door of eternal life

[Text of this chapter: After many years, he finally heard those three words.He didn't recognize that person.How to keep the promise we have been together all this time. 】

Qing has always been reluctant to celebrate birthdays since he was a child. Everyone knows that, so he doesn't buy cakes or order longevity noodles. He just smiles and says to Qing, "Happy birthday!" It's his birthday, so he looks forward to this day, and it's nothing more than looking forward to seeing Yu's expressions of love. Gifts don't need to be expensive, as long as he has intentions in it, he will be satisfied, so every time that day comes, he will push Give up everything, just to be with Yu.During the years when he and Yu were separated, every birthday he hoped to spend as peacefully and silently as possible, but brother, sister, and Kuo and Bin still always wanted to send him blessings and remind him of this day importance to them.This made him even more afraid of the birthday coming. Everyone's deliberate highlighting of this day will only remind him of that year, the birthday when he and Yu wore rings on each other. Right and wrong.So every time this day comes, he will deliberately shut down the phone, so that everyone's blessings and goodwill will be stagnated on the road, as if arriving one day later, the feeling will be different and the pain will be less.It was only during the two years of dating with Kuo that he agreed to have a birthday for him again, but this birthday was just on the day of his birthday, and he and Kuo went to a restaurant for a meal.

However, no matter how you hide, how you hide, how you don't want to think about it, the memory of the once happy but now painful memory will inevitably emerge from the bottom of his heart every year, and he will always sit alone in the dark, sad and sad, sad and painful , like an unknown cold mist, surrounded him layer by layer, and the pain was so tight that he would always sit on the bay window sill, hold a glass of red wine, look at the lonely stars and cold moon outside the window, and toast to the sky. Invitation, he didn't know who he was inviting, but Kuo's figure would float in his mind at that time.He thought that only Kuo could be willing and truly understand his mood, or just drink with him without asking about his worries.Then, with a raised head, he drank the full glass of wine in one gulp.

The Yueming Tower sits alone and rests alone, and the wine turns into tears of lovesickness.

But this year's birthday is different, because Yu came, and he came earlier than before, and brought him a cake.

Yu opened the cake box, and there was a ten-inch delicate fresh milk cake with the words "Happy Birthday" written on it in cursive script. Seeing those four simple words, Qing felt a little bit lost and confused. Sad, in the past, Yu always asked people to write on the cake: "Happy birthday to my wife!", or "Happy birthday, baby!", but now...

Yu inserted a candle, lit it with a lighter, looked at Qing, smiled and said, "Make a wish."

Qing didn't make a wish, but hugged Yu tightly, tears bursting out of her eyes uncontrollably.It's been so long, I used to think that my relationship would never come to fruition, it gradually turned cold and silent, I thought that I would spend this life alone and alone, but Yu came back again, and came to accompany him, Although at this moment, he would still be sad and still unwilling to think about Yu's family, but if his life went on like this, he thought he would be willing.

Yu felt Qing's strangeness, and wanted to push Qing away to see what happened to him, but Qing tightly wrapped his arms around his neck, and didn't let go, Yu patted his back lightly, silently waiting for him to stop his tears .

"Make a wish." Yu looked at Qing and said again, a kind of sadness flashed in his eyes, but this sadness was different from Qing's, with more complicated and unspeakable emotions.

Qing looked at the flickering candlelight, bitterness outweighed happiness, knew it was impossible, but still silently expected: "Let's be together like this, this life and this life." He doesn't believe in an afterlife, so he only looks forward to this life.He found sadly that the self who pursued perfect love had already begun to compromise, compromised with the reality imposed on him by Xiang Yu and the current situation brought about by it, and from the moment he compromised, this compromise began bit by bit Bit by bit eat away at his life.

After eating the cake, Yu gave Qing some longevity noodles and ate with him.In fact, Qing had no appetite to eat anymore. Looking at the full bowl of noodles that Yu brought in front of him, he forced himself to finish the noodles. Yu smiled and said, "I have a good appetite today."

After dinner, Yu didn't make love with Qing as before, but watched his new movie "The Great Gatsby" with his arms around Qing.Gatsby, Gatsby, another infatuated man.However, how selfish and cowardly Daisy is, is her love for Gatsby only based on money?He even cruelly abandoned and betrayed Gatsby who loved her so much for his own material desires, and Gatsby, no matter what Daisy did to him, he was willing to give his all and even his life for his love.Oh, isn't he as infatuated and persistent as Gatsby?And Daisy, who does she look like, does she look like Yu... Qing looks a little disheartened, he keeps reminding himself to restrain, adjust, and not show it, Yu is still by his side after all, isn't he?Although there are prerequisites for Yu to do these things.

