I don't want to cry and I want to die for love[Comprehensive]

Osamu Dazai pulled Hanazawa Asahi and Aso Toshie up.

Hanazawa Asahi couldn't care whether the floor was dirty or not. He lay on the ground panting, and he didn't recover for a long time.

"Is this some kind of fantasy adventure in the morning? If you do it again next time, you will lose half of your life."

As a female, Toshie Aso was carefully protected by Osamu Dazai and Asahi Hanazawa throughout the whole process, and basically did not suffer any physical labor or injury.

Just looking at the two men in front of her, she felt ashamed, she didn't succeed in committing suicide, and almost implicated an innocent person.

Aso Lizhi was not extreme enough to commit suicide with innocent people and die.

Osamu Dazai was still the main force pulling the two of them up.

She lowered her head, bypassed Dazai Osamu and Hanazawa Asahi, and rushed down.

Hanazawa Asahi and Dazai Osamu coincidentally did not catch up.

Unlike Dazai Osamu, who is used to suicide, Aso Toshie did not know how long he had been mentally preparing for this suicide.

It's best to keep her quiet.

Hua Ze Asahi was lying on the ground, her eyes happened to meet the distant sun rising slowly, the sun was not too intense.

"Mr. Dazai." Hanazawa Asahi had so many things to say, especially the unparalleled amount of questioning, but when it came time to speak, there was only one thing left to say: "Can I beat you?"

Osamu Dazai squatted beside Hanazawa Asahi, poked the half-dead him, a smile appeared on his lips, and said meanly: "Even if I agree, Asahi doesn't have the strength to punish me now."

Hanazawa Asahi stared at Osamu Dazai, but he was telling the truth.

"roll."

Osamu Dazai would not listen to Hanazawa Asahi's words, he poked Hanazawa Asahi's soft cheek with his fingers, "I already knew who she was."

"……Oh."

Hanazawa Asahi had already guessed that Osamu Dazai knew.

Not many surprises.

"Don't do it next time, it's too dangerous."

"...? Mr. Dazai has the right to say that about me? If you really want me not to do such a dangerous thing, then don't commit suicide on your own."

Osamu Dazai smiled, sincerely as if he would agree to Hanazawa Asahi's request in the next second.

As a result, he spoke.

"I do not want."

Hanazawa Asahi gasped for a while, got up from the ground and sat down.Facing Osamu Dazai who happened to be at his level, he almost couldn't catch his breath.Pulling Dazai Osamu directly to the ground, he punched him in the face angrily.

Hanazawa Asahi was very tired, in fact, he didn't have much strength in his fists at all.A punch seemed to be as light as cotton.After punching, Hanazawa Asahi lay down on Dazai Osamu's chest, unable to move.

Osamu Dazai tilted his face indifferently, he stretched out his hand, trying to push Hanazawa Asahi aside, his hand stayed in the air, and finally let it go.

The sound of Hanazawa Asahi's violent heartbeat was clearly conveyed from his chest to Dazai Osamu's ears, and it was already hard to tell whether it was his own heartbeat or Hanazawa Asahi's heartbeat, the two merged into one and became inseparable.

When Hanazawa Asahi was tired, he didn't think too much about what was going on, even if the two of them were physically close together, he still didn't have that self-awareness.

He has not formally taken a step towards Osamu Dazai, and the relationship between the two is still a sincere friendship.

"Next time if you still plan to commit suicide, I will still stop you."

"Ah... Then I will be troubled." Osamu Dazai said, "I don't want to cause trouble to others when I commit suicide."

Osamu Dazai asked him a question like a whim.

"Do you want to use your personality on me?"

"...?"

Huazawa Asahi was surprised for a moment, thought about it, and agreed.

People like Osamu Dazai, who tend to think more about things, don't like being peeped into their inner world.Now Osamu Dazai took the initiative to open up his heart for him to see.

In fact, in various senses, Hanazawa Asahi did not want to see Dazai Osamu's inner world.At that time, it was only a short three seconds of contact, and as soon as he stepped into Dazai Osamu's inner world, negative emotions would flood in like a tide.In the dream, there are hundreds of thousands of suicide reincarnations of Osamu Dazai. The feeling of loneliness made him hold his throat sadly, trying to liberate himself from the sadness through the pain and suffocation.

He was able to empathize with Osamu Dazai for wanting to commit suicide, and it became understandable.It was also completely inadvertently for three seconds, Hanazawa Asahi became more in-depth understanding of Osamu Dazai.

From the perspective of a friend, Osamu Dazai would never harm him.

Hanazawa Asahi thought, it would be no problem to look again.

Generally speaking, it has not been a particularly long time since the last time I peeped into Osamu Dazai's inner world.

Osamu Dazai is not such a generous person, if he suddenly let him see his inner world, there must be something sneaky in it.

"...Don't scare me, my personality can be removed anytime and anywhere."

Before entering the inner world, Hanazawa Asahi couldn't help but say something.

Osamu Dazai's face remained unchanged, as if it had nothing to do with it.He waved at him, "Go early and come back early."

"..."

Hanazawa Asahi frowned, mumbled the name "Osamu Dazai" in confusion, and jumped right into it.

Hanazawa Asahi held his breath subconsciously, but he didn't feel the pain of suffocation immediately.It's not like being in a turbulent river, trying your best to get a breath in the rapids with nowhere to float.

Unexpectedly, he opened his eyes to carefully observe Osamu Dazai's current inner world.

——Totally beyond my imagination.

At that time, there was nothing but a calm lake surface except the blackness, the white line and the full moon.

Such a scene disappeared at this moment, as if it had been washed by a river and became clean.

