Rebirth of the Abandoned Son Without Regrets

Su Yuan thought, if he hadn't followed Yin Chuan and Gu Yuanyang to the basement out of curiosity and hadn't heard the words about rebirth.But in this world, the most indispensable thing is if, and the most impossible thing is also if.

Su Yuan stumbled back along the circuit, a chaotic picture appeared in his mind, and countless complicated pictures emerged at the same time.He was sweating profusely and had a splitting headache.With the remaining willpower, he propped up his body and walked in the direction where he lived.He wants to see An Ran!

When he finally got home, he saw An Ran waiting for him.Seeing the anxiety in his eyes, Su Yuan wanted to say something, but he had no strength at all.As soon as his body softened, he fell on the bed, his face was very pale, and large drops of sweat dripped from his forehead, making him look more and more fragile.With his eyes closed, Su Yuan finally passed out.An Ran didn't know what happened, even though she was anxious, she didn't dare to leave Su Yuan's side easily, so she had to wipe the sweat on Su Yuan's forehead with a towel.

Su Yuan wandered in the dark, unable to find a way to leave.In the darkness that was originally silent, voices gradually appeared.Su Yuan distinguished carefully, and suddenly realized that it was his own and An Ran's voices.He hurriedly ran in the direction of the sound, and saw a familiar scene.

That was the first time An Ran uttered sarcastic words after they lived together for many years, which hurt his heart.But soon An Ran apologized, and even showed more concern and consideration to him.But the scene in front of him was completely different, so different that it frightened him...even faintly frightened him.

He saw An Ran's indifferent expression, saw the indifference in his eyes, saw himself in the picture blankly in place, and the confusion in his eyes seemed to spread to the bottom of his heart.He watched himself in the picture getting more and more desperate, watching An Ran's expression become more and more violent, and his actions became more and more rude.He watched that hard-won happy life gradually heading for collapse.He could only watch and could do nothing.

Su Yuan can't tell the difference between reality and dream. He can feel everything that the people in the picture feel, as if it is what he has experienced before.There was a sound of glass shattering in his ear, piercing and sharp, Su Yuan opened his eyes and stared at the really incomparable scene - the thin man picked up the glass that was brushed on the ground by the indifferent man, and stared at it blankly. Looking at the back of the man turning away.That back, only indifference, without any warmth.The confusion in his eyes was so deep, and traces of despair wrapped around his heart.He held the piece of broken glass in his hand and held it so tightly that he didn't even know his hand was cut.

Su Yuan felt his eye sockets warm up, and moist liquid fell down. He touched it with his hand, and his hand was warm.He cried?why?Su Yuan faintly noticed something, but he didn't want to think about it.He just wanted to hold onto the present happiness and be with An Ran.It is useless to escape after all, whether it is Su Yuan in the screen or Su Yuan outside the screen.No one can take away what belongs to him, even if it is what he does not want, it will eventually return to him.

Scenes were unfolding in front of his eyes like a movie, he couldn't avoid it, couldn't avoid it, he could only watch it.Under the light, he saw a man curled up in a ball.The skinny man clutched his stomach tightly, his face was very ugly, his lips were pale, he stretched out his hand to touch the phone, but the next burst of pain made his arm hang down feebly.He opened his eyes and looked at the clock in a daze from night to morning.And the person he loved so much never came back.

The corners of the man's eyes were slightly red, I don't know if it was because of pain or something.His clenched fist suddenly loosened slowly, the expression on his face was very complicated, and finally he sighed silently.Su Yuan heard the words in the man's heart: Let it end like this, An Ran.He stared blankly at An Ran picking up the man in the picture and running to the hospital, the anxiety and fear in his eyes was truly terrifying.He watched the man silently leave that life for more than ten years, and watched him sleepless at night.It's almost over, Su Yuan thought.

The leap of the man on London Bridge ends the picture.I can't love, I can't hate, so I have to choose death cowardly.An Ran, in the next life, we will never see each other again, okay?The man's silent words came into his heart, and his face was devoid of sadness and joy, as if he was recalling something.Su Yuan knew that everything was over.Everything about him and An Ran disappeared like a bubble at the moment when he remembered the memories of his previous life.There is no getting back.

Su Yuan stood quietly in the darkness.He knew that An Ran was no longer the An Ran he used to be, and following his death, he returned to the starting point.Su Yuan felt inexplicably ironic, so ironic that he almost wanted to laugh.But he twitched the corner of his mouth, as stiff as a wooden sculpture.He once loved someone so deeply that he forgot his own nature, and loved to the point of being tolerant of everything.He only forgot that love is a matter between two people.When a person is lost, no matter how hard he tries, it is in vain.

Is it true that those who are deeply loved have nothing to fear?Is the person who loves first destined to be humble?Su Yuan squinted his eyes, feeling empty in his heart.An Ran, why are you doing this?Is it because you regret it, so you want to redeem it?He didn't want to find out the reason any more, the feeling of suffocation was accompanied by the despair of death, he just wanted to close his eyes, sleep in this deep darkness, sleep forever, unwilling to wake up.Heh... Su Yuan fell asleep, and the darkness began to collapse little by little until it disappeared completely.

I really want to... forget everything, so that there will be no pain?

