door of eternal life

[The text of this chapter: Can the broken mirrors in this world really be reunited.Can it be true, or false, even if it's just a dream, he doesn't want to wake up.He sensed Kuo's mood. 】

Qing and Yu entered a cold war, but it was more of a unilateral cold war with Qing.

Yu still returns late, but not as often as before.On the days when Yu didn't return late, Yu made dinner. He cooked the dishes, put the rice on the table, and then called Qing to eat, Qing walked to the table silently, bowed his head to eat, After eating, take the dishes to the kitchen and wash them up.On the days when Yu returned late, Qing didn't eat dinner, he didn't want to eat it.Qing didn't take the initiative to say a word to Yu, and Yu sometimes took the initiative to say a word or two to Qing, but Qing didn't answer, or said "um" out of necessity.Lying on the bed, they also slept separately, Yu would occasionally hold Qing in his arms, not talking or moving, and Qing let him go.

After this state lasted for three months, Yu heard the first words that Qing voluntarily said in three months: "It's been three months, how is it going?"

Yu watched the TV and said calmly, "We broke up."

Qing even felt that the word "we" was so harsh and ridiculous.

In the days that followed, Qing began to believe that Yu really broke up with that girl.The number of times Yu goes out to socialize has decreased sharply. Most of the time, he comes back on time. He often goes to the supermarket to buy vegetables and cooks dinner for Qing.

Qing also felt that Yu was taking the initiative to make peace.Yu would sit on the sofa with his arms around him and watch a movie, teasing him to talk.When he was writing, he would bring a cup of hot tea and put it by his hand, then leaned over and kissed him on the cheek.He stood in front of the bookcase flipping through the books, Yu Hui came over and hugged him from behind, rubbing his lips gently against his ear.Before going out in the morning, Yu would go to the bedside and give him a good morning kiss when he woke up or not, and when he came back at night, he would also take the initiative to give him a door-in kiss.Yu would ignite his lust from time to time, and hug him wildly on the bed.When he was lying on the bed limp and unable to move, and his voice was dry and hoarse, Yu would hold a sip of water and press it on his lips, and send the water into his mouth, mouthful by mouthful.At night, when he stretched his arm out of the quilt, Yu would gently put his arm back into the quilt again and again, and then kissed his forehead lightly, like comforting a child who kicked the quilt in sleep.

Qing tries to feel Yu bit by bit, to distinguish whether what Yu has done to him during this period of time is out of love, or a compulsion to appease him.Slowly, he began to convince himself that many of the things Yu did, small and small, were all out of the natural expression of sincerity, and hypocrisy cannot be done, so he took the initiative to talk to Yu, but the words were more than words. It used to be even less.Gradually, the relationship between them seemed to return to the previous state, but Qing knew that the knot was still there.

Even if the broken mirror is reunited, the cracked marks on the mirror will never disappear.

Qing's stomach problems continued, but he did not take any more medicine.

Another month later, Yu decided to move back to his apartment due to various concerns about the outside world. He usually lives in his apartment for a few days before returning to Qing's apartment for a night. Qing said that colleagues and friends in the company always offered to come to his house for a small gathering, but he always refused.

Qing didn't express any dissatisfaction, and didn't even say a word.On the day of the move, Bang Yu packed clothes, shoes, books, game discs, etc., packed several large cardboard boxes, hired a moving company, and sent them there.It was a cold winter, the sky was gloomy, he stood in the cold wind, watched the moving company's car go away, turned around, lowered his head, couldn't see his expression, and walked home quickly.

He was the only one left in Nuo Da's apartment.Warm boiled frogs...?Qing thought dazedly.

Facing the window in the middle of the night, lonely and alone, Qing hugged her arms tightly.Seeing the bright street lights in the distance, the orange light formed a line and circled around the foot of the mountain. After entering the mountain, I remembered Zeng and Yu standing here together. Yu hugged him from behind, slowly shaking, watching quietly. In the night scene, they once leaned against each other and sat together in Yunchuang.

Remember to burn this night incense together, people are in the corridor, and the moon is in the corridor.

Now I am alone in a daze, thinking when I walk, and thinking when I sit.

In the light and shadow of the street lamps, tiny bright flying pieces kept falling on the window glass, and quickly turned into water again, and it snowed.Soon, the snow gradually became denser, and the snowflakes were carried by the wind and danced chaotically in the air, like a group of moths rushing towards the lights in a summer night.

Qing walked into the garden, stood in the wind and snow, looked up at the night sky, all the flying snow seemed to fall into his eyes and heart, turning him into a sculpture.He remembered that since moving here, every snowy day, Yu had to prepare all kinds of ingredients and hot pot seasonings, and they would eat steaming hot pot in the pavilion, watching the snowflakes flying and falling outside, and even Drop into boiling soup.And in this pavilion, how many times have he and Yu looked at and smiled, sleeping with the moon on their pillows. At that time, they only had you and me in their eyes, like hermits in the mountains, who were left alone in the world.

