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After a pause of two seconds, Song Yu suddenly hugged him tightly, and the silence on Chu Xiuyuan's face suddenly shattered, his expression was already uglier than crying, he was pinching despair and hatred, and couldn't hide it anymore: "Mom, while I'm not here, Without telling me, I logged into the college entrance examination reporting system, and changed my volunteering privately, from Linba to public health."

Song Yu's hand directly froze on Chu Xiuyuan's back, was it actually a wish that was tampered with by his biological mother in private?

When it came to the end, Chu Xiuyuan wanted to laugh it off, but he couldn't even laugh: "Do you know what I wrote in my first composition in elementary school? I said I want to be a doctor."

"Why?" That was his own child, a dream that a fresh life had insisted on for more than ten years. Why did he destroy his own son's ideals and pursuits so easily?

"why?"

Chu Xiuyuan pushed Song Yu away, put his hand on his cheek again, and did not answer for a long time.

Every time I recalled it, it was like tearing open a rotten scar, rolling out blood with black and thick poison, which was fishy and smelly, and the pain made Chu Xiuyuan's breathing stagnate, wishing to pierce the trachea with a chisel, from the bottom of the chiseled throat Fill it with air, it seems that the more it hurts, the more you can feel that you are still alive.

"Because..." In the middle of speaking, Chu Xiuyuan chuckled, which was worse than crying, "She was afraid that I would be stabbed to death by a patient."

"It's ridiculous. She said she was afraid that I would be stabbed to death by a patient, hahaha..." Halfway through the laugh, she suddenly fell silent. She covered her face in her palm, her knuckles turned white from the force, and her bent fingers directly touched Chu Xiu. Yuan's forehead was scratched, and drips of blood oozed out.

Song Yu was so distressed that he could hardly speak. Looking at Chu Xiuyuan who was in pain alone, Song Yu's brows were furrowed with deep lines. He wanted to hug him tightly and embed him in his body, so that he could rely on him .

Chu Xiuyuan's mood was very unstable, and he couldn't calm down for a while. Song Yu took him to the long wooden chair in the shadow of the anatomy teaching building and sat down. The place was quiet and quiet, which was good for him to comfort Chu Xiuyuan.

They were immersed in their respective emotions, and they didn't notice that Zhu Zhao, who had already left, was quietly following behind the two of them, but at this moment he stopped slowly and did not follow.He saw Song Yu on the road and followed Song Yu until Song Yu caught up with Chu Xiuyuan.

At this moment, Zhu Zhao's expression was extremely surprised. He didn't hear all the conversations between the two of them clearly, but Chu Xiuyuan's suppressed laughter and ironic reasons drifted into Zhu Zhao's ears.

Chu Xiuyuan's college entrance examination application was actually tampered with by his mother!No wonder Chu Xiuyuan didn't agree to call the police and prosecute, no wonder he kept his mouth shut afterwards, and even gave up trying to change his major, because it was his mother who tampered with his wish!

Seeing Song Yu take Chu Xiuyuan away, Zhu Zhao didn't want to follow, because those were private matters that Chu Xiuyuan didn't want to reveal, no matter how much he knew, Chu Xiuyuan would never allow him to help.Zhu Zhao knew very well that Chu Xiuyuan excluded him from this matter.For three years, Chu Xiuyuan kept silent about him, except on the day of Wang Xinghe's lecture, when he guessed that Chu Xiuyuan's wish had been maliciously modified, Chu Xiuyuan replied inexplicably, "I hope those with depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder disappear from the world."Even if he asked about it many times, Chu Xiuyuan never revealed anything to him again.

So he had a strong premonition that if he continued to follow and was discovered by Chu Xiuyuan, his little boy would never say another word.

Looking at the backs of the two walking away, there was a tinge of pain in my heart. We had known each other for 16 years, and we had never been separated from Huaneryuan to university, but Chu Xiuyuan would rather tell Song Yu, who had known each other for less than three months, than unwilling to reveal the truth to him.

