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Song Yu: "Auntie's illness often recurs, and every time she does not get better, sometimes it gets worse?"

Chu Xiuyuan let out a "hmm".

"Has she taken her medicine properly?"

Chu Xiuyuan pushed Song Yu away, squinted his eyes and remembered for a long time, with a confused face: "Yes."

"How long have you been sick?"

"More than four years." Chu Xiuyuan was not very sure, "I was diagnosed in my third year of high school, but she started to suffer from insomnia in my second year of high school, and it may have been five years..."

Song Yu pressed the center of his brows, tightened his lips and then loosened them. He repeated many times before saying, "Your mother's condition often recurs. There is a possibility that she stopped taking the medicine without telling you."

"Eh?" Chu Xiuyuan suddenly looked at Song Yu with wide eyes.

"According to my knowledge, if you stick to the treatment and follow the doctor's orders and take the medicine on time, in four years, the symptoms can be controlled even if there are recurrences. I often see patients who stop taking the medicine without following the doctor's advice. been."

Chu Xiuyuan's breathing suddenly became rapid: "You mean, my mother has been unwell, and it's because she stopped taking the medicine privately?"

"You mentioned before that the aunt has a tendency to resist treatment, and there are indeed many patients who relapse after stopping the drug, and the situation will be worse than before. This is also consistent with the situation you described."

The smog in Chu Xiuyuan's heart was suddenly blown out by Song Yu's words, and he poured in a little hope: "If this is really the case, she has been unwell because she stopped taking the medicine privately, then..." Swallowing, " Then if she insists on taking medicine..."

Chu Xiuyuan couldn't change his major. The biggest sticking point was his mother. He was worried that his mother would relapse and get worse every time. Whether it was changed to indefinite sentence after being sentenced to death, or the kind that can be commuted, Chu Xiuyuan's mind suddenly became agitated.

"Let me ask..." Chu Xiuyuan took out his mobile phone, dialed the number with trembling hands, and only hit the mark after dialing twice, "Let me ask." He was so anxious that the sky would collapse in the next second.

Song Yu's gaze was always glued to Chu Xiuyuan's nervous face, but Chu Xiuyuan couldn't care less about how Song Yu looked at him. The moment the dial sounded, he curled up his toes nervously.

As soon as the call was connected, he didn't even want to waste the time to say hello: "Dad! Did my mother stop taking the medicine privately?!"

Dad was stunned for two seconds, and reflexively replied: "No, I think she will go to dispense medicine every two weeks." After the reply, he was still inexplicable, "You just asked me this when you called me?"

Chu Xiuyuan was a little incoherent: "Don't worry about it! She may be lying to us, so go and see her medicine bottle!"

"I will do whatever you ask me to do. You are my father." Father Chu was dissatisfied with his son's attitude and complained, "I never heard you listen to what I asked you to do."

Chu Xiuyuan became irritable in an instant, but Song Yu held down the back of his left hand and pressed it firmly on the bench, softly but full of strength: "Speak well."

Taking a deep breath, Chu Xiuyuan swallowed his saliva: "I heard today that my mother often repeats this, and it gets worse every time. It is very likely that she stopped the medicine without telling the doctor, so she will not get better!"

Dad was puzzled: "Really? Who said that?"

Chu Xiuyuan's fingers resting on the edge of the bench tightened, and Song Yu's palm rested heavily on the back of his hand, and there was a reassuring heat. He glanced at Song Yu: "The mentor of the psychological society."

"Really?" Dad was still confirming.

"Do I have to lie to you?! Go ask the doctor for the amount of medicine prescribed, and then go and see what she has left after taking the medicine." Chu Xiuyuan was so angry that his body was full of anger, "You don't want to know why she keeps repeating her symptoms? ? Asking you to check the medicine bottle doesn’t mean you won’t eat for a day.”

"Okay, okay." Dad probably got used to Chu Xiuyuan's way of talking, and he was really concerned about his mother's condition, so he agreed to Chu Xiuyuan and hung up the phone.

