was still in front of her eyes. She always feels that Qing's soul seems to have left Qing's body long ago, and now Qing has no heart, and she has never seen Qing's really happy smile again.

Qing was taken aback, then smiled and said, "Sister, where do you want to go. I'm fine, I just want to go out and have a look, accumulate some materials, I can't always work behind closed doors."

"Qing, you suddenly changed your long-term life status, I... am a little worried..." Zilan was still in fear, but he couldn't say it clearly.

Of course Qing understood, bit her lip hard, and then said with a smile: "Sister, people have to change, right? Don't worry, I'll be fine."

"Then... well. I won't say anything, please be careful. If you have anything to do, you must call in time. Remember, my sister is here, huh?" At the end, Zilan's voice Some choked up.

The next day, Ziyi's call also came.

"I heard that my younger brother wants to ride alone for thousands of miles?" Ziyi said jokingly.

"Did you listen to what Mom said?" Qing asked, thinking that it had already spread all over the place before he left the house, but it's okay, let's say hello to everyone.

"Of course. Mom wants me to persuade you not to go, but I don't think I have the ability." Ziyi smiled, and then said seriously, "Qing, you haven't traveled all these years. Everyone is worried about being alone, but I can't accompany you, you must pay more attention to safety, and call me as soon as you encounter anything."

"Don't worry, don't worry, you better hope that you won't receive my call." Qing said again and again, feeling a little sour in her heart.

I went on a trip.Qing only left this sentence for Yu, then turned off the phone and drove away.

At the beginning when he and Yu were together again, he decided not to make any requests or requests to Yu, not to contact Yu, not to ask Yu to meet, not to talk about love and feelings with Yu, and constantly reminding himself not to I hope that Yu can make choices and changes for him, and stop dreaming of being with him forever... In short, don't have any more expectations for Yu.Although during this period he couldn't restrain himself and involuntarily had expectations for Yu, but he never let himself say it out loud.Not taking the initiative, this is his final limit, he has his dignity and pride.Of course, Yu never promised him anything.

He has also been making mental preparations, preparing for Yu to tell him again one day: "I don't want to go on like this." Then, it broke up in two.The fire in his life was ignited by Yu himself, he couldn't and couldn't extinguish it, he could only extinguish it by Yu himself.

This is the first time since they got together again, he took the initiative to send a message to Yu. Even if it was Yu's birthday, he didn't express anything, because he felt that Yu didn't need any blessings from him, and he didn't want to do unnecessary things.After the message was sent, he seemed to see a bait being thrown into the water, and he didn't know what he would catch. Was it a beautiful red carp, an ugly toad, or nothing... It seemed that his subconscious Li hopes for something and fears something, but Yu may not care about where he is going, or even don't want to know that he is going on a trip, or don't want to hear any news about him. This message of mine is really redundant. .

But it turns out that it's just a life of deceiving yourself and others.Ah.

Don't think about anything, let's go.Qing shook her head vigorously, trying to get rid of all the inextricable thoughts related to Yu before, at least, let herself travel lightly in this life.

During this trip, Qing wanted to go to the seaside first for no reason. He wanted to see the sea, the sea in the dark, and then go to other places. Let’s stop and go. He didn’t set a time limit for himself. For half a month, if you don't agree, you will be a passerby.

"Let's go right away, go to Rizhao first." Before leaving, Qing sent a message to Kuo.

"Please pay attention to safety and have a safe journey! (Concentrate on driving and don't reply.)" Kuo's message was sent immediately.

Bin's phone then rang, and after sending the message to Kuo, Qing also sent a message to Bin temporarily, telling Bin that he was leaving for a trip today, Bin was impatient, and when he saw the message, he immediately grabbed his mobile phone and made a call.

"I'm Qing." As soon as Qing got into the car, Bin's call came in.

"Qing, where are you going? By yourself? No companion?" Bin asked eagerly.

"I haven't decided where to go, let's take a walk. I'm alone." Qing said.

"Oh...then you pay attention to safety, eat well, have you brought your medicine?" Bin asked.

"Yes, I brought the medicine with me, and I take it regularly every day." Qing heard someone on the phone urging Bin.

Bin responded to the other side, and then said to Qing: "I'm shooting a film in another place and I'm busy. I'll contact you later. Be careful!" Bin hung up the phone, thinking of the man and Qing he saw that night. At that time, the man's feelings for Qing were very unusual. It made people feel that the man wanted to hold Qing in his mouth, put it in his pocket, and cover his heart. He never opened his mouth to ask Qing, and Qing never mentioned it. After that, although he really wanted to know how their relationship was going now, he always felt that there was no suitable opportunity to ask, and he kept it in his heart.Now Qing is traveling alone, what's going on?

Qing set up the navigation system, then drove on Lianhuo Expressway, turned to Shenhai Expressway halfway, and drove all the way to Rizhao.