Zhu Zhao smiled bitterly, probably Chu Xiuyuan really fell this time, on a man named Song Yu.

After Chu Xiuyuan sat down, he clasped his hands on his open knees. Song Yu was beside him, keeping a proper distance. He wanted to listen to what Chu Xiuyuan had experienced, but he could see Chu Xiu with a depressed expression. In the end, he couldn't hold back the comfort: "It's okay, we can change majors, I promised Wang Xinghe would help you."

But Chu Xiuyuan shook his head, staring at the two thumbs that were rubbing repeatedly, without raising his head: "If it was possible to turn, I would have turned it a long time ago."

"Because your family disagrees?" Song Yu thought of the depression that Chu Xiuyuan mentioned, could it mean... "Have you ever committed suicide?"

Chu Xiuyuan hummed, his tone calmed down, but this "huh" was horrifying: "I committed suicide before."

Those three words shocked Song Yu extremely.

Without giving Song Yu more time to react, Chu Xiuyuan suddenly asked after finishing speaking, "Do you know about depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder?"

Song Yu retracted his words, and changed his words: "I know."

"Then you should also know that people like them are easy to get into a dead end."

Of course Song Yu knew.

Many patients with depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder often struggle with some unfounded, ridiculous, and weird thoughts and thinking patterns that ordinary people think. Even if you tell them over and over again that this idea is not advisable, once they get into the corner , I can't control myself from those weird thoughts.

The point of Chu Xiuyuan's mother's horns was that she was extremely afraid that once Chu Xiuyuan became a doctor, her son would be stabbed to death by a patient.

How ridiculous, but Chu Xiuyuan spent three years and couldn't convince her.

"I used to quarrel with them when I was filling out the volunteer application. They were all supportive, but just over a week before the deadline, my mother saw a news on TV." Chu Xiuyuan tried hard again Twitching the corners of his mouth, "The doctor made a fuss. The patient's family members stabbed the attending doctor and the head nurse because of the patient's death and the doctor's bad attitude. One died and the other was injured."

Song Yu pursed his lips and kept looking at Chu Xiuyuan, only to see him pinching his two thumbs repeatedly and his downcast profile.

"Then she got sick." Deeply helpless, but ridiculous but made him despair, "She began to obstruct me, saying that doctors are a high-risk profession, that my personality is not calm and impulsive, and that once I become a doctor, I will definitely be punished as well." Patients were stabbed to death. Because I can't promise to cure every patient, and she believes that my attitude towards patients must be very unkind."

In every doctor's career, he will inevitably encounter medical disputes, but death due to this is a small probability event, but my mother doesn't think so.After that news, she equated doctors, medical troubles, and death. If Chu Xiuyuan didn't change his wish, she wouldn't give up.Sometimes their way of thinking about a matter is different from that of normal people. It is extremely ridiculous but it is difficult to convince them. They cry, make trouble and hang themselves. Considering their mother's illness, their father had to put pressure on Chu Xiuyuan together. Chu Xiuyuan He ran away from home angrily, and stayed at Zhu Zhao's house for two days.

This is also the reason why Zhu Zhaoneng guessed that there was something hidden behind Chu Xiuyuan's college entrance examination application.

Later, Chu Xiuyuan pressured his mother to go to the psychological consultation clinic for three consecutive days, and finally made her mother give up the idea of ​​changing majors before the deadline for filling in the college entrance examination. He thought that the matter would come to an end and there would be no more accidents. You can go to the school and major you yearn for, but the final admission letter is like a blow to the head.At that moment, he felt that his whole life was ruined.

Song Yu: "So she tampered with your college entrance examination application?"

Chu Xiuyuan nodded: "I took her to see individual therapy for three days, and she said she figured it out, who knows..."

Who knew that she secretly changed her choice on the fourth day, and didn't tell him until she got the admission notice!

When he questioned his mother, he only got one sentence, "Mom is for your own good, and mother is afraid of losing you."

Hehehe, mother is for your own good.

Oh, that's great.So good... so good!

