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Lu Fei did not choose to go back with Shu Yuan.

They kissed for a minute before Lu Fei let go of Shu Yuan and looked at him quietly.

After being kissed, Shu Yuan's lips became more rosy, and his eyes became moist and cute, like a little devil with his teeth and claws pinned down, once he quieted down, it was very painful.

Shu Yuan knew it was time to go, and he learned to give each other space appropriately instead of being aggressive.

But he was also waiting for Lu Fei to answer his invitation, full of nostalgic anticipation: "Do you want to go with me?"

Lu Fei rejected him: "I still have work tonight."

A taxi came not far away, about before going out, Lu Fei calculated the time on the official platform and booked a taxi, the location was determined to be at their current location, so the taxi arrived exactly as planned stopped directly next to them.

The headlights illuminated Lu Fei's face hidden in the shadows. His straight nose bridge, brow bone, and jaw line were all haloed with light and shadow, making him look calm and reassuring.Shu Yuan's uneasy mood calmed down a little, Lu Fei wasn't rejecting him.

Although Lu Fei didn't say anything, Shu Yuan vaguely felt that Lu Fei was a bit conflicted. At this time, Lu Fei seemed to strongly hope that he would stay, and at the same time hoped that he would leave.

If you want to control a relationship and let it grow smoothly, you can't trust each other's endurance too much.

Lu Fei didn't choose to drive him back by himself, it was just to give this relationship that hadn't started again a room to breathe, otherwise God knows if they were so hot-headed, would they just focus on rolling on the bed like last time, then the real problem Still not resolved.

Afterwards, Shu Yuan recalled this night and understood what Lu Fei was thinking better, just as he gradually began to understand the reasons for Lu Fei's words afterward.

Lu Fei opened his lips and said, "Send me a message when you get home."

Shu Yuan responded, and after getting into the car, he lay on the car window with some reluctance to look at Lu Fei who was leading the dog.He was picked up by Lu Fei, said some inexplicable words, and was sent away by Lu Fei, but he only emphasized: "I don't want to send a message, I want to call you."

Lu Fei agreed: "Then call."

Shu Yuan asked again: "Can I see you tomorrow?"

Lu Fei said, "Yes."

When the car started, the person and dog in Shu Yuan's sight became farther and farther away in the night, while Lu Fei stood there all the time.

After returning home, Shu Yuan really called Lu Fei and said that he had arrived, and Lu Fei gently told him to go to bed early.

Being able to hear Lu Fei's voice directly is much better than the last time I only dared to send Lu Fei WeChat.

Shu Yuan thought this night was dreamy.

Lu Fei personally picked him up, took him to the supermarket, made him his favorite food, and finally kissed him.

Although they didn't say anything in the end, Shu Yuan still felt satisfied.

Like the first time he fell in love, Shu Yuan remained in a happy state for several hours after returning home. Hulu even discovered this, rubbed on his body, and started to step on the milk on his own initiative.

Shu Yuan first asked Xie Xiaomang what kind of photo Jin Chen had posted of him in Moments, and he wanted to see how much Jin Chen hated him.

Xie Xiaomang has too many people in her circle of friends, and she didn't pay attention to this matter at all. While scolding Jin Chen, she went to his circle of friends and sent the photos secretly taken to Shu Yuan.

After Shu Yuan saw the photo, he thought it was normal that Xie Xiaomang didn't notice him in the photo.

I don't know how Lu Fei noticed it.

——Shu Yuan only showed a small side of his face in the photo, even family members may not be able to recognize him immediately.

The protagonist of the photo is Jin Chen himself, and the angle of the camera is taken from Jin Chen's side. I saw Jin Chen smiling at the camera, and posted the picture with the words: Let's go to XX City together.

In fact, Jin Chen's distaste is not bad. From his point of view, maybe he just wanted to express the meaning that he met someone he knew on the plane and happened to go to XX City together.But if you look at it with another eye, you will feel that he is very close to the other person in the photo.

Jin Chen is wearing a necklace with several rings on his fingers, and his clothes are also a rock-and-roll T-shirt with bare arms.And Shu Yuan beside him had dyed hair that was not blue or green, and fell asleep with a blindfold on, with his head tilted near the porthole on one side, revealing a small earring on his ear bone.

The combination of these two people is not a couple, so it can only be explained by going to the music festival together, no wonder Lu Fei misunderstood.

Lu Fei still remembered that Shu Yuan said that he would meet new people and be with others.

Shu Yuan’s mood when he said that to Lu Fei that day, he actually doesn’t remember. He only knows that he was very desperate that day, so he had to tell a lie that he didn’t even believe, saying “I won’t wait for you to come back”, He thought it would hurt Lu Fei.

Recalling that sentence, Shu Yuan put away the joyful mood of the night for a short while, and felt very hurt.

He sent a message to Xie Xiaomang: [Ask Jin Chen to delete the photo, he violated my portrait right, so I don't want to be in the same frame with him! 【angry】]

Then he sent a message to Lu Fei who said he had bad eyesight: [I didn't fall in love with Jin Chen, I was just unlucky and ran into him on the plane. 【angry】]

Xie Xiaomang implemented this request and sent feedback.

