you better not like me

The first time the two ate together was hot pot.

Zhan Ke will always remember that scene, the tumbling soup in the pot set off layers of heat waves, followed by the innocent smiling face of the teenager.

At that time, Chen Yan was so poor that his pockets were empty, and he still wanted to invite him to dinner for everything.

Zhan Ke smiled and agreed, "Okay."

Chen Yan took the initiative to mention what it meant in the past, and Zhan Ke's feelings couldn't be more clear.

The impenetrable net that he had been guarding all along finally showed some flaws on his own initiative.

The hot pot restaurant is close to the No. [-] Middle School, but far from here.

Chen Yan's originally planned walking route was not that far away, and with the big sun still hanging in the sky, he finally decided to drive.

After getting in the car, Chen Yan thought while fastening his seat belt, it really became a complete dinner action.

"Do you know the way?" Chen Yan asked.

Zhan Ke said with a smile: "I've become familiar with this area during this period of time, and I probably know how to get there. Remember to remind me if I make a mistake."

Chen Yan leaned back and dozed off lazily, "Okay."

Zhan Ke went out to buy groceries in the morning and walked around. His intuitive feeling is that even though he has lived in this city for 18 years, his familiarity is still only between his home and the fourth middle school.

The pitiful range of activities is also related to his temperament that he never liked to play since he was a child.

"Is your company just leaving it alone?" Chen Yan asked suddenly.

Zhan Ke was flattered, he blinked, and took a moment to get used to Chen Yan's sudden concern for him, "There are other people guarding, I... occasionally check emails."

"En." Chen Yan responded lightly.

After a while, he suddenly said, "Actually, there is still a question I've been wanting to ask."

Zhan Ke didn't know how lucky he was today to wait until Chen Yan took the initiative to chat with him again and again.

"Ask anything you want," he said.

Chen Yan wiped the sweat from his forehead casually, and said in a relaxed tone: "Actually, I don't know how to ask clearly." He felt that this question was a test of his language organization ability, but also a test of mental endurance.

Although he has long felt that he is invulnerable to all poisons, only he knows how much he can bear psychologically.

"You came to me because your parents are gone, and no one is putting pressure on you... Or, the general environment is relatively relaxed, so..."

"Because of you." Zhan Ke said hurriedly: "It's just because of you. I have never had a good relationship with my parents. Zhan Zheng has a good relationship with my mother, but we have a bad relationship with my father. It doesn't matter what they say, I study Just to be self-reliant in the future and get rid of them completely.”

After a pause, he added: "Actually...whether at that time or now, I don't know much about...the environment in which people like us live."

Zhan Ke turned his head to look at Chen Yan, and smiled, "Actually, since I was a child, I was not interested in little girls. Later, I gradually learned that there is a type of people who are not interested in girls by nature, but I didn't particularly doubt myself. Because I'm not interested in boys either."

"It was after you appeared that I became particularly aware of myself."

"But in fact, in the past five years, I have often started to doubt myself, because I found that no matter how long it has passed, I have no feelings for anyone other than you. So it's just because of you."

Chen Yan was in a daze for a long time, but Zhan Ke didn't bother him, letting him figure it out in his own world.

After a long time, Chen Yan finally came back to his senses.

He laughed and said, "Should I give some reaction, such as expressing emotion, or something."

Zhan Ke smiled, "It's okay, as long as you heard it."

"Aren't you going the wrong way?" Zhan Ke asked after stopping the car.

While unfastening his seat belt, Chen Yan deliberately said, "Wrong way, don't get out of the car."

Zhan Ke smiled and opened the car door, followed Chen Yan into the shop.

The decoration of the store has changed, and the layout is completely different from what it was more than ten years ago. Chen Yan found a corner to sit down, and Zhan Ke sat across from him.

After Chen Yan finished ordering, the waiter just walked away, and Zhan Ke asked, "How do you know it's still open?"

Chen Yan raised his left eyebrow, "Pinch your fingers, the taste is so good, it should be very difficult to go bankrupt."

Zhan Ke smiled, "It's amazing, it's so accurate."

Chen Yan sneered, "Where are you coaxing the kindergarten children?" Then he said seriously: "How many times have I come here to eat."

Zhan Ke asked softly, "Are you alone?"

