Rebirth of the Abandoned Son Without Regrets

No longer thinking about unnecessary things, I looked at Yin Chuan seriously, looking at his deep black eyes, just like staring at him a long time ago, but this time there was no emotion in my eyes.Qingyue's voice was abnormally empty because of the numbness and hollowness of the master's nerves. I said slowly: "Yin Chuan, I have to go. Gu Yuanyang, there is no meaning for existence." Since the current existence will not touch a chord in my heart , then use death to add a touch of freshness.I want to be truly alive.

"Yuanyang, I won't let you leave again." Yin Chuan's eyes became darker and darker, his lips trembled slightly, but there was a kind of pain in his forceful words that I didn't understand.His lips covered mine, encroaching hard.I didn't move or react at all.He finally let me go, his eyes reflected my appearance, he said: "Yuanyang, you must live, live well."

Live well?The familiar words made my emotions finally fluctuate, which is indeed what I was looking for.But as long as Gu Yuanyang is still alive, how can I live well?Gu Yuanyang's life has long been empty and hopeless to the point that nothing but gloom remains.This kind of me, this kind of everything, can't be thrown away, can't be erased.Gu Yuanyang, there is no reason to exist anymore.That lively young man named Gu Yuanyang, the one who could smile and chase after the sun, was killed in the end.

I didn't say a word, just trying to break free from Yin Chuan's confinement, but only got his arms more and more vigorously.No more unnecessary resistance, I opened my eyes quietly and let him lead me out of the bathroom.I was put under house arrest.All sharp and lethal things disappeared in his residence, and there was no thing that could be called a weapon in the house of a gang leader.

He is like a taut string, and the only person who can touch his nerves is me.As long as he is with me, he will always pay attention to my every move, for fear that I have the opportunity to leave him.Fortunately, I still have a little freedom.At least I can still walk around the house.I was silent, secretly looking for an opportunity to leave.

Yin Chuan always guarded me, staring at me with those pure black eyes, as if he wanted to see something.I still looked indifferent, and I rarely gave him my eyes.But he didn't get bored, he talked about some things day after day, things that were no different from dust to me.He said he was wrong and he asked me how I could give him a chance.The rambling words are full of that intense and complicated thing called love.

Every time, I just sat there blankly, listening to the words that were filled with too many emotions that I couldn't understand, without any reaction.Gradually, I found that the light in Yin Chuan's eyes dimmed a little bit, turning into another kind of dark and gloomy thing.

Tonight, he slept soundly.During his constant narration, my heart was very quiet, but my body subconsciously resisted——I frowned.Is there anything necessary to say about those old things?But Yin Chuan seemed a little happier, perhaps because I finally gave him a little reaction, even sleeping a little calmer, and no longer trapped me.

I walked out of bed softly, and I used the latentness I had learned during training to the extreme, and I came to the kitchen.I dug out a bowl from an undetectable place. This is the only bowl in the kitchen, and it is also the bowl that Yin Chuan uses for eating with me every day.The corners of the lips are slightly raised - this is real happiness, I am so happy that I bend my eyes.

As soon as he exerted his strength, the bowl split apart soundlessly.I paused, and felt a gaze locked on me behind me.The broken porcelain in his hand fell unconsciously to the floor, making a blunt sound.I didn't bend down to pick it up, because there was no need any more.Turning around slowly, I saw the man standing behind me.

His gaze was very cold, so cold that it almost solidified, but I felt another, darker emotion wrapping him, making him exude a frightening aura.His black eyes were surprisingly bright at this moment, and the paranoia in that light seemed to destroy everything. "Yuanyang, why do you always leave me?" He asked as if muttering to himself, "I know I was wrong, I was too slow in the last life, I have changed—Yuanyang, forgive me, Okay?" That deep voice was full of regret, sorrow and begging.

My amber eyes were open, but there was nothing in them.Except for the warmth of my body and the heaving of my chest, I am almost dead.I have experienced what the dead have experienced; I also have the idea that the dead want to start again.What a pity that a dead soul resides in a living body.