A layer of snow quickly piled up on the ground, and the bone-chilling chill once again drifted through the blood of the blue skin like a snake. He squatted down, and the severe pain in his stomach made it difficult for him to hold back. He bent over and staggered into the room. Lying down on the sofa, I pressed my stomach tightly with all my strength. The continuous pressing made my hands start to shake, and my stomach pain was accompanied by heart pain.His strength gradually lost, and his consciousness gradually lost. In a trance, he seemed to see the phone screen light up.He didn't know when he closed his eyes and how he fell asleep.When he opened his eyes again, the discomfort in his stomach had eased a lot. The snow light illuminated the room, and the sky was slightly red. He looked at it motionless for a while, and then slowly sat up. It was a text message from Kuo: "It's snowing. I still remember the winter vacation in the third year of high school. We went to English class together. It was snowing like this at that time, thousands of miles of ice, thousands of miles of snow drifting. At that time, I was riding a bicycle. In the back seat, we rushed forward in the snow, like riding a horse with a whip, galloping across the vast world. What a nostalgic time when we were young." Qing looked at the time, it was already two and a half hours ago up.

"Anyone interested in walking in the snow again?" This was two hours ago.

"Look out the window, the snow scene is beautiful." This was an hour and a half ago.

Qing went to the window, looked downstairs, there was no one there, and looked into the distance, the vast expanse of white land was so clean.

During this time, Kuo contacted him many times, asking him to have dinner or drink tea and chat with him, but he refused because he didn't have the energy to pretend to be happy to face Kuo.There were a lot of rejections without reason. I was afraid that Kuo would feel uncomfortable, so I had to tell Kuo that I had a stomach attack and stayed in the hospital for a while. Now I have just been discharged from the hospital and is recuperating.Kuo asked how his condition was and which hospital he was in.He only replied that he was basically better now, but he still needed to rest for a while, so Kuo sent messages every day to ask about his condition.

The next day, Qing sent a message to Kuo, telling him that he went to bed early last night and did not see his message.Kuo worriedly asked him what was wrong, because as far as he knew, Qing always went to bed very late, and going to bed early was not normal.Qing said that she just had a fever, which has subsided today.Kuo said that it has been a long time since we met, and we will see each other today?Qing never doubted the authenticity of Kuo's concern for him, which never contained any false perfunctory elements. If Kuo didn't see him "healed" with his own eyes, he would never be relieved.In order to relieve Kuo's worries, Qing went to Kuo's invitation.

When Kuo saw Qing's thin figure, his heart sank, and he looked at Qing and said, "Why is your face so bad!" His tone was filled with concern and reproach.

Because he had stood in the snow for a long time last night and was wearing thin clothes, Qing was indeed still suffering from a low-grade fever, but he didn't say anything, just smiled, reluctantly, and took a sip of tea from his cup.

Kuo asked with concern: "Which hospital did you live in a while ago?"

Qing hesitated for a moment, and felt that it would have no effect if she said it: "In the sixth hospital of the city."

Kuo thought about it and said, "I'm going to Beijing in two days. Give me your medical records, and I'll take them to a specialist."

Qing shook her head and said, "No need, experts have read it before, so it's useless."

Kuo insisted: "Master, I don't want you to go by yourself, just give me your medical records. Besides, I have many classmates and friends in Beijing. It is easy to find an expert to look at it, and it doesn't cost money."

Qing Jian couldn't refuse, so she had to say: "When I was discharged from the hospital, because of the complicated procedures, my sister forgot to ask the doctor for the medical records. Later, thinking about it, she didn't think it was important, so she didn't go back to get it."

Kuo didn't say anything more, and started to talk to him about the operation of his company. For a single business, he and Ye Rong went to Beijing several times, what kind of relationship they found, what incredible things they encountered, black and white Yes, I have experienced it all. Fortunately, I have many friends, open roads in the mountains, build bridges in the water, and finally win.

Qing listened quietly, occasionally smiling.Kuo asked him to look out of the window last night, saying that the snow scene was beautiful, but he guessed that Kuo should have been standing downstairs in the apartment building at that time, and wanted him to see him. Fortunately, Kuo's body has always been strong.

Parting, Qing said I was leaving, Kuo wanted to say I would see you off, looked at Qing, but didn’t say anything, just watched Qing turn around and leave slowly, suddenly felt that the back was cold, lonely and desolate, his heart couldn’t help but ache for a moment.