The music at the end of the movie gradually sounded, Yu turned to Qing, and kissed him silently, neither warm nor hot, slow or urgent, kissed him for a long time and deeply, then let go of his lips, and lit his ear with the tip of his tongue... Qing's mood was low and sad, this was the first time he was indifferent to Yu's temptation, his sadness was weighing heavily in his heart and he was about to collapse... At this time, a low and gentle sound came from his ear :"I love you."

Yu saw a sudden flicker in Qing's eyes that had hidden too much sadness, like a dazzling light flashing like a colorful jewel, so beautiful and gorgeous.

In the bright and dark light and shadow, the air seemed to be ignited instantly, scorching hot.

Yu probably won't be leaving tonight, right?Qing looked at Yu who was sleeping soundly, and wondered in her heart.Lying in Yu's arms, he hadn't slept. Looking at the time, it was almost eleven o'clock, and Yu had already slept for nearly half an hour. Usually at this time, he not only woke up early, but also should have been gone for a long time. .Because I always think about when I have to leave, I can't go back late, and I can't sleep well, so Yu usually only sleeps lightly for half an hour after their lingering.Today, she was still asleep. In her sleep, she held him tighter and kissed him lightly on the forehead.

Qing is sure that Yu will stay overnight.

Think about today, Yu clearly said those three words: "I love you." Yu never said it to him before, and he never said it to Yu.In the past, when it was easiest to speak, they all kept silent.But after so long of tossing and closing, painful torment, and when both of them were scarred, Yu finally said.Qing believes that Yu said this sentence from the bottom of his heart, and he said it involuntarily when the emotion in his heart was overflowing. I remember that when I heard this sentence just now, the whiteness in my heart , Suddenly there are colorful colors, shining brightly.But at this moment, that feeling has melted into the sun like thin snow, without a trace, and I can't even recall it anymore, as if I dare not believe it easily.Some irony, some sad.

They returned as lovers again... Now they can't be called lovers, they can only be regarded as lovers.After being together for so long again, this is the first time Yu spent the night here.Falling asleep in Yu's arms, Qing felt relatively at ease, unlike usual, always having difficulty falling asleep, or maybe they were too tired from tossing and tossing today, and suddenly remembered that the article that was supposed to be written today hadn't started yet, and I would make up for it tomorrow. Double it.It would be nice to be able to stay like this forever.In a daze, he thought.

In the long night, calm and dreamless.The bedside lamp glowed softly and quietly.

Qing suddenly woke up, his mind was shrouded in a thick black mist, blurred and floating, he opened his eyes wide, looking at the sleeping person in front of him in horror.

This is where? !

Who is this guy? !

His breathing gradually increased, and he tried to grasp the faint faint light in the depths of his mind, which was clearly in front of his eyes, but he couldn't grasp it no matter what. ...For a long time, it seemed as if he had trekked through thousands of mountains and rivers, and passed through mountains and seas of people, before he suddenly realized that this was in his bedroom, and the person hugging him in front of him was Yu.

He didn't recognize Yu anymore.

He stared at Yu intently, for a long time, closed his eyes again, and gradually fell into sleep.

too tired.

It's the holidays again, and the children are temporarily released from school, and they can follow their parents to visit relatives and friends or go sightseeing.The three members of Yu's family went to visit their aunt and uncle. When they arrived at Jinse Garden, they found that the aunt's house was very lively. The four members of Zilan's family came from the neighboring city, and the four members of Ziyi's family also came back to visit their parents. , children add up to a dozen people.Ziyi's two boys are twins, Yun Mukai and Yun Muyuan, who are 12 years old, running and playing in the room.Zilan's two children are also twins, twins, Qi Wenshao and Qi Songya. These two children are younger, only six years old. All four children have inherited the excellent genes of their parents. They are beautiful, smart, and very cute.

Whenever seeing these four children, Yu would think of Qing when he named them.

When Ziyi's twin sons were born, Qing said: "In ancient times, the Gaoyang family had eight talented men, who benefited from it, and they were called Bakai, and the Gaoxin family had eight talented men, who were called eight yuan in the world. Let's call one Mu Kai and the other Mu Yuan."

At that time, Brother Ziyi was so happy that he couldn't close his mouth from ear to ear, and said proudly: "My younger brother is absolutely talented!"

When Zilan's child was born, Qing said: "Confucius heard "Shao" at the same time. He didn't know the taste of meat in March, and he returned to Lu in self-defense. It was love at first sight, lovesickness between the two places, and from then on, he was a passer-by, his surname was Qi, and he was also from Shandong, so it just so happened that one was called Wenshao and the other was called Songya, haha..."

