door of eternal life

[Text of this chapter: Half of the broken soul remains in the world.Is it for threat, or for relief.She said to Yu, you are different people. 】

When Qing was lying on the operating bed and pushed back to the ward, Yu's tense nerves relaxed a little. The muscles and bones of his whole body lost their tension in an instant like a bow stretched to the limit, and he felt exhausted.Then I thought about how to take care of Qing. There are people coming and going in the hospital, and I will inevitably meet acquaintances when I stay in the hospital. I also think that my company still has a lot of things to deal with, so I really can't leave.But who can I turn to?Now, I must not let my aunt and uncle know that my friends cannot be found. Qing has very few friends, and Liao Yan is unfamiliar with everyone except Kuo. It is impossible for him to call Kuo for such a thing. Don't call other people rashly. After thinking about a lot of people, only sister Zilan is the most suitable.Now it's winter vacation, and sister Zilan is a university teacher. Unlike junior high school and high school teachers who have to make up lessons for students, she is relatively leisurely during the holidays, and she lives in a neighboring city, not far away. At present, I can only find her .As for how to explain to Sister Zilan, he can't think of it now, and he doesn't want to think about it, it's too messy and exhausting, let it go, and deal with the current level first.

When Zilan received Yu's call, she was so shocked that her mind was in a mess. After a while, she told herself that she had to calm down.She quickly arranged the housework, and told Bai Haoze that a very respected junior high school teacher was critically ill, and she had to rush to City D overnight in a hurry.In fact, she didn't want to use the word "critically ill" at all in her heart, but she didn't even want to hear any unlucky words that could allude to Qing or be related to Qing, let alone say it from her mouth. There is no way to find a better and more urgent reason in a short time.She didn't pack her luggage either. Anyway, her natal family was over there. When the speeding car left, Bai Haoze yelled loudly: "Drive slowly, pay attention to safety!"

Of course she will pay attention to safety, Qing doesn't know what's going on, if something happens to her, how will her parents live.But there was really no way to drive slowly, she was going crazy.

After driving for an hour and a half, she arrived in City D. It was already dawn, and she rushed into the ward. Fortunately, it was a single room.At a glance, Yu was sitting on the chair beside the bed, leaning down, inserting his hands and fingers deeply into his hair, and staring up at Qing closely, his red eyes were full of anxiety and pain, only when he realized that someone came in, did he feel confused looked up.Zilan didn't bother to talk to him, and walked quickly to the bedside. Qing was still in a coma, wearing an oxygen mask, and all the tubes and wires on her body made her dizzy for a while.

"The rescue has come." Yu's voice was hoarse and heavy.

Only then did Zilan turn to look at him, Yu in front of him looked tired, his complexion was sallow, he was very haggard, and he tried his best to hide something.But it's not suitable for her to ask now, so she said: "It seems that you are very tired, go back and rest, I will be here."

Yu glanced at his watch, then at Qing, hesitated and said, "Okay, I have an important meeting in the company this morning, so I'll go back first."

Seeing Yu leaving the ward with heavy steps, Zilan turned to look at Qing again.One night, she was hit too hard. On the way here, she was so confused that she couldn't think of anything. Now she has calmed down a little. There are too many questions in her heart, and she needs to sort them out slowly.

Qing has always been calm, rational, and sometimes even very funny. Although he doesn't talk much, when he chats with everyone, he will listen quietly by the side, but he can always burst out with witty remarks, which make adults and children laugh out loud.

Usually when other people are so annoyed that they can’t eat or sleep, Qing is the most enlightening person, very gentle and caring, always finds a unique way to approach topics, and just a few sentences make people suddenly enlightened.

Qing’s heart is very soft. When he sees stray kittens and puppies, he always needs to feed them and send them to the stray animal shelter. He also buys a lot of animal food every now and then. Children are all the same. They cannot take care of themselves and are very helpless. If no one feeds them, they will freeze to death and starve to death. It is so pitiful.

Qing is very filial to her parents. She and her elder brother Ziyi have already married, and they both moved out of D City due to work. , Even things like rice noodles, oil, salt, vinegar, soy sauce, monosodium glutamate, and chicken essence are regularly bought and delivered.

Qing loves her sister very much. When she is sad, she will silently pour a cup of hot milk for her, then sit quietly beside her and accompany her, take away the tissues she used to wipe her tears and nose, and stuff them in again. A new one is in her hand, and she will sit with her all night long.When she couldn't support herself and fell on the bed to sleep, Qing just covered her with the quilt, closed the door gently and went out.

Qing is very talented and strong. Although he missed the college entrance examination, it didn’t hurt him too much. He was fine after being depressed for a few days. He said that maybe this kind of life is more suitable for him. He can learn college content through online courses , and the study time is very free, not tense, as he arranges, and then, he easily obtained a master's degree in three years.He began to publish articles in some newspapers and magazines when he was in junior high school, and now he is responsible for writing two columns. Three novels have been printed and sold. The sales are very good, and they are being reprinted.

