moon illusion

A new life, looking up from disappointment and depression.

That period of time seemed to be fast-forwarded, whether it was the plot or the feelings, they were all compressed to a negligible insignificance.

Qi Fengyao's life has returned to what it was four years ago.

Nothing has changed except that the parents are gone.

I went to university step by step, studied my favorite major, became friends with my favorite people, raised my favorite dog, and lived my favorite life.

The next day when school started, Qi Fengyao woke up very early, packed up and went to school.

As soon as he entered the cafeteria, Qi Fengyao saw Meng Yuan sitting at the dining table, next to him was a soy milk and fried rice that he had ordered for himself.

Meng Yuan raised his head, just in time to see Qi Fengyao walking in.He waved his hand, signaling Qi Fengyao to come over quickly.

Qi Fengyao walked over quickly, and threw his schoolbag on the dining chair beside him.Then he sat beside Meng Yuan with a smile, and unceremoniously reached out to pick up a fried pancake and fed it into his mouth.

"Yeah, it tastes good!" Qi Fengyao turned his head to look at Meng Yuan while eating, "I haven't eaten here for a long time, it's too wasteful!"

Meng Yuan, who was drinking porridge at the side, looked at his companion who was revived by his side, and smiled and agreed, "I can come here often in the future! Drink some soy milk and add sugar for you."

Qi Fengyao nodded, stretched out his hand to bring over the soy milk, and took a big sip.Then he narrowed his eyes and nodded, "You still remember! Sweet soy milk is so delicious..."

After breakfast, the two greeted each other and walked to their respective classrooms to start the first class of the new semester.

Qi Fengyao admired Meng Yuan very much. As a student who was at the bottom of all science subjects in mathematics, he chose neither physical chemistry nor engineering drawing. and Applied Mathematics.

Qi Fengyao asked Meng Yuan before why he chose a major that he was not outstanding in.Meng Yuan replied that it was because he wanted to learn better what he did not do well.

In fact, there is no exact answer to this kind of thing. Everyone has their own reasons for their choices, and when counting them one by one, there are not many people who have the same reasons.

In the second year of junior high school, Qi Fengyao wandered at the intersection of progress and depravity.His precocity and maturity made him stand on the first dividing line of life prematurely.

He fell into a short period of confusion, and he always asked himself why he wanted to study.

At that time, his aunt was in college.He ran to ask his aunt, he didn't know what to do in the future, so why should he study now.

My aunt thought for a long time, and told little Qi Fengyao that there was no need to think so far about this matter.

She asked Qi Fengyao, do you like every subject you are studying now?

Qi Fengyao thought for a while and told her, no, although my grades are not bad, it doesn't mean I like them all.I don't like English, I don't like mathematics, and I don't like things that are extremely rational.

After hearing this answer, my aunt laughed, and she then told Qi Fengyao why he was studying now.

China's education is defined as "examination-oriented education". As the name implies, all teaching is for the examination.

The teacher preaches the subjects according to the scriptures, the students copy them, and finally apply the rigid thinking in answering the questions in the major exams to cope with the exams one after another.

Although such an education system has many disadvantages, it has to be said that it is the most suitable education system for China at present.

But such a system does not apply to universities, because universities are not ordinary schools for the purpose of teaching.

In fact, it is necessary to strictly distinguish the essential meanings of "teaching" and "education".In this way, everyone will find that all school life before the university has teaching as its main goal.

The university is not, the university is education in the true sense, the focus is on "education".

Almost every university teacher will tell freshmen a sentence-the university is not for learning, but for learning ability.

So my aunt told Qi Fengyao that there are not so many restrictions in university, as long as you work hard, you can learn anything you want to learn.Likewise, you don't need to be forced to learn what you don't like.

She asked Qi Fengyao, do you like this way of learning?

Qi Fengyao nodded and looked at his aunt.

That's it.

My aunt said, this is why you study.Not having such lofty future ambitions is not related to your future development, it is just for you to have the right to choose in the future, to learn whatever you want to learn, and you can also give up anything you don't like.

As soon as Yun Zaiye started school, he had an experimental class.

He lay on the experimental bench, staring at the data while sorting out his memories.

He has a bad memory.

It's not the type with a poor memory that can't remember anything, but after distinguishing, he can completely erase the content that he doesn't want to remember from his mind.

