sleep in your heart

When people realize how naive they were in the past, they often passed that naive age long ago, and the naive self at that time missed many irreparable people and things.

The 18-year-old Zheng Zhi feels that Japan is a long way to go, and that there is still a lot of time in the future for him to think about his feelings for You Zeyi, but he has never thought about whether the future will give him this opportunity.

But at the moment, he still suppressed the feelings that shouldn't have sprouted, and focused on the things he should pay attention to the most.

In the second monthly exam, You Zeyi improved ten places. Although he still couldn't make it to the top of the class, at least it was a good momentum.

Originally, he should be very happy because of this, but another thing made him puzzled.

Since the National Day holiday, Zheng Zhi has obviously started to neglect him, and he doesn't talk to him very often. When he asks questions, he just talks about the topic and doesn't say anything more. This makes You Zeyi feel strange, and makes him even more so feeling terrible.

You Zeyi couldn't help but wonder if Zheng Zhi had discovered his dirty thoughts, otherwise why did he suddenly keep a distance from him?

For several days in a row, You Zeyi was easily distracted no matter what he was doing, and once he even went out to use the bathroom and almost opened the door to enter the women's bathroom, but was laughed at by the people present.

After losing someone once, You Zeyi couldn't lift his head up for a long time. During physical education class, Ning Lu came to him and asked cautiously, "Did something happen to you recently? I feel out of my mind."

You Ze shook his head, he didn't dare to say it, even if his thoughts were all in his throat, he didn't dare to let others know.

"It's fine if you don't say anything," Ning Lu sat beside You Zeyi with a notebook in his arms, hesitated for a long time, and suddenly asked him in a low voice, "Well...does Zhou Tong have a girlfriend?"

You Zeyi was taken aback by his question: "Ah? Who said that?"

"No, no one said, I just asked casually." Ning Lu put the notebook on his lap, rubbed his fingers vigorously back and forth on the leather, hesitated several times, and finally said, "It's okay, I'll go Downstairs."

Ning Lu didn't give You Zeyi a chance to ask more questions, and ran away with his notebook in his arms. When the man ran towards the stairs, he accidentally tripped over himself, flustered, as if he was hiding something in his heart ghost thoughts.

You Ze looked at Zhou Tong on the basketball court, and a thought suddenly popped up in his mind, but then, Zheng Zhi appeared in his line of sight, that thought was forgotten, his mind went blank, and his eyes followed Zheng Zhi Until the end of get out of class.

It's not that Zheng Zhi didn't know that You Zeyi was looking at him, because of the other party's gaze, he couldn't find his playing state at all, and he passed the ball to the wrong person several times.

When get out of class was over, Zhou Tong walked out with his arms around Zheng Zhi's shoulders, and teased him, "What's the matter? Didn't take the first place in age, and the game skills were affected?"

Zheng Zhi was about to refute something, but You Zeyi happened to catch up from behind.

The two looked at each other subconsciously, both a little embarrassed.

Zhou Tong felt that the atmosphere was not right, so he asked casually, "What's wrong with you two?"

"It's okay." Zheng Zhi pushed Zhou Tong away, looked at You Zeyi, and continued walking.

You Zeyi was a little annoyed by Zheng Zhi's reaction, he thought hard and still didn't know how he offended him, it was so inexplicable, it was chilling.

You Zeyi is not the kind of person who is skinless and shameless, he started to be cold towards him obviously, and he was too embarrassed to put his face on the other side's cold ass, just like that, the two of them hardly said a word for the next few days Pass.

You Zeyi felt as if he had returned to the state when his mother had just passed away for a moment. He didn't say a word all day, and hid his head in his own world.

Those exercises, if you know it, do it seriously, and if you don’t know it, you don’t ask others anymore, and you dig the answers and examples by yourself, but it takes more time, and you will figure it out sooner or later.

You Zeyi tried his best to fill up his time. He got up at five o'clock in the morning and went to the study room, and returned to the dormitory after one o'clock in the evening. He didn't give himself even a little time to think about Zheng Zhi. People, only when the other party does not exist.

The two people who were sitting side by side seemed to be completely strangers to each other in the past few days, even if their elbows touched accidentally, it would be like getting an electric shock, and they would withdraw immediately.

You Zeyi felt uncomfortable, but he tried his best not to let himself fall into that emotion, he told himself that he was not qualified to think about these things, his life could no longer stand the game.

More than a year ago, You Zeyi already felt that life would not be worse, and everything he experienced had made him strong enough, no matter what he faced, he would no longer feel afraid.

However, he still overestimated himself.

He just came back from his aunt's house on Sunday afternoon, and as soon as he entered the dormitory, he felt that his roommate looked at him in the wrong way, with jokes and sarcasm, as if he was looking at a clown.

You Zeyi hates such stares, or he hates the stares of any unfamiliar people.

At this time, his first reaction was to run away, so he simply packed up and went to the self-study room with the exercise book in his arms.

When he opened the door and entered, there were not many people in the study room, but the seat he used to sit where he could see the basketball court had already been taken, so he had no choice but to move to another place.