Qing has his own apartment, which is clean and tidy. The garden is lush with green plants and winding paths. He likes his nest very much, and he always calls it a nest.His parents urged him to find a girlfriend. He always said that he really likes the current life, he is free, and he doesn't plan to find a girlfriend. He is celibate.

Children love Qing, and neighbors are always full of praise for Qing...

How could such a young man commit suicide?

It's just a big joke.

But the person lying on the bed in front of him, who is still in a coma, is Qing, who has just been rescued.It's not a joke, it's a fact.

How did Yu find out that Qing committed suicide by swallowing medicine?Still in the middle of the night?

How did Yu get into Qing's house?Except when Qing just moved there, they went to help and visited by the way. Usually Qing doesn't like anyone to go because of cleanliness.

What did Yu look at Qing just now?How to define?

Chaos...Zilan shook his head vigorously and rearranged.

Qing and Yu used to have a good relationship, yes, they used to.When there is nothing to do, they always stick together. When a group of people are chatting and joking, they also speak the same words to the outside world, and no one can try to take advantage of them; there is no soy sauce at home, and Yu said to buy it, and Qing also immediately stuck together; they always They huddled together to read a book; when eating, they would always sit together, and Qing would pick out the meat from the bowl and put it into Yu's bowl naturally, and Yu would also naturally eat it in his mouth; He listened very carefully and implemented it very thoroughly. Qing hated the hospital so much that he was always unwilling to go for an examination, so sometimes they would persuade Qing to go to the hospital through Yu, and it turned out to be very effective; when playing mahjong, they would always be alone. Watching the battle alone, never participating at the same time, will randomly take money from the opponent's wallet to compensate the winner, and lose happily... Yu Xiaoxiao suffered a lot of grievances due to family reasons, which is very distressing, Qing personality They are introverted and don't have many friends. They are cousins, and they can get along so well. Of course, everyone thinks it is a good thing and is very happy.At that time, Qing often laughed brightly and happily. Later, she got a ring on her ring finger. When I asked him, he smiled mischievously and said, "Guess."

Since when did Qing’s smile decrease?It seemed like a year ago, before she was transferred to a neighboring city.The relationship between Qing and Yu seems to have had a gap since then, and they are no longer so close.

Later, Yu brought a girl over and invited them all to the restaurant, officially introducing them to his girlfriend.Qing didn't want to go at first, but his parents repeatedly asked him to show up.At the dinner table, Qing Liyu and the girl sat far away, didn't say a word to Yu, didn't eat anything, and left the table after sitting for a while, saying that they were going to make a phone call to discuss the manuscript, and walked out of the private room.After a long time, when they finished eating and were about to break up, Qing came back, remained silent, followed everyone out of the restaurant, said a word and went back, turned and left.That lonely and hurt look couldn't even support a programmed smile.At that time, she thought it was Qing who had substituted herself into the novel she created, and was affected, and her mood was temporarily depressed. After a while, he would adjust as usual.But it also seems that since then, Qing no longer goes home every week, but only goes back to have a meal with them in one or two months. Although he eats as usual and talks and laughs, I always feel that Qing’s smile What was hidden in it, it was no longer clear and transparent, no longer relaxed and happy, and Yu never came back with him, and Qing also lost weight obviously.

Later, I saw Qing less and less, and when I called him, he always said to concentrate on writing, bottleneck period and so on.When I meet by chance, I see Qing becoming paler, thinner and... haggard every time, always pressing her stomach tightly inadvertently.

The question came back again, so why did Yu come to Qing's house in the middle of the night, how did he open the door, and how could he see Qing who was comatose after taking medicine so coincidentally?

On the phone, Yu said: "Sister Zilan, can you...can you not tell aunt and uncle first?...Qing probably doesn't want them to worry..." It was very difficult for Zilan to hear the hidden meaning.

Zilan slowly opened his eyes wide, and gradually opened his mouth.During college, she had heard about Yu... Yu was gay.At that time, because her then boyfriend Liu Cheng fell in love with Yu, she broke up with Liu Cheng. At that time, she didn't know that Yu was gay.

She used to think that Yu had completely returned to normal life.Suddenly he turned his head to look at Qing, with a pale and thin face, lifeless, stuck on the hospital bed, as thin as a layer of paper, and there was still a deep ring mark on his slender fingers.

What is that green? ! ! !

What the hell happened between them?

She knows that feelings have reasons that reason simply cannot understand, and she does not discriminate against homosexuals.But what exactly did her proud brother go through and endure, so that he was so defeated? !

Zilan beat her chest vigorously, how could her chest hurt so much, it was so painful that she couldn't breathe, no matter how hard she beat...

Qing has been in a sleepy sleep for five days, and sometimes wakes up in the middle, but it is very short, and not fully awake, in a trance, and sometimes sees Yu sitting next to him, holding a stack of newspapers and reading.Sometimes I seem to see my sister again, is it my sister?Wipe his face with a hot towel.Sometimes I heard the nurse shout: Yun Ziqing, it's time for an injection!Sometimes I see the doctor calling him: Yun Ziqing, wake up.He tried to open his eyes, and heard the doctor say: Can you lift your arm?He just raised his arm mechanically, it was very heavy, and he felt that no force was needed.The doctor said: The muscles have not fully recovered.