The memory capacity of the brain is limited, so Yun Zaiye has very strict management of the content of his memory.

About his 20 years of life, he remembers very few big events.Because the road of life is too flat, the wind is so smooth that there are almost no memory points.

But among those few memories, there are a few things that Yun Zaiye remembers very clearly.

He remembered the day of his quiz, the day of his high school entrance examination, and of course the day of his college entrance examination.

He remembered a girl he liked in the first year of junior high school, the many love letters he had received in high school, and the many girls he had rejected in college.

But he seemed to be a little bit confused, unable to remember the boy who briefly appeared in his life.

It's not that he doesn't want to remember, but that the memory seems unwilling to keep this person, and desperately throws everything related to him out of his mind.

"Jaye, what are you thinking?"

Little Sun came over with the notebook in his arms, raised his hand and tapped on the table.

"It's nothing." Yun Zaiye shook his head and raised his head from his arms, "Do you want me to help?"

Little Sun nodded, and Yun Zaiye got up and followed him to another experimental platform.

The experiment lasted for a long time, and it was not until the afternoon that Yun Zaiye returned to the dormitory.

After simply eating some bread, Yun Zaiye sent a message to his parents to report his safety, and walked into the bathroom with a towel.

Hot water sprayed from the shower, and the bathroom glass was immediately covered with water mist.

The water soaked the hair, then flowed down the back of the neck to the back, and finally fell to the ground, flowing into the sewer pipe along the water.

Yun Zaye leaned his head against the wall, his cervical spine curved in a sexy arc.The shoulders on both sides shrugged frequently, revealing Yun Zaiye's state of mind at this time.

He cried, he hadn't cried like this in a long time.

The last time I was so sad was because I missed a chance to compete because of a high fever.

And this time, the nature was not much worse, but it was because of short-term amnesia that he missed a very important person.

Although the memory was restored, the memory of the two of them getting along only extended from two months to four months.But these short four months were enough to make him unforgettable.

Every time Yun Zaiye thinks about the four months of getting along, he will feel more self-blame and sad.

But he thought about it again, this is only four months of passion, how can it be worth Qi Fengyao's four years of affection.

So every time he thought about it, he would feel even more sad.

I always feel that I have failed and owed myself.

He remembered that the day before he left, at the booth of Find, Mo Xun asked him if he was really sure that Qi Fengyao really loved him.

He was completely puzzled, so he asked Mo Xun why he asked this question.

Mo Xun told him that waiting for others is addictive.Because if you wait and wait, you will find that if you don't wait, you don't give up the other party, but you betray yourself.

I don't know how long it took before Yun Zaye tidied himself up, wrapped himself in a bathrobe and walked out of the bathroom.

Just now, he made a decision.

He decides to forget about Qi Fengyao, so it is not considered as giving up, nor can he mention betrayal.

Forgetting each other is the best ending of this relationship.

For the rest of the time, he will put all his energy on his studies and employment. After all, besides love, there must be other pursuits in life, right?

He had lost Qi Fengyao, so he couldn't hand over his remaining wealth to others one by one.

He still has friends to maintain, and parents to take care of. If necessary, he must be ready to take over his father's company.

Thinking about it this way, in the long road of life, love really seems to be nothing.

All the things lost with reluctance in life will eventually return to your life in another way.

What Yun Zaiye didn't know was that in another distant country, Qi Fengyao had just made a decision to open the bow and never turn back.

I don't know if it should be said that Mo Xun really knows him too well, but Mo Xun's words really became a prophecy.

Qi Fengyao came home after school and sat at the desk correcting homework.As he wrote, his eyes focused on the password box under the table.

After looking at it for a long time, he got up and pulled the box out.

The password to open the box is Yun Jae Ye's birthday.

This kind of thing is actually very torturous.A person has left, but your life is still connected with him everywhere.Your bank card password is his, your mobile phone lock screen is his, your computer desktop is his...he is everywhere.

So even if this person leaves, you can't forget him.Because every time you enter the password or turn on the phone, you are changing the way to miss that person.

Qi Fengyao understood all these reasons, but he still did it.He took the photo cut from the newspaper, folded it to size, and put it in the clear layer of the wallet.

He understood, so Mo Xun also understood.

He can't forget, and it's hard to betray himself.So the best choice is to continue living in an ordinary life and wait for him to come back.