Just as You Zeyi sat down and spread out the books, the door of the study room opened again. He looked up and found that it was Zhou Tong.

As soon as Zhou Tong saw him, he immediately ran over and pulled him outside. You Zeyi couldn't stand still and hit the table. Everyone in the room looked up at them, and he apologized embarrassingly.

"What are you doing?" You Zeyi closed the door of the study room, feeling very embarrassed to disturb others.

"Have you read our school forum?"

You Zeyi has never heard of the school having a forum. He doesn't know much about Eleven High. He lives on campus now and doesn't have a computer. It can be said that he lives outside the Internet.

"No, what's the matter?" Looking at Zhou Tong's expression, You Ze felt that something bad had happened, "What forum? I don't know."

Zhou Tong scratched his hair irritably, rubbed his nose again, and asked, "Then let me ask you, that..."

Seeing him hesitating, You Zeyi can already conclude that there is definitely trouble.

"Are you going to tell me or not?" You Zeyi was a little anxious when he saw him like this. Zhou Tong usually looks confident about everything, but now he is completely like an ant on a hot pot, and that anxiety has been contagious gave him.

"Tell me." Zhou Tong pulled him to the stairwell again, and asked mysteriously, "Are you... gay?"

You Zeyi had heard a lot of news like a thunderbolt, all of which left huge scars on his body. He thought that after having these scars, he would be calmer and more rational when facing anything, but The moment Zhou Tong asked this sentence, his brain was still blank and his fingers were numb.

"It can't be true, can it?" Zhou Tong is a smart man, and when he saw You Zeyi's reaction, he was immediately stunned, "Really? Don't scare me."

As soon as You Ze could hear Zhou Tong's words clearly, he couldn't open his mouth to respond. He felt like a drowning person. Once he opened his mouth, he drank the sea water, and then sank deeper and deeper.

"Old You, say something," Zhou Tong pinched You Zeyi's shoulder, "It's okay, buddy supports you, if anyone dares to gossip about you, I'll beat him up!"

You Zeyi felt that Zhou Tong should pinch his shoulders quite hard, otherwise why would the blue veins on the back of the opponent's hands come out?But he didn't feel the pain, he just felt dizzy and baffled, this was clearly his secret, why did everyone seem to know it?

"Zhou Tong," You Zeyi was finally able to speak, he said, "I'm not, no, I don't know, why did it happen?"

You Zeyi finds it strange that he is still not sure whether he is a homosexual in other people's mouth, but he can be sure that he is secretly in love with Zheng Zhi.

If I like someone of the same gender as me, does that mean I'm gay?

You Zeyi couldn't figure it out, this problem was more difficult than any math problem he encountered.

"Old You, are you okay?" Zhou Tong looked at him with a pale face but red eyes, suddenly worried, "Don't scare me."

"I'm fine," You Zeyi finally calmed down, and he said, "What are you talking about, who did you listen to?"

"You can't say a word or two, come with me." Zhou Tong dragged him downstairs, and happened to meet someone else going upstairs, and watched them subconsciously show that expression as if they were looking at a freak.

You Zeyi was hurt by that gaze, he withdrew the wrist that was being held by Zhou Tong, lowered his head, and walked out of the dormitory building quickly.

Zhou Tong glanced back at the person who had just looked at them, cursed in a low voice, and quickly followed.

The two went to the Internet cafe opposite the school, Zhou Tong directly searched the school's forum, clicked in to read, the top few posts made You Zeyi frowned again.

"You choose one", "homosexuality", "high school (13) transfer student".

Zhou Tong gave up his seat to You Zeyi, patted him on the shoulder and said, "Look for yourself."

You Zeyi sat in front of the computer, staring at the screen for a long time, he didn't move or speak, Zhou Tong looked at him worriedly, feeling like he wanted to stare at the screen with his eyes.

"Old You..." Zhou Tong called him in a low voice.

As soon as You Ze came to his senses, he opened the top post without blinking.

This post was posted the earliest and had the most replies. He saw a photo as soon as he entered.

It was a photo of him hugging that gay boy on the way back to school when he went to the city to return books a while ago. The person who took the photo was not far from him, but You Zeyi didn't notice that someone was taking pictures of him at that time.

In the photo, he was circled in red, and he was marked as a transfer student of the third year of high school (13). The school only remembered this when they saw him. Also, I remember that he seemed to be very close to that little girl in the liberal arts class. No wonder, it turned out to be dead glass.

As soon as You Ze looked at the line of words, he couldn't help but clenched the mouse in his hand. He gritted his teeth and scrolled down to read the comments, saying that he was disgusting, that Ning Lu was disgusting, and that homosexuality was disgusting.

Zhou Tong frowned and looked at You Zeyi. Seeing the sweat dripping down his cheeks but he remained indifferent, he was a little worried. He raised his hand, squeezed his shoulder, and said in a low voice, "Old You, tell me, what do you want?" Don’t want me to post now and scold all these people back?”

You Zeyi closed the webpage, stared blankly for a while, then stood up and said to Zhou Tong, "I want to go out to get some air."