The days when I was forced to be a heartthrob in a bloody text

Xu Shixi blushed for a moment, and the alcohol that he had just suppressed came back, and he felt dizzy, afraid that he would just carry him out like this, and knowing that Pei Yan would definitely not, so he buried his face on his shoulder, whatever he wanted which way to go.

Lin Juan was still calling to remind him, so Pei Yan could only carry him to the sofa and sit down, then went back to the bed and brought him the shoes to put on.

Xu Shixi slumped on the sofa, and he didn't know why he was so sleepy all of a sudden. In the past, he would definitely try not to let himself get drunk, and it was the same in the previous crews, but this time he didn't think too much about it. Already drank a little too much, probably because of Pei Yan's presence, subconsciously felt relieved.

"Little fool." Pei Yan flicked his forehead and saw that he smiled shyly instead, so he knew that he was probably really drunk.

The phone rang a few times when it was pressed against his body. Xu Shixi tried his best to wake himself up a little, then reached out to touch it, but picked up the phone without seeing who it was, and then heard Lin Juan's irritable voice on the opposite side.

"You are really my ancestor, where are you?" Lin Juan knew that there were paparazzi outside today, and Xu Shixi was a little drunk, so it was not suitable to be photographed like this, so he told him not to go back to the hotel, but he didn't expect to wait so long It's been a long time, and Pei Yan hasn't sent him back, "It's almost the end of the year, don't make any trouble."

"Going back soon." Xu Shixi looked up at Pei Yan, who took the phone in his hand and said a few words to Lin Juan, then hung up the phone.

"Let's go." Pei Yan handed him a hand, and Xu Shixi held it in a daze, but he didn't use his strength to get up. Pei Yan didn't think that he would be so strong when he was drunk, and he was dragged by him for a while.

"I'm sorry." Xu Shixi touched his face, and even squeezed it.

"It's not your fault, it's my fault." Pei Yan grabbed his troublesome hand, hugged him in a face-to-face posture, raised his head and kissed his drunken eyes and slightly hot cheeks, "I knew Baby is so clingy, you should carry it in your arms every day wherever you go."

Pei Yan also thought a lot during this time. Since they first met in the second year of high school, Xu Shixi consciously or unconsciously did everything within his power for him, and tried his best to piece together for him a high school with good memories. Considering his self-esteem, I secretly read those jerky and difficult astrophysical magazines, probably because I just wanted to have a few words with him.

But he didn't seem to know Xu Shixi very well. He was never good at understanding others. He raised Pei Nuonuo so much, and he rarely thought about what she would think.

Xu Shixi's wine was getting stronger, and he couldn't hear the voice clearly, but he was very close, and he could still distinguish what he said consciously. During this period of time, the lacrimal gland seemed to be broken, and he couldn't help crying suddenly.

Outside the window, you can still see countless lamp shadows and busy traffic in the middle of the night, but it is quiet here, like another world isolated.

"You can't ignore me from now on." Xu Shixi clenched the cloth behind him tightly with his fingertips, and wet tears fell on his shoulders.

"Yeah." Pei Yan put him on the table by the window, resting his hands on the edge of the table.

"You can't like others." Xu Shixi put his hand down, carefully hooking his little finger.

"I like you all my life," Pei Yan took his hand and kissed it against his ring finger, then looked up at him, the slightly dim light outside the window was reflected in his eyes, like the deep and dark night sky, "I never used to I never thought that I would say this to anyone, and I also feel that it is too illusory, but I don’t know why, I always feel that there is an afterlife when I meet you. You asked me why I like you, and I can’t explain it. After living this life , if I can meet somewhere someday, I still like you, and no one can replace you."

"I don't have much to cherish. You are more important than everything to me." Pei Yan lightly bit his knuckles. He is not a stingy person who expresses his love. On the contrary, he really wants to let Xu Shixi know How much he loves him, I'm afraid that words can't be put in my heart as heavily as silence.

"I also... like you too." Xu Shixi felt that his fingers were hot from the place he kissed, so he also took Pei Yan's hand and kissed it. Seeing a smile on his mouth, he was embarrassed to kiss again, and threw it away Hands want to get off the table.

If Lin Juan was going to call again if he stayed a little longer, Pei Yan could only take him back quickly. Xu Shixi glanced casually at the sofa passing by the door, and suddenly saw that the orange cat pillow in the corner of the sofa looked familiar.

Pei Yan was still holding his hand, so he stopped and tugged him gently.

"What's wrong?" Pei Yan was about to open the door and looked back at him.

Xu Shixi knew that he didn't like holding those dolls by himself, but he especially wanted that orange cat, so he leaned over and pulled his clothes from behind, "Brother, I want that." After finishing speaking, he raised his finger.

Pei Yan stared at him for a while, Xu Shixi was a little dazed, and when he wanted to go to get it by himself, he was suddenly hugged by Pei Yan, bowed his head and kissed him a few times forcefully.

The hotel is very close to here, it can be reached within ten minutes by car, but when Pei Yan got off the car, he saw that Xu Shixi had fallen asleep with an orange cat pillow in the back seat.

Fortunately, Li Wen was waiting at the entrance of the hotel. After Pei Yan turned around and woke Xu Shixi up, Li Wen helped him to take the elevator.

Xu Shixi felt that he was quite heavy, and he didn't want to work hard for assistants, especially girls, so he asked Li Wen to help hold the pillow and went upstairs by himself.

