I would rather die than be the white moonlight

The days of chemotherapy were like hell on earth, lying on the bed and letting the corrosive liquid flow into the body.

Shen Ke could hardly eat.Coupled with the feeling of vomiting brought about by chemotherapy, Shen Ke felt uncomfortable on an empty stomach and vomited all the acid water in his stomach while holding the trash can next to him.

Su Liang watched from the side, with mixed emotions in his heart, he was even a little unclear whether the decision he made at the beginning was correct.

Shen Ke didn't want to tell his parents that Su Liang shouldn't mention his affairs when he asked Su Liang to share the dividends to pay back the money, but Su Liang looked at the old faces of Shen Ke's parents, and suddenly didn't want to lie, so he let it go.

Shen Ke looked at his mother who was howling beside him, and looked at Su Liang with a lot of complaints in his eyes.But at the moment when he saw his mother, too much grievance spewed out of his heart, and the attitude of pretending to be strong these days collapsed instantly.

Shen Ke gently patted his mother on the back, saying over and over again that he was fine, his mother stopped crying, choked up and showed a big smile at Shen Ke, holding Shen Ke's face and smiling: "It's really Thin, I made chicken soup for you."

When his mother lifted the rice bucket, Shen Ke's goal was the oily surface on the top. Shen Ke didn't even wear shoes, so he hurriedly got down to the trash can and started to vomit.

My mother froze there when she saw this scene, and got up quickly, because she got up too hastily, and the chicken soup was overturned on the ground. The chicken soup that my mother had been staying up all day and night without closing her eyes was just like that, but no one came. After paying attention, they all came to Shen Ke, and the mother patted Shen Ke on the back, and the tears didn't stop: "My son, why did you suffer this crime at such a young age? Why didn't this disease come to me? I will take my place." suffer."

Shen Ke vomited uncomfortably, Su Liang who was standing beside him patted Shen Ke's mother on the shoulder a few times: "Mom, don't say such things."

Su Liang's "Mom" seemed like he wanted to call it that way before, and when he blurted it out, it was extremely smooth, but Shen's father who was standing next to him glanced at Su Liang, with a lot of admiration in his eyes.

When Shen Ke stood up, the physiological tears in his eyes filled his eye sockets, Su Liang wiped them away for Shen Ke distressedly, and then helped Shen Ke onto the bed.

The action between the two big men made Shen's father and Shen's mother standing next to him feel no disobedience. Shen Ke felt a little dizzy before his eyes. He took Su Liang's hand and placed it on the burning pain in his upper abdomen. Feeling the warmth inside Su Liang's palm, Shen Ke snored comfortably.

Shen's mother next to her was stunned for a while, and she and Shen's father looked at each other, inexplicably feeling that she was redundant, Shen Ke's actions made Su Liang feel a little embarrassed, and stretched out a hand to scratch the back of her head to see. To Shen's father and Shen's mother.

Shen's father coughed twice in embarrassment, pulled Shen's mother and turned around to leave, saying: "I'll go to the doctor's to check the situation first, and I'll bring you some light porridge this afternoon."

Seeing Su Liang nodded, Shen's father and Shen's mother walked out of the ward door. Shen's mother looked at Shen's father and said with emotion: "Actually, I feel that it is not bad for my son to find such a person who loves him."

There was silence between the couple for a while, Shen's father patted Shen's mother on the shoulder, held Shen's mother's hand, and the two walked side by side to the doctor's office.

The couple are old, but they also know what cancer means. They didn't hear the doctor's conclusion before, and they didn't look like that much. Now when they heard that the life expectancy is not long, the couple were stunned on the spot. After listening to the doctor explain.The couple staggered out of the hospital door.

Father Shen, who had quit smoking for a long time, went to the canteen next to him and bought a box of inexpensive cigarettes. He lit the cigarette and put it in his mouth and took a puff. Mother Shen's tears never stopped. Said: "Still smoking, still smoking, you old man smokes and drinks, how come my family is sick."

Shen's mother pointed and cursed at Shen's father, and attracted a lot of onlookers pointing and pointing, Shen's father was thin-skinned, looked at Shen's mother's shrew-like appearance without speaking, and silently pulled Shen's mother aside.This time, Shen's father didn't say to scold Shen's mother, but just sighed, and stepped on the cigarette butt to his feet: "Let's go, go home and make porridge for the children."

Shen's mother seemed to have noticed the onlookers around her, so she couldn't help but shut her mouth, gave Shen's father a hard look, and then picked up her steps and left Shen's father behind.

After returning home, Shen's mother ignored Shen's father, and even Shen's father came up to ask questions. Shen's father knew that Shen's mother was suffering, and finally waited for Shen's mother to put the lid on the pot. In her arms, Shen's mother choked up and said, "Tell me, if you hadn't been unwilling to accept Su Liang at that time, the time I spent with my son would not have been so inexplicably shortened by five years."