Chu Xiuyuan took a deep breath and couldn't continue. Every time he thought about it, it was torture.

Song Yu pinched the back of his neck, and the warmth from his palm spread to his throat. After a minute, Chu Xiuyuan recovered his voice: "The day after I got the admission notice, I went to confront them, and only then did I find out about my mother. She actually threatened her with death and forced my dad to tell her the password, but my dad actually watched her with his own eyes, logged into the system, and changed all my wishes one by one, leaving me nothing."

"They are my parents! I believe my dad just told him the password, who knows he sold me out in no time! It's for my own good not to let me study medicine. Hehe..." The sneer was hoarse and short , contained despair and hatred that Song Yu had never seen before, and what was transformed into his heart was only deep heartache.

"Did they ask my opinion?!" Chu Xiuyuan's voice was almost choked up, "The medical environment and doctor-patient relationship will definitely improve in the future! How could so many doctors be stabbed to death by patients? Even if it happened, it would never happen On me! Why does she say that I am for your own good, and change my will on her own? Why does she!"

"Should I forgive her if she is sick? Why can't I hate her if I say it's for my own good? Even if I'm stabbed to death, I'm willing!"

"That ridiculous reason..." Chu Xiuyuan clenched his throat, his eyes were red, and two pieces of bloody skin were scratched out from his left knuckle with his right thumb, "This ridiculous reason... I sometimes Hate, if only there were no mental illnesses in this world, what kind of depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, all disappear, never appear in front of me...I hate..."

Before he could finish speaking, his broken thumb was suddenly forcefully separated by another pair of hands, and his whole body was pulled into Song Yu's chest, his brows and eyes buried in Song Yu's neck, and he heard Song Yu's voice as powerful and gentle as a cello, saying: "I want to cry!" Just cry."

In an instant, the nose became sore.

Song Yu hugged the back of his head forcefully: "I will help you, believe me, cry if you want..."

Caught off guard, before he could finish speaking, a hot tear fell on Song Yu's neck, followed by another drop. The person on the neck was quiet, but the tear that rolled down told Song Yu's unspoken words. Screaming and mourning.

Because it was his mother, he had to endure it, and because it was his mother, all the consequences could only be borne by himself.For three years, hatred and love were intertwined, which made him not know how to face his biological mother.Every text message, phone call, and mother's face reminded him all the time that you will never want to be a doctor in your life, and your dream will never come true in your life.

But what can he do, it's his mother.

For 5 full minutes, Song Yu circled Chu Xiuyuan without moving. His shoulders were soaked with tears. He heard Chu Xiuyuan's gasp, heard his soft whimper, and finally heard Chu Xiuyuan say hoarsely: "I want to To be a doctor... I don't like public health, I want to be a doctor..."

Song Yu's breathing was deep and heavy, and every word Chu Xiuyuan said was like a whip soaked in salt water hitting his heart, making his heart ache.

Who would like a major that was forced to take.

Do you hate so much that you hope that those mental illnesses will never appear...

"I'll do my best to help you."

Chu Xiuyuan pushed Song Yu away, his face was full of tears, he wiped it with his cuff indiscriminately, his nose was also red: "You can't help."

Seeing this, Song Yu handed a handkerchief to Chu Xiuyuan, and Chu Xiuyuan took it. It still had the fresh lemon fragrance. The moment he wiped away his tears and snot with it, Chu Xiuyuan suddenly felt much more relaxed.

Looking at the wet handkerchief in his hand, and at Song Yu, he actually handed the handkerchief back.

Song Yu frowned, but smiled after a while: "Don't be disgusting."

Chu Xiuyuan pouted: "Then give me your handkerchief."

Song Yu rubbed Chu Xiuyuan's head hard, so just act like a baby: "I'll see you off."

The author has something to say: Anatomy teacher: Let me tell you, those TV shows are so stupid, do they cut their wrists like that?Cut the middle?You can’t die if you cut the tendons and tendon sheaths, but you need to cut the arteries, do you know?

Raise hands and knives: let me show you how to cut your wrists to die fast

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