When Su Yuan woke up, he saw An Ran standing beside his bed.He stared blankly at everything that was unfamiliar, and couldn't even remember where it was for a while.He looked at An Ran in confusion, and An Ran panicked, but he heard him ask: "Where is this? Also, who are you?" The strange eyes stung An Ran's heart.He opened his mouth, his voice was extremely difficult: "Su Yuan, I am An Ran, don't you remember?"

Su Yuan shook his head, his blank mind began to recover gradually, but he didn't say anything.So be it.He glanced outside the house, it was already late at night, and he said word by word: "I want to go home." An Ran's face suddenly turned pale, he didn't know why Su Yuan would forget him when he woke up, and he didn't know what to do How to keep him.He could only say in a hoarse voice: "Su Yuan, I am An Ran." Then he looked at Su Yuan with hopeful eyes.

Su Yuan's heart was slightly touched by An Ran's eyes.What a familiar look, it used to belong to his humbleness, but now it belongs to An Ran.Sure enough, the loved one has the right to hurt others?He doesn't want to care about so much right and wrong anymore, he just wants to leave this painful love that should have ended long ago, and lick the wound in a place where only he is alone.Forgetting would be a very good reason to leave Enron.It would be nice if I could forget...

An Ran took a deep look at Su Yuan, tried to calm down, he must keep Su Yuan, no matter what method he used.He said slowly: "Su Yuan, why don't you rest for a few days? This is not the outside world, and you need to apply for going out." Su Yuan had never been to An's family in his previous life, so naturally he didn't know the rules of An's family.Hearing this, he had no choice but to politely say: "Okay, please send me out as soon as possible, Young Master An. I want to go home." He wanted to go home, to go back to his own home, and even though there was no warmth in that place, there was no warmth. Where it hurts, his only foothold.

An Ran watched Su Yuan pack up her things, with a distant smile on her face, and said apologetically, "Young Master An, I'm sorry to disturb you for a few days, I'll go to the guest room to sleep." An Ran wanted to tell the strangers in front of her This is his home, this is where he lives, but he didn't say it after all.He was afraid that after speaking out, Su Yuan would be further away from him.So, An Ran watched Su Yuan leave the master bedroom, and walked to the next door without stopping.

Su Yuan closed the door, and the expression of alienation that had been pretending all along disintegrated and melted away.He could fool An Ran, but he couldn't fool himself.With a self-deprecating smile, Su Yuan pressed his heart, that heart was still beating, like his love for An Ran, never stopped.From the last life to this life, he has always loved that person.When love failed, he couldn't let go, so he cowardly chose to die.Su Yuan knew that he had never been a brave person, only when he was dealing with An Ran, that kind of thing called love made him persevere again and again, even if his head was bleeding.

Despair never destroyed his love for An Ran.But, who said love must be together?His heart was huddled in a corner, and he didn't dare to move, he was afraid that there would be another more terrible despair.Su Yuan thought, maybe this is the so-called can't ask for it.Not daring to ask, not being able to ask, he simply imprisoned himself.Su Yuan hid himself in the quilt and forced himself to sleep.

After Su Yuan fell asleep, An Ran gently walked to his side.Looking greedily at the sleeping face of the person in front of her, An Ran almost wanted to bow her head and kiss her.He can't.Now he is only afraid that if he misses a step, he will end up parting ways with Su Yuan.He didn't dare to take the risk, nor could he take the risk.His eyes were gentle and infatuated, he stared at Su Yuan's face, and finally left.

Su Yuan slowly opened his eyes, looking in the direction Su Yuan left.Not everything can be redeemed. Happiness is clearly in front of him, but he can't reach out.He knows his cowardice, but please forgive his cowardice.No one can really care about the past, except for heartless people.

All his courage was exhausted little by little by An Ran's previous actions, and even the deep-rooted feelings were buried deep in his heart.As he once said, so be it, An Ran.Don't get entangled anymore, please let go.He has never doubted An Ran's love, cuteness cannot represent everything.He tasted the consequences of being obsessed with obsession once, but now he never dares to touch it again.With full of thoughts, Su Yuan really fell asleep.

"An Ran, I want to go home as soon as possible." Su Yuan said, the anxiety in his eyes was so obvious.Everything here makes him feel uneasy. "Su Yuan, try this." An Ran picked up a piece of sweet and sour pork tenderloin and put it in Su Yuan's bowl, her eyes were full of pampering.The topic was easily avoided, and Su Yuan felt depressed while eating the tenderloin.Everything that once made him feel warm, now makes him just want to stay away.What on earth should he do?How can I not get hurt?

An Ran still smiled shallowly, even if she didn't get a response from Su Yuan, it didn't matter.If Su Yuan forgets, he will let him love him again.He wants the person in front of him, no matter what.Su Yuan couldn't see the emotion in An Ran's eyes clearly, so he said "Thank you" softly, but there was no other words.Lunch then hurried past in silence.

Su Yuan picked up a book in the room, and went to the balcony outside to read it.The plot in the book gradually attracted him, which softened the blunt resistance between his brows a lot.An Ran looked at Su Yuan fascinatedly, and stretched out her hand to brush off the fallen leaves on his shoulders, but when he was about to touch it, he subconsciously avoided it.An Ran's expression froze, and even the original warmth turned cold in an instant.

Su Yuan found An Ran, so he stood up and looked at him indifferently, "Young Master An, I'm going back to the house first." For the first time, that back view made An Ran feel so far away.He seemed to be unable to catch Su Yuan.

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