Since Yu moved away, he used to go back to Qing's apartment every few days to stay overnight, but this time it has been more than a week, and the message he sends to Qing every day is: Today will not pass.Qing replied with one word: good.

One had no reason, and the other did not pursue.

When Yu came again, Qing said, do you know, the words "Love fades away with time".Yu looked at Qing, thought for a while and said, then you can move in and live with me. If any colleagues or friends are going to the house, I will tell you in advance and you will come back here again.Qing simply packed her luggage and moved there.Although Yu has never shown anything different from before, he always feels that he and Yu have not returned to the carefree, intimate and trusting state before. Reach out and stir it, and everything falls apart in no time.

Yu took the initiative to let him move there, which still made him very happy.Even if it was a dream, he didn't want to wake up.

Just two months after Qing moved to Yu's apartment, Yu started preparing to open a branch office in P City.At the beginning, Zhang Minghai, the company's vice president, was there. Yu would go there every month to deal with some matters, and he would stay there for about half a month.Whenever Yu is on a business trip, Qing will go back to live in her apartment, and only occasionally visit Yu's apartment.He prefers to live in his own apartment, which will make him feel at ease and at ease. In Yu's apartment, he feels that he is just a guest. On the boundless dark sea, facing the same dark sky, there is no light at all, but after Yu came back, he rarely went back to his apartment, only taking time to go back and get some change of clothes.Deep down in his heart, he longed to stay by Yu's side more and more.

Qing was planning to go to Yu's apartment to take a look, but she hadn't been there for a week.He was about to go out when he received a call from Kuo.A friend of Kuo’s has just opened a new bar. It’s the first day of trial operation today. He insisted that Kuo must go there to support him, and asked everyone to bring a friend. You usually have all kinds of friends, this time don't bring someone who you can't see when you throw them in the crowd, no matter what, you have to be talented and beautiful, and you can have a good face." Kuo He laughed again and again Yes, he already thought of who to take.

Kuo said: "Qing, after much deliberation, among my friends, only you are the most qualified. That friend usually gets along well and has helped me a lot. I should go to support you. This time, you should treat him as a friend. Let me help you."

Qing hesitated: "They asked you to bring a girlfriend, I'll figure it out."

Seeing that Qing didn't say no, there was a turning point, and he continued, "My friend said, this time all the people who are invited are single men, and no one with a girlfriend will be invited! Don't be bored at home all the time, just go out for a walk." Take it easy, you don't have to drive, I'll pick you up."

Qing thought about it, Zuo Yuyu was not there, and he had nothing important to do, so he agreed to go.

After Qing went in, he found out that it was a gay bar.There are couples of same-sex couples around. Although they are elegant, there will still be people kissing very explicitly.Perhaps only in such a special environment, a group of them can not worry about the eyes of others, and don't be pointed at by others.

Looking around, Qing turned around and stared at Kuo and asked, "You didn't know beforehand? No wonder you don't invite people who have girlfriends."

Kuo yelled wronged: "I really don't know. I only know that this friend is gay, but I didn't expect him to drive gay." In fact, he had a vague feeling that he might be gay, but he didn't want to go further with his friend. To verify and implement it, because he wanted to bring Qing over, but he was afraid that Qing would disagree if he knew it was a gay bar.But if he is asked to lie to Qing and deceive Qing into coming here when he knows it, he has never been able to do such a thing to Qing since he was a child.

Qing also knew that Kuo would not lie to herself.Kuo could not tell him about some things, but he would never deceive him.

Kuo Jianqing didn't feel any obvious discomfort, nor did he show any displeasure, so he let go of his hanging heart.

When they were talking in a low voice, a man in a light gray casual suit came to their table with a wine glass and a bottle of red wine in his hand. He gave Qing a meaningful look, and said to Kuo with a smile: " Kuo, thank you for your support! I’m here to offer a toast to both of you.” Looking at Qing again, he continued, “You can do it, Kuo, it’s hidden very deep.”

Qing heard the meaning of the man's words, and felt a little displeased, but the expression on his face remained unchanged, as if he didn't understand what the man said.

Kuo also recognized it, glanced anxiously at Qing, and said to the man, "Don't talk nonsense, this is my classmate, I finally invited you to help me cheer."

"Hehe, welcome, welcome! Kuo, no introduction, let's get to know each other?" The man understood.

"You don't need to know each other anymore, we are not the same way. Go away quickly." Kuo refused and waved his hand.

The man made a helpless, disappointed and hurt expression, sighed, then smiled and said: "Then I will disappear automatically." Then he walked to the next table.

Kuo observed Qing's expression carefully, and then said: "He is the owner of this bar. We usually get along well and are used to joking around, don't mind."

Qing smiled slightly, and said in a nonchalant tone: "It's okay." But he had already noticed something in his heart, about Kuo.