After drinking alcohol, he slept very drowsily all night. When he heard the alarm clock woke up in the morning, he still felt unreal. Xu Shixi frowned and raised his hand to press the alarm clock, but the phone kept ringing for some reason. He didn't get up at all. Angry and upset by the trouble, she lifted the quilt and sat up, took the phone from the pillow, but did not expect it to be a call from Pei Yan.

When the memory of last night came back, he remembered what he had done, swallowed dryly, and didn't dare to answer the phone.

When he was hesitating whether to connect or not, Pei Yan hung up. He was relieved, and now he was sleepless, so he got up early, washed and changed his clothes, and prepared to go to the set later.

The end of filming is often the most critical time. These days, Lin Shenghai frowned all day long, watching every operation of the crew to ensure that there were no mistakes that should not have been made.

After passing by, I didn't have time to say anything to Pei Yan. I hurriedly put on my makeup and was about to shoot the morning scene.

Suffering in the chaotic world for nearly ten years, Ji Jianshen's world gradually collapsed, the colors in front of his eyes were messy, and he was almost blind. When he almost killed an innocent person by mistake, he realized that he had come to an end. The place is like a deep sea that can completely engulf a person, he can't see anything anymore.

Lu Zhuming sorted out the relevant case files in the police station and found that all the people he had killed were found to have extreme criminal behavior or violent tendencies. Some of them were criminals who the police had been chasing for more than ten years without results. Right now, he seemed to have to believe Ji Jianshen's so-called ability to see malice, although it was so absurd.

In order not to startle the snake, Lu Zhuming secretly investigated Ji Jianshen first.

All his past experiences seem to start from the year when he was sent to the orphanage at the age of five.

The gray-toned scene in this memory not only flashed past Lu Zhuming's eyes, but also repeatedly pondered in Ji Jianshen's heart.

After realizing that the world in front of him had turned into black, white and gray, Ji Jianshen went to the orphanage where he grew up, and sat on the steps he liked to sit on when he was a child, watching the children playing around below, I don't know why, it's like seeing myself.

The thin child was kicked under the cabinet, and his calf was covered with bruises. When it was very cold in the deep winter, his bed was trampled into dirty slush, so he could only lie on the cold ground until An aunt found out and took him to sleep on the sofa.At that time, he didn't feel unhappy, because the future seemed to be in front of him. He sat on the steps in front of the bungalow every day and watched the sunset. The end was not the end, but a new day full of hope.

Xu Shixi's desire to take over this role is actually related to Ji Jianshen's experience. He thinks he can play well.Acting is a very technical thing in many cases. The actor knows what emotion should be baked at this time, and let it stay there just right. In the day-to-day performance, there are also many emotions empathy.

He used to stay in the small world of the orphanage, seeing only the people in front of him, seeing countless abandoned lives, so he wanted to see what other people were like and experience a different life.

In fact, at the end of this scene, he almost forgot that he was performing. He just watched the children not far away playing and dancing, and he didn't have too many emotions in his heart.

However, what I felt on the monitor was a different emotion. The dusk covered the entire orphanage, the children were laughing and laughing, but Ji Jianshen was silent beside Ji Jianshen. Time passed by in a hurry. The school violence, the endless discrimination and bullying, the entries that were maliciously destroyed, and the poorest days, he didn't feel bitter, but he was always lonely.

Pei Yan watched from the side, only feeling real and depressing, especially this feeling seemed familiar to him, maybe others didn't know it, but he and Xu Shixi had spent more than a year together day and night, and he had seen Xu Shixi sitting on the table countless times. The roadside, or the steps in front of the house, or any place where you can stay, has almost the same look as it does now.

Lin Shenghai didn't know about this. He was very touched by this scene. At the beginning, he didn't tell Xu Shixi what kind of feeling he wanted to perform. He just let him experience it for himself. Others probably hated this place that brought countless negative memories. Yes, when I come back here again, I will look cold when I look at everything in front of me, but Xu Shixi doesn't, he is just very calm, some things seemed important at the time, making people painful and embarrassing, after the past, they may not be forgiven or forgotten, but they don't need to I don't mind, because there is a new life, or there is no new life.

Lu Zhuming suddenly wanted to take a look at the painting that he had glimpsed at the door of Ji Jianshen's house that day, and also remembered the poem that he only saw the beginning, so he searched the Internet.

At the end of the day, I stand before you, and you will see my scars, and know that I was wounded and I was healed.

Xu Shixi also breathed a sigh of relief after filming this scene, and there will not be many major scenes in the future.

Although it looked like he was sitting on the steps all the time when it was screened, but it was not during the filming, because there were still many interspersed shots that needed to be shot, but in the end he sat back to the original position.

After playing the board, he wanted to stand up, but suddenly fainted. He wanted to support the brick wall beside him, but his hand slipped accidentally, and he fell directly to the ground.

The scene was immediately chaotic, and Lin Shenghai quickly stood up from his chair and went to see that Pei Yan had already supported him in his arms.

Xu Shixi's ears were buzzing, but he couldn't wake up. Instead, his consciousness became more and more blurred, and he didn't even have the strength to hold Pei Min's hand.

The author has something to say: It’s okay, don’t be afraid.

Jinjiang's new lottery is so confusing... I don't know who I got after the draw. There are only digital ids in the background.

Note: At the end of the day, when you stand in front of me, you will see my scars, and know that I have been wounded and healed. —— Tagore

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