moon illusion

Qi Fengyao was in a daze, and didn't realize Mo Xun's meaning for a moment.After a while, he raised his head and asked, "What about me and you...you didn't tell him?"

Mo Xun showed a smile, walked out of the bar and led Qi Fengyao to the seat inside.

"Why should I tell him those things? I know how long you've been waiting for him, why say those worthless things?"

"Then... did he say anything?"

"Is there any smoke?" Mo Xun asked back, "Now I always feel that there is no way to tell a story without smoke."

Qi Fengyao took out the cigarette case and handed it along with the lighter.

"Thank you." Mo Xun lit a cigarette, took a deep breath and looked at Qi Fengyao, "Actually, I didn't say anything, I just recounted... your four-year secret love."

"He knows we met before? Does he remember me?"

"I don't know if I remember you or not, but you knew this before, not from me. He said that it was his mother who first said that he had seen you before..."

"That's it." Qi Fengyao drank his saliva and lowered his head silently.

After a long time, he asked again, "Does he not want to remember me..."

I don't know if I'm asking Mo Xun, or asking myself.

"I don't think so." Mo Xun raised his eyebrows and looked at Qi Fengyao, "In my opinion, he loves you very much, at least... I think he regretted forgetting you very much. responsibility."

"Is it just that?"

"Later, I don't know what he thought of, but he felt that his attitude changed, as if, yes... a little disgusted." After speaking, Mo Xun's voice slowly dropped.

disgusted?

So for the first time, push yourself away eh?

So keep silent and leave without saying goodbye, right?

Yun Zaiye, you are really ruthless.

Qi Fengyao left the bar and returned to his home.

Sitting on the sofa in the living room, Qi Fengyao was silent for a long time.As if suddenly realizing something, he suddenly rolled up the sleeve of his left arm, took off the watch, and held it in his hand for a long time, until his fingertips turned white, then he slightly loosened it and put the watch on on the desktop.

Remembering that he would have class tomorrow, Qi Fengyao stood up and walked into the study, ready to tidy up his things.

While stuffing textbooks into the schoolbag, a diary suddenly fell out of it, and the newspaper sandwiched in it also floated out of it lightly, and slid not far on the ground.

Qi Fengyao took a few steps closer, and picked up the newspaper. On it was the same smiling face, full of vigor and a little green, holding a certificate and a trophy, looking at the camera with a smile on his face.

Four years ago, I was looking at this photo, and since then I have embarked on a road full of thorns.

Picking up the diary, Qi Fengyao went back to the desk and flipped through it under the desk lamp.The diary stopped on July [-]th, the day before my parents left.

"If there is still a chance, I would like to come here with you to have a look."

"I hope to share all the beauty with you and experience it with you"

"I have to get better before I can see you..."

Yun Zaiye, if I knew that everything would become as unsightly as it is today, then I definitely would not have chosen to come to see you.I would rather keep watching you silently, watching you in the dark, and I would rather not come out to see you, know you and own you.

After all, I exchanged the opportunity to study abroad, a wonderful trip, my four years of youth, and the lives of my parents in exchange for this opportunity to meet you.

But now, I regret it.It cost too much to meet you.

Now that I have nothing, how dare I have the extravagant hope that I can have your whole life?

As Valentin said--contempt is exchanged for distressed sex, how many sighs of heartache are exchanged for glances, and a moment of joy is the price of twenty nights of tossing and turning without sleep.Even if it succeeds, it will not be worth the loss. If it fails, it will be a waste of hard work.Love buries people's intelligence and makes people stupid.

I was puzzled when I read it at first, but now I am a true portrayal of this sentence.

What else to do now?

Anyway, everything I owned is lost, anyway, I have returned to the state of having nothing, anyway... There is nothing to lose.

It's not so much out of control, it's better to say that it has never dominated anything.How terrible it is to be confused, it is probably what it is now.

Struggling in the status quo, don't know where to go, longing for someone to reach out, but also spurning my own incompetence, muster up the courage for 3 minutes, and can vent it in [-] seconds, lie down and let go in silence at this moment, tomorrow will still be bullshit Laughing skinny.

Qi Fengyao closed the notebook, and then took out a small box with a lock from under the table.

When I opened it, there were only two photos in the huge box.One is a graduation photo from high school, and the other is a family photo with burnt marks on the edges.

It was his parents who passed away. When he decided to move, he hesitated and snatched the only photo of his parents from the brazier.

