then spring comes

I don't know how long I sat in the teahouse until I could stand up and stop shaking.After leaving the teahouse, I found that the sun outside was even more poisonous. It was so bright that I couldn’t keep my eyes open. There were very few people on the street in the summer afternoon, and occasionally pedestrians passed by in a hurry to avoid the scorching sun!Everything on the street is so calm, as if nothing has ever happened, just like cutting my chest, the pain and humiliation will flood the whole world like the surging Yellow River, but now they are hiding in my small In such a small body, it seemed as if it had never existed!Where am I going now?Where should I go?I walked aimlessly on the street for a while and I couldn’t walk any longer. I leaned against a newsstand to rest. The aunt who sold the newspaper was very kind and asked me, "Girl, why is your face so ugly? It must be heatstroke!" I think this sadness is too great, it’s so stuffed in my heart that my chest is going to burst, and this aunt is a stranger, and I will never see her again, so what if I take out my sadness?So I said to my aunt: "I used to think that such things as a third party's involvement were seen on TV and movies, and they were too far away from me. I didn't expect this to happen to me. My husband ran away with others!" My aunt seems to be an upright, enthusiastic and experienced person. She comforted me: "Girl, it's no big deal. Who in the world can't live without it? What can be taken away by others is not your destiny. You are still so young, listen to what my aunt said, leaving a man who doesn't know how to cherish you is definitely not a bad thing, there are still many good days waiting for you!" Maybe I got strength from my aunt's words, and I insisted on going back office.After dealing with the daily affairs at hand, I asked the leader for a week's leave. The leader looked at me and said, "Why do you look so ugly? Didn't you look fine this morning?" I don't know how I prevaricated at that time!

After get off work, I waited for my son at the gate of the kindergarten, looking at his round and immature figure from a distance, he ran wildly with the children on the playground carefree, laughed loudly happily, hurriedly Sliding down the slide and swinging on the swing, it seems that there are so many fun and interesting things waiting for him, and he can't even play them. How happy he is!How did this little man realize that doom had surrounded him like a cloud?He is still so young, so delicate, how could I, as his mother, let him face suffering so early?I want to be strong, I want to hold on, take up my responsibilities as a mother, and hold up a bright sky for him!

In the evening, as usual, I cook for my son, take a bath, play with him, and tell bedtime stories.There was originally a weak little girl living in my body, but I didn't expect that she would grow into a strong mother overnight when encountering adversity.After my son fell asleep, I curled up on the floor in the corner of the balcony, looked at the bright moon outside the window, and straightened out the many things that went wrong between us one by one. The truth of the matter is that it can be explained.Huang Linhui told me that there is nothing to do with his transfer fee to start a business. My son fell off the shopping cart in the supermarket and suffered a concussion. I called him but no one answered. I took my child to the hospital late at night. CT, it's just my wife and I on an empty floor, and he's wandering the streets at midnight selling snacks for his girlfriend!When I was on a business trip, no one took the child with me. When I got up early and packed the child and sent it to a relative's house, he was with his girlfriend!I overcame all the odds to support the family and spared time to support him in "doing business", but he turned out to be just running out and fooling around with his girlfriend!I thought of my father again, because he got married again within a hundred days of my mother. My brother and I have been annoyed by him for a long time, but now compared with Huang Linhui's behavior, his little fault is really insignificant!We've only been married four years and he's found someone else!I was such a disgusting person!There must be a problem in our marriage, but why can't he communicate with me well, and then we can face it together?But choose such an extreme way to treat me?He gave up the home he created with his own hands so easily?Abandoning his son who was originally regarded as a treasure?I must have done something wrong, but because I gave birth to a child, he saw all the physical and mental injuries I suffered in order to conceive our common child, why couldn't he pay something?Can't he bear it?It turned out that he didn't love me enough, didn't cherish this family enough!I remembered that he cooked instant noodles at home two days ago, because there were only two packs of instant noodles left in the house, and we didn’t want to go out to buy more, so we made do with two packs, and he served them to me and my son. There was soup left, so he soaked some film and ate it with the soup. Although I didn't say anything at the time, I was touched. I thought he cared for our mother and child so much, but I didn't know that he had changed his heart a long time ago!The human heart is really the most unpredictable thing in the world. Even though this person is right in front of your eyes and gives you a warm, happy and secure feeling, don’t you know that he has already detested and loathed you in his heart. It’s really terrible!In fact, if he hates me and doesn't love me, he can tell me, but he insulted me like this, making me unknowingly a stumbling block between him and his lover!The crux of the matter is that he found such an ugly, vulgar, and unqualified woman to humiliate me. In my eyes, this woman is not even worthy of carrying my shoes. Her appearance is not a quarter of mine. Her education , her temperament, her education, and her work, which aspects can compare with me?But Huang Linhui chose her in front of me, left with her, and abandoned me like a shoe!I tried my best to think about the meaning of the wink that Huang Linhui and his girlfriend gave me before they left. I couldn't figure it out, but it doesn't matter now. I was betrayed and abandoned by the people closest to me. This feeling of shame devoured me like ten thousand worms in my bones. At this moment, as long as I jumped off the stairs, this painful feeling would be over. I looked back at my sleeping son and kissed him softly. face, oh, how could I have such a thought?The difficulties in front of me are only temporary. I survived the death of my mother. Now that my husband is also dead, I may pass if I persist again! Just like when my mother passed away a year ago, I started to suffer from insomnia. This time I can How many days until I can fall asleep?

At twelve o'clock in the evening, Huang Linhui came back.He opened the door lightly, went to the bedroom, turned up the air conditioner, and covered his son with a towel.He finally found me in the corner of the balcony, knelt in front of me and said that it was all over, he is back now, and wants to live a good life with me!