Chen Yan looked at him with distaste, "Who still eats hot pot alone these days? I have had it with Ji Yi and Yang Qi."

Zhan Ke suddenly felt a little stuck in his heart. He subconsciously felt that this was the "secret base" of himself and Chen Yan, but he didn't expect that in Chen Yan's eyes, this was just an ordinary hot pot restaurant, where he could bring friends at will.

For a moment it made no sense at all.

Chen Yan pretended not to notice the subtle changes on his face.

Ten years have passed, and everything in this store is different from before, ranging from the decoration and layout to the style of the bowls and chopsticks.

As soon as the pot was opened, Chen Yan poured a whole plate of fat beef into it.

Zhan Ke looked at the heat wave rising in front of his eyes, and the mature appearance of the boy ten years later.I feel that everything can overlap with the original, but I feel that all the details are not right.

Chen Yan will no longer take care of his feelings, will no longer urge him to "eat quickly", and will not pull out a big smile and say "it's okay" after he apologizes, and insist on being friends with him.

Will Chen Yan feel the same way?

"If it's inconvenient to work, it's better to live in Beijing. People of our age have more important careers." Chen Yan said suddenly.

Zhan Ke looked at him and asked boldly, "Are you with me?"

Chen Yan raised his tone, "Why should I be with you?"

Zhan Ke shook his head, "Then I won't."

Chen Yan smiled lightly, "That's up to you."

Zhan Ke shook his head suddenly and said, "Work is not important. If I can, I really don't want to work at all."

But he was in a very difficult situation back then, he had to pay off his debts and take care of his useless younger brother.

Otherwise, he would be willing to be an ordinary office worker and work for others, so what if he works from nine to five, and he doesn't care about the salary.

"Huh?" Chen Yan didn't expect him to have such an idea, "If it's not for money, who would want to work."

"Stop working if you don't like it, I can support you." I don't know what happened tonight, Zhan Ke suddenly felt that no matter how outrageous his words were, Chen Yan would never get angry with him.

And the fact seems to be the same, Chen Yan's complexion didn't change, he didn't say as he expected, "It's not relative or reason, why should I let you raise it".

I just didn't answer and just buried myself in eating.

"When I win [-] million, I will resign." Chen Yan said.

He has been saying this sentence for many years, and Zhan Ke has heard it several times.

"I'll give you all of my wealth, and if you don't like it, you can leave." Zhan Ke said.

Chen Yan stopped answering.

It seems that he eats more than usual when he eats hot pot. Zhan Ke saw that most of the meat went down to his stomach, and he didn't cry out for being full.

"I can't digest too much at night."

Chen Yan didn't care, "Anyway, I'm going to sleep when I'm tired."

Zhan Ke once again spent an unknown amount of time in the familiar silence, and suddenly heard Chen Yan say: "If you hadn't met me, you should be married by now."

Touching the word "marriage", Zhan Ke's hand holding the chopsticks shook violently, and the chopsticks fell on the table.

The waiter happened to pass by and took a new pair for him.

Zhan Ke took it, and Mumu said thank you.

"Don't say that." Don't say anything if you haven't met him.

Zhan Ke never dared to think about what he would be like now if he hadn't met Chen Yan.

Don't even talk about marriage.

He was too afraid to hear the word marriage.

"Why can't you say it? It's very realistic. If you didn't see me fight, didn't help me explain to the teacher, and I didn't meet you on the street, let alone drag you to eat hot pot, and force me to make friends with you. Everything will be different, haven't you thought about it?"

Chen Yan's tone was very flat, as if all these scenarios had been played out countless times in his mind.So that when it is mentioned, it will be as calm as talking about something unimportant.

Zhan Ke lowered his gaze not to look at him, and repeated again: "Don't say that."

But today Chen Yan is determined to talk to him about this reality, "Maybe you should be more realistic. You said you don't know much about this group, so you can search the Internet or learn about it through other channels. Right to the end?"

Chen Yan said with a wry smile: "In the end, everyone got married and had children, and they never dared to admit that they had ever been in love with the same sex."

Zhan Ke couldn't listen anymore, he had a painful expression on his face, "Why did you tell me this all of a sudden?"

The author has something to say: Gu Gu Gu

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