At that time, Qing was talking and laughing happily, and his gestures and gestures were full of brilliance.

At this moment, Wen Shao was watching Mu Kai and Mu Yuan fighting, and wanted to come forward to play together, but hesitated a little. Seeing Wen Shao's expression, Mu Kai ran over, pulled Wen Shao and said : "Brother Shao, come and play with us, and you will always play with us in the future!" Song Ya was holding a coloring story book, sitting beside her grandma and watching quietly.This is the warm and beautiful big family he dreamed of, but without Qing, he always feels somewhat regretful.He remembered the year when his mother died, Qing took his arm and said, "Brother Yu, don't be sad, you still have me to accompany you, I will be with you from now on..." He sighed deeply, pressing his hands on his legs He pinched down with ten fingers, and when he looked up and saw Zilan looking at him, he knew that Zilan didn't forgive him.

Zilan never asked about his relationship with Qing again, but he knew that Zilan would not really ignore it.In Jinse Garden, he and Qing have never met again, just from this point of view, you can tell.Sometimes Zilan would ask him, "Aren't you going to Jinse Garden tomorrow?" He said he was asking, but he was actually telling him not to go.Zilan is coordinating, she wants to protect Qing from getting hurt as much as possible.Now Zilan probably doesn't know that he and Qing are together again, if she knows, what will happen to her?Will you object?Qing is the younger brother she and Ziyi love so much, but he is also reluctant to part with Qing. He dare not think that if Zilan strongly opposes it, and even uses his family as a weight, then what should he do, will he leave Qing again?Can you do something that deviates from Qing again?What will happen to Qing then?He didn't dare to think too far, he always told himself to live the current life well, isn't it good now.

Listening to a large group of people chatting about yesterday's picnic, warm, peaceful, and a little noisy, Yu stood up, went to the balcony, took out a cigarette, lit it, and watched the clouds in the distant sky slowly drifting with the wind , The chirping voice drifted into my ears from time to time.

"...Yesterday, it was agreed that Qing would drive with us to have a picnic, and Qing also agreed. Otherwise, we would add a lot of people from the old Zhou's family across the door, and it would be too crowded to take two cars. As a result, Qing Temporarily said that we had to catch up on the manuscript, but we couldn't come, so we were extremely crowded, each car was crowded with four adults and two children, and the little ones were extremely naughty, only Songya was quiet..."

Yu's heart beat twice rapidly.Yesterday morning, the client had something to do and canceled the original appointment. Because he missed Qing so much, he took this opportunity to send a message to Qing to find him, and Qing said, "Okay."

It turned out that he had been mistaken all along.It’s not that Qing has no friends, it’s not that he doesn’t have activities, it’s not that he stays at home every day and doesn’t go anywhere...but he always puts meeting him as a priority, putting it at the top of everything, and everything can be done at any time. They made concessions when they met, even if they would be blamed and complained by their relatives and friends... That's why he could find Qing whenever he went to look for it.

He knew, knew clearly, that he was still in love with Qing.During the years of separation, every time he woke up in the middle of the night, he knew who he was thinking about, whether he was doing well, whether he stayed up late again, gained weight or lost weight, whether he was happier, and thought of his brilliant smile that year His handsome face also reminded him of his pale and sad face later... Being able to be with Qing again, or that Qing was willing to be with him again, made him feel relieved, and he wanted to stay by Qing's side in this way, If it goes on like this, it can be regarded as "be together forever".However, he can't give Qingyao the "wholeheartedness" because he has too many things that are too important to give up, and he wants to hold on to them for a longer time and more firmly...

He also knows with certainty that Qing still loves him, even though Qing doesn't say anything, otherwise Qing will resolutely reject him thousands of miles away.

Qing has never mentioned his family so far. If he mentions it occasionally, Qing just keeps silent and looks aside in a daze.At that time, he could immediately feel that Qing's whole body was quickly enveloped by the cold gray air.From then on, he carefully tried not to touch this topic as much as possible.But he always thinks that so many years have passed, looking at the current social situation, Qing should be able to understand his original choice, but even after the passion, although Qing will take a nap in his arms, he will also see, more At that time, Qing was lost in his arms, his eyes were full of gray.He knows where the root is, but he has no other choice but to do so.

He also saw that there were no ring marks on Qing's fingers.He never asked about the ring, and Qing didn't mention it either.He didn't dare to ask, he didn't want to mention it, and he was even more afraid of Qing mentioning it. The more he was with Qing, the more he felt that the ring seemed to be a mockery of him, which made him feel prickly.