Chu Xiuyuan exhaled, squeezed the phone tightly with his right hand and waited anxiously, looking at the screen from time to time, feeling that every minute and every second of waiting was extremely long.

Song Yu didn't say a word, but quietly held the back of Chu Xiuyuan's hand.

Chu Xiuyuan was really anxious to wait, so he could only divert his attention: "Why did they stop the medicine privately?"

Song Yu didn't blame Chu Xiuyuan for his attitude towards his father, organized his words, and asked, "Have you heard of stigma?"

Frowning: "Illness?"

"Shame of shame."

I haven't heard of it, but just looking at the words, I can roughly guess the meaning: "You mean, my mother felt ashamed, so she stopped taking the medicine?"

"I can't say that all those who stopped taking the drug were due to stigma, but some patients did not cooperate with the treatment because of this. There may be some normal people, especially those who do not discriminate against mental illness, who do not understand this, but mental illness Stigma is an important mental health problem that can seriously affect a patient's quality of life and recovery."

It is not uncommon to resist treatment because of stigma, or to be prevented from treatment due to public stigma, which will naturally have a great impact on treatment.

The attitude of the social environment towards patients with mental illness or psychological disorders is improving, but many people still hold discriminatory attitudes towards patients with such diseases, do not understand, insult, ridicule, etc., which is called public stigma.

When patients perceive or actually suffer from discrimination, they themselves are easily affected.After some patients develop self-stigma, they lose self-esteem, fear, shame, and self-guilt. They don’t want to admit that they are sick. They feel inferior, different from ordinary people, and abnormal. This kind of stigma becomes an obstacle to treatment. Giant barricades. *

Song Yu: "Our psychological agency once interviewed a patient with depression. When her condition improved and became stable, the doctor reduced her dosage from one pill to half a pill, but she stopped taking the medicine in private. A month later, she relapsed. We asked her why she was unwilling to take medicine, and she only said that if she reduced to half a pill, she would still be mentally ill, but if she didn’t take medicine, she would feel that she was a normal person. This is a typical self-illness Shame."

"You can think about it, whether your mother also behaved in this way." After explaining, Song Yu said.

Chu Xiuyuan fell into deep thought, but he didn't have any clues. He seldom went home after he went to college, and he didn't have the time to pay attention to these details.

Mom really refused to take medicine because of stigma?If true, how to solve it?

"Zizzizi!"

"!" Chu Xiuyuan, who was in deep thought, was taken aback by the vibrating phone. He turned over the phone and saw that his father was calling. He tapped the screen twice before he connected. He asked, "How is it?"

Dad is much more serious now than before: "The amount of medicine in your mother's medicine bottle is indeed abnormal."

Chu Xiuyuan's heart was pounding: "Too much or too little?"

"too much……"

Chu Xiuyuan gasped: "She really didn't take the medicine without telling you?!"

Dad couldn't believe it: "I just contacted the doctor who has been seeing her. Your mother told me to go to the doctor last week, but the doctor said she didn't go to dispense the medicine last week."

Shock!Surprised, Chu Xiuyuan's hand holding the phone trembled twice.

She really stopped taking the medicine privately, and tried every means to hide it from us!

Chu Xiuyuan fried the pot in an instant, what's the matter? "Why did you look at her? You didn't notice that she didn't take medicine?"

Are you kidding me, she has been hiding it from her family for so many years?Doesn't she suffer every time she relapses?

Dad was obviously also depressed: "I have to go to work and it's impossible to look at her every day! Little Chi, you don't have back pain when you stand and talk."

"Do you want me to come back from class every day to watch him?" When Chu Xiuyuan was mentioned, he became angry, "I will take her to see a doctor in the afternoon!"

"How should I bet? I can't even control her now. Didn't the doctor tell us not to provoke her, but to enlighten her and not force her?" Dad was in a dilemma, "Why don't you persuade her?"

"I can fucking argue with her now that I see her!"