Hanazawa Asahi was a little surprised.

The inner world cannot be easily changed in a short period of time.

He stared blankly at the light in front of him, so beautiful that people couldn't look away.

The reason why black and white comics are held in a high position in Japan is that the concise and powerful black, white and gray divide the clearest world.

Osamu Dazai's inner world is no longer as dark as it used to be.Black, white, gray, everything is clearly distinguished, no longer like at that time, only a large area of ​​black filled everything.

Hanazawa Asahi opened his eyes wide, looking at the brand new world in front of him.

The full moon hangs high in the northwest, and it seems to be moving forward slowly, casting soft moonlight downward.The dark clouds disappeared, as if blown away by the wind, revealing the sparse starlight inside.

The silent thick black lake, like stagnant water, is completely different from the past.In a trance at the bottom of the lake, I could faintly see glittering gold powder.I can't tell whether it is the moonlight, the refracted light of the stars, or the hidden color in the lake.

Not far away, there is a small stream of running water hidden between the cracks in the rocks.At some point, the water flow gathered together and broke through a small hole in the cliff in one breath, allowing the dead lake water to reprogram the living water.

The world is no longer dead and silent, and there are no redundant plants and living things.

Loneliness is like a broken crescent moon, which only exists on the superficial surface.Just like in a painting, once it is performed, you can clearly feel the emotion of the painting, which is a kind of artistic conception.It is already close to the feeling of suffocation in the past.

The changes are too great.

Hanazawa Asahi turned his head in a daze, trying to find the figure belonging to Osamu Dazai in the lake.I want to confirm whether I have entered into another inner world by mistake.

"Asahi."

Osamu Dazai confronted Hanazawa Asahi.

He laughed at Yan Yan.

Wearing a camel-colored windbreaker that Hanazawa Asahi is familiar with, he flutters with the wind and makes a sound of hunting.The hair covered one of his eyes, and Hanazawa Asahi saw the boy in the suit with a bandage on his right eye like a vision.

The boy in black glanced at him blankly, as if looking at a stranger who had nothing to do with him, and left without saying a word.

He walked towards the depths of the lake step by step, gradually becoming like a mirror image.

One side of the lake is the present, and the other side is the world shrouded in a lot of thick black, except for the full moon, there is no life.

In the blink of an eye, that phantom-like scene disappeared without a trace.Only Osamu Dazai, who was in his 20s, was left and spoke to him.

"Do you know how I feel right now?" Dazai said.

Hanazawa Asahi was shocked by Osamu Dazai's huge changes in his inner world at first, but he didn't feel anything carefully yet.When Osamu Dazai mentioned it, Hanazawa Asahi realized that his fundamental purpose had not been fulfilled yet.

Osamu Dazai in his inner world and the real Osamu Dazai have different memories.Although it is the same person and character, the real Osamu Dazai cannot drive the Osamu Dazai in his inner world.

Hanazawa Asahi held his breath, put aside any distracting thoughts, and shared the same feelings with Osamu Dazai.

It's just that Hanazawa Asahi felt puzzled, perhaps because he had never experienced this kind of emotion.

There were some cappuccinos like the ones he had had.

It is mellow and bitter, after tasting it carefully, the first reaction on the tip of the tongue is the maturity of adults.The bitterness is suddenly mixed with the unobtrusive sweetness of milk.The bitterness on the tip of the tongue sets off the sweetness, and I can't help savoring the sweetness with joy, it's so sweet.

The sweetness of the milk is wrapped in the coffee, and it seems to be extremely reluctant, and it is shown off to others.

It's too sweet.

Hanazawa Asahi was a little dazed.

It was an emotion he had never dabbled in.

Completely subconsciously, she set her eyes on Osamu Dazai, seeking an answer from him.

In my mind, I couldn't help thinking whether my personality was wrong, or how could I feel this strange emotion.

Hanazawa Asahi feels that he has grown up for nearly 20 years, and he has tasted all the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of the world more or less.Where would it be as confusing as it is now.

Osamu Dazai sighed, he walked slowly, walked up to Hanazawa Asahi, and knelt down.That gesture looked like he wanted to whisper to him, Hanazawa Asahi was unprepared for this, he looked up in doubt and waited for Osamu Dazai to give him a correct answer.

Osamu Dazai slowly approached.

Hanazawa Asahi's lips warmed up, but the brief contact for a few seconds made Hanazawa Asahi's brain stop functioning.

"I like you, idiot. I'm so obvious, why don't you follow the routine." Osamu Dazai kissed the corner of his mouth helplessly.

Huazawa Asahi was so frightened that he backed away, dispelling his personality as if he was running away.

Opening his eyes again, he saw Osamu Dazai's enlarged face.

Hanazawa Asahi still maintained the posture lying on top of him.

He felt how close he was to Dazai Osamu in this posture, and immediately bounced off Dazai Osamu's body recklessly.

Osamu Dazai was smiling, his voice became low and sexy, with a hint of ridicule, "Did you feel it?"

"..." Hanazawa Asahi covered his lips, under Dazai Osamu's inexplicable eyes, his eyes moved from side to side, but he didn't dare to look at Dazai Osamu.

He shouted completely subconsciously, and said in a trembling voice: "We are friends, Mr. Dazai!!"

Dazai Osamu: "..."

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To be honest, I'm really glad that I wrote the detailed outline, otherwise it would be a dream, and I couldn't write anymore. Counting the meal time, it would take five hours every day, which is terrible (vomit soul)

However, I'm still stuck, hehehehe, even if I hunt down with a 40-meter machete, I'll see you tomorrow, slip away

There are still some small details that will be changed tomorrow, and I will go to bed and do my homework in the shower.