save you to save yourself

It was a difficult night again, Shan Jun looked at Ji Mingyi at the door after taking a shower and said, "Sleep in my room!" It seemed that Ji Mingyi couldn't refute what he said, since it was already like this, what's there to be hypocritical about.

At night Ji Mingyi slept on the other side and Shan Jun didn't touch him. Both of them lay down for a while and slowly fell asleep with their own concerns. When Ji Mingyi woke up in the morning, he would always look at Shan Jun more to make sure What is their relationship now, but no matter how I analyze it, I still can't explain the reason why Shan Jun is sleeping next to him.

After getting along for a period of time, Yao Mi knows that Shan Jun is really good to him, he should really like him, and Shan Jun has never acted excessively towards him for so long, and of course he will not act like his brother. There was something about kissing Ji Mingyi secretly.Although he also likes Ji Mingyi's company very much, he also likes this mature and funny man to accompany him. Shan Jun always knows what he likes and wants to prepare ahead of time. Shan Jun gives him a completely different feeling from Ji Mingyi. , Ji Mingyi just accompanied him quietly and would envelop him warmly. Shan Jun has a powerful aura that always makes him feel a little oppressed.

Today in the garden, Yao Mi looked at Shan Jun in the sun and suddenly wanted to give him a hug, because the quiet Shan Jun always looked at the loneliness and sadness in the distance. Want to make people feel bad.Slowly looking sideways at Shan Jun, Yao Mi stretched out his hand and tried to get close to him. The moment Shan Jun saw Yao Mi approaching, he hugged him into his arms. Yao Mi could feel Shan Jun's arms hugging him Trembling slightly, his hot breath sprayed the skin behind his ears and burned the skin red. Shan Jun put more and more force on his back, as if the two of them could get closer infinitely. The accent of your own heartbeat, this feeling of being so cherished is beautiful.After hugging for a long time until Shan Jun's body stopped shaking so much, Yao Mi raised his head and pressed a kiss on the forehead of this fragile man he thought for the first time.Yao Mi found it interesting that the girls next to her whispered excitedly about envy. Since then, Shan Jun always liked to let Yao Mi hold him as tightly as possible. Warm kiss.

After thinking for a few days, Yao Tao still felt that no matter who the other party was, he still wanted Ji Mingyi by his side and didn't want to give up.Seeing Shan Jun and Yao Mi entering the door talking and laughing, Yao Tao smiled and looked at his younger brother and found that he had become a lot more cheerful recently.

"Xiaomi go to rest." Looking at Shan Jun again, he said, "Brother Shan, you are too tired to accompany him every day."

"It's okay, anyway, I'm here to recuperate, and it just so happens that the two of us are companions."

Yao Tao hesitated for a while before asking: "Brother Shan, is Xiao Yi busy recently? Why doesn't he go out now? Has he gone out recently?"

Shan Jun smiled and said, "I don't know much. I won't bother him now that he's an adult. I'll go back first, let's play when I have time." After finishing speaking, he left.

Yao Tao was still in a daze thinking that it would be much easier for someone who didn't even know Shan Jun to have a one-night stand without feelings.

In the evening, when Shan Jun pressed on him, Ji Mingyi thought he was still here, so he knew he would not let him sleep peacefully.Ji Mingyi has been letting Shan Jun torment him without any resistance, Shan Jun suddenly looked at his forbearing face and smiled, "Is this why that Yao Tao likes you? Will he like you more when he sees you like this?"

Ji Mingyi turned his head and didn't want to look at him, he just felt embarrassed, and he didn't want to mention his friends at such a time.

Reaching out and pinching his chin, straightening his face so that he could look at her, Shan Jun still smiled happily and said, "What's wrong with you, you don't want to look at me?"

Ji Mingyi knew that Shan Jun might be unhappy, and suddenly felt that he was being penetrated, Ji Mingyi instinctively curled up his body even more and let out a low hum in pain, just as Shan Jun got closer to him to see his posture His expression, when Ji Mingyi heard his painful urge, Ji Mingyi felt that Shan Jun pinched his hand and trembled, and then there were strong winds and waves that made Ji Mingyi nowhere to rest until Shan Jun finally left with satisfaction, lying down It took a long time for my bones to return to their original positions. Ji Mingyi wanted to get up to take a bath, and raised his waist with difficulty. Before he lifted his legs, Shan Jun was pressed on the bed, but this time he was lucky that Shan Jun was only with him. There was a bloody tooth mark on his collarbone.He waited until Shan Jun was completely motionless before he got out of bed to wash and find some medicine to disinfect the tooth marks. After cleaning up, it was the middle of the night and he finally slept next to Shan Jun tiredly.

It's only after nine o'clock in the morning when Ji Mingyi thinks that people's adaptability is amazing. This time, the recovery speed of the musculoskeletal muscles of the whole body is obviously much faster.When I saw Shan Jun, those embarrassments were gone. After all, there was nothing to be embarrassed about. Maybe what Shan Jun said was right. I really tolerated him like Li Li. Even if he did such a thing, whether it was Li Li or herself They shouldn't really abandon him.