Inside this box are all those bad memories that he doesn't want to face.

Logically speaking, nothing related to Yun Zaiye would be put in this box.

But now, the notebook written for Yun Zaiye was put in, the watch that Yun Zaiye gave him was put in, the earring that was exactly the same as Yun Zaye was put in, and Yun Zaiye left it with him The scarf and the newspaper with its frayed edges were put in together.

Then with a "bang", he was locked in this box, and together with his unwillingness to speak, he was sealed into the bottomless darkness.

Yun Zaiye, I really want to say goodbye.

As soon as Yun Zaiye's flight landed, Yun Zaiye immediately bought the train ticket back to school, and rushed back to school without stopping.

As soon as he rushed to the dormitory building, he bumped into a figure.

Yun Zaiye raised his head, and happened to meet the eyes of the visitor.

The next second, Little Sun's voice sounded in the corridor.

"Hey, Jae Ye, you're back!"

Yun Zaiye smiled, exchanged a few pleasantries, and hurried back to the room.

One second before closing the door, Yun Zaiye suddenly realized something, and hurriedly poked his head out to stop Little Sun who was about to enter the elevator.

"When you first came to my dormitory to give me something, who asked you to come?"

"Mark! Why are you asking this all of a sudden?"

"Why did he ask you to come and give me something?"

"He said that you just came here, and everything is not ready!"

"Then...why do I live in a double room alone?"

"...Is it weird? I also live in a double room alone!"

Looking at the gradually deepening confusion on Little Sun's face, Yun Zaiye could basically confirm that this person didn't know what happened at that time.

From this point of view, the school's secrecy work is very good, and there should be very few people who know about it.

Yun Zaiye was relieved a little, and after finding an excuse to send Little Sun away, Yun Zaiye dug out the contact person who had been silent for a long time from his phone——Lin Xian.

Yun Zaiye sent a message, and received a reply from Lin Xian after a while.

"What's the problem? What can I do to help you?"

Yun Zaiye didn't think about it, and immediately replied: I remembered.

The message over there didn't come back immediately, Yun Zaiye was a little anxious and kept refreshing the interface.

After a while, I waited for the reply over there.

"What made you remember? Are all memories fully restored?"

After Yun Zaiye roughly told the ins and outs of the future, he told Lin Xian truthfully that the memory recovery was not complete, and most of the memories showed fragmented plots.

"Then you are looking for me, do you need me to hypnotize you again?"

Not long after the message was sent, Dr. Lin received a reply from Yun Zaiye: Thank you, I don't need hypnosis for now, I want to see my consultation record.

As an excellent psychological counselor, Lin Xian didn't ask more questions or dissuade him. After a while, he sorted out Yun Zaiye's consultation records and sent them over.

With the help of this less detailed consultation record, Yun Zaiye put together all the scattered fragments in his mind one by one, and restored the complete story line.

After thanking him, Yun Zaiye locked himself in the room for a whole night, until the next morning, Yun Zaiye couldn't figure out what he was going to do.

Now that the contact information has been deleted, and I can't tell Qi Fengyao about this matter calmly, then I just bury it in my heart and make a clean break.

Just pretend that I have never encountered that beauty, in this case, it seems that this unbearable situation is not so unacceptable.

After tidying things up, Qi Fengyao turned on the phone and opened Meng Yuan's dialogue box.

Qi Fengyao: Tomorrow at 07:30, wait for me at the old place in the cafeteria?

After sending the message, Qi Fengyao threw the phone into the quilt, got up and walked into the bathroom.

Not long after he entered, the phone's screen lit up.

Prompt an unread message from Meng Yuan.

"Okay, help you order soy milk and fried rice, see you there!"

In fact, the length of life is not directly proportional to the experience, so in Qi Fengyao's relatively short life, he already has experience that does not match those years.

The occurrence and ending of every event, every meeting and departure of everyone, all show Qi Fengyao a very magical story.

A person's life is very much like a school, you can't lock everyone in this small piece of land, so someone who enters will graduate.

The same is true of life, in its limited energy and time, the number of people who can meet is fixed, and the number of people who can stay is also fixed.

So in your life and mine, when someone appears, someone is bound to leave.When you have someone, you are bound to lose something too.

Such as his parents, aunt, Meng Yuan, Yun Zaiye, Xu Nuo, Mo Xun...and his former self.