Father Shen sighed, let go of Mother Shen slowly, and began to blame himself, put on his coat and walked out silently, took out the lighter and lit another cigarette, the cigarette brought Father Shen an instant The numbness made Shen's father feel more and more uncomfortable in his heart, and the big man cried like a child while holding on to the wall next to him.

Shen Ke's stomach was so hot that he couldn't sleep at all. He opened his eyes and looked at Su Liang who was lying next to him and patting his back to coax him to sleep. Su Liang felt Shen Ke's sight and turned to look at Shen Ke. When I was there, I showed a smiling face: "Isn't it uncomfortable? It won't be uncomfortable after falling asleep."

Shen Ke blinked his eyes, rubbed his stomach and said, "I can't sleep." As if remembering something, he took Su Liang's hand: "Tell me what happened to us before, just as listening It's a story, so I'm sure I can fall asleep."

Su Liang can refuse everything, except Shen Ke's request.Seeing Shen Ke's pleading eyes, Su Liang smiled slightly, and began to slowly talk about those years.

Su Liang stretched out his hand to cover Shen Ke's eyelids, Shen Ke closed his eyes subconsciously, and buried his face in Su Liang's chest: "When I met you at that time, it seemed to be the day when it was snowing. Your face is flushed from the cold, standing on the only bridge next to our city, smiling happily when you see us coming."

"That time seemed to be a friendship, and many beauties came." When Su Liang said this, Shen Ke stretched out a hand and squeezed Su Liang's waist directly. Su Liang took a breath and hurriedly explained Said: "It's a pity that my sight only falls on you."

Su Liang spoke slowly, including how he was jealous of Liang Mu at that time, and told Shen Ke everything, and then deliberately vilified Liang Mu in front of Shen Ke, making Shen Ke burst into laughter .

The later days were too ordinary, there was nothing special, the days of the two of them were relatively warm, Su Liang couldn't even remember the noise, but these daily things made Shen Ke start to doze off.

Seeing Shen Ke nodding his head again and again, and the warm breath sprayed onto his chest, Su Liang smiled and pulled the quilt up, kissed the corner of Shen Ke's mouth: "Have a good sleep."

The next morning, after Shen Ke entered the toilet, he didn't come out for a long, long time. Su Liang paced back and forth, but he didn't see Shen Ke come out for a long time.Su Liang suddenly became anxious, and couldn't care about anything else, not to mention that there was no privacy between the two of them, so Su Liang broke into the toilet directly, and saw Shen Ke standing in front of the mirror with a lock of hair in his hand.

Shen Ke looked at the lock of hair, in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking.Hearing the sound of the door opening, he looked at Su Liang with a blank expression.

Su Liang heard what the doctor said about the sequelae of chemotherapy, and now seeing Shen Ke's bald head, he felt distressed, didn't speak, closed the door and walked out.

Su Liang didn't say a word, which made Shen Ke feel a little sad in his heart. Shen Ke even disliked his current appearance, let alone Su Liang. Shen Ke didn't speak, and put his hair into the trash can beside him.

After a while, before Shen Ke went out of the toilet, he heard the door open. Su Liang took Shen Ke's hand, walked to a chair beside him and sat down, took out the razor and began to shave Shen Ke's hair. Ke was a little puzzled, but still didn't speak, and let Su Liang play tricks on him.

The roots of Shen Ke's hair were already loose, and many of them fell off the ground with just a flick. After finishing, Su Liang put a hat on Shen Ke's head, and then put the mirror in front of Shen Ke. Looking at the bamboo-like person in the mirror, Shen Ke began to despise himself: "It's so ugly."

Su Liang patted his head, touched the thick hair on his head, and was stunned for a while.He picked up the razor from the side and shouted at Shen Ke: "You wait!"

After finishing speaking, Su Liang ran away without a trace, went to the toilet and locked the door behind him. When he came out, Shen Ke saw Cheng Liang Cheng Liang's forehead, and Shen Kepu laughed out loud. Su Liang seemed to have done it for himself. Proud of this incident, he took the spare hat for Shen Ke and put it on top of his head, then opened his thumb and second thumb and placed it on his chin, making a handsome gesture: "I feel Very handsome, Shen Xiaoke, are you overwhelmed by my handsomeness?"

It is false to say that you are not moved. I don’t know if it is because of his extra fragile personality after being sick. Shen Ke cried directly. Shen Ke cried extremely loudly, which scared Su Liang who was still posing handsomely next to him. Got a butt to sit on the ground.

Su Liang touched her sore butt, stepped forward and pulled Shen Ke's sleeve: "Don't cry, please, baby."

Shen Ke cried uncomfortably, and spit out a sentence: "I, I lost my hair and became ugly. Why do you look uglier than me after losing all your hair?"

Su Liang was naturally aware of Shen Ke's difficulties and sadness. He thought for a while, but before he could let go, he opened his mouth and said, "Shen Ke, you have changed, you are no longer that Shen Xiaoke."

Shen Ke was amused by Su Liang's words, grabbed Su Liang's clothes and kissed Su Liang's mouth: "Thank you, Su Liang."

If it were not for your comfort, I would still be in a state of confusion and never come out.