Suddenly there was an out-of-control roar that silenced Dad, and it took a long time to scold him back: "Little Chi, is this the way you talk to Dad?"

"Take her to see a doctor!" After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone.Angrily, he stuffed the phone back into his pocket, sat on the bench and panted heavily, his masseter muscle bulging ferociously.

Song Yu put his arms around his shoulders: "If your father had my father's personality, he would probably kill you." The son is more violent than the father.

Thinking about it now, Chu Xiuyuan really lost control of his emotions. He lowered his head and shoveled the concrete floor with his toes, and he was still aggrieved: "Can't you take medicine well..." If you take medicine well, it might be cured two years ago, don't be afraid His mother committed suicide, and his major didn't mean he could go anywhere he wanted.

Song Yu was completely annoyed by Chu Xiuyuan's little guilty conscience: "I think you should be happy."

Chu Xiuyuan pursed his lips and glanced at Song Yu.

Song Yu patted him: "I found out the crux and reason of your mother's repeated illness. Isn't it worth being happy?"

Chu Xiuyuan was still very depressed: "But she didn't get well so soon... How can I say it will take at least half a year to stabilize her condition." When Song Yu raised his conjecture, it did spark a glimmer of hope in him, but now that it has cooled down, there is no hope. Discovering that life imprisonment is still life imprisonment, so what if you know the crux of the matter?The window period for changing majors was less than three months.How is three months enough?

My mother's condition has not been stabilized, this is not the worst, what if within three months, my mother relapses again...

What can I do for three months?He remembered that once his mother relapsed, it took four months to control it. What can he do in three months?If he can't cure his mother's brain, he still can't change his major.

Thinking of this, Chu Xiuyuan's heart throbbed with pain, despair like a gangrene, as if he was going to be swallowed into a bottomless black hole, in the black hole except for the whistling wind, there is only one word, you don't deserve hope!

Why is it so hard to be a doctor...why is it so hard.

Song Yu tightly wrapped the palm of Chu Xiuyuan's upper arm, feeling Chu Xiuyuan's tense and stiff muscles, and his voice softened by two points: "If you really can't be a doctor, what will you do?"

"What else can I do?" Chu Xiuyuan twitched the corners of his mouth, "Just mess around for a lifetime and it will be over."

"Is there anything else you want to do?"

Chu Xiuyuan raised his head, took a deep look at Song Yu, and then turned his gaze away: "No." After two seconds, he added, "Chu Xiuyuan, the Three Nobody. He has no goals, no ideals, and no dreams."

Looking at Chu Xiuyuan's downcast eyes, hiding his sadness and grievance, Song Yu suddenly got up, grabbed Chu Xiuyuan's arm tightly, and pulled him up too: "Let's go."

Chu Xiuyuan said "Huh?" "Where are you going?"

"Go to Wang Xinghe."

Chu Xiuyuan was puzzled, but his voice was still muffled: "Why are you looking for her?"

"The application deadline for medical school is the first half of the junior year, but there are some special circumstances that can be postponed for half a year."

"Half a year?!" Chu Xiuyuan raised his eyes sharply, "Are you sure?" He has studied the regulations on changing majors, and he has never seen such a clause!

"I'm sure, when I changed majors, I heard my instructor say that I slipped my tongue, but I don't know the specific process. It may require a little favor or relationship. I think Wang Xinghe should know how to operate it better than us." Song Yu looked into Chu Xiuyuan's suddenly bright eyes with a smile, "I said to seize any opportunity, why not go and find Wang Xinghe."

"Go." Chu Xiuyuan did not hesitate, "Go." Suddenly he walked faster than Song Yu.

Half a year!

This half year is too precious!That means he has more time to stabilize mom, just make sure she doesn't stop taking her medication.

He originally thought that a miracle would not happen, but after suppressing his despair for three years, a turning point suddenly appeared today.

He still has hope, this cognition quickly spread to every cell in the body, instead of life imprisonment, his sentence was commuted!He still has hope!

The author has something to say: *[Note] "The Stigma of Mental Illness" Wu Jian