My exquisite facial features slowly unfolded a faint smile, even that smile was pale and empty, so blunt that the pupils of the man in front of me shrank.With no ups and downs in my voice, accompanied by a voice without warmth, I tilted my head and explained: "Yin Chuan, I don't love you. I only have the idea of ​​ending in my mind and nothing else. Living is very boring. You Can't save me." Just like the scene in the memory smudged by ink, he couldn't save me.

My body should have been burned to ashes in the fire; my soul has already decayed and died in the underworld.When I chose to cut off the power supply and drank the bowl of soup without hesitation, the world was completely cut off from me.Gu Yuanyang's life no longer belongs to me.That crippled life was picked up by mistake, so I will make it back on track.I lowered my eyes and stopped looking at him.

Standing in the moonlight, Yin Chuan could feel the bone-chilling cold and the thicker haze even more than hiding in the darkness.He can no longer look back at Yuanyang.The young man said every word, so calmly, so calm that he was indifferent.Ignore everything and ignore myself.He, can't save him.It was just a wrong step, and the sweet time was deeply obliterated, and no wreckage was left behind.However, even if he is crazy, he still wants to keep him alive.His Yuanyang must be alive.

I can't see the desperate paranoia in Yin Chuan's eyes, and I don't think about everything in this world.I don't care anymore, that's great.Yin Chuan picked me up and walked towards the master bedroom.I finally set my eyes on him again, looking at his black eyes like two clusters of silently burning flames.That flame does not have the temperature of fire, only deep sorrow and madness.

He pressed me down, leaving marks on my body inch by inch, without mercy.As if to prove something, his actions were extremely intense.I didn't move and let him occupy this body.Looking out of the window, the night is as dark as the underworld.Hua, are you crying?That fiery red flower, when will we see you again?

The body undulates with the movement of the person on the body, those pleasures are very clear, but they are completely blocked by me.Now, night is more beautiful than light.It's just that it's getting dawn... my consciousness gradually sank, and I finally fell asleep.When I woke up, my body was bound.Silver chains bound me and imprisoned me in the master bedroom.

Yin Chuan finally stopped repeating those boring words, and brought the meal instead.I swallowed, my eyes blank.He hugged me, looked at my stiff and numb appearance, buried his head on my shoulder, and said in a hoarse voice after a long time: "Yuanyang, I can't let you go. Just stay with me like this, even if you don't love me .” The last few words seemed extremely difficult for him to spit out.

I have never had the right to refuse, whether it was at the beginning or now when I am loved by Yin Chuan.My eyes finally changed, and a sigh overflowed, and I said, "Yin Chuan, how did you ever give me a chance to choose." Hearing this, he just kissed me again and started a new round of plundering.

At the moment when my body was about to reach its peak, my silence was finally broken.My voice didn't have the softness that belonged to when I was in love, it was still dead silent, "Hey, Yin Chuan, what's the point of you being like this?" Every time I blend in deeply, it's always in vain.The five senses are all blunted, and the body becomes only a tool to bind the soul.He let out a low growl, and I closed my eyes, but I felt liquid falling down.Warm, the tip of the tongue is full of bitterness.Perhaps, it is tears.

Day after day of captivity, day after day of taking, I am tired, my body and soul are exhausted.Why do you have to dwell on the past alone?I have wiped out my emotions, forgotten my obsessions, turned my back on the sun and hid in the dark, unable to be redeemed, why should I stay?My head was a little dizzy, and I looked at the man sitting beside me smoking a cigarette.He was surrounded by the same darkness, despair and hoarseness as me.That strong and ruthless man now looks like this.After each happy love, his heart seemed to be more desperate.

Because, he found powerlessly that he really could never call back the person he once was.This cognition became clearer every time, and it filled him with more sorrow and despair.The pain in my heart was almost overflowing, and only Shang was left with the pain.If this is a dream, then it is time to wake up from the dream.After waking up from the dream, the boy would still look at him lovingly, and would call him "Chuan", instead of the present dead silence and indifference.