On the seventh day, Qing finally woke up more than he fell asleep. He was determined to be discharged from the hospital. He hated everything in the hospital.The doctor also agreed, and told him to take a good rest and not to be exhausted.After going through the discharge procedures, Zilan remembered halfway that he forgot to ask the doctor for the medical records. He wanted to go back and get them, but then he felt unhappy. Such medical records are worthless.

Back at Qing's apartment, Zilan watched as Yu took out the key from the bag, opened the door skillfully, entered the door, took out slippers from the shoe cabinet skillfully, took out a set of pajamas for Qing skillfully, and helped Qing go to the bathroom to change. On the morning, after they sent Qing into the bedroom, Yu skillfully took out a cup and poured water to help Qing drink.

Qing lay on the bed, tossing and tossing for a long time, feeling a little tired again, and urged Zilan to leave quickly.Zilan glanced at Yu and said that he would leave immediately.

Qing stopped her again, and said in a low voice: "Sister, you didn't tell your parents, did you? Don't tell me in the future."

She pretended to be relaxed and smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'll keep everything secret. Have a good rest, and I'll come see you tomorrow.

Qing smiled weakly: "Thank you sister."

After closing the bedroom door, Yu sent Zilan to the door without saying a word.Zilan stood still with a sullen face, stared at Yu, and asked in a low voice: "Are you together?"

Yu was silent, then nodded slightly.

"When did it start? What's going on now?" Although he was mentally prepared, once he was confirmed, Zilan still felt his head buzzing for a while, closed his eyes, and took a deep breath.

"Sister Zilan...give me some time, I...will tell you later." Yu lowered his head, not having the courage to meet her gaze.During this period of time, he was so oppressed that he couldn't breathe, and now he didn't want to say or do anything, he just wanted to shut himself in the room and cry hard and unreservedly.

Zilan looked at him for a while before saying, "Okay, I'll go first. I'll wait for your explanation."

It was past ten o'clock in the morning when Qing woke up, and when he opened his eyes, Yu was sitting by the bed, looking at him, Qing felt a little relieved, Yu didn't go to work, but stayed at home with him.He knew that Yu was very busy. When he was in the hospital, Yu had to go to work every day.

Seeing him wake up, Yu opened his mouth and asked, "What exactly do you want me to do?" His face was cold, and his eyes were full of vigilance and hostility.

How to do it?What to do?Qing was stunned, and then he realized that in his heart, he had become a person who would cry, make trouble, hang and stalk him to death... The "baby" and "wife" he used to talk about had now become the one in his eyes. The scourge?Qing thought it was ridiculous.

"I've been telling you that the relationship between us cannot be replaced by others, why don't you believe it?!" Yu still looked at him, with impatience and anger that couldn't be concealed in his tone.

Qing really wanted to laugh out loud, how ironic, what he was most afraid of being misunderstood, but now he couldn't explain it, why didn't he just die!He wanted to say that he wasn't threatening him with death. He chose to find his girlfriend to marry and live, but he chose to be completely free. From now on, they would not interfere with each other and have nothing to do with each other. Why did you think he was threatening him?It's... really... really ridiculous.

"I'll believe you when you part." Qing said coldly.Well, since you think I am such a person, let's see if what you say is true.

"...Okay, give me time." It took a while for Yu to squeeze out a few words from between his lips and teeth, also coldly.

"Oh? How long? Is one month enough?" Under the quilt, Qing ruthlessly pinched his leg. He had to restrain himself from laughing.Once he laughed, the tears would also surge unstoppably, breaking down his last embankment.

"...three months."

"Heh, did it take that long?" Qing's tone was sarcasm, and sorrow welled up in his throat, pouring out continuously, like a mouthful of fresh blood about to spurt from his mouth.

"It was fine before, why did I suddenly say goodbye?" Yu was a little annoyed.

"Okay." Qing Xin was laughing, heart-piercingly, a sharp knife shone coldly and entwined with cold air viciously pierced into his chest, reversed and stirred, making him laugh endlessly.

Yu turned and walked out of the bedroom.Qing grabbed the quilt and covered her head.There were bursts of sobs from being tightly smothered, and the painful figure under the quilt was shaking.

Zilan came to see Qing again, and Qing pretended to be asleep with her back to Zilan.Zilan sat by the bed for a while, sighed softly, walked out of the bedroom, and closed the door.Yu knew that he couldn't get through without giving Zilan an explanation, so he went into the garden with Zilan and sat in the pavilion. He only briefly talked about the cause and effect of this incident, and there were many things he couldn't say.Zilan remained silent until Yu finished speaking, looked at Yu, said two words slowly one by one, then got up and left, leaving Yu sitting in the pavilion for a while.

"Qing's heart is still a clean and simple child."

"He is different from you."

Full of regret and helplessness.She can't interfere with their affairs, and Qing doesn't allow it.