Shan Jun took Yao Mi out again and Yao Tao decided to talk to Xiao Yi.

Seeing Yao Tao standing outside the door, Ji Mingyi still squeezed out a smile and said, "Why don't you have to go to class?"

"Come and see you," walked in and looked at Ji Mingyi sitting beside him, lit a cigarette and said, "Why haven't you gone out recently? Are you in a relationship?"

"Hehe!" Ji Mingyi closed his eyes and said with a smile, "I'm too tired to talk about love." After speaking, he let out a long breath.

"Would you like a cigarette?" Yao Tao looked at Ji Mingyi's eyes that had been closed all the time. It turned out that he looked so peaceful and beautiful when he fell asleep.

Ji Mingyi opened his mouth slightly and waited for Yao Tao's cigarette, but a warm and cool lip with a faint smell of tobacco came out. Ji Mingyi opened his eyes and looked at Yao Tao in front of him, pressing his hands on the back of the sofa to circle him Kiss him.

Ji Mingyi turned his face away and Yao Tao's lips pressed against his ear, his heavy breathing rushed straight into Ji Mingyi's ear, listening to the harsh voice in his ear, Ji Mingyi asked wearily: "Why are you crazy? ?”

"I'm not crazy, I like you! I want to be with you. I feel sorry for you because you are too lonely. Shan Jun will leave sooner or later. I hope I will be the one who will accompany you to the end." After finishing speaking, she withdrew her hand and knelt on the ground. Ji Mingyi hugged him tightly in front of him.

Looking at the person in front of him, Ji Mingyi, he realized that what Shan Jun said was true. When did the people around him have such thoughts but he didn't know it?

"I'm not alone and I'm used to it. I'm very happy to have you as a friend. You just don't understand it for a while."

"Don't you believe it?" Yao Tao raised his head to see that his eyes were full of sadness and anxiety.

Ji Mingyi could see the firmness in this man's eyes and knew that it was useless to deny him now, just like that day when he stood in front of Li Li and told her that he loved her and wanted her to be his wife, that's what Li Li said too What he said now, he was sincere at that time, but now he knows that sincerity may also become a burden, he can only smile and say: "I believe you want to fuck me? Haha, but I really have nothing else for you Feel."

Yao Tao blushed when he heard his teasing, "I don't think about you now, you still responded when I kissed you last time."

"Did I get drunk last time? I don't drink well and maybe the wine is not as good as I imagined. You don't have to worry about it. You can try it with another person, maybe it will make you feel better." Ji Mingyi didn't want him to be hit too hard, after all Yao Tao said that he has never liked anyone before, as long as this rejection does not leave any shadow on him, it will be fine. I will be very happy, but if you don't want this, I have no choice but to not appear in front of you, which is the most appropriate."

Yao Tao buried his face in the pit of his neck and took a deep breath. His slightly delicate skin was on his lips and he stuck out his tongue to lick and suck it. Ji Mingyi felt the numbness on the side of his neck and trembled all over. Should he fight him? ?I am a big man anyway, I really don't want to be hugged twice in a few days.

Just as he was about to break free from Yao Tao's shackles, the man stopped by himself, looked up at him and said, "I'm sorry, I just want to see if you really don't have feelings for me?" He has feelings and he definitely wants him to This person only wanted a gentle way for him to accept himself, because this was the first person he wanted to stay with besides his younger brother in the past twenty years.

Ji Mingyi waited for the discomfort on the side of his neck to recede before he looked at Yao Tao's dark face behind the smoke. Facing Yao Tao's sudden confession, he didn't know what to do. This was the friend he cared about the most, and the only one he didn't want to lose besides Shan Juan A warmth.

"I hope that Xiaomi and we can really become a family, and we can be together so simply and happily every day like before, and I just want you by my side." Yao Tao looked at Ji Mingyi without incident At the end of the day, his eyes still looked out of the window in evasion.

Thinking of the life in those days, Ji Mingyi also smiled unconsciously. It is true that the life he wanted was like them many years ago, but his smile slowly disappeared when he thought of Shan Jun.

"My family is Shan Jun, and I have to take care of him until he doesn't need me. Now I can only surround him alone and I can't tell who I feel for. I think it's best for us to be buddies."

Ji Mingyi still said with a faint smile as usual, Yao Tao always felt that Ji Mingyi didn't seem to seriously consider what he said, or maybe he didn't believe his feelings at all, so tepid Yao Tao felt that Ji Mingyi couldn't do anything.

Standing up and taking a last look at the dazzling smile, he turned and walked out the door. Ji Mingyi, who was behind him, was instantly drained of strength and nestled on the sofa even more tiredly.

When I saw Yao Tao again a few days later, he was the same as before, and the firmness and fiery eyes in his eyes completely made Ji Mingyi understand more clearly.