Yuanyang, his Yuanyang, why was he lost again... The man smoked cigarettes one after another, the smoke blurred his face, and in those pure black eyes, there was nothing but pain. A ray of light.He sat there, as if isolated from the world, only the boy's every move on the bed could affect his emotional changes.

That night.Yin Chuan didn't possess me again, but hugged my body which was getting thinner and thinner.My heart is a little bored, tired of Yin Chuan's intimacy, tired of the deep sadness in his eyes that can no longer be concealed.I broke free from him lightly, and there seemed to be only silence between me and him.I looked out the window and said: "I want to take a bath." He hugged me, and replied after a while: "I will accompany you."

Unmoved in the slightest, I walked slowly to the bathroom, leaving only the sound of the silver chain dragging on the ground in the air.The hot water washed over my body, I knew Yin Chuan was looking at me, I still rubbed my skin vigorously to cover all those marks.I like cleanliness, that's why I'm particularly tired of being Gu Yuanyang.Only by going back cleanly can we reincarnate without any worries.Yin Chuan can't stop, I will.

"Don't wipe it." Yin Chuan seemed to be unable to bear it anymore, and snatched the bath towel from my hand.The skin on his body was already extremely red, and some places had already started to lighten. He said in pain, "Yuanyang, don't hurt yourself." I stood there, and I couldn't feel the slightest beating of my heart.That heart has long been covered with withered grass, decayed and decayed in the dark.Later, Yin Chuan didn't touch me again.

The moon is full.it's time.The man closed his eyes on the bed, without the slightest defense.I pursed my lips meaninglessly, and slashed his neck heavily with the knife in my hand, preventing him from waking up for a short time.The man moved his body, as if trying to resist the deep sleep of his body, but finally fell into a lethargic sleep.His brows were tightly furrowed, and a little sweat broke out on his forehead, as if he was afraid of something.I know that there is not much time left. With Yin Chuan's body, he will wake up soon, and the silver chain on my body cannot be removed.

Recalling the discoveries of the previous few days, my mood finally became a little lighter.Still the bathroom.Squinting, I climbed up the bathtub and fell over a piece of iron.This piece of iron was probably a replacement part of some machine, because it was placed very high, and it happened to be blocked by bottles and cans, so it avoided the fate of being taken away by Yin Chuan.This is my only chance.Living is really depressing and boring, where the body is not as free as the soul.

The sharp iron piece cut through the artery, and the bright red blood flowed happily, leaving a large pool of blood on the white porcelain soon.It's not enough, I need to go faster... Lying in the bathtub, I slashed and slashed myself until my whole body was covered in blood.The thick smell of blood spread in the bathroom, I tilted my head, my eyes blurred.

Does it hurt?Excessive blood loss made my body gradually cold, the lights in front of my eyes were distorted, and even the air was chilly.Actually it doesn't hurt at all.Large swathes of bright red smudged my vision, and I couldn't tell whether it was the blood gushing out of my body or the flowers blooming in the underworld in my fantasy.I can finally leave.This time, there will be no more restraints.What I long for, look forward to, and everything new is coming soon.

Eyelids are getting heavier, and a familiar lightness envelopes me.I finally smiled happily.In a blur, I saw Yin Chuan.He hugged me, only the extreme pain and madness remained in his eyes.Big drops of tears fell on my face, so bitter that even my soul trembled.But I tried my best to open my eyes wide, looked at him, and said with a smile word by word: "Yin Chuan. As I said, you can't save me."

I couldn't see his face clearly anymore, I closed my eyes, and my body was completely cold and stiff at that moment, lifeless.The blood soaked everything, and the rusty smell at the tip of my nose was gradually replaced by another familiar floral fragrance. It seemed that there was a well of reincarnation emitting silver light in front of my eyes.I jumped with all my might—it's over, that's great!