Jin Chen happily deleted the circle of friends, saying that he didn't do it on purpose, Shu Yuan didn't believe it.

Lu Fei was probably busy and didn't reply to the message.

Shu Yuan waited for a while, then lay down on the bed and checked his and Lu Fei's WeChat chat pages.

Since the breakup, he deleted Lu Fei's chat dialog box once, and there are very few chat records left, and there are really only a handful of them that can be seen.Shu Yuan clicked on Lu Fei's profile picture to check Lu Fei's personal information. Before that, he had looked at Lu Fei's name in a daze in the newsletter. He had seen it many times, but for some reason he never clicked on it.

Lu Fei's profile is lackluster.

The avatar picture is a tree, very monotonous, the nickname is LF, and the WeChat account is a string of unknown letters and numbers.

With an attitude of getting back together, Shu Yuan clicked into Lu Fei's circle of friends, and patiently read all the news that Lu Fei had posted since using WeChat.

Lu Fei doesn't talk too much, and he doesn't have anything to express on his private social software. He only maintains a frequency of two or three a year. Lu Fei likes to take pictures, so most of the time he just posts A photo with a period representing text to send.

Shu Yuan looked at them one by one, except that Lu Fei didn't post anything this year, and most of the photos shared before were related to him.

Lu Fei protected Shu Yuan's privacy very well.

Shu Yuan only saw some traces of himself in these pictures, such as his silhouette accidentally caught in the mirror, the cupcake he ate, or his finger holding a flower.In the past, Shu Yuan would occasionally see these pictures, but he didn't pay attention to them. He just swipe them lightly, and they slid past them.

Shu Yuan turned to the end.

There is a post about Lu Fei five or six years ago, and the photo is a screenshot of a map.

He typed two coordinates on the map, one at home and one abroad, linked by a red line in the middle, and marked with a number: 11749.

Looking at the time, it should have been posted after they got together. Shu Yuan has a little impression of this map.The mark written by Lu Fei is probably the distance between Shu Yuan's city and Lu Fei's city, but how did Lu Fei do it so accurately?

Shu Yuan didn't know.

He watched for a while, and remembered a lot about that time, and also remembered that they were once more than 1 kilometers away.

At this time Wen Yi called: "It's so late, where are you?"

Shu Yuan was in a good mood, knowing that Wen Yi was concerned about his and Lu Fei's affairs, or just pretending to be a joke: "You never cared about where I was before."

Wen Yi complained: "You often go away for a few days, fly here today and fly there tomorrow, I can't even contact you, why do I care where you are?"

Shu Yuan was stunned.

He remembered that Lu Fei sounded like a plan to scare him.

On the other end of the phone, Wen Yi asked again: "Tell me quickly, how are you all doing? Lu Fei came to pick you up, so there should be something going on this time, right?"

Shu Yuan told him that he was at home, and then answered Wen Yi's curious questions.

After hanging up the phone, Shu Yuan sat on the edge of the bed for a while.

At this moment, Shu Yuan belatedly extended the conversation that Lu Fei had left so far—Lu Fei was not joking, nor did he intentionally fabricate fantasies to scare him.

If you want to kidnap a person who is erratic, self-willed and easy to lose contact because of work, you should have a high success rate if you hide it from the outside world for a few more days.According to Lu Fei's level of thoughtfulness, as long as he takes some time to plan, maybe he can really lock him up and never see the sky outside for the rest of his life.

Shu Yuan really felt stupid.

He slowly recalled every detail of the relationship between him and Lu Fei, from the beginning, and then back to the bowl that Lu Fei broke on the day they broke up.

That bowl was related to Lin Junci, and the day before they broke up, Lu Fei went to Lin Junci's baby's full moon banquet.What happened that day, Shu Yuan already knew very well, and the situation that day was not the first time it happened.

That morning, he didn't even look at Lu Fei's expression because of his willfulness and anger at getting up.

He said that the two of them bought it together, so the meaning is very important.

He said that Lu Fei didn't understand anything.

He said he would split up, anyway, he wanted to break up with Lu Fei a long time ago.

He obtained the right to stand by Lu Fei's side with an angry request, but Lu Fei was tied to him as a substitute.

Before breaking up, Shu Yuan never told Lu Fei that I love you, and never expressed to Lu Fei how important he was to him.

In fact, the whole world could tell that he never loved Lu Fei.

Lu Fei said: "When I was young, I didn't understand anything, and I couldn't grasp anything. When I grow up, I understand a truth. The more I desire something, the more I need to fight for it. As long as I slack off a little bit, it will disappear. It made me unable to grasp anything again."

Lu Fei wanted to catch that Shu Yuan who didn't love him.

Lu Fei really planned it that way, and even thought of doing whatever it takes, even if it is destruction.Maybe he started planning a long time ago, maybe his blind indulgence was originally a trick, maybe he started to make Shu Yuan become obsessed with him.However, driven by malice and desire, Lu Fei chose to let go.

It's true that Lu Fei doesn't want Shu Yuan anymore.

It is true that I want Shu Yuan to have a taste of cruelty.

It is also true to want to start a new life.

With Lu Fei's cruelty to him, it is not impossible to achieve this step.

Only the indifference towards Shu Yuan is fake.