then spring comes

I saw him feeling nauseous, wanting to vomit, and get away from him! If I remember correctly, he made a choice in front of me and his girlfriend this afternoon, and he chose his girlfriend , left with her, leaving the innocent me who suffered a thunderbolt until now alone, now that he is back, and wants to live with me again, who does he think he is?Who does he think I am?Doesn't he know that when he pulled his girlfriend away from me that afternoon, he was already dead in my heart, how can I live with a dead person?

The ensuing divorce battle lasted for a long time.It was also during this process that I also saw the true face of the so-called in-laws' love and respect for me!On the surface, it seems that Huang Linhui is the undisputed fault party in our marriage. His family has no way to protect him at all. They just ask me to forgive him and say that the prodigal son will not be exchanged for money. I insist on divorce. They I encouraged Huang Linhui to share our house! In fact, I never thought of taking both houses. The small one is our wedding house, which was bought by Huang Linhui's family. Of course it belongs to him. The big one is now. We live in a room allocated by my unit, of course it belongs to me, and I still have the custody of the child. No matter how difficult it is, I will raise my child myself, and that is enough.But Huang Linhui insisted not to divorce!I was surprised, he was the one who cheated, and he was the one who didn't get a divorce. What did he want to do?I'm exhausted from this battle!In order to leave space and time for us to think, Huang Linhui and his son were called back to their hometown by his mother.I lay on the marble floor in the living room and suffered from insomnia all night. When I was insomnia, I stared at the ceiling. When I was really tired, I fell asleep on the cold floor for a while. At that time, I never felt that the marble floor was cold. As unconscious as a walking dead, I lost 10 pounds in a month, and I feel like I can fall down when blown by the wind!I often think, if my mother is still alive and sees the ordeal I have suffered today, how uncomfortable she will be. Fortunately, my mother died a year ago, so she can't see, haha, my mother is dead, so good!

One day at noon, I wandered to the Luo River, just in time for the opening of the Luo River to release the water. The surging Luo River roared, galloped and rolled up the white waves, full of strength and vitality, and the sun at noon in summer was scorching hot There is no one on both sides of the Luohe River. It must be cool to jump into the Luohe River at this time, and no one will find out. It’s good for me to leave this world without a trace. All the troubles, pains and humiliations will be wiped away up!But why should I go like this?I was at fault. I didn't manage my marriage well and led to today's fiasco, but it shouldn't be a crime, right?I still have an elderly father who needs to be supported and a young son who needs to be nurtured. Is it my mission to commit suicide after being rejected and abandoned by others?No matter what others think of me, I am still me after all, that upright, kind, strong and brave girl, did I pay so much for the pursuit of a happy life only to give up my life when I encounter setbacks today?No, not like that!I am an adult, I must shoulder my due responsibilities and obligations, I still have my father and son to support, I must be strong no matter what, and I must grit my teeth and get through it!I am still so young, my life has just begun, life will not be full of pain and suffering, maybe there is still a beautiful life waiting for me, I will not give up on myself, feel sorry for myself, I want to start a new life!

I was also tired after going through a long tug-of-war to not get divorced.Huang Linhui insisted not to divorce and greatly changed his attitude. That so-called girlfriend was nothing more than a derivative of the disharmony between our husband and wife. He completely cut off contact with her and his gang of cronies. He cooked and cleaned at home every day. Bringing children, but I can't go back to that house!I have more reasons to stay at work and work overtime, and I have more gatherings with my girlfriends. I really have nowhere to go, so I simply apply for an annual card for a fitness club, and spend every day doing gymnastics and yoga in the gym.At this time, Huang Linhui's work was arranged. He was assigned to work in the Electric Power Bureau, but he had to go to a university in Beijing to study for two years with pay before taking up the job. A buffer distance allows us to rethink the current marital status, should we live on, and if so, how should we live on?